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A JOURNEY REJOURNEYED.
MY name is
Jane. At least that is what I choose to call myself. I want to
tell anybody who will listen, what a friend of our family, James Bayley—that is what I choose to call him—told us. I think
people will care for it, because it made my sister Lizzie sleep
all night with a smile on the face which constant pain makes so
white.
There is something very wonderful about James Bayley. Some
ancestor of his must have been a magician or necromancer, or
something of that sort; for with a few words, flung out anyhow,
nothing grand in them, he can make you see such things! Oh! I
can never tell them so that you will see them as I saw them;
yet I must try. And I know that Lizzie saw them yet more
beautiful than I did; for as often as I glanced at her while
James was speaking, I saw her face yet more beautiful than the
visions his words were raising in my mind. I saw those visions
as it were glorified in her countenance. What a pity it is that
his words must be withered and shrunk like fallen leaves, by
being blown and tossed about in my mind!
But I must explain a little further.
We are a poor family. Even in these
days of running to and fro, we cannot manage to leave home, at
least not often, and never to a greater
distance than Hastings. Brighton none of us like. It seems all
made of hard sunlight. But what a shame it is to abuse Brighton,
instead of going on to tell you about James Bayley! First,
however, I have not quite finished about ourselves. My father
was a doctor. I don't think there ever was such a man as my
father. Only James Bayley is very like him—in mind and
character, I mean. Well, my father died young. So he could not
leave much money for us. And yet we were very anxious, both for
my mother's sake and for dear Lizzie's, not to leave the old
house. So my sister Maria and I go out and give lessons. It is
hard work, to be sure; but then think what it is to be able to
come home to our own house, and our own mother, and our own
Lizzie! When I am tramping through the wet in a day like this,
with goloshes and an umbrella, thinking of the dreary two hours
I shall have to spend with the Miss Drontheims—not dreary
because I have to teach, but dreary because I have to teach
them—I say to myself, "This is one of my dreams, in which I go
tramping and teaching; but I shall wake in my own home with the
tea-kettle singing on the hob, and the firelight playing on the
curtains of Lizzie's bed. "Think of that, Jane," I say to myself,
"and do your work as well as ever you can, that you may wake
with a good conscience."
I wonder now if this is how people make books, wandering this
way and that way, instead of going right on to the thing they
want to say. Perhaps, if they went straight, however, they would
reach the end before they had made the book, and that wouldn't
do. But for me, who am only writing a short—short—essay?
paper? article?—article, that's it—indefinite article, that's
better—in the hope that some kind editor may think it not quite
bad enough for his waste-paper-basket, it is really too bad to
go on in this way.
James Bayley is a clerk in a bank. His father and mine were
great friends. I am afraid there are not many clerks like James. Do you know he actually
reads books? Now I try to read books;
but I know very few people who really do read them. I hardly
know whether I do or not. I am sure he does.
James is no richer than we are; and he too has been very little
from home. But this summer, an old maiden aunt left him thirty
pounds in her will—to go, as she said, into mourning for her. But James said he thought it better to go into gladness for her; and so, when he got his holiday, he went to Switzerland, and
thanked God on the top of the Sneezer—I think that is what he
called it—that he had come of honest people, and that his aunt
had been kind enough to make him a present of the Bernese Alps,
which he would keep in memory of her to all eternity. "Rather
better than a suit of black and a mourning ring, isn't it, dear
old auntie?" he said.
And the very first night after he came home, as soon as he had
had his dinner, he came on to see us. And didn't Lizzie's face
brighten up when he came into the room? Indeed, she raised
herself higher against her pillows than she had done for the
last five years. For mamma, who was in the dining-room, had
received him, and said that we were just going to have tea in
poor Lizzie's room, and would he mind coming up there, for it
would be like a breath of wind to the poor invalid to see such a
far-travelled man as James? As if James hadn't been in Lizzie's
room a hundred times before! Of course nothing could please him
better, and so up he came. And, as I said, she was glad to see
him, and we had tea by the fire, and, as a special privilege,
because he was a stranger, James was permitted to wait upon
Lizzie.
When Sarah had taken the tea-things away, and mamma was seated
in the easy chair with her knitting, and the fire had been made
up, and Lizzie's pillows had been arranged, and her big eyes
were looking out upon the circle by the fire—a splendid peach
that James had brought her lying on a plate before her—a silence
fell over the whole assembly. And the wind, which was an autumn
wind, the richest of all the winds, because there are memories
in it of the odour-laden winds of the summer nights, and
anticipations of the howling blasts of winter, conscious of evil
destiny—the wind, I say—the autumn wind—just rose once and shook
the windows of the room, as if it would gladly have come in to
make one of our number, only it could not, doomed to the
darkness without; and so died away with the moan of a hound.
And then the fire flashed up as if glorying over the wind that
it was of the party; and its light shone in the great old mirror
at the back of the room, and in mamma's spectacles, and in
Lizzie's eyes, and in a great silver watch-key, an inch and a
half square, which James had brought from Thun with him, with a
cow and a bell on one side, and a man and a pot on the other.
"Now, James, tell us all about it," said Lizzie, so cheerily
that you would hardly have believed anything was the matter with
her.
"All about what, Lizzie?" returned James, with his own smile,
which has more behind it than any other smile I know.
"Why, about Switzerland, of course."
"How am I to do that, Lizzle, when I was there only ten days?"
"You were away three whole weeks."
"Yes; but it takes time to go, and time to come back. For
Switzerland isn't behind Hampstead Heath, exactly. It takes a
great deal of travelling to reach it."
"Then you must tell us all you can, James,"
said I.
"Do take me up an Alp," said Lizzie. "I am so tired of lying
here all day. I climb Alps sometimes at night; but I want to go
up one awake, with a hold of you, James."
"Well, Lizzie, I don't pretend to know anything about
Switzerland but I think I have a little notion of an Alp. I used
to think I knew what a mountain was; but I didn't. And now I
doubt if I can give you any idea of the creature, for it is one
thing to know or feel, and quite another to be able to make your
friend know or feel as you do."
"We will all try hard, James.—Won't we?" I said.
"I have no distrust of my audience," he returned; "but my visit
to Switzerland convinced me of three things—all negatives. First, of the incapacity of the memory to retain the impressions
made upon it. The wonder of the sight seemed to destroy the
stuff upon which it was figured, as an overheated brand might
burn its own mark out. Second, for I can give you these
conclusions as pat and as dull as a sermon—my visit convinced me
of the futility of words to describe what I saw; and, third, of
the poverty of photography in recording such visions. I did not
bring a single photograph home with me. To show one to any of
you would be like sending my mother that photograph of
golden-haired Jane (I must write what he said) without one
glimmer of the gold, without one flash of the smile—all smoke
and shadow—an unvarying petrifaction. I hate the photographs. They convey no idea but of extreme outline. The tints, and the
lines, and the mass, and the shadows, and the streams, and the
vapours, and the mingling, and the infinitude, and the
loftiness, and the glaciers, and the slow-crawling avalanches
cannot be represented. Even my mind retains only a general
impression. I forgot what had delighted me yesterday."
"Isn't it like a book, to hear him talk?" said Maria.
To which I answered: "That depends on what book you mean,
Maria."
I saw I had hurt her, and was sorry directly; but I could not
interrupt James to tell her so. I therefore gave her a look that
was known between us, and all was right, and I was able to go on
enjoying.
"Tell us how you saw the Alps first then, James, and what they
looked like," I said.
"The very moment when I first saw them is burnt out and gone. But the first succession of sights I remember well. I had tried
to get a view of them from a great distance across the plain
from Schaffhausen, climbing a little hill that lies on the left
bank of the river above the falls;―"
"Do tell us about the falls," said Maria.
"Please don't drag me off the road to places I don't want to
go to. That's the way to put all our party out of temper. The
falls are beautiful, in spite of cockney innkeepers and Bengal
lights; but I am off for the Alps, and all the cataracts in the
world shall not keep me. You will come with me, won't you,
Lizzie?"
"Yes, that I will, James," said the sweet pale-face.
We all begged to be allowed to go too, and promised not to
interrupt him again, even to pluck an Alpine rose.
"Come up this steep path then, between a fence and a vineyard. You hear behind you the roar of the falling Rhine; but let it
roar. We climb and come into a thicket of small firs, and
through that to an open heathy spot, with a plain stretching
far away just in front of us. The day is tolerably clear, but it
is a chance if we can see the Alps. Sit down on the dry grass. It is dry enough even for Lizzie. A little this way, and you
will clear that group of trees. Now think of what you love best,
for perhaps you are going to see mountains. Look away to the
farthest-opened horizon, through many gradations of
faint-shadowy blue. Yes, there are hills, yea, mountains enough—swells, and heaps, and humps, and mounds, and cupolas, all in
grey and blue; you can count I don't know how many
distances—five perhaps, one rising over the other, scattering
forward out of the infinite like the ranks of an
ill-disciplined army of giants. But you see no cones or peaks,
and no white-crowned elect, and you are disappointed. The fact
is, you do not see The Alps at all. You see but some of the
steps of the vast stair leading up to their solitary thrones,
where they sit judging the tribes of men that go creeping about
below them after the eating, and the drinking, and the clothing
and never lift up their heads into the solitary air to be alone
with Him with whom solitude and union are one.—I forgot myself,"
said James, after a pause. "I beg your pardon."
"Oh do talk like that, James," said Lizzie. "I can't say I quite
understand you, but I feel that I shall understand you when I
have had a little time."
Now, though I am not half so good as Lizzie, I think I could
understand James. And if I could not, how could I have
remembered what he said so as to tell it as I do now? But then
I think I know more about James than Lizzie, or Maria, or even
mamma does; for I have poetry of James's. And when I read it
first, I could make nothing of it; and when I read it again,
glimmerings came out of it; and when I read it again, there
were only some dark spots left here and there in it; and when I
read it the fourth time, I understood it perfectly; and when I
read it the fifth time, I began to be afraid that I knew
nothing at all about it.
"Thank you, Lizzie," said James.—"Well, I will let it come
when it does come, though I don't want to talk in that excited
way even about the Alps. It is just like the sixpenny books of
the words at the Popular Concerts at St. James's Hall.—Well, you
don't see the father and mother Alps; you only see the little
ones about their feet; and we must set off at once for Berne—by
the railway. And this is rather a trial to us. We don't like to
be under obligation to such an obtrusive snake, without a
particle of conscience or even reverence in its hydra-head. Its
directors are just like the toads and frogs of Egypt that
wouldn't even keep out of the king's chamber. Indifferent to its
own ugliness, instead of creeping away like an honest snake in
quiet places, and coming into notice only when there is no help
for it, it insists on sharing the sun with any river; yea, even
on crossing the Rhine close above the torture of its terrible
fall. It has a right to be somewhere, but not there. If they lay
in its way, and it didn't cost too much, it would go right
through Strasburg and Cologne Cathedrals; hissing its vile
soul out in the chancel, that the passengers might have a peep
at the queer fancies of our stupid forefathers, who could care
to build such places, and never found out the use of steam and
iron rails. Nature, however, will soon cast the folds of her
living garment over the unsightliness of its bare mechanism,
weaving it kindly up with the many threads flowing from the
tireless shuttle of her creation; till at last, it may be, the
railroad will
offend, except where they have actually stabled its monsters in
the very shrines of antiquity. Talk of desecration! A troop of
horses pawing the tesselated pavement of a chapter-house,
beneath the spreading fountain of its arches of palm-boughs in
stone, is a small offence compared to the filthy breath of the
engine, as it hisses and screams in the very banqueting-hall of
the ancient ruin, which centuries of death could not make a
thousandth part so sacred in the eyes of the railway-director as
the broad expanse of his own shirt-front, beneath which
lies—what? Surely the furniture of his thorax cannot really
have sunk through the floor into the story below!"
Now this was a dreadful digression on James's part; and
although we laughed at his indignation with the
railway-directors, we could not help thinking he might as well
have told us about Schaffhausen as run a-tilt against steam-engines. But
we dared not make a single remark lest he should stop like an
offended llama, and lie down on the wayside beneath the burden
of his untold tale.
"On swept the 'fire-mouthed dragon, horrible and bright,' of
which surely Spenser had a vision when he wrote thus; and I
blessed the blatant brute in my heart, for it bore me towards
those regions of desire which, but for it, I could never have
hoped to reach. And suddenly the hills upon the horizon parted
as we swept along; and past the gap, in the distance, slowly
sailed, like a spectral fleet of ghastly worlds, the hoary backs
and heads of the Alpine orearchs. Then in glided the nearer
hills, and hid them from my eyes—which straightway scarce
believed for very gladness. The moment they vanished, it seemed
as if some awful reason concealed them; as if they sat pondering
terrible mysteries in their secret place. Again a revealing gap
in the nearer mountains; and again the silent terrors flitted
slowly by. They were so white, Lizzie! so dreadful! yet so
beautiful! Again and again they appeared and vanished, for we
seemed to be running alongside of them at a distance away. And
when the range of heights which concealed them from us drew nearer,
and opened at no great distance from our course, then
they would rush across the breach in wild haste and white
dead-like beauty—great heaps with one or two peaked tops;
though mighty with years and
growth, yet spectral and savage. They seized upon me utterly. Though not quite like what I had expected, they were much beyond
it. Their vastness, more than their hoped-for height, took
possession of me. I wonder if mountains strike other people as
they do me. I generally see them like strange animals, lying
down—almost always couching—with more or less vague remindings
of creatures of the known world. Ben Nevis, for instance, seen
from the south, always looks to me like a winged elephant; and
one of the hills of Morven, away in the west, like a
grey-fleeced ram with curled horns, marching eternally forward
into space. And now, looking towards the Alps, I saw them like
a flock of awful white sheep, lying there under the guardianship
of some mighty Titan shepherd—sheep and yet not sheep; warlike and sombrely fierce creatures—perhaps the dogs of the
great angels
that guard the coasts of our world from the inroads of the
fiends. If one of those creatures were but to rise and shake
itself! Ah! the stillness of power that lay about their rooted
persistency, as they faced the gulf of nothingness, looking
abroad, and daring the blank space with existence! For it seems
to me, almost always, that the backs of the beasts are towards
me, and that their terribly quiet faces are looking out into the
unknown.—Do you know, Lizzie, I think I understand what gave rise
to the grand old fable of the Giants? The Greeks saw human
shapes everywhere—as all true poets do. And it is not always the
form of an animal that I see shadowed in a mountain, but
sometimes the form of a buried man, struggling and straining to
rise from beneath the superincumbent mass, which has fallen into
some shadowy, almost obliterated correspondence to the huge form
which it covers. In one mountain especially, in the west of
Scotland, I see the shoulders of a giant heaving away from his
neck and down-bent head the weary weight of centuries. I could
almost fancy I saw the outline of the knotted muscles
approaching the surface in the agonizing effort to rise. But, as
I said, I felt, when I saw the Alps, that I had never seen a
mountain before, had never known, in fact, what a mountain was. And all the shapes of men and creatures vanished when I came
near, and there was nothing there but their own selves, like
nothing but what they are―the children of the great earth,
thrust forth from her molten heart of fire into the everlasting
cold.
"As I journeyed on I fell fast asleep, for I had slept little
since leaving London, and although I heard them around me
talking about the Alps, I could not rouse myself to the effort
of looking. And so we drew gradually nearer to them. And as my
senses returned, I began to regret that I had not conquered
sleep and watched the mountains; and I feared that the
opportunity was now over. I managed, then, to rouse myself a
little and look out of the window. And, between the waves of
sleep, I saw a mighty wonder lifted up from the earth, a
mountain indeed with snowy head, barred across beneath it with
grey dashes of cloud—a child of earth, dwelling in heaven. I was
so deeply satisfied that I again fell fast asleep; and that
vision shines on with the glory of a dream, for it is 'rounded
with a sleep.' "
"Perhaps it was a sleep," Lizzie ventured to say, "and your own
soul was making a mountain for itself. I wish I could tell, as
you can, the
things I see in my sleep. Do you know, I think I have dreams
given me at
night just because I cannot go out and see things."
"That I don't doubt, Lizzie. But I am satisfied that vision of
mine was a dream, although it came in the midst of sleep, and
its edges were
shaded off into it. But as I can give you no idea of the delight it
woke in me, the question becomes of no importance.
"I wish, most heartily do I wish, that there were in Switzerland
some quiet roadside-inns as in Wales, for instance, where you
might be served with humanity—with that, over and above
corporeal needs, which cannot be paid for, and can only be
acknowledged by gratitude. The hotels where the one part of the
business which I detested. And then the charges were so high
that they left no margin for a poor man like me to be generous. But when I say that I hate the hotels, it is chiefly from a
sense of personal discomfort, and not from any dislike to
meeting my countrymen,
however unlike the mountains they may look. It is a
comical reflection, that a large proportion of the English
visitors at any great summer haunt, are looking upon each other
as intruders—as destructive
of the solitude or ruralness of the place; each considering
himself only a privileged individual, who may tread the courts
of Nature without bringing defilement by his presence, and
leaving it behind in his traces. At least many talk like this
when they come home. It seems to me the very essence of
snobbery. No doubt one must meet people everywhere that seem out
of their proper place; but for one to glorify himself upon such
an election as admits him to it tête-à-tête with Nature and
excludes others, seems to me second in enormity only to the same
principle of self-glorification operating in religion. Let him
laugh at the cockneys if he will, only let him be kind-hearted;
let him avoid their society if he pleases, for much of it may
not be desirable; but let him acknowledge the equality of their
right in Nature; and when he is thrown into their company, let
him behave, not like the gentleman he considers himself to be,
but like the gentleman he ought to be. Is there not plenty of
room upon those wastes for him and for them? Love will provide
a solitude in the crowd; and dislike will fill the desert
itself with unpleasant forms. Nature cannot be wronged by the
presence of any of her children, even if they have been ill-bred
and ill-taught in the fostering city. Greet then thy brother
kindly when he crosses thy path, whether he be fine-toned critic
who gently condescends to the exoteric, of Nature, or thy big,
blustering, ignorant brother, who regards all he has seen only
as matter of boastful comparison with what another has or has
not seen. Try to convey the impression of some mighty existence
you have beheld; find that you have made a mistake by the 'Oh!
but you should have seen so-and-so, as I did, on such-and-such
an occasion;' and keep not only your inward temper, but your
more inward kindness, and to you the Alps will be the stair up
to the throne of God. But the man who loves not his brother may
crest their highest peaks, may stand on the uttermost stone, like the living plume of the giant's helmet, and yet
never be there. All that is there will be but the phantom, the
simulacrum of himself—bones, and muscles, and entrails. He
himself shall not have ascended the lowest step leading to the
porch of the temple; while the poor cockney who has no words in
which to express himself, save those of the counter or the
Derby, but is free from contempt of his neighbour, may
unconsciously receive some of the
essential teaching of these parables in rocks—these sermons in
stone. Who can tell what these visions may effect
in the process of his redemption into the upper air? At least I
for one will hope for him. And I will not believe that these
savage solitudes are less terrible or wild because here and
there about their feet, and over their rocky necks, creep and
climb human beings whom other human beings will not admit as of
their kind, because they are not ladies and gentlemen; these
others being in their turn despised by the self-conscious youth
and maiden of ecstatic sensibility, because they can neither
preserve a poetic silence, nor utter new commonplaces about the
nature before them. Would it not be better to rejoice in the
knowledge that these too have escaped for a time from less
elevating thoughts, and more sordid cares; for it is not the
interest in to-day's dinner so much as the anxiety about
to-morrow's that oppresses and degrades the man? The world is
made up of all kinds, and why should not all kinds flock to
Switzerland if they please? It will not hurt them, and they
cannot hurt it. If Shakspere had been fastidious as he was
refined, where should we, where would he be now? Despise a man,
and you become of the kind you would make him; love him, and
you lift him into yours."
Now James's talk was more like talk than this; but this is as
near as can give it. And it seems to me worth giving, although
another may think differently.
Here, however, he stopped again, and looked vexed with himself
that he had been preaching instead of narrating. But presently
he recovered his self-possession, and went on.
"It had always been one of the longings of my heart," he said, "to be in the midst of the mountains, shut in with protection,
and beholding, far above my head, the lonely, sky-invading
peaks. Now here I was at last, going up a valley towards the
heart of the Bernese giants. It was a narrow valley, whose steep
sides were crowded with those up-reaching, slender, graceful
pines, the one striking its roots at the level of its
neighbour's topmost boughs, to a height casting discredit on the
testimony of the poor sense. The valley wound about, like the
stream in its bottom; and at one of the turns, it was closed in
(to the eye, I mean) by a huge shoulder of rock. And what is
that shining thing which lies spread out on the rock, just like
the skin of an animal stretched out to dry—grey, and green, and
white? There are the four legs and the tail, a grisly sight,
notwithstanding the homely suggestion of the drawing-room-rug of
people with friends in tiger-breeding India! That is a glacier,
no doubt! And a cold breath sweeping down the valley, as if
from across its expanse of distance-shrunken miles, confirms my
suspicion of the region 'where all life dies and death lives.'
"Soon I was housed in one of those centres of
the 'fortuitous
concourse of human atoms', called a hotel; which I hate, I think,
nearly as much as any poetic exquisite in existence. But had I
not sufficient compensation, when going down from my bedroom,
whose window afforded little view, I peeped from one of those in
the public room, and, out in the dimly moonlit night, saw a
faintly shimmering ghostly peak far up in the air at distance
undefined, haunting the valley, haunting the house—haunting my
heart, never henceforth to let it go free from its lovely
terrible presence? I had been looking at that same mountain an
hour or two before, when the mists on the sides of the valley
shone lurid in the sunset. No red touched its cold peaks: it
looked on, hard and unresponsive; dead with whiteness, and hard
with black rocks. But in the moonlight it glimmered out gentle
as the ghost of a maiden.
"It was, however, when I climbed the opposing hill, on the back
of an animal called a horse, but made very like a giraffe, that
I felt the first full impression of what a mountain is. For
across the valley rose a vast upheaved desert, a wilderness of
mountain heaps, ranges, slopes, and peaks, of which the nearest
outwork, forming the side of the valley up whose corresponding
side I was ascending, was precipice that filled me with horror. This horror was
not fear exactly, for I could not fall down that precipice
whatever other I might fail
to escape. But its stony wall, starting from such a height, and
sinking plumb-down out of sight in the narrow valley, the bottom
of which I could not see,
fronted me like the stare of a nameless dismay. I strove against
it, and not
without success, although the overpowering wonder of that which
rose above this wall was not strengthening to the nerves or
soothing to the imagination. I knew, even while I gazed upon it,
that I should not remember what I saw or felt, or be able to
describe it. It was such a chaotic loveliness and awfulness
intermingled in savage harmony!―a changeful vision of
glaciers, of shifting clouds, of rocks, of falling streams, of
snow, of waste wild peaks, of stretches of all kinds of mass,
and shape, and surface, mingling in all degrees of height and
shadow. And this they said was the foot of the Jungfrau! Down
below, in the valley we had left, lay fields of bright green,
looking as smooth as a shaven lawn, dotted all over with little
brown, wooden, toylike houses, the shelter of the goats in
winter, to which were visible no paths to destroy the perfect
green smoothness. These fields (or indeed lawns would be the
nearer word) sloped up, with more or less inclination, to the
foot of precipices of rock, on the top of which came other green
lawns, dotted in like manner with little wooden houses of a rich
brown, and sloping also to other precipices rising above them in
turn. But the fields grew more rugged and bare upon the
ascending terraces, and great lumps of stone came sticking
through them, until at last rose the naked mountain, 'horrid all with' rock, over which wandered the feeble clouds. And down into the midst of the rocks came the tongues, and
jags, and roots of the snow and ice, which higher and higher
drew closer
and closer together, till the peaks were one smooth, sunshiny
whiteness, except where precipices, on which no snow could lie,
rose black in the midst, seeming to retire, like dark hollows,
from the self-assertion of the infinite glitter, while the
projecting rocks looked like holes in the snow. And here
and there, over the mountain lay the glaciers, looking lovelily
uneven: fretted, purfled, and wrinkled, like a wrought
architectural surface; mostly white, but mottled with touches
of colour, which seemed to me mostly green, though at times I
could not say that it was not blue; in either case a colour most
delicate and delectable to behold.
"Here I put up at a little wooden inn, the only inn I remember
with some satisfaction. It was so strange! You would have felt
just like wooden dolls in a wooden dolls'-house. My bedchamber
reminded me of Gulliver's box in which he was carried about by
his nurse, Glumdalclitch, in Brobdingnag. It was just a box with
a bed in it—nothing but smooth boards to be seen about you. And
here, almost six thousand feet above the sea, potatoes were
growing under the windows, and grass was everywhere—a sea of
green about the village, whose wooden houses were browned and
scorched, and had the ends of their logs furrowed into
wrinkles—dividing their annual rings, by the rain and the sun. For all about they were protected by far loftier peaks and walls; so that a height which in Wales or Scotland would have been a
bare rock, was here a food-bearing country, trodden by man and
beast, and haunted by lovely butterflies. Indeed, the village is
nearly as high as the top of half a Snowdon set on a whole one. And across the gulf at your feet stands the White Maiden, now
hidden in thousandfold mist, now dawning out of the cloud. How
the purposeless mists do go wandering about, now withdrawing a
little, now gathering again, creeping in all shapes over the
faces of the hills, and then swallowing all up as if there could
be nothing there!
"I wandered about here for a day or two, haunting the borders
of the terrible gulf in whose unseen depth lay the pleasant
fields of the lower valley down into which, at night, I had met
the deer-like goats trooping with their multitudinous patter of
feet, branching of horns, and ringing of bells. But out
of this lovely depth below would suddenly sweep up a mass of
vapour, as if all beneath had been a caldron set upon an awful
fire, and not the green pleasant places of the earth. It would
drift about in the valley as in a trough, and then all at once
steaming up, swathe and obliterate, in a few moments, the whole
universe of heights and hollows, snows and precipices—everything
but a yard or two of the earth around me. I would know that all
that land of enchantment and fear lay there, but could see
nothing, although through the mist might come the prolonged roll
of the avalanche falling, far off, down the slopes and steeps of
the Jungfrau. This might happen twenty times in a day. Then the
mist would suddenly part a little, high towards the heavens
perhaps, and you would see a solitary glitter, whiter than the
mist—the peak of a dweller in the sky. And the mist would range,
and change, and darken, and clear, a perfect embodiment of
lovely lawlessness, revealing such dazzling wastes of whiteness,
here more dazzling, and there melting into the cloud, so that
you could not part cloud and snow! In another place, where the
snow had fallen along the ribs of a precipice in furrows
converging from the top, you would seem to look upon the fierce
explosion of a snow-mine, radiating from a centre of blinding
whiteness. And there again would come a sweep of deadly glacier,
spotted with green light through the upright scales of its
splintered waves—a frozen storm—mimicking the Alpine ranges,
jagged into many peaks like them; but all showing from where
you stand only as mottlings and unevenness. And all this would
be varied to absolute infinitude of bright and dark, of seen and
unseen, by the shifting clouds. Standing watching the heavenly
show, and rejoicing in the loftiness of some emergent peak, I
would say to myself, 'There, that is high! But I wish I could
see one up there—as high as that! Then I should be satisfied.' And out would come another peak away up there; and yet I would
not be satisfied. And a higher still would gleam out, like a
cloud grown solid, from the liquidly shifting mass; and strange
hints would appear of a yet further and higher amid those
blankets of the dark beyond. And yet I cannot say that I have
seen a mountain-top high enough to satisfy the longing of my
eyes; for I fear they cannot, as the wise man says, be filled
with seeing."
GEORGE MACDONALD.
(To be continued.)
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AN ESSAY ON AN OLD SUBJECT.
THE
discovery of a gray hair when you are brushing out your whiskers
of a morning—first-fallen flake of the coming snows of age—is a
disagreeable thing. So is the intimation from your old friend
and comrade that his eldest daughter is about to be married. So
are flying twinges of gout, shortness of breath on the hillside,
the fact that even the moderate use of your friend’s wines at
dinner upsets you. These things are disagreeable because they
tell you that you are no longer young,—that you have passed
through youth, are now in middle age, and faring onward to the
shadows in which, somewhere, a grave is hid.
Thirty is the age of the gods,—and the first gray hair informs
you that you are at least ten or twelve years older than that. Apollo is never middle-aged, but you are. Olympus lies several
years behind you. You have lived for more than half your natural
term; and you know the road which lies before you is very
different from that which lies behind. You have yourself
changed. In the present man of forty-two you can barely
recognize the boy of nineteen that once was. Hope sang on the
sunny slope of life’s hill as you ascended; she is busily
singing the old song in the ears of a new generation,—but you
have passed out of the reach of her voice. You have tried your
strength: you have learned precisely what you can do: you have
thrown the hammer so often that you know to an inch how far you
can throw it,—at least you are a great fool if you do not. The
world, too, has been looking on and has made up her mind about
you. She has appraised and valued you as an auctioneer appraises
and values an estate or the furniture of a house. “Once you
served Prince Florizel and wore three pile,” but the brave days
of campaigning are over. What to you are canzonets and
love-songs? The mighty passion is vapid and secondhand. Cupid
will never more flutter rosily over your head; at most he will
only flutter in an uninspired fashion above the head of your
daughter-in- law. You have sailed round the world, seen all its
wonders, and come home again, and must adorn your dwelling as
best you can with the rare things you have picked up on the way. At life’s table you have tasted of every dish except the Covered
One, and of that you will have your share by and by. The road
over which you are fated to march is more than half
accomplished, and at every onward stage the scenery is certain
to become more sombre, and in due time the twilight will fall. To you, on your onward journey, there will be little to
astonish, little to delight. The Interpreter’s House is behind
where you first read the poets; so is also the House Beautiful
with the Three Damsels where you first learned to love. As you
pass onward you are attended by your henchman Memory, who may be
either the cheerfullest or gloomiest of companions. You have
come up out of the sweet-smelling valley-flowers; you are now on
the broken granite, seamed and wrinkled, with dried-up
water-courses; and before you, striking you full in the face, is
the broad disk of the solitary setting sun.
One
does not like to be an old fogie, and still less perhaps does
one like to own to being one. You may remember when you were the
youngest person in every company into which you entered; and how
it pleased you to think how precociously clever you were, and
how opulent in Time. You were introduced to the great Mr.
Blank,—at least twenty years older than yourself,—and could not
help thinking how much greater you would be than Mr. Blank by
the time you reached his age. But pleasant as it is to be the
youngest member of every company, that pleasure does not last
forever. As years pass on you do not quite develop into the
genius you expected; and the new generation makes its appearance
and pushes you from your stool. You make the disagreeable
discovery that there is a younger man of promise in the world
than even you; then the one younger man becomes a dozen younger
men; then younger men come flowing in like waves, and before you
know where you are, by this impertinent younger
generation—fellows who were barely breeched when you won your
first fame—you are shouldered into Old Fogiedom, and your staid
ways are laughed at, perhaps, by the irreverent scoundrels into
the bargain. There is nothing more wonderful in youth than this
wealth in Time. It is only a Rothschild who can indulge in the
amusement of tossing a sovereign to a beggar. It is only a young
man who can dream and build castles in the air. What are twenty
years to a young fellow of twenty? An ample air-built stage for
his pomps and triumphal processions. What are twenty years to a
middle-aged man of forty-five? The felling of the curtain, the
covering up of the empty boxes, the screwing out of the gas, and
the counting of the money taken at the doors, with the notion,
perhaps, that the performance was rather a poor thing. It is
with a feeling curiously compounded of pity and envy that one
listens to young men talking of what they are going to do. They
will light their torches at the sun! They will regenerate the
world! They will abolish war and hand in the Millennium! What
pictures they will paint! What poems they will write! One knows
while one listens how it will all end. But it is Nature’s way:
she is always sending on her young generations full of hope. The
Atlantic roller bursts in harmless foam among the shingle and
drift-wood at your feet, but the next, nothing daunted by the
fate of its predecessor, comes on with threatening crest, as if
to carry everything before it. And so it will be for ever and
ever. The world could not get on else. My experience is of use
only to myself. I cannot bequeath it to my son as I can my cash. Every human being must start untrammelled and work out the
problem for himself. For a couple of thousand years now the
preacher has been crying out Vanitas vanitatum, but no
young man takes him at his word. The blooming apple must grate
in the young man’s teeth before he owns that it is dust and
ashes. Young people will take nothing on hearsay. I remember
when a lad of Todd’s Student’s Manual falling into my
hands. I perused therein a solemn warning against novel-reading. Nor did the reverend compiler speak without authority. He stated
that he had read the works of Fielding, Smollett, Sir Walter
Scott, American Cooper, James, and the rest, and he laid his
hand on his heart and assured his young friends that in each of
these works, even the best of them, were subtle snares and
gilded baits for the soul. These books they were adjured to
avoid as they would a pestilence, or a raging fire. It was this
alarming passage in the Transatlantic Divine’s treatise that
first made a novel-reader of me. I was not content to accept
his experience. I must see for myself. Every one must begin
at the beginning, and it is just as well. If a new generation
were starting with the wisdom of its elders, what would be the
consequence? Would there be any love-making twenty years after? Would there be any fine extravagance? Would there be any lending
of money? Would there be any noble friendship such as that of
Damon and Pythias, or of David and Jonathan, or even of our own
Beaumont and Fletcher, who had purse, wardrobe, and genius in
common? It is extremely doubtful. Vanitas vanitatum is
a bad doctrine to begin life with. For the plant Experience to
be of any worth a man must grow it for himself.
The
man of forty-five or thereby is compelled to own, if he sits
down to think about it, that existence is very different from
what it was twenty years previously. His life is more than half
spent to begin with. He is like one who has spent seven hundred
and fifty pounds of his original patrimony of a thousand. Then,
from his life there has departed that “wild freshness of
morning” which Tom Moore sang about. In his onward journey he is
not likely to encounter anything absolutely new. He has already
conjugated every tense of the verb To Be. He has been in love
twice or thrice. He has been married,—only once let us trust. In
all probability he is the father of a fine family of children. He has been ill and he has recovered; he has experienced triumph
and failure; he has known what it is to have money in his purse,
and what it is to want money in his purse. Sometimes he has been
a debtor, sometimes he has been a creditor. He has stood by the
brink of half a dozen graves, and heard the clod falling on the
coffin-lid. All this he has experienced; the only new thing
before him is death, and even to that he has at various times
approximated. Life has lost most of the unexpectedness, its
zest, its novelty, and has become like a worn shoe or a
threadbare doublet. To him there is no new thing under the sun. But then this growing old is a gradual process; and zest,
sparkle, and novelty are not essential to happiness. The man who
has reached five-and-forty has learned what a pleasure there is
in customariness and use and wont—in having everything around
him familiar, tried, confidential. Life may have become humdrum,
but his tastes have become humdrum too. Novelty annoys him, the
intrusion of an unfamiliar object puts him out. A pair of newly
embroidered slippers would be much more ornamental than the
well-worn articles which lie warming for him before the library
fire; but then he cannot get his feet into them so easily. He is
contented with his old friends,—a new friend would break the
charm of the old familiar faces. He loves the hedgerows and the
fields and the brook and the bridge which he sees every day, and
he would not exchange them for Alps and glaciers. By the time a
man has reached forty-five he lies as comfortably in his habits
as the silk-worm in its cocoon. On the whole, I take it that
middle age is a happier period than youth. In the entire circle
of the year there arc no days so delightful as those of a fine
October, when the trees are bare to the mild heavens, and the
red leaves bestrew the road, and you can feel the breath of
winter morning and evening,—no days so calm, so tenderly solemn,
and with such a reverent meekness in the air. The lyrical
up-burst of the lark at such a time would be incongruous. The
only sounds suitable to the season are the rusty caw of the
homeward-sliding rook,—the creaking of the wain returning empty
from the farm-yard. There is an “unrest which men miscall
delight,” and of that “unrest” youth is for the most part
composed. From that middle age is free. The setting suns of
youth are crimson and gold; the setting suns of middle age
Do take a sober colouring from an eye
That hath kept watch o’er man’s mortality. |
Youth
is the slave of beautiful faces, and fine eyes, and silver-sweet
voices,—they distract, madden, alarm. To middle age they are but
the gracefullest statues, the loveliest poems. They delight but
hurt not. They awake no passion, they heighten no pulse. And the
imaginative man of middle ago possesses after a fashion all the
passionate turbulence, all the keen delights, of his earlier
days. They are not dead,—they are dwelling in the antechamber of
memory awaiting his call; and when they are called they
wear an ethereal something which is not their own. The Muses are
the daughters of Memory; youth is the time to love, but middle
age the period at which the best love-poetry is written. And
middle age too—the early period of it, when a man is master of
his instruments and knows what he can do—is the best season of
intellectual activity. The playful capering flames of a
newly-kindled fire is a pretty sight; but not nearly so
effective—any housewife will tell you—as when the flames are
gone and the whole mass of fuel has become caked into a sober
redness that emits a steady glow. There is nothing good in this
world which time does not improve. A silver wedding is better
than the voice of the Epithalamium. And the most beautiful face
that ever was is made yet more beautiful when there is laid upon
it the reverence of silver hairs.
There
is a certain even-handed justice in Time; and for what he takes
away he gives us something in return. He robs us of elasticity
of limb and spirit, and in its place he brings tranquillity and
repose,—the mild autumnal weather of the soul. He takes away
Hope, but he gives us Memory. And the settled, unfluctuating
atmosphere of middle age is no bad exchange for the stormful
emotions, the passionate crises and suspenses, of the earlier
day. The constitutional melancholy of the middle-aged man is a
dim background on which the pale flowers of life are brought out
in the tenderest relief. Youth is the time for action, middle
age for thought. In youth we hurriedly crop the herbage; in
middle age, in a sheltered place, we chew the ruminative cud. In
youth, red-handed, red-ankled, with songs and shoutings, we
gather in the grapes; in middle age, under our own fig-tree, or
in quiet gossip with a friend, we drink the wine free of all
turbid lees. Youth is a lyrical poet, middle age a quiet
essayist, fond of recounting experiences and of appending a
moral to every incident. In youth the world is strange and
unfamiliar, novel and exciting, everything wears the face and
garb of a stranger; in middle age the world is covered over with
reminiscence as with a garment,—it is made homely with usage, it
is made sacred with graves. The middle aged man can go nowhere
without treading the mark of his own footsteps. And in middle
age, too,—provided the man has been a good and an ordinarily
happy one,—along with this mental tranquillity there comes a
corresponding sweetness of the moral atmosphere. He has seen the
good and the evil that are in the world, the ups and the downs,
the almost general desire of the men and the women therein to do
the right thing if they could but see how,—and he has learned to
be uncensorious, humane; to attribute the best motives to every
action, and to be chary of imputing a sweeping and cruel blame. He has a quiet smile for the vainglorious boast; a feeling of
respect for shabby-genteel virtues; a pity for the threadbare
garments proudly worn, and for the hapless hat glazed into more
than pristine brilliancy from frequent brushing after rain. He
would not be satirical for the world. He has no finger of scorn
to point at anything under the sun. He has a hearty “Amen” for
every good wish, and in the worst cases he leans to a verdict of
Not Proven. And along with this pleasant blandness and charity,
a certain grave, serious humour, “a smile on the lip and a tear
in the eye,” is noticeable frequently in middle-aged persons,— a
phase of humour peculiar to that period of life, as the
chrysanthemum to December. Pity lies at the bottom of it, just
as pity lies, unsuspected, at the bottom of love. Perhaps this
special quality of humour,—with its sadness of tenderness, its
mirth with the heart-ache, its gayety growing out of deepest
seriousness, like a crocus on a child’s grave,— never approaches
more closely to perfection than in some passages of Mr.
Hawthorne’s writings,—who was a middle-aged man from earliest
boyhood. And although middle-aged persons have lost the actual
possession of youth, yet in virtue of this humour they can
comprehend it, see all round it, enter imaginatively into every
sweet and bitter of it. They wear the key Memory at their
girdles, and they can open every door in the chamber of youth. And it is also in virtue of this peculiar humour that—Mr.
Dickens’s “Little Nell” to the contrary—it is only middle-aged
persons who can, either as poets or artists, create for us a
child. There is no more beautiful thing on earth than an old
man’s love for his granddaughter; more beautiful even—from the
absence of all suspicion of direct personal bias or
interest—than his love for his own daughter; and it is only the
meditative, sad-hearted, middle-aged man who can creep into the
heart of a child and interpret it, and show forth the new nature
to us in the subtle cross-lights of contrast and suggestion. Imaginatively thus, the wrinkles of age become the dimples of
infancy. Wordsworth was not a very young man when he held the
colloquy with the little maid who insisted, in her childish
logic, that she was one of seven. Mr. Hawthorne was not a young
man when he painted “Pearl ” by the side of the brook in the
forest; and he was middle-aged and more when he drew “Pansie,”
the most exquisite child that lives in English words. And when
speaking of middle age, of its peculiar tranquillity and humour,
why not tell of its peculiar beauty as well? Men and women make
their own beauty or their own ugliness. Sir Edward Bulwer Lytton
speaks in one of his novels of a man “who was uglier than he had
any business to be”; and, if we could but read it, every human
being carries his life in his face, and is good-looking or the
reverse as that life has been good or evil. On our features the
fine chisels of thought and emotion are eternally at work. Beauty is not the monopoly of blooming young men and of white
and pink maids. There is a slow-growing beauty which only comes
to perfection in old age. Grace belongs to no period of life,
and goodness improves the longer it exists. I have seen sweeter
smiles on a lip of seventy than I ever saw on a lip of
seventeen. There is the beauty of youth, and there is also the
beauty of holiness,—a beauty much more seldom met; and more
frequently found in the armchair by the fire, with grandchildren
around its knee, than in the ball-room or the promenade. Husband
and wife who have fought the world side by side, who have made
common stock of joy and sorrow, and aged together, are not
infrequently found curiously alike in personal appearance and in
pitch and tone of voice, —just as twin pebbles on the beach,
exposed to the same tidal influences, are each other’s alter
ego. He has gained a feminine something which
brings his manhood into full relief. She has gained a
masculine something which acts as a foil to her womanhood. Beautiful are they in life, these pale winter roses, and in
death they will not be divided. When death comes, he will pluck
not one, but both.
And
in any case, to the old man, when the world becomes trite, the
triteness arises not so much from a cessation as from a
transference of interest. What is taken from this world is given
to the next. The glory is in the east in the morning, it is in
the west in the afternoon, and when it is dark the splendour is
irradiating the realm of the under-world. He would only follow.
ALEXANDER
SMITH.
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THE ARGOSY'S LOG.
DE
QUINCY, in his paper
On War, tells a ridiculous story of a man who tried to
"pass round " a nuisance. There was a heap of rubbish in
his garden. Not knowing that his neighbour was in his
garden just on the other side, No. 1 flung the rubbish over the
wall to No. 2. Then No. 2 protested. But No. 1
insisted that he should pass it on to No. 3. No. 2
refused. So here, says De Quincey, was a casus belli
at once.
Just now a gas explosion has taken place at Nine Elms, and
some of the newspapers are insisting that the gas people must
take their works out of town. Thus bone-boilers and
vitriol-makers must go out of town, we all know. Then, we
all of us go out of town for pure air. Just so, we send
the sewage to Barking Creek, and then go down the river for a
blow. When I was a very young turtle indeed, the cemetery
clamour was at its height. "Take your corpses out of
town," said the city folks; "we won't have your sulphuretted
hydrogen here!" Companies took up the cry, and the
cemeteries were made. I used to wonder very much about
these things. By and by, it was evident the town would
catch up with the cemeteries; and what was the next thing to be
done? I have lived to hear this asked, and have not lived
long either. What is Highgate cemetery but a monster
church-yard out at Highgate?
The cemetery business can hardly be the solution of our
difficulty about the dead. Shifts turning on remoteness
never serve us. Western Australia grumbles at receiving
our convicts at last: and we are always getting into little
difficulties about "passing on" our nuisances. One curious
point is how the complaints and alarms occasionally die out.
There is a street which I sometimes pass through, and never
without hearing something which reminds me that there is a
madhouse on one side of it. Yet the neighbourhood is quite
full of houses. When the small-pox hospital was removed
from Battle-bridge (King's Cross), to the Liverpool-road
Islington, there was a terrible hue-and-cry among the
Islingtonians about it; but the population in the neighbourhood
of Cloudesley-square has certainly not thinned,—though people
delicate in mind and body complain of the occasional accidents
of the proximity of a fever hospital.
People will fall ill, and there must be hospitals.
People will die, and they must be buried, (or burned, or
something). People will be born, and they must live near
each other, and carbonize the air. I cannot help the
suspicion that we have got only half the truth on these matters.
Nobody wants to swallow poison, in poisonous quantity, but that
the ordinary accidents of existence must have injurious
consequences to ordinary health may be doubted. It is not
good for human beings to be too close to each other; but it is
not good to be too far off. You will never persuade
Stephen that he is any the worse for leaning with his cheek on
Chloe's, and his arm round her waist, let chemistry and
physiology say what they like. Superstitious old women
tell me that a room is never properly warmed for habitation
until it has had somebody in it for a time. "My good
soul," I say, "that is a bull—all it come to is, that a room is
never fit for habitation until it has been inhabited!"
"Then, sir," says my old woman, "people didn't ought to go out
of rooms. What was houses made for if it isn't to live
in?"
The other day, at about five o'clock p.m., I was in an
omnibus which was little over an hour in making its way from
Cornhill, through Gracechurch street, to London Bridge.
That was a very long detention; but similar delays
have often happened to me. The reasons we all know; and
they have been a thousand times discussed. But there is no
reason why the notions, call them fancies, which have occurred
to thousands of people for remedying our street inconveniences
should not be kept alive by constant repetition until something
is done. As thus: The heavy traffic ought to be carried on
rails underground; it is absurd to have it crossing crowded
thoroughfares, with the certainty that now and then a bridge
will fall in, or a train leap over a parapet upon the foot
passengers below. Again: streets might be crossed by light
bridges at frequent intervals to facilitate crossing.
Could not some enterprising tradesman take up this idea?
Suppose he had a shop on each side of the street, could he not
run an ornamental bridge from side to side? What an
advertisement it would be to him!
The widening of the streets is obvious; but then, this is
only passing things on. The houses must go somewhere; and
the planetary space is limited. The globe is only
twenty-four thousand miles round, remember! We must
economise. But how, is the question. A
section of London, from the summit of a railway-bridge to the
lowest point underground to which the Londoner "subdues nature,"
will soon be an alarming spectacle. Imagine the course
which an underground line has even now to take. Think of
the manner in which the ground is honey-combed with drain-pipes,
water-pipes, and gas-pipes. Think of the coming
atmospheric lines. Can you escape a shuddering thrill of
general blow-up-iness and collapse-and-smash-iness? I
cannot. We pity people who live in volcanic and earthquaky
countries. But what if civilization is coming to a similar
complexion? What if London, when the population is, say
five millions, and it is engineered all over, above, below, and
in the middle, should explode? Electric agency will
probably be more used then than it is now, and in ways not
anticipated by the vulgar. Now conceive all London
electrified; all the gasometers exploding; all the water-pipes
bursting; all the plugs up, and the turnkeys gone mad or
crushed; all the railway arches falling in, and all the trains
smashing down among the omnibuses and cabs and people!
What a catastrophe! The crash would be sure to climb up to
Sydenham: the Crystal Palace itself must go, and what a noise
all that glass would make, falling in! It would be like
the smashing of a kitchen dresser to the falling of a house.
"That won't happen in our time." Well, I don't know; that
is your remark, not mine; but one thing
WILL happen in our time. The Victoria Tower will
"settle" and fall down. That I do distinctly prophesy.
I have watched that tower like a father; and it has most
distinctly the physiognomy of an edifice that contemplates
self-destruction. Do you laugh? Very well.
Stone the prophetic man, do! You will build me a tomb some
day; and the coming New Zealander, looking on London smashed,
will moralise on the epitaph which records that I was the man
who foretold the fall of the Victoria Tower.
By-the-bye, should you be surprised to hear that there are
numbers of cabmen in London who do not know it? (I speak
advisedly when I say numbers). "Drive to the Victoria
Tower," I have said sometimes. Then the horse's head is
turned the wrong way. "Hallo!" I exclaim, "where are you
going to?" Says the cabman―"Through
Billingsgate, ain't it, sir?"
After all the fuss that was made by the newspapers about the
choice of Mr. Mill for Westminster, it is a little amusing to
see how little account is taken of him in the estimates just now
being made of the probable strength of the Liberal party for
debating purposes in the House of Commons. If Mr.
Fitzjames Stephen had been returned for Harwich, it would have
been greater; but Mr. Mill is a real power for debating
purposes. Some people professed to be surprised that he
should be a good and ready speaker, with none of the faults
which the House of Commons dislikes; but the surprise was idle.
Mr. Mill's style has precisely the characteristics which
indicate his other qualifications. He is prompt—almost
too prompt—so overflowing is his mind; he is quiet; he is
what people call unassuming; and, better still, the terror of
his name will keep snobs in awe. When they are gathered in
numbers, they do not mind "hunting" a moderately great
celebrity; but Mr. Mill they will stand in awe of. When I
say he is what people call unassuming, I mean that there
is no obvious assumption about him. In plain fact,
he has entire confidence in himself, and a sense of superiority
which is not to be entirely hidden. But an acute man may
do, inoffensively, a world of snubbing, if he is only quiet in
manner.
This evening as I was comfortably sitting over the fire, with
my Pall Mall Gazette (reading in fact that article of the
11th on Public Charities), comes a neat little letter, addressed
in a female hand, with three neat little initials in the corner.
It purports that my votes and interest are earnestly solicited
for a lady, aged sixty,—whose father kept a highly respectable
school, and was the author of "many useful works." One
knows exactly what those works were like, and how very little
their copyrights fetched! Now, as this lady has only four
hundred and sixty-three votes, and wants about four thousand, it
seems to me that somebody must invest a small fortune in stamps.
Nor is this the worst of it; for my votes are already
promised, to a lady equally deserving and doubtless equally
unfortunate; for her friends represent that she has nothing
certain but the interest of fifty pounds in a savings bank;
which interest, subdivided, is somewhere about a penny per diem.
Thus large sums are not merely spent but probably wasted in
soliciting these votes; and I think a charity managed on this
principle won't be long in becoming, what the Pall Mall
Gazette wittily calls an Alpaca—"something between the
decidedly good and the decidedly bad charities―the
goats and the sheep." A plan which may in the future
become a real curse, as it is now an awful nuisance.
For instance, suppose the subscribers to such charities
increased in any sort of proportion to our population; and
suppose postage ever got reduced to a halfpenny the half ounce!
It seems to me that cases of softening of the brain might not
unfrequently occur about the periods of the closing canvass, and
the postman be delayed an hour in his rounds, as he is on St.
Valentine Day. Had not kind people, who set about to
gather votes for these poor ladies, better calculate what the
stamps and paper cost them at the six or eight successive polls
for which it seems necessary to work, and reckon the same at
compound interest. It really would amount to something
considerable, and I think in many cases it would really be that
"bird in the hand" familiarly said to be "worth two in the
bush."
I was talking to-day to my poetical friend about humour.
The fact is, he is rather fastidious, and cannot endure anything
with a touch of coarseness; whereas there are some jokes (always
supposing that they do not trench on the ground of morals) which
I am quite willing to laugh at provided other people choose
to make them. Of course some of us have a character to
keep up for poetical genius, or for solid thought, or for this,
that, or the other specialité;
but I am not sorry that Artemus Ward freely throws into our
minds certain ingredients in which their natural composition may
be (mine I don't say are) wholly wanting. For
instance, when he tells us that, during an attack of mountain
fever at Salt Lake City, his nose became so sharp that he didn't
dare stick it into other people's business for fear it would
stay there, I recognise the delightful force and simplicity of
the illustration; and what is more, I should not be at all sorry
if various folks were deterred by the same pointed objection
from prying into what does not concern them.
Rumpel Stiltskin, in the German story, being in a naughty
passion, stampsd his left leg so fast into the floor that it
took both his hands to draw it out again (and that with much
difficulty). It strikes me that it would be charming
retribution, for sticking noses into other people's affairs, if
broken tips were the frequent result.
One whose bright and delicate genius is yet held in fond
remembrance by all who came under its spell, once observed,
apropos of plagiarism, "It is always easy to steal an idea or an
American copyright." Now I was going to say that I could
forgive the theft of Artemus Ward; but as I see that his travels
among the Mormons are edited by Mr. Hingston, his companion and
agent while "on the Rampage," one may suppose that Mr. Hotten,
the publisher, has acted in this matter like "a London citizen
of credit and renown." American humour* has indeed
such a peculiar flavour that one must needs import it. It
can't be grown at home! Its roots were originally
transplanted from the racy soil of our own counties—English,
Irish, and Scotch; but these roots have pushed out vigorously in
the virgin earth, and have a elements for which our intellectual
chemistry has as yet hardly a assimilated a name. What,
for instance, is the special quality of the irresistible
absurdity of the anecdote of the rail-splitter, who could put up
so many rails in a day that it took him two days to walk back to
the place whence he started? Whence comes the exquisite
flavour of the world-famous story of the coon who came meekly
down on hearing the mere name of Colonel John Smith? And
wherein, as compared with English humour, with "Hudibras,"
"Rejected Addresses," or the "Needy Knife-Grinder,"
arise the brilliant repartees of that master of satiric verse,
James Russell Lowel? The Biglow Papers are more or
less known among us; but not many are acquainted with that
wonderfully clever poem, published in his collected verse, upon
the literary society of Boston, in which he describes Emerson,
Margaret Fuller, and many others under assumed names.
Talking of Lowel's satiric poem reminds me of his charming
lines on "Philothea," his name for a fair and famous American
philanthropist (Mrs. Child). How must not she, if she be
yet living, how must not all our noble-hearted friends in the
North rue this terrible rebellion in Jamacia!†
Shade of Uncle Tom! Inspire the leaders of the Press with
mercy; let them not point a moral nor adorn a tale with this
unhappy event, before a thorough investigation of causes has
fixed the blame in the right place. Other mobs have been
bloodthirsty, and exceedingly civilized peoples have sent
victims to the stake in shirts painted over with lively devils.
The Septembrisenes were perfectly white in their skins
before they had smeared themselves with the blood of Marie Thérèse
de Lamballe; their hair was not woolly, and their
physiognomy was that of thin-lipped Gaul. It strikes me
that the man who put out little Prince Arthur's eyes with
red-hot irons was probably a pure Saxon retainer; and he who
threatened to boil Isaac of York over a slow fire was of the
finest Norman blood. Whatever atrocities, then, these
unhappy negroes have committed, let the sharp punishment of the
law upon individuals whitewash the race at large; and let us
remember that we too have done queer things in our time, and
that in a tolerably impartial way. Two hundred or more
years ago we went to Drogheda under Oliver Cromwell, and
remarkable feats we did there. Wexford also
underwent what a highly liberal and enlightened historian of
modern days calls "the same barbarous fate." Our colonial
wars have been none of the gentlest; and if we have not exactly
smoked Arabs like hams in a chimney, we have been in times past
utterly reckless of the native races. Why or wherefore
these unhappy darkies have disgraced themselves and their cause
before the eyes of all the world, we know not yet; perhaps some
fancied grievance had long rankled in their hearts before they
"hung up the fiddle and the bow," and took to villainous weapons
and cruel outrage. Away with them to the gallows or
the hulks if you will, O strict human justice! but forget not
that the negro is still "a man and a brother."
Was there a deep half-conscious satire in the minds of the
friends of poor Tom Sayers when they mounted the great brown dog
in a mail-phaeton as chief mourner? Did they mean to say,
in bitter burlesque, that the honest brute was better than the
brutalized man? that he at least would behave like a gentleman,
and look with wistful eyes over his crape collar, and indulge in
his dumb heart in a longing for his old master, which
gin-and-water would not quench? Mr. Gladstone's Greeks may
have taught the world to reverence life; the reverence for death
is wide as humanity itself. To lose this is to lose the
last vestige of civilization. Yet out of the heart of
London came a mob to follow their chosen champion to the grave,
divested of this last remnant of humanity. "Like a mob at
a Newgate hanging," that is bad enough—surging round the gallows
like a sea of scum, foaming up mire and dirt; but to my
thinking, this funeral-party was worse, for there was the
absence of the miserable excitement of murderous passion.
In cold blood and open day they trampled, with curses, over the
graves, played at leap-fro with the tombs, hooted and yelled and
whistled, and kicked the ornaments from the monuments. Has
it ever occurred to any one, apropos of this Jamaica
insurrection, what would be the state of things if such men and
women were let loose on London?
Certainly the Undergraduates of Christchurch ought not to be
advised to know on which side their bread is buttered.
They have a fair right to require it should be well spread on
both surfaces, considering the price they pay their butler!
That functionary's ideas on the cost of provisions must be
curiously inverted. He lives in the midst of war prices;
eightpence for a threepenny loaf (we now quote Cambridge) is
surely more than anything inflicted on us by Napoleon the First,
dreadful ogre as he was. The College butler is a gigantic
relic of Protection; for him Mr. Cobden has preached in vain.
In the matter of beer, also, he has managed to brew a nice
little storm. Is it possible that he is descended from
Fo-Fe-Fum, and sits in the buttery singing that he smells the
blood of Englishmen; that
Be they alive, or be they dead,
I'll grind their bones to make me bread. |
JASON JONES.
Ed.:
* See also
Gerald Massey on
American Humour and on
Yankee Humour.
† Presumably
reference to the Morant Bay Rebellion, 1865, and the
'Governor Eyre Case' that followed.
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A JOURNEY REJOURNEYED.
(Concluded from page 63.)
"I WANDERED
along the green fields one morning, opposite the waste mountain,
and soon came to a shallow green dell, in the bottom of which
ran a brawling little stream. It was like many a dell I
had seen in Scotland, with a thicket of small, slender,
girl-like trees, where the path crossed it: it was like finding
a bit of home in the midst of abroad; like wandering in a
strange house, in a dream, you know, Lizzie, and all at once
coming upon your own room nestling in the middle of it.
And I felt a fanciful pity for the little stream which was
hurrying away over its stones so fast, nearer and nearer to some
terrible slope and headlong fall into the valley below, ere it
reached which it might be 'pouldered all as thin as flour,' in
its downward, stayless rush against the steep opposing air."
Here followed another pause, and James sat staring into the
fire, which had reached the peaceful condition of middle age—all
in a glow without flame. Again the wind made a rush at the
window and died away. I remember it so well, because I saw
James start and listen as if it reminded him of some sound he
had heard in the wild Alps. It roused him from his
reverie, and set him talking again. Turning to Lizzie, he
said:—
"I wish I could make you see one of those wildly-grand
visions. But I cannot, and it troubles me that I cannot.—I
wish I were rich, Lizzie, to take you all there. If I
were, you should be carried in a chair, as many ladies are.
It would be jolly!"
"Yes, that it would, thank you, James," answered Lizzie, with
a smile that left her lip quivering. "But when I die, I
shall, if God will let me, take Switzerland on my way; and I
daresay I shall see it all the better so."
None of us answered this. And after a moment's sad
pause, James went on.
"I left this village with regret. Our landlord was a
decent fellow, and the people there did not bore you to buy.
But it would be as unfair to judge the Swiss by those met upon
the ordinary tourist-routes as it would be to judge Scotchmen by
the wandering specimens who, representing themselves as having
failed in the 'tuitional line,' go about among their countrymen
in London, infesting them into the purchase of steel pens, which
they don't want, at double their value, protesting all the time
against charity and obligation.
"But I don't want to talk now about anything but the
mountains, and the impression those creatures made upon me—It is
a pity I am so little of a walker. What wonders I might
have seen! But you know ever since that attack last
winter, a few miles on tolerably level road is all that I can
manage. So when I resolved to cross what they call the
Wengern Alp into the next valley, there was no way to manage it
except on horseback. The mare on which I made that day's
journey—let her name be known—she was called Mattie by my kind,
half-witted guide, whom, I hope to meet again—would carry me
safely from the garret to the cellar of any house in London,
where the stair was wide enough. At least I shouldn't much
mind trying her—throwing the reins on her neck too. But,
indeed, that is the only safe way.
"I started on a fine August morning, and zigzagged for hours
up the hill opposite that I had ascended before; at first in
short—vandykes, mightn't I say, Jane?—then in longer
stretches and gentler slopes of ascent; and then back to the
vandykes again; now through pine-woods, now along the edge of
steep descents, and now along the green slopes of hill-sides.
Climbing at last a green shoulder, much torn with rain-torrents,
I suddenly found myself face to face with the mass of the
Jungfrau from the valley to the Silverhorn. I could have
fallen on my knees before it. That moment I cannot
describe. Great clouds crept like pigmy imitations across
the front of the mighty real, which towered one rock from its
base of precipices up to its crown of snows. And as the
rock towered, so its streams fell—in snow from its snow-crown,
in water from the caverns of its outspread glaciers; as if the
great bald head sought such hair as it could find to cover its
nakedness. And ever and anon you might hear the fall of
one of its snow-streams thundering from some jagged solitude,
which in the space before you might look but a rent in the
mountain, or scar upon its rough face. For the avalanches
are just streams of snow, now slipping down an inclined plane,
presenting from a distance the strange contrast of a
slow-creeping river mantled with the foam or a furious
haste—sometimes falling sheer over a precipice, a cataract of
snow, not, like a river, to gather its force and flow on, but to
rest hurtless and silent as death at its foot. One which
had been pointed out to me from the other side of the valley, a
thin thread dropping far away in the mystery of mountain-tortuosity,
we found lying a triangular mass of whiteness, a huge heap at
the foot of the Jungfrau.
"I stood and watched the torrents that rushed ceaseless from
the cold mouths of the recumbent glaciers. I saw them
dilate and contract by the measure of three as they fell; as if
some mighty, not yet dead heart within drove, in pulsing beats,
the arterial blood of the mountain from a wide wound in its
rugged side.
"Now the clouds would gather and half wrap the great thing in
their folds, as for an appointed time the weak and evanescent
can always obscure the strong and the lasting; and over their
swathing bands would appear the giant head of the all-careless
mountain. Now they swallowed her up, and she retired
equally careless into the awful unseen. I turned my back
upon her and descended towards the valley.
"A steep green slope, which we first scrambled up and then
rode along; the first of a shower; big cattle, each with its big
bell on a broad belt round its neck, glooming through the rain;
faster and faster descent of rain-drops; the water running into
my boots; steeper and steeper descents; fog, through which
nothing but the nearest objects can be seen; a more level spot
of grass, with rocks sticking through it in every direction, and
haggard old fir-trees standing half dead about a stream running
over the rockiest of channels and down the steepest of descents
not to be a succession of waterfalls, banked everywhere by this
green grass—the whole making up one of the two places I saw
where I would build a house;—singing women; a glass of brandy at
a roadside inn; the Eiger hanging over us through the fog,
fearfully high and fearfully overhanging, like nothing I can
think of but Mount Sinai in the Pilgrim's Progress; a
scrambling down rocky stairs; and then, through the mist, that
for which I have brought you all this way in the pouring
rain—the sharp-edged, all but perpendicular outline of the
Wetter-horn, close in front of our faces—nothing but a faint
mass and a clear edge—the most frightful appearance by far we
have yet seen. I would not for a month's sunshine have
lost that sight. If I could draw at all, nothing would be
easier than to let you see it, as it rushed from the earth
through the mist into the sky. A single line, varying in
direction, yet in the effect nearly perpendicular, seen through
a grey mist—that is all. And all I can say is, It was
terrible; and there is little good in saying anything,
except your saying is your friend's seeing."
"I see it," each of us cried.
"Well," returned James, "it was just a thing you might dream.
No detail—only an effect. But, alas! next day, when we
were all dry, air, and mountain, and I, it was so different.
The Wetterhorn—and it just strikes me that it must have been
named on such another afternoon as that on which I saw it
first—the next day, I say, The Horn of the Tempest had
retired into the hollow of the air; showed not its profile only,
but its whole countenance, and yet stood back, and looked
nothing remarkable—far lower, exceedingly less imposing.
Without being an illustration, it yet reminded me of those fine
lines of Shelley—you must not forgive the cockneyism in the
third line, although I don't believe he meant to leave it so;
and you may see the line ought to end with a rhyme to storm:
The Apennine in the light of day
Is a mighty mountain, dim and grey,
Which between the earth and sky doth lay;
But when night comes, a chaos dread
On the dim starlight then is spread,
And the Apennine walks abroad with the storm. |
"And this brings me to a question I have thought a good deal
about. I don't think I have yet found more than the half
of the answer. 'Why do the Mountains look such
different heights at different times?' It is easy to
say that the cause lies in different conditions of the
atmosphere. Very probably—at least sometimes. But
still why, while the angle of elevation remains the same upon
the eye, should the mountain look different heights? It
leads me up to a wide field which I cannot enter now, for you
would be wanting me to go home before I was half across it."
"Do go on, James," we all said.
"No," answered James. "It would be too metaphysical
besides. I only say one thing: I am certain that the
aspect in which the mountain looks highest is the truest as to
height. Nor can any arrangement of clouds make a mountain
look higher than it is, or produce an unreal and exaggerated
impression of it. But it is marvellous what a difference a
few streaks of cloud laid horizontally across the face of a
mountain can do to lift its head up in the brain. And that
has nothing to do with the atmosphere between. A judgment
of the distance has certainly everything to do with the
estimating of the height of a mountain, and the state of the
atmosphere has much to do with forming such a judgment; but I am
not speaking about estimating at all, but about
feeling. Here is a little bit bearing on the subject
which I wrote in my pocket-book at Thun:—
"'Looking across this strange little town to the opposite
hills last night, I thought them lower than Glencoe, or Ben
Nevis, or Snowdon—that is, I almost came to that as a
conclusion. Now I see them with clouds across them, and
they look twice the height they looked before. Take my Ram
from Morven, and set Ben Nevis and the two sides of Glencoe and
Ben Cruachan in a range on his back, and you would have
something like the height as well as something like the aspect
of the range in front of me. But it would not impress you
so at once, although one of these tops is twice the height of
Ben Nevis, and more. Why do we not see them higher then?
Just because the camera obscura of our minds cannot get
its lens all at once adjusted to the facts. And there is
another reason: away to the left, in a land of cloud, invisible
to-day, but yesterday nearer to all appearance and clearer than
those before me now, lie, like the flocks of a giant
shepherd-king sitting on the circle of the earth, the
white-fleeced mountains, whose very calm looks like a frozen
storm, and the highest of which is nearly twice as high as the
highest of those in front of me now.'—You will forgive the
repetition. I read this to show you how I thought about
the varying impression of height when I was amidst the
mountains.—I am satisfied just of that one thing, that, so far
from a false impression being possible, no accumulation of
atmospheric aids to impression can ever generate a feeling
correspondent to the facts. Meantime, I have not yet seen
a mountain high enough to content me. I should like
to see the Himmalayahs. Shall I ever look on one whose top
goes far enough up amongst the stars to please even my
dream-moods? Would those fearful mountains in the moon
satisfy me, I wonder? Somehow or other, shall not even our
fancies be filled one day?"
James here making a pause—
"Read us a little more out of that pocket-book, won't you,
James?" said Maria.
"I think I have given you everything worth giving you about
the mountains," he answered; "and I won't talk about anything
else to-night. Well"—turning over the leaves of his
book—"here is another passage which I don't mind reading if you
don't mind listening to it. After mentioning the
tiger-skin glacier, as I called it, my note goes on thus: 'Soon
we saw another greater glacier.—These were the garments of the
Jungfrau, and the lady looks very fierce and lovely; and the
wind over her clothes smells of no sweet spices, but of cold,
beautiful death. This glacier was precipitous, and seemed
to come pouring over the sharp edge next the sky, as like white
water, with dim glints of green in it such as cataracts often
have, as anything motionless—motionless as the face of a dead
man—could look. All its forms are of waves and
wildly-driven waters; yet there it rests. It thinks, it
dreams of what a rush it would make down that mountain-side, if
only the frost would let it go.
"'And now I have seen the maiden in her night-attire, walking
in her sleep. You would not know her from an intensely
white cloud—cold white—up there in the sky, over the edge of the
near, lofty ridge.
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"'How shall I convey an idea of the prettiness of the
valley below? It is like playing at the country—like the
kingdom of the dolls. It reminds me much of the impression
produced by Sir Philip Sidney's descriptions of nature in the
Arcadia. From the stream which runs along the bottom
of the valley rise, with much, though varying steepness, and
with all sorts and sizes of gently-rounded irregularity, the
greenest expanses of grass that heart can desire, up to the foot
of an absolute wall of rock, over which in parts look the
snow-peaks from afar; and yet they are so near that they are as
part of the furniture of your house. If you saw the grass in a
picture, you would object to it as badly painted, because too
velvety, too soft, too delicately green. It seems as
well-kept and mown as a lawn, and all studded over with neat
little brown houses, some for men and women and children, some
for cows and calves, some for goats and kids, all built in much
the same fashion, all pretty wooden boxes with overhanging
eaves. The brown earth shows nowhere. All is grass
lawn. Indeed, these lower valleys produced upon me the
impression of too much neatness, of obtrusive tidiness—as if the
Swiss people were the little children whose fathers and mothers,
giants up amongst the rocks, had sent them down to play here,
out of the dangers of the mighty games going on up there in the
cloudy regions. The whole was so pretty as to produce a
sense of pettiness. And down upon this gentle, neat,
book-pastoral, stare the fruitless hills—no, nothing in nature
stares—gaze the fruitless hills; or rather, above it they
rise, never looking down; rise like the God of the hopeless, who
sees, or could see but heeds terrible creatures not. They
are these mountains. They never love, never have any
children; stand there in the cold, and the wind, and the snow,
crawled over by the serpent-glaciers, worn and divided by the
keen grinding saw of the long-drawn torrents: they feel nothing,
they hope nothing. But glorious are the rivers that come
down from their glaciers sweeping blue and bank-full through the
lovely towns of the land; and glorious are the
mountain-thoughts—the spiritually-metamorphosed reflection of
themselves—they raise in tile minds of men.
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"'As I stood this evening and gazed at glaciers, I thought I
saw through the slow clouds over them, streaks that were not of
cloud. And straightway out dawned the mountain.
Higher and higher parts appeared, and higher and further off
still. Such a mingling of cloud and mountain! 'If I
could only see that height cleared!' And it was cleared;
and therewith the hint of a further dwarfed it. And
nothing of all this show was quite after my anticipation of
mountains and their peaks, but grander; less showy, and more
imaginative. How it all changed and changed! And the
highest points never appeared at all. And then when the
blue heaven came, it dwarfed them all.'"
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Here James closed his not-book.
"Weren't you very sorry to leave the mountains, James?"
"Not in the least. They are not for every-day wear.
I think almost I was relieved when I got upon a good space of
level land again. I am not sure that they weren't too much
for me, always so high, and so rugged, and so lonely. It
certainly was a pleasure to see the horizon far off again.
They didn't leave me room enough, perhaps. But I cannot
quite tell. And, besides, I have not left them. I
have them in me."
"That is how you have brought them home to us, James," said
Lizzie, in a tone which he thought sounded weary; though, if it
was, it must have been from too much pleasure.
"Well, you had better dream about them now, Lizzle," he said,
"for it is time I left you in peace."
And he rose to say good-night.
"But do just tell me one thing: Did you go on a glacier at
all?" said Maria.
"Only in the most humble fashion—just trod on the tail of one
creature that comes down into the bottom of the valley like a
dragon of the cold, daring the summer and the torture of the
soft wind. It was strange to walk over the rough snow on
its surface, or rather gravelly ice, for it was just like rough
salt for fish-curing, and feel the warm wind blowing in your
face, as, looking up the steep-sloping ravine, you gazed at the
splintered pinnacles of the ice, with the light shining green
through them. On the tail you could walk, but along the
rugged back up there, there was no passing. It looked just
like a multitude of alabaster slabs set up on end."
"Was the colour of the ice really green or blue?" I asked.
"I will tell you where there was no doubt of the blue," he
answered. They have cut out, for the sake of poor things
like me, a small winding cave into this glacier, entering on the
level of the ground. Maria would shriek with delight at
the blue of that ice-cave. What matter that human hands
made the cave? No human hands could make, no human fancy
invent that blue. The very air that filled the hole was
blue. And it grew bluer and darker blue as you went
in—such a transparent, liquid, lovely blue! bluer than any sky
twice condensed, and yet as clear. It was a delight for an
angel, that blue! And there was water running through the
roof and along the floor; and the walls were so clean, and
smooth, and cold, and wet! How delicious that cold after
my hot walk! And when I turned to come out, there stood my
companion with the face of 'one that hath been seven days
drowned'—the ruddy cheek and lips purple, and the white very
ghastly. So likewise I looked to him, he said, for the
blue changed our cheer. And the sunlight was again welcome
as I walked back, sucking a lump of the glacier ice."
"You have not said one word about either of the young men
that were with you, James, till this minute."
"No. I have expressly avoided it, because, if I had
begun, I should have gone on bringing them in; and I didn't want
to say a word about anything else till I had got the mountains
off my mind. Right good fellows they were, and are, and we
got on capitally. But I've told you enough for once'' and
have tired out poor Lizzie. Good-night."
"Go and open the door for him, Jane," said Lizzie.
And if I had not written too much already, I should have
liked to tell you a dream Lizzie had that night. But I
won't. I say good-night myself instead.
If you would like it, I may tell you more about James and
Lizzie another time.
Good-night.
GEORGE MACDONALD.
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A HIDDEN TREASURE.
BY MRS. OLIPHANT.
I DO not think
they could have found a better place to hide in if they had searched
over all the Continent. To be sure it was a place where travellers
go, but not in crowds; neither is it a dangerous class of the
community which frequents, or rather which darts down for a day upon
Mont Saint Michel, and hurries over the castle, and is off again in
hot haste for fear of the tide. I will tell you about Mont Saint
Michel presently, but in the meantime it may be better to tell you
who it was who was hiding there. It was Mrs. Mildmay, who was once
so well known in the match-making world, whose pretty daughters did
so well, and made such good marriages—and Nora, the last of that
fair flock. Mrs. Mildmay was not the least in the world what is
called a manœuvring mother. She had no time to carry her girls
about, or exhibit them at public places, or put them up, as people
say, in the market. Possibly these horrors were unknown to her, even
in conception; but certainly she had not leisure to carry them into
practice. The girls were not beautiful, and they had very little
money—but they all married at eighteen, with a curious similarity
which sometimes occurs in
families. Naturally people smiled when Mrs. Mildmay complained, as
she sometimes did, of this singular run of luck, and grumbled over
the loss of her children. She cried at the weddings: but
then it is part of a mother's rôle to cry—and the world in general,
and the men without exception, concluded her a hypocrite, and envied
her wonderful good fortune and success in getting rid of
her encumbrances. One thing, however, which made it appear as if
Mrs. Mildmay after all might possibly mean what she said, was the
way she behaved about Nora. Nora was the youngest,
light and lithe, like a tall lily, with hair of that Titian colour
which has lately become so popular, and great eyes, in which the
tears lay so near the surface, that the least touch brought them
down.
She was not lively nor gay, to speak of, except on very rare
occasions; but she was tender-hearted, and moved by any appeal to her
sympathies which did not come from the legalized authorities.
Thus, she was not by any means too angelical to rebel when laws were made that she did
not approve of, or when Mrs. Mildmay was
struck with the curious whim of having her own way,
and not her daughter's, which happened now and then. But let anybody
appeal to her from outside, and immediately the big drops would
gather in Nora's eyes, and all her tender soul be moved.
She was the kind of girl who might fall in love off-hand, without
two thoughts about it―and fight and beat half a dozen mothers for
her ten minutes' attachment. And she was the last of all the flock,
and the poor woman, who had brought them all up to be other people's
wives, began to look forward with horror to the prospect of being
left all alone. She thought to herself, if she could but save
the last—if she could but keep her sweet companion a little longer,
until the time when Nora should have "sense," and be able to
exercise that impossible suffrage which the fathers and mothers
somehow seem to believe in, and
make a good choice. Perhaps, in the depths of her heart, poor Mrs.
Mildlmay hoped or dreamed that she herself might somewhere light upon
the not altogether impossible son-in-law who would be
a son to her, and spare her a little of her daughter. Such futile
dreams do linger in the corners of the female mind long after it
ought to have learned better. Anyhow, Mrs. Mildmay was like the
queen whose princess was to be all safe if she could but be shut up
in a tower, and kept from all possibility of intercourse with old
women spinning, until she had passed her eighteenth birthday.
It was not old women, but young men of whom Nora's mother was afraid; but she thought foolishly that she would feel safe if she had only
tided over the perilous boundaries of that eighteenth
year.
And of course everybody knows how little she went out that last
winter how she kept poor Nora shut up, to her intensest indignation,
and such sympathy on the part of her emancipated
contemporaries, that schemes of forcible rescue were discussed at
innumerable teas, over the five o'clock bread-and-butter. And then
Mrs. Mildmay went abroad, the heartless woman; not as
other people do, to places where a poor girl could have a little
amusement—but to poky places where tourists go, and artists, and
antiquaries, and travellers
that description. She was so good to Nora, that the girl would have
been in transports of gratitude, had she not been, as she was, an
injured woman, kept in the background by a cruel parent.
Nora did not make the journey so pleasant as it might have been to
her mother. She did not in the least understand the mournful
yearning over her last companion which lay deep under
Mrs. Mildmay's smile. It was not to be expected that she could
understand it—and she was young and wanted pleasure, and to have
her day as her sisters had. She was cross many and many
a day when the poor mother was trying all that woman could do to
please and amuse her, and call back her child's heart. But as for
Nora, instead of letting her mother have it, she stood at the
door in her youthful wantonness, and held that heart in her hand,
like a bird, ready to let it fly she could not tell where. And this
was the state of affairs when they came to the quaintest nest that
ever fluttering bird was caged in, where Michael the Archangel, on
the pinnacles of his chapel, sets one foot on land and one on sea.
If anybody could be safe under such circumstances, surely it must
have been there; for there was not a man on the rock except the
fishers, and Le Brique the guide, who took care of the
travellers on the dangerous sands, and the brisk Curé, and M. le Aumonier. As for the travellers, Mrs. Mildmay felt sure she had
nothing to fear. It was a poky place, and they were only poky
people who ventured so far—people who wrote books about rural
manners and customs, or archæologists, or artists, or devout
Catholics, or tourist English—and Nora was in as little danger with
such visitors as with M. le Aumonier himself. And the best of it
was, that the girl was pleased, and liked the idea of living where
never civilized Christian had lived before, and of being cut off
from
the world twice a day when there were spring-tides, on an
inaccessible rock, where an enchanted princess might have lived,
surrounded by sands that swallowed people up, and a sea that
came upon you without any warning. She liked it perversely as girls
do, and poor Mrs. Mildmay was at ease in her mind, though very far
from being at ease in her body. For all the roads are stairs
at Mont Saint Michel, and the population not only catch and sell and
eat, but breathe fish in all its stages of existence after death. That fine, infinitesimal all-pervading quintessence of herrings and
cockles, which is called air in most fishing towns, was concentrated
into a finer and more subtle ichor still on the Archangel's rock;
and M. le Aumonier's fauteuil, which he had placed at the
service of the ladies, was but a hard arm-chair. Mrs. Mildmay was
happy in her mind, but she was very uneasy in her person, and asked
herself many a day, as she looked over the vast expanse
of sand and irregular lines of sea, and saw the pilgrim processions
winding with their crosses over the dangerous paths, or "kilted"
into nondescript creatures, neither men nor women, to cross
the chance currents that traversed it—whether her safety was worth
the trouble. The pilgrims, and the indiscriminate host, all alike
kilted; men, women, and children, who went day by day to
get cockles and anything else that came in their way; and the
stealthy tides that hurried up with a silent spring, like a beast of
prey; and the sands that sunk under the traveller's feet, where Le
Brique ran to and fro all the long day with his bare Hercules legs,
and the bit of ribbon on his breast, that answered for eighteen
lives saved; was all that was ever to be seen from the windows;
except now and then, indeed, when the monotonous cadence of the
chant announced a procession going up to do honour to St. Michael,
dressed all in its best, with now and then a magnificent
Norman cap, or even by times a scared and weary Bretonne, to give it
a little interest; for, to tell the truth, Mrs. Mildmay not being
an artist, thought but little of the castle or the chapel half way
up
to heaven, where the Archangel held airy sway. They were very fine
no doubt, but she would not have given the prospect from her own
little house at the corner of Park-lane with a peep over the
Park, for half a dozen Gothic castles. And no doubt she was right.
But Nora happily was of a different way of thinking. The oddness of
everything caught her fancy. She even changed out of her natural
style, and took to laughing instead of crying, and grew a
finished coquette in a moment, and bewildered Le Brique, and did her
best to turn the head of that good Curé. She used to drag her
poor mamma, or, when Mrs. Mildmay rebelled,
the respectable Briggs, her mamma's maid, up all the horrible stairs
to the chapel every time there was a pilgrimage—and that was so
often that Briggs's knees gave way at the very thought.
And the Curé, when he led the choir, and when it was M. le Aumonier
who said mass, looked round and nodded at her, and metaphorically
clapped his hands in the middle of the service when
Nora's clear, cultivated voice rose up above those of the fisher
maidens, and soared away into the dim old vault, in the Agnus Dei. The good man had a French horn which he loved, and from
which he used to interject a note when the singers went too low; but
they did not go too low when Nora was there, and he blew out his
accompanying cadence for pure love. It was
good to see him bringing in this instrument carrying it in his arms
as if it had been a baby; and it was all the instrument they
had at Mont Saint
Michel—except to be sure in the Castle chapel, where the pilgrims
went,
carrying with them sometimes an odd enough music. All these
primitive surroundings had, it appeared, a good effect upon Nora;
and Mrs. Mildmay, poor soul, thanked heaven, and breathed a
little freer, and put up with the atmosphere of fishes and the want
of furniture, and M. le Aumonier's arm-chair.
This was the state of affairs one fair, slumbrous July day, when
Mrs. Mildmay was alone in-doors. From her window she could look down
on the ramparts and on the vast sands beyond, and the
low line of the Norman coast, and Avranches on its hill, shining
where it stands, and looking a great deal more agreeable in the
distance than it looks on a nearer view, like many other things.
Down below was an old bastion, sweet with a fluttering parterre of
white pinks, and fanned by the great leaves of M. le Aumonier's
favourite fig-tree. The sun was glaring on Avranches in the
distance, and on the sea close at hand, and on the odd little groups
on the sands, like specks—the cockle-gatherers at their work; and
the windows were open, and no smell of fish, though there
were so many in it, came from the sea. And a soft sort of drowsy
content came over Mrs. Mildmay. Nora was out as usual, no doubt
rambling about the castle halls and chapels, or out on the
breezy ramparts, making abortive sketches, and enjoying herself. At
last she had begun to taste again the child's pleasures—to love the
air and the blue sky, and to be happy in her youth and her
existence without asking anything else; and a feeling that the
eighteenth year might after all be tided over, and the good choice
made, and the not impossible son-in-law might yet be found in the
future to glad the mother's eye, came into Mrs. Mildmay's heart. This is what she was thinking when she heard some one come in at the
door. Doors have no locks in Mont Saint Michel, so that
even with the best will in the world, an English lady cannot shut
them, but must take her chance like her neighbours. Perhaps it was
Nora—perhaps it was M. le Aumonier coming in for a chat.
But it was a step slightly hesitating, which lingered and stopped,
and then came on. Mrs. Mildmay did not take much notice, for by this
time she was used to the place, and she went on with her
thoughts, even after the door of her own room was tapped at and
opened. "I beg your pardon," said an English voice, "could you
tell me―Good heavens!" and here the intruder stopped
short. Mrs. Mildmay turned round from the peaceful Norman landscape
and her dreams of peace; she gave a great cry, and started up to
her feet, and looked him in the face. In a moment, in
the twinkling of an eye, all her fair hopes went toppling over like
a house of cards. He might well say good heavens! For her part it
was all she could do to keep the sudden tears of vexation and
disappointment and dismay within her smarting eyes.
"Who would have thought to find you here?" he said, coming in and
holding out his hand to her; and she could not refuse to take it. She could not accuse him of coming to look for Nora. She
could not call in François and M. le Curé and a few of the
villagers, and have him pitched over the ramparts, as she would have
liked to do. She had to give him her hand, all trembling, and to
say, "How do you do, Sir Harry?" as politeness demanded. And at
any moment Nora might come in, who might not have her mother's
objections! For he was a bright-eyed, gallant young fellow,
and would
have given the Curé and François enough to do, had Mrs. Mildmay's
benevolent desire been carried out. He came up to her with
such eager cordiality, and such an affectionate interest
in her movements, that she could not entertain the soothing idea that possibly it was not
that he
meant. Alas! the poor mother knew all about it. She knew how civil
they always were, and how anxious to please. She knew the
very smile, and the air of such deep deference, and the profound,
disinterested devotion. "Is it possible that you are staying here?" he said. "What luck! I have
just sent my traps to the inn, for a few days'—hum—fishing,
you know; but I did not know what good fortune awaited me!"—The
dreadful, deceitful, young hypocrite! And he sat down without being
invited, and set a chair for himself opposite the door, where
he could see everybody who entered; and Nora might come in any
minute! Mrs. Mildmay felt that affairs were critical, and that there
was not a moment to be lost.
"I was just going up to the chapel," she said, with outward calm,
but all the inward commotion which arises from telling a lie. "I
shall be glad to show it you. Come, it will be so good of you to
give
me your arm up all those stairs."
"What, now?" said Sir Harry; "you can't think how hot it is outside
and the smell of the fish. Of course I shall be delighted; but if I
might
advise, in the cool of the evening―"
"Oh! we are not in Italy, you know," Mrs. Mildmay said: "I never
feel it too hot here, and we go out in hats, and don't make any
toilette. The Château is well worth seeing; I am pretty well up in
it
now, and we are just going away. Come, it will be charming to show
you everything," said the unprincipled woman; and with all this
string of fibs she led him out, and took his arm as she had
said, and climbed the stairs, and pointed out all the views to him. Nora was no doubt on the sands, and so long as she absorbed him in
architecture, and kept his eyes turned upwards, no
immediate harm could come of it. It was very hot, and the sun blazed
down upon all the stony ramparts and all the scorching stairs, and
the fish was overwhelming and the ascent more
inhuman than ever. Mrs. Mildmay felt as if she must drop, but still
she hurried on. She told him the dates of the building (and made a
dreadful mess of it), and the legend, and how it had all come
about;
and pointed out the chapel, towering, clustering up, a climax to all
those buttresses and pinnacles, where the Archangel stood
enthroned. Poor soul! she did it as the slave-woman crossed the
ice, that her child might not be taken away from her. Sir Harry
Preston's good-looking young face was as terrible to her as if he
had been a hideous planter who would have whipped Nora and
made her pick cotton. Had he not already
paid the poor girl
attention, and made all sorts of deceitful pretences to gain
admission in Park lane? And thus she toiled on to gain
admission, half-fainting, up to the castle door.
What was the awful spectacle that the mother found awaiting her
there? Sir Harry thought it the prettiest sight in the world, but
Mrs. Mildmay grasped his arm to support herself when it dawned
upon her, and would have fallen if he had not caught her. It was simply Nora, seated under the
gloomy portal, just where the portcullis came down, sitting against the gloom, with
the darkness going off into a deep black curve behind her, with her
Titian hair blown about her shoulders, her hat off, her soft cheeks
glowing, her great eyes opening wide with wonder and—heaven knows what besides. That was what the poor mother's
over-caution had brought upon her. He might have gone away, but
she
had insisted on bringing him here. If she did not faint it was
only from the fear that he might say something to Nora over her
prostrate body. Mrs. Mildmay sat down on the stair beside her
daughter, and looked piteously in her face, and made a last trial.
How she had the strength for it she never could tell.
"Nora, my love, I am sure you are tired," she said. "Is it not
surprising to see Sir Harry here? I am going to show him the
chapel; but I am sure you are tired and hot, and want to go home. Go
and lie down a little and rest, and never mind waiting for me. We
are going away so soon, your know, I should like to see the chapel
once more."
All this Mrs. Mildmay accompanied with looks which were much more
eloquent than words—looks which said, "You know I dare not speak
any plainer. Oh, go home, and don't drive me to
despair!" And it was not to be supposed that Nora should like being
sent home―though she was not quite prepared, being taken thus all
in a moment, to fly in her mother's face.
She sat on the stair and mused, and it all went very quickly through
her young head. Naturally she saw the matter from a point of view
very different from that of Mrs. Mildmay; but Nora was at
the bottom a good girl enough, and she did not want, as we have
said, to fly in her mother's face. She had shaken hands with Sir
Harry, and when she saw him it had certainly occurred to her that
he would be rather a pleasant change from the Curé and Le Brique;
and if it should perhaps prove possible to please her mother and not
to send away the stranger—just then a happy inspiration
came to Nora. She put on her hat, and got up from the stair, and
took Mrs. Mildmay's arm.
"Mamma, I think Sir Harry had better look at the chapel by himself,"
she said with a freedom which pretty young women of eighteen do not
hesitate to take. "François is there, and will tell him all
about it. It is a great deal too hot for you to be out, and I am as
tired as ever I can be. Good-bye, Sir Harry. You will find that François
can tell you everything." It was done with a perfectly
natural
impertinence, but yet it cost poor Nora something. She had seen just
for one moment the pleading of her mother's eyes, and she had been
startled by it. Her heart for the moment gave in to the
superior force. Sir Harry was a pleasant diversion; but still, if
it was so serious as that.—And she turned to the descent, and turned
her back upon him, and left him to go sight-seeing, as if it
was quite natural for a young man to come two days' journey out of
the civilized world, and run the risk of being swallowed up by the
sands or the tide, to study architecture at Mont Saint Michel.
When Mrs. Mildmay saw it her heart leaped up in her fatigued bosom. She began to be sorry for Sir Harry as soon as she thought Nora did
not mind. After all he had a nice young face, and the
blank look upon it went to her heart.
"Perhaps we may meet again," said the relenting woman. "Good-bye Sir
Harry. But we are going away almost directly," she said, with
renewed panic—and then, divided between cruelty and
compunction, went away after her daughter, with knees that trembled,
and took Nora's arm. As for Sir Harry, he ascended up under the
dark portal, up all those gloomy steps, in far
from a cheerful frame of mind. As if he cared for the castle, or
François's explanations! And the two ladies continued their way down
the scorching stairs. But it was not as if nothing had
happened. After Sir Harry was out of sight Nora did not afford one
word to her deprecating, guilty mother. Her great eyes grew bigger
and bigger, and swam translucent in those two tears which
filled them just to overflowing. After all, perhaps, it was not to
be wondered at. He was very nice, and had paid her a great deal of
attention, and, on the whole, was very different from Le Brique
and M. le Curé. And then to think he should have come here in such a
romantic, unexpected way. She did not say a word all the way down,
and when she got home she had a headache, and
took refuge in her own room, and cried. And poor Mrs. Mildmay took
her seat again, very gloomy, in M. le Aumonier's arm-chair, and
watched the reflection of the sunset burning far away on the
church-tower at Avranches, and the cockle-gatherers coming home from
the sands, and the slow evening clouds settling down upon the great,
monotonous, colourless waste, with its margin of
doubtful fields—and felt in her heart, poor woman, that the repose
of Mont Saint Michel was at an end.
But it was not to be expected that it should end just in this way if
Sir Harry was good for anything; and he was good for a great deal. The poor young man could not sleep all night; that is to say,
he slept about twice as long as Mrs. Mildmay did, but that was a
different matter; and in the morning he regained his courage. If
Mont Saint Michel was a good place to hide in, it was a far better,
indeed, a perfectly unexceptionable place to make love in. And, to
tell the truth, it ended in that church in Knightsbridge, amid a
great flutter of lace and display of jewels. The best of it was,
that Sir
Harry managed somehow to impress upon Mrs. Mildmay's mind the idea
that he was the impossible son-in-law. It was a delusion she had
never given in to before, though she had so many
daughters married. But it must be allowed there was something
touching in the way he gave her his arm up and down those stony
stairs, and sought her society, and made love to her. When
they left that little rocky refuge, even the mother was reluctant to
dismiss the young invader who had made a conquest of her; and the
fact was she gave in quite willingly at last, and went down to
Sir Harry's place in the country to wait for them when the young
people went away upon their wedding tour; though the other girls
thought it was not fair. And they had a picture made of Mont
Saint Michel, standing all lonely amid its sands, between earth and
sea. And the historian of this adventure cannot do
better than add as her moral, that the Archangel still stands
divinely poised as Raphael made him, on his Point of rock, and that
there is not a better hiding-place to be found anywhere, if one
should happen to have Mrs. Mildmay's fair pretext or any other
reasonable cause to seek a refuge a little way out of the civilized world.
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