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CHAPTER VI.
When they sawe the darksome night,
They sat them downe and cryed.—BABES IN THE
WOOD. |
I SPENT the holidays of two other autumns in this
delightful Highland valley. On the second, as on the first occasion, I had
accompanied my mother, specially invited; but the third journey was an
unsanctioned undertaking of my own and a Cromarty cousin, my contemporary,
to whom, as he had never travelled the way, I had to act as protector and
guide. I reached my aunt's cottage without mishap or adventure of any
kind; but found, that during the twelvemonth which had just elapsed, great
changes had taken place in the circumstances of the household. My cousin
George, who had married in the interim, had gone to reside in a cottage of
his own; and I soon ascertained that my cousin William, who had been for
several months resident with his father, had not nearly so many visitors
as before; nor did presents of salmon and haunches of venison come at all
so often the way. Immediately after the final discomfiture of Napoleon, an
extensive course of speculation in which he had ventured to engage had
turned out so ill, that, instead of making him a fortune, as at first
seemed probable, it had landed him in the Gazette; and he was now tiding
over the difficulties of a time of settlement, six hundred miles from the
scene of disaster, in the hope of being soon enabled to begin the world
anew. He bore his losses with quiet magnanimity; and I learned to know and
like him better during his period of eclipse than in the previous time,
when summer friends had fluttered around him by scores. He was a generous,
warm-hearted man, who felt, with the force of an implanted instinct not
vouchsafed to all, that it is more blessed to give than to receive; and it
was doubtless a wise provision of nature, and worthy, in this point of
view, the special attention of moralists and philosophers, that his old
associates, the grand gentlemen, did not now often come his way; seeing
that his inability any longer to give would cost him, in the
circumstances, great pain.
I was much with my cousin George in his new dwelling.
It was one of the most delightful of Highland cottages, and George was
happy in it, far above the average lot of humanity, with his young wife.
He had dared, in opposition to the general voice of the district, to build
it half-way up the slope of a beautiful tomhan, that, waving with birch
from base to summit, rose regular as a pyramid from the bottom of the
valley, and commanded a wide view of Loch Shin on the one hand, with the
moors and mountains that lie beyond; and overlooked, on the other, with
all the richer portions of the Barony of Gruids, the church and
picturesque hamlet of Lairg. Half-hidden by the graceful birchen
trees that sprang up thick around, with their silvery boles and light
foliage, it was rather a nest than a house; and George, emancipated, by
his reading, and his residence for a time in the south, from at least the
wilder beliefs of the locality, failed to suffer, as had been predicted,
for his temerity; as the "good people," [43]
who, much to their credit, had made choice of the place for themselves
long before, never, to his knowledge, paid him a visit. He had
brought his share of the family library with him; and it was a large
share. He had mathematical instruments too, and a colour-box, and
the tools of his profession; in especial, large hammers fitted to break
great stones; and I was generously made free of them all,—books,
instruments, colour-box, and hammers. His cottage, too, commanded,
from its situation, a delightful variety of most interesting objects.
It had all the advantages of my uncle's domicile, and a great many more.
The nearer shores of Loch Shin were scarce half a mile away;
and there was a low long promontory which shot out into the lake, that was
covered at that time by an ancient wood of doddered time-worn trees, and
bore amid its outer solitudes, where the waters circled round its terminal
apex, one of those towers of hoary eld—memorials, mayhap, of the primeval
stone period in our island, to which the circular erections of Glenelg and
Dornadilla belong. It was formed of undressed stones of vast size,
uncemented by mortar; and through the thick walls ran winding passages—the
only covered portions of the building, for the inner area had never been
furnished with a roof—in which, when a sudden shower descended, the
loiterer amid the ruins could find shelter. It was a fascinating
place to a curious boy. Some of the old trees had become mere
whitened skeletons, that stretched forth their blasted arms to the sky,
and had so slight a hold of the soil, that I have overthrown them with a
delightful crash, by merely running against them; the heath rose thick
beneath, and it was a source of fearful joy to know that it harboured
snakes full three feet long; and though the loch itself is by no means one
of our finer Highland lochs, it furnished, to at least my eye at this
time, a delightful prospect in still October mornings, when the light
gossamer went sailing about in white filmy threads, and birch and hazel,
glorified by decay, served to embroider with gold the brown hillsides
which, standing up on either hand in their long vista of more than twenty
miles, form the barriers of the lake; and when the sun, still struggling
with a blue diluted haze, fell delicately on the smooth surface, or
twinkled for a moment on the silvery coats of the little trout, as they
sprang a few inches into the air, and then broke the water into a series
of concentric rings in their descent. When I last passed the way,
both the old wood and the old tower were gone; and for the latter, which,
though much a ruin, might have survived for ages, I found only a long
extent of dry-stone dike, and the wide ring formed by the old
foundation-stones which had proved too massive to be removed. A
greatly more entire erection of the same age and style, known of old as
Dunaliscag—which stood on the Ross-shire side of the Dornoch Firth, and
within whose walls, forming, as it did, a sort of half-way stage, I used,
on these Sutherlandshire journeys, to eat my piece of cake with a double
relish—I found, on last passing the way, similarly represented. Its
grey venerable walls, and dark winding passages of many steps—even the
huge pear-shaped lintel, which had stretched over its little door, and
which, according to tradition, a great Fingalian lady had once thrown
across the Dornoch Firth from off the point of her spindle—had all
disappeared, and I saw instead, only a dry-stone wall. The men of
the present generation do certainly live in a most enlightened age—an age
in which every trace of the barbarism of our early ancestors is fast
disappearing; and were we but more zealous in immortalizing the public
benefactors who efface such dark memorials of the past as the tower of
Dunaliscag and the promontory of Loch Shin, it would be, doubtless, an
encouragement to others to speed us yet further on in the march of
improvement. It seems scarce fair that the enlightened destroyers of
Arthur's Oven or of the bas-relief known as Robin of Redesdale, or of the
Town-cross of Edinburgh, should enjoy all the celebrity attendant on such
acts, while the equally deserving iconoclasts of Dunaliscag and the tower
of Loch Shin should be suffered to die without their fame.
I remember spending one singularly delightful morning with
Cousin George beside the ancient tower. He pointed out to me, amid
the heath, several plants to which the old Highlanders used to attach
occult virtues,—plants that disenchanted bewitched cattle, not by their
administration as medicines to the sick animals, but by bringing them in
contact, as charms, with the injured milk; and plants which were used as
philters, either for procuring love, or exciting hatred. It was, he
showed me, the root of a species of orchis that was employed in making the
philters. While most of the radical fibres of the plant retain the
ordinary cylindrical form, two of their number are usually found developed
into starchy tubercles; but, belonging apparently to different seasons,
one of the two is of a dark colour, and of such gravity that it sinks in
water; while the other is light-coloured, and floats. And a powder
made of the light-coloured tubercle formed the main ingredient, said my
cousin, in the love philter; while a powder made of the dark-coloured one
excited, it was held, only antipathy and dislike. And then George
would speculate on the origin of a belief which could, as he said, neither
be suggested by reason, nor tested by experience. Living, however,
among a people with whom beliefs of the kind were still vital and
influential, he did not wholly escape their influence; and I saw him, in
one instance, administer to an ailing cow a little live trout, simply
because the traditions of the district assured him, that a trout swallowed
alive by the creature was the only specific in the case. Some of his
Highland stories were very curious. He communicated to me, for
example, beside the broken tower, a tradition illustrative of the Celtic
theory of dreaming, of which I have since often thought. Two young
men had been spending the early portion of a warm summer day in exactly
such a scene as that in which he communicated the anecdote. There
was an ancient ruin beside them, separated, however, from the mossy bank
on which they sat, by a slender runnel, across which there lay,
immediately over a miniature cascade, a few withered grass stalks.
Overcome by the heat of the day, one of the young men fell asleep; his
companion watched drowsily beside him; when all at once the watcher was
aroused to attention by seeing a little indistinct form, scarce larger
than a humble-bee, issue from the mouth of the sleeping man, and, leaping
upon the moss, move downwards to the runnel, which it crossed along the
withered grass stalks, and then disappeared amid the interstices of the
ruin. Alarmed by what he saw, the watcher hastily shook his
companion by the shoulder, and awoke him; though, with all his haste, the
little cloud-like creature, still more rapid in its movements, issued from
the interstice into which it had gone, and, flying across the runnel,
instead of creeping along the grass stalks and over the sward, as before,
it re-entered the mouth of the sleeper, just as he was in the act of
awakening. "What is the matter with you?" said the watcher, greatly
alarmed. "What ails you?" "Nothing ails me," replied the
other; "but you have robbed me of a most delightful dream. I dreamed
I was walking through a fine rich country, and came at length to the
shores of a noble river; and, just where the clear water went thundering
down a precipice, there was a bridge all of silver, which I crossed; and
then, entering a noble palace on the opposite side, I saw great heaps of
gold and jewels, and I was just going to load myself with treasure, when
you rudely awoke me, and I lost all." I know not what the asserters
of the clairvoyant faculty may think of the story; but I rather believe I
have occasionally seen them make use of anecdotes that did not rest on
evidence a great deal more solid than the Highland legend, and that
illustrated not much more clearly the philosophy of the phenomena with
which they profess to deal.
Of all my cousins, Cousin George was the one whose pursuits most nearly
resembled my own, and in whose society I most delighted to share. He
did sometimes borrow a day from his work, even after his marriage; but
then, according to the poet, it was
"The love he bore to science was in fault."
The borrowed day was always spent in transferring to paper some
architectural design, or in working out some mathematical problem, or in
rendering some piece of Gaelic verse into English, or some piece of
English prose into Gaelic; and as he was a steady, careful man, the
appropriated day was never seriously missed. The winter, too, was
all his own, for, in those northern districts, masons are never employed
from a little after Hallowday, till the second, or even third month of
spring, a circumstance which I carefully noted at this time in its bearing
on the amusements of my cousin, and which afterwards weighed not a little
with me when I came to make choice of a profession for myself. And
George's winters were always ingeniously spent. He had a great
command of Gaelic, and a very tolerable command of English; and so a
translation of Bunyan's "Visions of Heaven and Hell," which he published
several years subsequent to this period, was not only well received by his
country folk of Sutherland and Ross, but was said by competent judges to
be really a not inadequate rendering of the meaning and spirit of the
noble old tinker of Elstow. I, of course, could be no authority
respecting the merits of a translation, the language of which I did not
understand; but living much amid the literature of a time when almost
every volume, whether the Virgil of a Dryden, or the Meditations of a
Harvey, was heralded by its sets of complimentary verses, and having a
deep interest in whatever Cousin George undertook and performed, I
addressed to him, in the old style, a few introductory stanzas, which, to
indulge me in the inexpressible luxury of seeing myself in print for the
first time, he benevolently threw into type. They survive to remind
me that my cousin's belief in Ossian did exert some little influence over
my phraseology when I addressed myself to him, and that, with the rashness
natural to immature youth, I had at this time the temerity to term myself
"poet."
Yes, oft I've said, as oft I've seen
The men who dwell its hills among,
That Morven's land has ever been
A land of valour, worth, and song.
But Ignorance, of darkness dire,
Has o'er that land a mantle spread;
And all untuned and rude the lyre
That sounds beneath its gloomy shade.
With muse of calm untiring wing,
Oh, be it thine, my friend, to show
The Celtic swain how Saxons sing
Of Hell's dire gloom and Heaven's glow!
So shall the meed of fame be thine,
The glistening bay-wreath green and gay;
Thy poet, too, though weak his line,
Shall frame for thee th' approving lay. |
Longing for some profession in which his proper work would
give exercise to the faculties which he most delighted to cultivate, my
cousin resolved on becoming candidate for a Gaelic Society school—a poor
enough sort of office then, as now; but which, by investing a little money
in cattle, by tilling a little croft, and by now and then emitting from
the press a Gaelic translation, might, he thought, be rendered
sufficiently remunerative to supply the very moderate wants of himself and
his little family. And so he set out for Edinburgh, amply furnished
with testimonials that meant more in his case than testimonials usually
mean, to stand an examination before a Committee of the Gaelic School
Society. Unluckily for his success, however, instead of bringing
with him his ordinary Sabbath-day suit of dark brown and blue (the kilt
had been assumed for but a few weeks, to please his brother William), he
had provided himself with a suit of tartan, as at once cheap and
respectable, and appeared before the Committee—if not in the garb, in at
least the many-coloured hues, of his clan—a robust manly Highlander,
apparently as well suited to enact the part of colour-serjeant to the
Forty-Second, as to teach children their letters. A grave member of
the Society, at that time in high repute for sanctity of character, but
who afterwards, becoming righteous overmuch, was loosened from his charge,
and straightway, spurning the ground, rose into an Irvingite angel, came
at once to the conclusion that no such type of man, encased in
clan-tartan, could possibly have the root of the matter in him; and so he
determined that Cousin George should be cast in the examination. But
then, as it could not be alleged with any decency that my cousin was
inadmissible on the score of his having too much tartan, it was agreed
that he should be declared inadmissible on the score of his having too
little Gaelic. And, of course, at this result the examinators
arrived; and George, ultimately to his advantage, was cast accordingly.
I still remember the astonishment evinced by a worthy catechist of the
north—himself a Gaelic teacher—on being told how my cousin had fared.
"George Munro not allowed to pass," he said, "for want of right Gaelic!
Why, he has more right Gaelic in his own self than all the Society's
teachers in this corner of Scotland put together. They are the
curiousest people, some of these good gentlemen of the Edinburgh
Committees, that I ever heard of: they're just like our country lawyers."
It would, however, be far from fair to regard this transaction, which took
place, I may mention, so late as the year 1829, as a specimen of the
actings of either civic societies or country lawyers. George's chief
examinator on the occasion was the minister of the Gaelic Chapel of the
place, at that time one of the Society's Committee for the year; and, not
being a remarkably scrupulous man, he seems to have stretched a point or
two, in compliance with the pious wishes and occult judgment of the
Society's Secretary. But the anecdote is not without its lesson.
When devout Walter Taits set themselves ingeniously to manoeuvre with the
purest of intentions, and for what they deem the best of purposes—when,
founding their real grounds of objection on one set of appearances, they
found their ostensible grounds of objection on another and entirely
different set—they are always exposed to the signal danger of—getting
indevout Duncan M'Caigs to assist them. Only two years from the
period of my cousin's examination before the Society, his reverend
examinator received at the bar of the High Court of Justiciary, in the
character of a thief convicted of eleven acts of stealing, sentence of
transportation for fourteen years.
I had several interesting excursions with my cousin William.
We found ourselves one evening—on our way home from a mineral spring which
he had discovered among the hills—in a little lonely valley, which opened
transversely into that of the Gruids, and which though its sides were
mottled with green furrow marked patches, had not at the time a single
human habitation. At the upper end, however, there stood the ruins
of a narrow two-storied house, with one of its gables still entire from
foundation-stone to the shattered chimney-top, but with the other gable,
and the larger part of the front wall, laid prostrate along the sward.
My cousin, after bidding me remark the completeness of the solitude, and
that the eye could not command from the site of the ruin a single spot
where man had ever dwelt, told me that it had been the scene of the strict
seclusion, amounting almost to imprisonment, about eighty years before, of
a lady of high birth, over whom, in early youth, there had settled a sad
cloud of infamy. She had borne a child to one of the menials of her
father's house, which, with the assistance of her paramour, she had
murdered; and being too high for the law to reach in these northern parts,
at a time when the hereditary jurisdiction still existed entire, and her
father was the sole magistrate, possessed of the power of life and death
in the district, she was sent by her family to wear out life in this
lonely retreat, in which she remained secluded from the world for more
than half a century. And then, long after the abolition of the local
jurisdictions, and when her father and brother, with the entire generation
that knew of her crime, had passed away, she was permitted to take up her
abode in one of the seaport towns of the north, where she was still
remembered at this time as a crazy old lady, invariably silent and sullen,
that used to be seen in the twilight flitting about the more retired lanes
and closes, like an unhappy ghost. The story, as told me in that
solitary valley, just as the sun was sinking over the hill beyond, power
fully impressed my fancy. Crabbe would have delighted to tell it;
and I now relate it, as it lies fast wedged in my memory, mainly for the
peculiar light which it casts on the times of the hereditary
jurisdictions. It forms an example of one of the judicial
banishments of an age that used, in ordinary cases, to save itself all
sorts of trouble of the kind, by hanging its victims. I may add,
that I saw a good deal of the neighbourhood at this time in the company of
my cousin, and gleaned, from my visits to shieling and cottage, most of my
conceptions of the state of the Northern Highlands, ere the clearance
system had depopulated the interior of the country, and precipitated its
poverty-stricken population upon the coasts.
There was, however, one of my excursions with Cousin William,
that turned out rather unfortunately. The river Shin has its bold
salmon-leap, which even yet, after several hundred pounds' worth of
gunpowder have been expended in sloping its angle of ascent, to facilitate
the passage of the fish, is a fine picturesque object, but which at this
time, when it presented all its original abruptness, was a finer object
still. Though distant about three miles from my uncle's cottage, we
could distinctly hear its roarings from beside his door, when October
nights were frosty and still; and as we had been told many strange stories
regarding it—stories about bold fishers who had threaded their dangerous
way between the overhanging rock and the water, and who, striking
outwards, had speared salmon through the foam of the cataract as they
leaped—stories, too, of skilful sportsmen, who, taking their stand in the
thick wood beyond, had shot the rising animals, as one shoots a bird
flying,—both my Cromarty cousin and myself were extremely desirous to
visit the scene of such feats and marvels; and Cousin William obligingly
agreed to act as our guide and instructor by the way. He did look
somewhat askance at our naked feet; and we heard him remark, in an under
tone, to his mother, that when he and his brothers were boys, she never
suffered them to visit her Cromarty relations unshod; but neither
cousin Walter nor myself had the magnanimity to say, that our
mothers had also taken care to see us shod; but that, deeming it lighter
and cooler to walk barefoot, the good women had no sooner turned their
backs than we both agreed to fling our shoes into a corner, and set out on
our journey without them. The walk to the salmon-leap was a
thoroughly delightful one. We passed through the woods of Achanie,
famous for their nuts; startled, as we went, a herd of roe deer; and found
the leap itself far exceeded all anticipation. The Shin becomes
savagely wild in its lower reaches. Rugged precipices of gneiss,
with scattered bushes fast anchored in the crevices, overhang the stream,
which boils in many a dark pool, and foams over many a steep rapid; and
immediately beneath, where it threw itself headlong, at this time, over
the leap—for it now merely rushes in snow adown a steep slope—there was a
caldron, so awfully dark and profound, that, according to the accounts of
the district, it had no bottom; and so vexed was it by a frightful
whirlpool, that no one ever fairly caught in its eddies had succeeded, it
was said, in regaining the shore. We saw, as we stood amid the
scraggy trees of an overhanging wood, the salmon leaping up by scores,
most of them, however, to fall back again into the pool—for only a very
few stray fish that attempted the cataract at its edges seemed to succeed
in forcing their upward way; we saw, too, on a shelf of the precipitous
but wooded bank, the rude hut, formed of undressed logs, where a solitary
watcher used to take his stand, to protect them from the spear and
fowlingpiece of the poacher, and which in stormy nights, when the cry of
the kelpie mingled with the roar of the flood, must have been a sublime
lodge in the wilderness, in which a poet might have delighted to dwell.
I was excited by the scene; and, when heedlessly leaping from a tall
lichened stone into the long heath below, my right foot came so heavily in
contact with a sharp-edged fragment of rock concealed in the moss, that I
almost screamed aloud with pain. I, however, suppressed the shriek,
and, sitting down and setting my teeth close, bore the pang, until it
gradually moderated, and my foot, to the ankle, seemed as if almost
divested of feeling. In our return, I halted as I walked, and lagged
considerably behind my companions; and during the whole evening the
injured foot seemed as if dead, save that it glowed with an intense heat.
I was, however, at ease enough to write a sublime piece of blank verse on
the cataract; and, proud of my production, I attempted reading it to
Cousin William. But William had taken lessons in recitation under
the great Mr Thelwall, politician and elocutionist; and deeming it proper
to set me right in all the words which I mispronounced—three out of every
four at least, and not unfrequently the fourth word also—the reading of
the piece proved greatly stiffer and slower work than the writing of it;
and, somewhat to my mortification, my cousin declined giving me any
definite judgment on its merits, even when I had done. He insisted,
however, on the signal advantages of reading well. He had an
acquaintance, he said, a poet, who had taken lessons under Mr Thelwall,
and who, though his verses, when he published, met with no great success,
was so indebted to his admirable elocution, as to be invariably successful
when he read them to his friends.
Next morning my injured foot was stiff and sore; and, after a
few days of suffering, it suppurated and discharged great quantities of
blood and matter. It was, however, fast getting well again, when,
tired of inaction, and stirred up by my cousin Walter, who wearied sadly
of the Highlands, I set out with him, contrary to all advice, on my
homeward journey, and, for the first six or eight miles, got on tolerably
well. My cousin, a stout active lad, carried the bag of Highland
luxuries—cheese, and butter, and a full peck of nuts—with which we had
been laden by my aunt; and, by way of indemnity for taking both my share
of the burden and his own, he demanded of me one of my long extempore
stories, which, shortly after leaving my aunt's cottage, I accordingly
began. My stories, when I had cousin Walter for my companion, were
usually co-extensive with the journey to be performed: they became ten,
fifteen, or twenty miles long, agreeably to the measure of the road, and
the determination of the milestones; and what was at present required was
a story of about thirty miles in length, whose one end would touch the
Barony of Gruids, and the other the Cromarty Ferry. At the end,
however, of the first six or eight miles, my story broke suddenly down,
and my foot, after becoming very painful, began to bleed. The day,
too, had grown raw and unpleasant, and after twelve o'clock there came on
a thick wetting drizzle. I limped on silently in the rear, leaving
at every few paces a blotch of blood upon the road, until, in the parish
of Edderton, we both remembered that there was a short cut through the
hills, which two of our older cousins had taken during the previous year,
when on a similar journey; and as Walter deemed himself equal to anything
which his elder cousins could perform, and as I was exceedingly desirous
to get home as soon as possible, and by the shortest way, we both struck
up the hill-side, and soon found ourselves in a dreary waste, without
trace of human habitation.
Walter, however, pushed on bravely and in the right
direction; and, though my head was now becoming light and my sight dim, I
succeeded in struggling after him, until, just as the night was falling,
we reached a heathy ridge, which commands the northern sea-board of the
Cromarty Firth, and saw the cultivated country and the sands of Nigg lying
only a few miles below. The sands are dangerous at certain hours of
the tide, and accidents frequently happen in the fords; but then there
could, we thought, be no fear of us; for though Walter could not swim, I
could; and as I was to lead the way, he of course would be safe, by simply
avoiding the places where I lost footing. The night fell rather
thick than dark, for there was a moon overhead, though it could not be
seen through the cloud; but, though Walter steered well, the downward way
was exceedingly rough and broken, and we had wandered from the path.
I retain a faint but painful recollection of a scraggy moor, and of dark
patches of planting, through which I had to grope onwards, stumbling as I
went; and then, that I began to feel as if I were merely dreaming, and
that the dream was a very horrible one, from which I could not awaken.
And finally, on reaching a little cleared spot on the edge of the
cultivated country, I dropped down as suddenly as if struck by a bullet,
and, after an ineffectual attempt to rise, fell fast asleep. Walter
was much frightened; but he succeeded in carrying me to a little rick of
dried grass which stood up in the middle of the clearing; and after
covering me well up with the grass, he laid himself down beside me.
Anxiety, however, kept him awake; and he was frightened, as he lay, to
hear the sounds of psalm-singing, in the old Gaelic style, coming
apparently from a neighbouring clump of wood. Walter believed in the
fairies; and, though psalmody was not one of the reputed accomplishments
of the "good people" in the low country, he did not know but that in the
Highlands the case might be different. Some considerable time after
the singing had ceased, there was a slow, heavy step heard approaching the
rick; an exclamation in Gaelic followed; and then a rough hard hand
grasped Walter by the naked heel. He started up, and found himself
confronted by an old, grey-headed man, the inmate of a cottage, which,
hidden in the neighbouring clump, had escaped his notice.
The old man, in the belief that we were gipsies, was at first
disposed to be angry at the liberty we had taken with his hayrick; but
Walter's simple story mollified him at once, and he expressed deep regret
that "poor boys, who had met with an accident," should have laid them down
in such an night under the open sky, and a house so near. "It was
putting disgrace," he said, "on a Christian land." I was assisted
into his cottage, whose only other inmate, an aged woman, the old
Highlander's wife, received us with great kindness and sympathy; and on
Walter's declaring our names and lineage, the hospitable regrets and
regards of both host and hostess waxed stronger and louder still.
They knew our maternal grandfather and grandmother, and remembered old
Donald Roy; and when my cousin named my father, there was a
strongly-expressed burst of sorrow and commiseration, that the son of a
man whom they had seen so "well to do in the world" should be in
circumstances so deplorably destitute. I was too ill to take much
note of what passed. I only remember, that of the food which they
placed before me, I could partake of only a few spoonfuls of milk; and
that the old woman as she washed my feet, fell a-crying over me. I
was, however, so greatly recruited by a night's rest in their best bed, as
to be fit in the morning to be removed, in the old man's rung-cart,
to the house of a relation in the parish of Nigg, from which, after a
second day's rest, I was conveyed in another cart to the Cromarty Ferry.
And thus terminated the last of my boyish visits to the Highlands.
Both my grandfather and grandmother had come of long-lived
races, and Death did not often knock at the family door. But the
time when the latter "should cross the river," though she was some six or
eight years younger than her husband, came first; and so, according to
Bunyan, she "called for her children, and told them that her hour had
come." She was a quiet, retiring woman, and, though intimately
acquainted with her Bible, not in the least fitted to make a female
Professor of Theology: she could live her religion better than talk it;
but she now earnestly recommended to her family the great interests once
more; and, as its various members gathered round her bed, she besought one
of her daughters to read to her, in their hearing, that eighth chapter of
the Romans which declares that "there is now no condemnation to them which
are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit."
She repeated, in a sinking voice, the concluding verses,—"For I am
persuaded, that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor
powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor
any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God,
which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." And, resting in confidence on
the hope which the passage so powerfully expresses, she slept her last
sleep, in simple trust that all would be well with her in the morning of
the general awakening. I retain her wedding-ring, the gift of Donald
Roy. It is a sorely-wasted fragment, worn through on one of the
sides, for she had toiled long and hard in her household, and the breach
in the circlet, with its general thinness, testify to the fact; but its
gold is still bright and pure; and, though not much of a relic-monger, I
would hesitate to exchange it for the Holy Coat of Treves, or for waggon-loads
of the wood of the "true cross."
My grandmother's term of life had exceeded by several
twelvemonths the full threescore and ten; but when, only a few years
after, Death next visited the circle, it was on its youngest members that
his hand was laid. A deadly fever swept over the place, and my two
sisters—the one in her tenth, the other in her twelfth year—sank under it
within a few days of each other. Jean, the elder, who resided with
my uncles, was a pretty little girl, of fine intellect, and a great
reader; Catherine, the younger, was lively and affectionate, and a general
favourite; and their loss plunged the family in deep gloom. My
uncles made little show of grief, but they felt strongly: my mother for
weeks and months wept for her children, like Rachel of old, and refused to
be comforted, because they were not; but my grandfather, now in his
eighty-fifth year, seemed to be rendered wholly bankrupt in heart by their
loss. As is perhaps not uncommon in such cases, his warmer
affections strode across the generation of grown-up men and women—his sons
and daughters -and luxuriated among the children their descendants.
The boys, his grandsons, were too wild for him; but the two little
girls—gentle and affectionate—had seized on his whole heart; and now that
they were gone, it seemed as if he had nothing in the world left to care
for. He had been, up till this time, notwithstanding his great age,
a hale and active man. In 1803, when France threatened invasion, he
was, though on the verge of seventy, one of the first men in the place to
apply for arms as a volunteer; but now he drooped and gradually sunk, and
longed for the rest of the grave. "It is God's will," I heard him
say about this time, to a neighbour who congratulated him on his long term
of life and unbroken health—"It is God's will, but not my desire."
And in rather more than a twelvemonth after the death of my sisters, he
was seized by almost his only illness—for, for nearly seventy years he had
not been confined to bed for a single day—and was carried off in less than
a week. During the last few days, the fever under which he sank
mounted to his brain; and he talked in unbroken narrative of the events of
his past life. He began with his earliest recollections; described
the battle of Culloden as he had witnessed it from the Hill of Cromarty,
and the appearance of Duke William and the royal army as seen during a
subsequent visit to Inverness; ran over the after events of his career—his
marriage, his interviews with Donald Roy, his business transactions with
neighbouring proprietors, long dead at the time; and finally, after
reaching, in his oral history, his term of middle life, he struck off into
another track, and began laying down, with singular coherency, the
statements of doctrine in a theological work of the old school, which he
had been recently perusing. And finally, his mind clearing as his
end approached, he died in good hope. It is not uninteresting to
look back on two such generations of Scotchmen as those to which my uncles
and grandfather belonged. They differed very considerably in some
respects. My grandfather, with most of his contemporaries of the
same class, had a good deal of the Tory in his composition. He stood
by George III. in the early policy of his reign, and by his adviser Lord
Bute; reprobated Wilkes and Junius; and gravely questioned whether
Washington and his coadjutors, the American Republicans, were other than
bold rebels. My uncles, on the contrary, were stanch Whigs, who
looked upon Washington as perhaps the best and greatest man of modern
times—stood firm by the policy of Fox, as opposed to that of Pitt—and held
that the war with France, which immediately succeeded the First
Revolution, was, however thoroughly it changed its character afterwards,
one of unjustifiable aggression. But however greatly my uncles and
grandfather may have differed on these points, they were equally honest
men.
The rising generation can perhaps form no very adequate
conception of the number and singular interest of the links which serve to
connect the recollections of a man who has seen his fiftieth birthday,
with what to them must appear a remote past. I have seen at least
two men who fought at Culloden—one on the side of the King, the other on
that of the Prince—and, with these, not a few who witnessed the battle
from a distance. I have conversed with an aged woman that had
conversed, in turn, with an aged man who had attained to mature manhood
when the persecutions of Charles and James were at their height, and
remember the general regret excited by the death of Renwick. My
eldest maternal aunt—the mother of Cousin George—remembered old John
Feddes—turned of ninety at the time; and John's buccaneering expedition
could not have dated later than the year 1687. I have known many who
remembered the abolition of the hereditary jurisdictions; and have
listened to stories of executions which took place on the gallows-hills of
burghs and sheriffdoms, and of witch-burnings perpetrated on town Links
and baronial Laws. And I have felt a strange interest in these
glimpses of a past so unlike the present, when thus presented to the mind
as personal reminiscences, or as well-attested traditions, removed from
the original witnesses by but a single stage. All, for instance,
which I have yet read of witch-burnings has failed to impress me so
strongly as the recollections of an old lady who in 1722 was carried in
her nurse's arms—for she was almost an infant at the time—to witness a
witch-execution in the neighbourhood of Dornoch—the last which took place
in Scotland. The lady well remembered the awe-struck yet excited
crowd, the lighting of the fire, and the miserable appearance of the poor
fatuous creature whom it was kindled to consume, and who seemed to be so
little aware of her situation, that she held out her thin shrivelled hands
to warm them at the blaze. But what most impressed the narrator—for
it must have been a frightful incident in a sad spectacle—was the
circumstance that, when the charred remains of the victim were sputtering
and boiling amid the intense heat of the flames, a cross gust of wind
suddenly blew the smoke athwart the spectators, and she felt in her
attendant's arms as if in danger of being suffocated by the horrible
stench. I have heard described, too, by a man whose father had
witnessed the scene, an execution which took place, after a brief and
inadequate trial, on the burgh-gallows of Tain. The supposed
culprit, a Strathcarron Highlander, had been found lurking about the
place, noting, as was supposed, where the burghers kept their cattle, and
was hung as a spy; but they all, after the execution, came to deem him
innocent, from the circumstance that, when his dead body was dangling in
the wind, a white pigeon had come flying the way, and, as it passed over,
half-encircled the gibbet.
One of the two Culloden soldiers whom I remember was an old
forester who lived in a picturesque cottage among the woods of the
Cromarty Hill; and in his last illness, my uncles, whom I had always leave
to accompany, used not unfrequently to visit him. He had lived at
the time his full century, and a few months more: and I still vividly
remember the large gaunt face that used to stare from the bed as they
entered, and the huge, horny hand. He had been settled in life,
previous to the year 1745, as the head gardener of a northern proprietor,
and little dreamed of being engaged in war; but the rebellion broke out;
and as his master, a stanch Whig, had volunteered to serve on behalf of
his principles in the royal army, his gardener, a "mighty man of his
hands," went with him. As his memory for the later events of his
life was gone at this time, its preceding forty years seemed a blank, from
which not a single recollection could be drawn; but well did he remember
the battle, and more vividly still, the succeeding atrocities of the
troops of Cumberland. He had accompanied the army, after its victory
at Culloden, to the camp at Fort-Augustus, and there witnessed scenes of
cruelty and spoliation of which the recollection, after the lapse of
seventy years, and in his extreme old age, had still power enough to set
his Scotch blood aboil. While scores of cottages were flaming in the
distance, and blood not unfrequently hissing on the embers, the men and
women of the army used to be engaged in racing in sacks, or upon Highland
ponies; and when the ponies were in request, the women, who must have sat
for their portraits in Hogarth's "March to Finchley," took their seats
astride like the men. Gold circulated and liquor flowed in
abundance; and in a few weeks there were about twenty thousand head of
cattle brought in by marauding parties of the soldiery from the crushed
and impoverished Highlanders; and groups of drovers from Yorkshire and the
south of Scotland—coarse vulgar men—used to come every day to share in the
spoil, by making purchases at greatly less than half-price.
My grandfather's recollections of Culloden were merely those
of an observant boy of fourteen, who had witnessed the battle from a
distance. The day, he has told me, was drizzly and thick; and on
reaching the brow of the Hill of Cromarty, where he found many of his
townfolk already assembled, he could scarce see the opposite land.
But the fog gradually cleared away; first one hill-top came into view, and
then another; till at length the long range of coast, from the opening of
the great Caledonian valley to the promontory of Burgh-head, was dimly
visible through the haze. A little after noon there suddenly rose a
round white cloud from the Moor of Culloden, and then a second round white
cloud beside it. And then the two clouds mingled together, and went
rolling slantways on the wind towards the west; and he could hear the
rattle of the smaller fire-arms mingling with the roar of the artillery.
And then, in what seemed an exceedingly brief space of time, the cloud
dissipated and disappeared, the boom of the greater guns ceased, and a
sharp intermittent patter of musketry passed on towards Inverness.
But the battle was presented to the imagination, in these old personal
narratives, in many a diverse form. I have been told by an ancient
woman, who, on the day of the fight, was engaged in tending some sheep on
a solitary common near Munlochy, separated from the Moor of Culloden by
the Firth, and screened by a lofty hill, that she sat listening in terror
to the boom of the cannon; but that she was still more scared by the
continuous howling of her dog, who sat upright on his haunches all the
time the firing lasted, with his neck stretched out towards the battle,
and "looking as if he saw a spirit." Such are some of the
recollections which link the memories of a man who has lived his
half-century, to those of the preceding age, and which serve to remind him
how one generation of men after another break and disappear on the shores
of the eternal world, as wave after wave breaks in foam upon the beach,
when storms are rising, and the ground-swell sets in heavily from the sea.
CHAPTER VII.
Whose elfin prowess scaled the orchard wall."—ROGERS.
SOME of the wealthier tradesmen of the town,
dissatisfied with the small progress which their boys were making under
the parish schoolmaster, clubbed together and got a schoolmaster of their
own; but though a rather clever young man, he proved an unsteady one, and,
regular in his irregularities, got diurnally drunk, on receiving the
instalments of his salary at term-days, as long as his money lasted.
Getting rid of him, they procured another—a licentiate of the Church—who
for some time promised well. He seemed steady and thoughtful, and
withal a painstaking teacher; but coming in contact with some zealous
Baptists, they succeeded in conjuring up such a cloud of doubt around him
regarding the propriety of infant baptism, that both his bodily and mental
health became affected by his perplexities, and he had to resign his
charge. And then, after a pause, during which the boys enjoyed a
delightfully long vacation, they got yet a third schoolmaster, also a
licentiate, and a person of a high, if not very consistent religious
profession, who was always getting into pecuniary difficulties, and always
courting, though with but little success, wealthy ladies, who, according
to the poet, had "acres of charms." To the subscription school I was
transferred, at the instance of Uncle James, who remained quite sure,
notwithstanding the experience of the past, that I was destined to be a
scholar. And, invariably fortunate in my opportunities of amusement
the transference took place only a few weeks ere the better schoolmaster,
losing health and heart, in a labyrinth of perplexity resigned his charge.
I had little more than time enough to look about me on the new forms, and
to renew, on a firmer foundation than ever, my friendship with my old
associate of the cave—who had been for the two previous years an inmate of
the subscription school, and was now less under maternal control than
before—when on came the long vacation; and for four happy months I had
nothing to do.
My amusements had undergone very little change: I was even
fonder of the shores and woods than ever, and better acquainted with the
rocks and caves. A very considerable change, however, had taken
place in the amusements of the school-fellows my contemporaries, who were
now from two to three years older than when I had been associated with
them in the parish school. Hy-spy [44]
had lost its charms; nor was there much of its old interest for them in
French and English; whereas my rock excursions they came to regard as very
interesting indeed. With the exception of my friend of the cave,
they cared little about rocks or stones; but they all liked brambles, and
sloes, and craws-apples, tolerably well, and took great delight in
assisting me to kindle fires in the caverns of the old-coast line, at
which we used to broil shell-fish and crabs, taken among the crags and
boulders of the ebb below, and roast potatoes, transferred from the fields
of the hill above. There was one cave, an especial favourite with
us, in which our fires used to blaze day after day for weeks together.
It is deeply hollowed in the base of a steep ivy-mantled precipice of
granitic gneiss, a full hundred feet in height; and bears on its smoothed
sides and roof, and along its uneven bottom,—fretted into pot-like
cavities, with large rounded pebbles in them,—unequivocal evidence that
the excavating agent to which it owed its existence had been the wild surf
of this exposed shore. But for more than two thousand years waves
had never reached it: the last general elevation of the land had raised it
beyond the reach of the highest stream-tides; and when my gang and I took
possession of its twilight recesses, its stony aides were crusted with
mosses and liverworts; and a crop of pale, attenuated, sickly-looking
weeds, on which the sun had never looked in his strength, sprang thickly
up over its floor. In the remote past it had been used as a sort of
garner and thrashing-place by a farmer of the parish, named Marcus, who
had succeeded in rearing crops of bere and oats on two sloping plots at
the foot of the cliffs in its immediate neighbourhood; and it was known,
from this circumstance, to my uncles and the older inhabitants of the
town, as Marcus's Cave. My companions, however, had been chiefly
drawn to it by a much more recent association. A poor Highland
pensioner—a sorely dilapidated relic of the French-American War, who had
fought under General Wolfe in his day—had taken a great fancy to the cave,
and would fain have made it his home. He was ill at ease in his
family;—his wife was a termagant, and his daughter disreputable; and,
desirous to quit their society altogether, and live as a hermit among the
rocks, he had made application to the gentleman who tenanted the farm
above, to be permitted to fit up the cave for himself as a dwelling.
So bad was his English, however, that the gentleman failed to understand
him; and his request was, as he believed, rejected, while it was in
reality only not understood. Among the younger folk the cave came to
be known, from the incident, as "Rory Shingles' Cave"; and my companions
were delighted to believe that they were living in it as Rory would have
lived, had his petition been granted. In the wild half-savage life
which we led, we did contrive to provide for ourselves remarkably well.
The rocky shores supplied us with limpets, periwinkles, and crabs, and now
and then a lumpfish; the rugged slopes under the precipices, with hips,
sloes, and brambles; the broken fragments of wreck along the beach, and
the wood above, furnished abundance of fuel; and as there were fields not
half a mile away, I fear the more solid part of our diet consisted often
of potatoes which we had not planted, and of pease and beans which we had
not sown. One of our number contrived to bring away a pot unobserved
from his home; another succeeded in providing us with a pitcher; there was
a good spring not two hundred yards from the cave mouth, which supplied us
with water; and, thus possessed of not merely all that nature requires,
but a good deal more, we contrived to fare sumptuously every day. It
has been often remarked, that civilized man, when placed in circumstances
at all favourable, soon learns to assume the savage. I shall not say
that my companions or myself had been particularly civilized in our
previous state; but nothing could be more certain, than that during our
long vacation, we became very happy, and tolerably perfect savages.
The class which we attended was of a kind not opened in any of our
accredited schools, and it might be difficult to procure testimonials in
its behalf, easily procurable as these usually are; and yet there were
some of its lessons which might be conned with some little advantage, by
one desirous of cultivating the noble sentiment of self-reliance, or the
all-important habit of self-help. At the time, however, they
appeared quite pointless enough; and the moral, as in the case of the
continental apologue of Reynard the Fox, seemed always omitted.
Our parties in these excursions used at times to swell out to
ten or twelve—at times to contract to two or three; but what they gained
in quantity they always lost in quality, and became mischievous with the
addition of every new member, in greatly more than the arithmetical ratio.
When most innocent, they consisted of only a brace of members—a
warm-hearted, intelligent boy from the south of Scotland, who boarded with
two elderly ladies of the place, and attended the subscription school; and
the acknowledged leader of the band, who, belonging to the permanent
irreducible staff of the establishment, was never off duty. We used
to be very happy, and not altogether irrational, in these little skeleton
parties. My new friend was a gentle, tasteful boy, fond of poetry,
and a writer of soft, simple verses in the old-fashioned pastoral vein,
which he never showed to any one save myself; and we learned to love one
another all the more, from the circumstance that I was of a somewhat bold,
self relying temperament, and he of a clinging, timid one. Two of
the stanzas of a little pastoral, which he addressed to me about a
twelvemonth after this time, when permanently quitting the north country
for Edinburgh, still remain fixed in my memory; and I must submit them to
the reader, both as adequately representative of the many others, their
fellows, which have been lost, and of that juvenile poetry in general
which "is written," according to Sir Walter Scott, "rather from the
recollection of what has pleased the author in others, than what has been
suggested by his own imagination."
To you my poor sheep I resign,
My colly, my crook, and my horn:
To leave you, indeed, I repine,
But I must away with the morn.
New scenes shall evolve on my sight,
The world and its follies be new;
But ah! can such scenes of delight
Ere arise, as I witnessed with you! [45] |
Timid as he naturally was, he soon learned to abide in my company terrors
which most of my bolder companions shrank from encountering. I was
fond of lingering in the caves until long after nightfall, especially in
those seasons when the moon at full, or but a few days in her wane, rose
out of the sea as the evening wore on, to light up the wild precipices of
that solitary shore, and to render practicable our ascending path to the
hill above. And Finlay was almost the only one of my band who dared
to encounter with me the terrors of the darkness. Our fire has often
startled the benighted boatman as he came rowing round some rocky
promontory, and saw the red glare streaming seawards from the cavern
mouth, and partially lighting up the angry tumbling of the surf beyond;
and excise-cutters have oftener than once altered their tack in middle
Firth, and come bearing towards the coast, to determine whether the wild
rocks of Marcus were not becoming a haunt of smugglers.
Immediately beyond the granitic gneiss of the hill there is a
subaqueous deposit of the Lias [46]
formation, never yet explored by geologist, because never yet laid bare by
the ebb; though every heavier storm from the sea tells of its existence,
by tossing ashore fragments of its dark bituminous shale. I soon
ascertained that the shale is so largely charged with inflammable matter
as to burn with a strong flame, as if steeped in tar or oil, and that I
could repeat with it the common experiment of producing gas by means of a
tobacco-pipe luted with clay. And, having read in Shakspere of a
fuel termed "sea-coal," and unaware at the time that the poet merely meant
coal brought to London by sea, I inferred that the inflammable shale cast
up from the depths of the Firth by the waves could not be other than the
veritable "sea-coal" which figured in the reminiscences of Dame Quickly;
and so, assisted by Finlay, who shared in the interest which I felt in the
substance, as at once classical and an original discovery, I used to
collect it in large quantities and convert it into smoky and troubled
fires, that ever filled our cavern with a horrible stench, and scented all
the shore. Though unaware of the fact at the time, it owed its
inflammability, not to vegetable, but to animal substance; the tar which
used to boil in it to the heat, like resin in a fagot of moss-fir, was as
strange a mixture as ever yet bubbled in witches' caldron—blood of
pterodactyle [47] and grease of
ichthyosaur [48]—eye of belemnite [49]
and hood of nautilus [50]; and we
learned to delight in its very smell, all oppressive as that was, as
something wild, strange, and inexplicable. Once or twice I seemed on
the eve of a discovery: in splitting the masses, I occasionally saw what
appeared to be fragments of shells embedded in its substance; and at least
once I laid open a mysterious-looking scroll or volute, existing on the
dark surface as a cream-coloured film; but though these organisms raised a
temporary wonder, it was not until a later period that I learned to
comprehend their true import, as the half-effaced but still decipherable
characters of a marvellous record of the grey, dream-encircled past.
With the docile Finlay as my companion, and left to work out
my own will unchallenged, I was rarely or never mischievous. On the
occasions, however, in which my band swelled out to ten or a dozen, I
often experienced the ordinary evils of leadership, as known in all gangs
and parties, civil and ecclesiastical; and was sometimes led, in
consequence, to engage in enterprises which my better judgment condemned.
I fain wish that among the other "Confessions" with which our literature
is charged, we had the bona fide "Confessions of a Leader," with
examples of the cases in which, though he seems to overbear, he is in
reality overborne, and actually follows, though he appears to lead.
Honest Sir William Wallace, though seven feet high, and a hero, was at
once candid and humble enough to confess to the canons of Hexham, that,
his "soldiers being evil-disposed men," whom he could neither "justify nor
punish," he was able to protect women and Churchmen only so long as they
"abided in his sight." And, of course, other leaders, less tall and
less heroic, must not unfrequently find themselves, had they but Wallace's
magnanimity to confess the fact, in circumstances much akin to those of
Wallace. When bee-masters get hold of queen bees, they are able, by
controlling the movements of these natural leaders of hives, to control
the movements of the hives themselves; and not unfrequently in Churches
and States do there exist inconspicuous bee-masters, who, by influencing
or controlling the leader-bees, in reality influence and control the
movements of the entire body, politic or ecclesiastical, over which these
natural monarchs seem to preside. But truce with apology.
Partly in the character of leader-partly being myself led—I succeeded
about this time in getting one of my larger parties into a tolerably
serious scrape. We passed every day, on our way to the cave, a fine
large orchard, attached to the manor-house of Cromarty estate; and in
ascending an adjacent hill over which our path lay, and which commands a
bird's-eye view of the trim-kept walks and well-laden trees, there used
not unfrequently to arise wild speculations among us regarding the
possibility and propriety of getting a supply of the fruit, to serve as
desserts to our meals of shell-fish and potatoes. Weeks elapsed,
however, and autumn was drawing on to its close, ere we could quite make
up our minds regarding the adventure, when at length I agreed to lead;
and, after arranging the plan of the expedition, we broke into the orchard
under the cloud of night, and carried away with us whole pocketfuls of
apples. They were all intolerably bad—sour, hard, baking apples; for
we had delayed the enterprise until the better fruit had been pulled: but
though they set our teeth on edge, and we flung most of them into the sea,
we had "snatched" in the foray, what Gray well terms "a fearful joy," and
had some thought of repeating it, merely for the sake of the excitement
induced and the risk encountered, when out came the astounding fact, that
one of our number had "peached," and, in the character of king's evidence,
betrayed his companions.
The factor of the Cromarty property had an orphan nephew, who
formed at times a member of our gang, and who had taken a willing part in
the orchard foray. He had also engaged, however, in a second
enterprise of a similar kind wholly on his own account, of which we knew
nothing. An out-house pertaining to the dwelling in which he lodged,
though itself situated outside the orchard, was attached to another house
inside the walls, which was employed by the gardener as a store-place for
his apples; and finding an unsuspected crevice in the partition which
divided the two buildings, somewhat resembling that through which Pyramus
and Thisbe made love of old in the city of Babylon, our comrade,
straightway availing himself of so fair an opening, fell a-courting the
gardener's apples. Sharpening the end of a long stick, he began
harpooning, through the hole, the apple-heap below; and though the hole
was greatly too small for admitting the finer and larger specimens, and
they, in consequence, fell back, disengaged from the harpoon, in the
attempt to land them, he succeeded in getting a good many of the smaller
ones. Old John Clark the gardener—far advanced in life at the time,
and seeing too imperfectly to discover the crevice which opened high amid
the obscurity of the loft—was in a perfect maze regarding the evil
influence that was destroying his apples. The harpooned individuals
lay scattered over the floor by scores; but the agent that had dispersed
and perforated them remained for weeks together an inscrutable mystery to
John. At length, however, there came a luckless morning, in which
our quondam companion lost hold, when busy at work, of the pointed stick;
and when John next entered his storehouse, the guilty harpoon lay
stretched across the harpooned apples. The discovery was followed
up; the culprit detected; and, on being closeted with his uncle the
factor, he communicated not only the details of his own special adventure,
but the particulars of ours also. And early next day there was a
message sent us by a safe and secret messenger, to the effect that we
would be all put in prison in the course of the week.
We were terribly frightened; so much so, that the strong
point of our position—the double-dyed guilt of the factor's nephew—failed
to occur to any of us; and we looked for only instant incarceration.
I still remember the intense feeling of shame I used to experience every
time I crossed my mother's door for the street—the agonizing,
all-engrossing belief that every one was looking at and pointing me
out—and the terror, when in my uncles'—akin to that of the culprit who
hears from his box the footsteps of the returning jury—that, having
learned of my offence, they were preparing to denounce me as a disgrace to
an honest family, on which, in the memory of man, no stain had before
rested. The discipline was eminently wholesome, and I never forgot
it. It did seem somewhat strange, however, that no one appeared to
know anything about our misdemeanour: the factor kept our secret
remarkably well; but we inferred he was doing so in order to pounce upon
us all the more effectually; and, holding a hasty council in the cave, we
resolved that, quitting our homes for a few weeks, we should live among
the rocks till the storm that seemed rising should have blown by.
Marcus's Cave was too accessible and too well known; but my
knowledge of the locality enabled me to recommend to my lads two other
caves in which I thought we might be safe. The one opened in a
thicket of furze, some forty feet above the shore; and, though large
enough within to contain from fifteen to twenty men, it presented outside
much the appearance of a fox-earth, and was not known to half-a-dozen
people in the country. It was, however, damp and dark; and we found
that we could not venture on lighting a fire in it without danger of
suffocation. It was pronounced excellent, however, as a temporary
place of concealment, were the search for us to become very hot. The
other cavern was wide and open; but it was a wild, ghostly-looking place,
scarcely once visited from one twelvemonth's end to another: its floor was
green with mould, and its ridgy walls and roof bristled over with slim
pale stalactites, which looked like the pointed tags that roughen a
dead-dress. It was certain, too, that it was haunted. Marks of
a cloven foot might be seen freshly impressed on its floor, which had been
produced either by a stray goat, or by something worse; and the few boys
to whom its existence and character were known used to speak of it under
their breath as "the Devil's Cave." My lads did at first look round
them as we entered, with an awe-struck and disconsolate expression; but
falling busily to work among the cliffs, we collected large quantities of
withered grass and fern for bedding, and, selecting the drier and less
exposed portions of the floor, soon piled up for ourselves a row of little
lairs, formed in a sort of half-way style between that of the wild beast
and the gipsy, on which it would have been possible enough to sleep.
We selected, too, a place for our fire, gathered a little heap of fuel,
and secreted in a recess, for ready use, our Marcus' Cave pot and pitcher,
and the lethal weapons of the gang, which consisted of an old bayonet so
corroded with rust that it somewhat resembled a three-edged saw and an old
horseman's pistol tied fast to the stock by cobbler's ends, and with lock
and ramrod wanting. Evening surprised us in the middle of our
preparations; and as the shadows fell dark and thick, my lads began to
look most uncomfortably around them. At length they fairly struck
work: there was no use, they said, for being in the Devil's Cave so
late—no use, indeed, for being in it at all, until we were made sure the
factor did actually intend to imprison us; and, after delivering
themselves to this effect, they fairly bolted, leaving Finlay and myself
to bring up the rear at our leisure. My well-laid plan was, in
short, found unworkable, from the inferior quality of my materials.
I returned home with a heavy heart, somewhat grieved that I had not
confided my scheme to only Finlay, who could, I ascertained, do braver
things, with all his timidity, than the bolder boys, our occasional
associates. And yet, when in passing homewards through the dark
lonely woods of the Hill, I bethought me of the still deeper solitude and
gloom of the haunted cave far below, and thought further, that at that
very moment the mysterious being with the cloven foot might be traversing
its silent floor, I felt my blood run cold, and at once leaped to the
conclusion that, save for the disgrace, a cave with an evil spirit in it
could be not a great deal better than a prison. Of the prison,
however, we heard no more; though I never forgot the grim but precious
lesson read me by the factor's threat; and from that time till the
present—save now and then, by inadvertently admitting into my newspaper a
paragraph written in too terse a style by some good man in the provinces,
against some very bad man his neighbour—I have not been fairly within wind
of the law. I would, however, seriously advise such of my young
friends as may cast a curious eye over these pages to avoid taking any
such lesson as mine at first-hand. One half-hour of the mental
anguish which I at this time experienced, when I thought of my mother and
uncles, and the infamy of a prison, would have vastly more than
counterbalanced all that could have been enjoyed from banqueting on
apples, even had they been those of the Hesperides or of Eden, instead of
being, what they were in this case, green masses of harsh acid, alike
formidable to teeth and stomach. I must add, in justice to my friend
of the Doocot Cave, that, though an occasional visitor at Marcus, he had
prudently avoided getting into this scrape.
Our long vacation came at length to an end, by the
appointment of a teacher to the subscription school; but the arrangement
was not the most profitable possible for the pupils. It was an
ominous circumstance, that we learned in a few days to designate the new
master by a nickname, and that the name stuck—a misfortune which almost
never befalls the truly superior man. He had, however, a certain
dash of cleverness about him; and observing that I was of potent influence
among my schoolfellows, he set himself to determine the grounds on which
my authority rested. Copy and arithmetic books, in schools in which
there was liberty, used in those ancient times to be charged with curious
revelations. In the parish school, for instance, which excelled, as
I have said, every other school in the world in its knowledge of barques
and carvels, it was not uncommon to find a book which, when opened at the
right end, presented only copy-lines or arithmetical questions, that, when
opened at the wrong one, presented only ships and boats. And there
were cases on record in which, on the grand annual examination-day that
heralded the vacation, the worthy parish minister, by beginning to turn
over the leaves of some exhibited book at the reverse end, found himself
engaged, when expecting only the questions of Cocker, or the slip-lines of
Butterworth, amid whole fleets of smacks, frigates, and brigantines.
My new master, professionally acquainted with this secret property of
arithmetic and copy-books, laid hold of mine, and, bringing them to his
desk, found them charged with very extraordinary revelations indeed.
The blank spaces were occupied with deplorably scrabbled couplets and
stanzas, blent with occasional remarks in rude prose, that dealt chiefly
with natural phenomena. One note, for instance, which the master
took the trouble of deciphering, referred to the supposed fact,
familiar as a matter of sensation to boys located on the sea-coast, that
during the bathing season the water is warmer on windy days, when the
waves break high, than during dead calms; and accounted for it (I fear not
very philosophically) on the hypothesis that the "waves, by slapping
against each other, engender heat, as heat may be engendered by clapping
the hands." The master read on, evidently with much difficulty, and
apparently with considerable scepticism: he inferred that I had been
borrowing, not inventing: though where such prose and such verse could
have been borrowed, and, in especial, such grammar and such spelling, even
cleverer men than he might well have despaired of ever finding out.
And in order to test my powers, he proposed furnishing me with a theme on
which to write. "Let us see," he said, "let us see: the
dancing-school ball comes on here next week—bring me a poem on the dancing
school ball." The subject did not promise a great deal; but, setting
myself to work in the evening, I produced half-a-dozen stanzas on the
ball, which were received as good, in evidence that I actually could
rhyme; and for some weeks after I was rather a favourite with the new
master.
I had, however, ere now become a wild insubordinate boy, and
the only school in which I could properly be taught was that world-wide
school which awaited me, in which Toil and Hardship are the severe but
noble teachers. I got into sad scrapes. Quarrelling, on one
occasion, with a boy of my own standing, we exchanged blows across the
form; and when called up for trial and punishment the fault was found to
attach so equally to both sides, that the same number of palmies,
well laid on, were awarded to each. I bore mine, however, like a
North American Indian whereas my antagonist began to howl and cry;
and I could not resist the temptation of saying to him in a whisper that
unluckily reached the ear of the master, "ye big blubbering blockhead,
take that for a drubbing from me." I had of course to receive a few
palmies additional for the speech; but then, "who cared for that?"
The master, however, 'cared" considerably more for the offence than I did
for the punishment. And in a subsequent quarrel with another boy—a
stout and somewhat desperate mulatto—I got into a worse scrape still, of
which he thought still worse. The mulatto, in his battles, which
were many, had a trick, when in danger of being over-matched, of drawing
his knife; and in our affair—the necessities of the fight seeming to
require it—he drew his knife upon me. To his horror and
astonishment, however, instead of running off, I immediately drew mine,
and, quick as lightning, stabbed him in the thigh. He roared out in
fright and pain, and, though more alarmed than hurt, never after drew
knife upon a combatant. But the value of the lesson which I gave,
was like most other very valuable things, inadequately appreciated; and it
merely procured for me the character of being a dangerous boy. I had
certainly reached a dangerous stage; but it was mainly myself that was in
jeopardy. There is a transition-time in which the strength and
independence of the latent man begin to mingle with the wilfulness and
indiscretion of the mere boy, which is more perilous than any other, in
which many more downward careers of recklessness and folly begin, that end
in wreck and ruin, than in all the other years of life which intervene
between childhood and old age. The growing lad should be wisely and
tenderly dealt with at this critical stage. The severity that would
fain compel the implicit submission yielded at an earlier period, would
probably succeed, if his character was a strong one, in insuring but his
ruin. It is at this transition-stage that boys run off to sea from
parents and masters, or, when tall enough, enlist in the army for
soldiers. The strictly orthodox parent, if more severe than wise,
succeeds occasionally in driving, during this crisis, his son into Popery
or infidelity; and the sternly moral one, in landing his in utter
profligacy. But, leniently and judiciously dealt with, the dangerous
period passes: in a few years at most—in some instances in even a few
months—the sobriety incidental to a further development of character
ensues, and the wild boy settles down, into a rational young man.
It so chanced, however, that in what proved the closing scene
in my term of school attendance, I was rather unfortunate than guilty.
The class to which I now belonged read an English lesson every afternoon,
and had its rounds of spelling; and in these last I acquitted myself but
ill; partly from the circumstance that I spelt only indifferently, but
still more from the further circumstance, that, retaining strongly fixed
in my memory the broad Scotch pronunciation acquired at the dames' school,
I had to carry on in my mind the double process of at once spelling the
acquired word, and of translating the old sounds of the letters of which
it was composed into the modern ones. Nor had I been taught to break
the words into syllables; and so, when required one evening to spell the
word "awful," with much deliberation—for I had to translate, as I
went on, the letters a-w and u—I spelt it word for word,
without break or pause, as a-w-f-u-l. "No," said the master, "a-w,
aw, f-u-l, awful; spell again." This seemed
preposterous spelling. It was sticking in an a, as I thought,
into the middle of the word, where, I was sure, no a had a right to
be; and so I spelt it as at first. The master recompensed my
supposed contumacy with a sharp cut athwart the ears with his tawse; and
again demanding the spelling of the word, I yet again spelt it as at
first. But on receiving a second cut, I refused to spell it any
more; and, determined on overcoming my obstinacy, he laid hold of me and
attempted throwing me down. As wrestling, however, had been one of
our favourite Marcus' Cave exercises, and as few lads of my inches
wrestled better than I, the master, though a tall and tolerably robust
fellow, found the feat considerably more difficult than he could have
supposed. We swayed from side to side of the school-room, now
backwards, now forwards, and for a full minute it seemed to be a rather a
moot point on which side the victory was to incline. At length,
however, I was tripped over a form; and as the master had to deal with me,
not as master usually deals with pupil, but as one combatant deals with
another, whom he has to beat into submission, I was mauled in a way that
filled me with aches and bruises for a full month thereafter. I
greatly fear that, had I met the fellow on a lonely road five years
subsequent to our encounter, when I had become strong enough to raise
breast-high the "great lifting stone of the Dropping Cave," he would have
caught as sound a thrashing as he ever gave to a little boy or girl in his
life; but all I could do at this time was to take down my cap from off the
pin, when the affair had ended, and march straight out of school.
And thus terminated my school education. Before night I had avenged
myself, in a copy of satiric verses, entitled "The Pedagogue," which—as
they had some little cleverness in them, regarded as the work of a boy,
and as the known eccentricities of their subject gave me large
scope—occasioned a good deal of merriment in the place; and of the verses
a fair copy, written out by Finlay, was transmitted through the
Post-office to the pedagogue himself. But the only notice he ever
took of them was incidentally, in a short speech made to the copyist a few
days after. "I see, Sir," he said, "I see you still
associate with that fellow Miller; perhaps he will make you a poet!"
"I thought, Sir," said Finlay very quietly, in reply, "that poets were
born—not made."
As a specimen of the rhyme of this period, and as in some
degree a set-off against my drubbing, which remains till this day an
unsettled score, I submit my pasquinade to the reader:—
THE PEDAGOGUE |
WITH solemn mien and
pious air,
S—k—r [51] attends each
call of grace;
Loud eloquence bedecks his prayer,
And formal sanctity his face.
All good; but turn the other side,
And see the smirking beau displayed;
The pompous strut, exalted air,
And all that marks the fop, is there.
In character we seldom see
Traits so diverse meet and agree:
Can the affected mincing trip,
Exalted brow, and pride-pressed lip,
In strange incongruous union meet,
With all that stamps the hypocrite?
We see they do: but let us scan
Those secret springs which move the man.
Though now he wields the knotty birch,
His better hope lies in the Church:
For this the sable robe he wears,
For this in pious guise appears.
But then, the weak will cannot hide
Th' inherent vanity and pride;
And thus he acts the coxcomb's part,
As dearer to his poor vain heart:
Nature's born fop! a saint by art! !
But hold! he wears no fopling's dress
Each seam, each thread, the eye can trace,
His garb all o'er;—the dye though true,
Time-blanch'd, displays a fainter hue:
Dress forms the fopling's better part;
Reconcile this, and prove your art.
"Chill penury represses pride;"—
A maxim by the wise denied;
For 'tis alone tame plodding souls,
Whose spirits bend when it controls,—
Whose lives run on in one dull same,
Plain honesty their highest aim.
With him it merely can repress—
Tailor o'er-cow'd—the pomp of dress;
His spirit, unrepressed, can soar
High as e'er folly rose before;
Can fly pale study, learn'd debate,
And ape proud fashion's idle state;
Yet fails in that engaging grace
That lights the practised courtier's face.
His weak affected air we mark,
And, smiling, view the would-be spark;
Complete in every act and feature,—
An ill-bred, silly, awkward creature. |
My school-days fairly over, a life of toil frowned full in
front of me; but never yet was there a half-grown lad less willing to take
up the man and lay down the boy. My set of companions was fast
breaking up;—my friend of the Doocot Cave was on the eve of proceeding to
an academy in a neighbouring town; Finlay had received a call from the
south, to finish his education in a seminary on the banks of the Tweed;
one Marcus' Cave lad was preparing to go to sea; another to learn a trade;
a third to enter a shop; the time of dispersal was too evidently at hand;
and, taking counsel one day together, we resolved on constructing
something—we at first knew not what—that might serve as a monument to
recall to us in after years the memory of our early pastimes and
enjoyments. The common school-book story of the Persian shepherd,
who, when raised by his sovereign to high place in the empire, derived his
chief pleasure from contemplating in a secret apartment, the pipe, crook,
and rude habiliments of his happier days, suggested to me that we also
should have our secret apartment, in which to store up, for future
contemplation, our bayonet and pistol, pot and pitcher; and I recommended
that we should set ourselves to dig a subterranean chamber for that
purpose among the woods of the Hill, accessible, like the mysterious
vaults of our story books, by a trap-door. The proposal was
favourably received; and, selecting a solitary spot among the trees as a
proper site, and procuring spade and mattock, we began to dig.
Soon passing through the thin crust of vegetable mould, we
found the red boulder clay beneath exceedingly stiff and hard; but day
after day saw us perseveringly at work; and we succeeded in digging a huge
square pit about six feet in length and breadth, and fully seven feet
deep. Fixing four upright posts in the corners, we lined our apartment
with slender spars nailed closely together; and we had prepared for giving
it a massive roof of beams formed of fallen trees, and strong enough to
bear a layer of earth and turf from a foot to a foot and a half in depth,
with a little opening for the trap-door; when we found, one morning, on
pressing onwards to the scene of our labours, that we were doggedly
tracked by a horde of boys considerably more numerous than our own party.
Their curiosity had been excited, like that of the Princess Nekayah in
Rasselas, by the tools which we carried, and by "seeing that we had
directed our walk every day to the same point;" and in vain, by running
and doubling, by scolding and remonstrating, did we now attempt shaking
them off. I saw that, were we to provoke a general męlée,
we could scarce expect to come off victors; but deeming myself fully a
match for their stoutest boy, I stepped out and challenged him to come
forward and fight me. He hesitated, looked foolish, and refused; but
said, he would readily fight with any of my party except myself. I
immediately named my friend of the Doocot Cave, who leaped out with a
bound to meet him; but the boy, as I had anticipated, refused to fight him
also; and, observing the proper effect produced, I ordered my lads to
march forward; and from an upper slope of the hill we had the satisfaction
of seeing that our pursuers, after lingering for a little while on the
spot on which we had left them, turned homewards fairly cowed, and pursued
us no more. But, alas! on reaching our secret chamber, we
ascertained, by marks all too unequivocal, that it was to be secret no
longer. Some rude hand had torn down the wooden lining, and cut two
of the posts half through with a hatchet; and on returning disconsolately
to the town, we ascertained that Johnstone the forester had just been
there before us, declaring that some atrociously wicked persons—for whose
apprehension a proclamation was to be instantly issued—had contrived a
diabolical trap, which he had just discovered, for maiming the cattle of
the gentleman, his employer, who farmed the Hill. Johnstone was an
old Forty-Second man, who had followed Wellington over the larger part of
the Peninsula; but though he had witnessed the storming and sack of San
Sebastian, and a great many other bad things, nothing had he ever seen on
the Peninsula, or anywhere else, he said, half so mischievous as the
cattle-trap. We, of course, kept our own secret; and as we all
returned under the cloud of night, and with heavy hearts filled up our
excavation level with the soil, the threatened proclamation was never
issued. Johnstone, however—who had been watching my motions for a
considerable time before, and whom, as he was a formidable fellow, very
unlike any of the other foresters, I had been sedulously watching in
turn—had no hesitation in declaring that I, and I only, could be the
designer of the cattle-trap. I had acquainted myself in books, he
said, with the mode of entrapping by pitfalls wild beasts in the forests
abroad; and my trap for the Colonel's cattle was, he was certain, a result
of my book-acquired knowledge.
I was one day lounging in front of my mother's dwelling, when
up came Johnstone to address me. As the evidence regarding the
excavation had totally broken down, I was aware of no special offence at
the time that could have secured for me such a piece of attention, and
inferred that the old soldier was labouring under some mistake; but
Johnstone's address soon evinced that he was not in the least mistaken.
"He wished to be acquainted with me," he said. "It was all nonsense
for us to be bothering one another, when we had no cause to quarrel."
He used occasionally to eke out his pension, and his scanty allowance as
forester, by catching a basket of fish for himself from off the rocks of
the Hill; and he had just discovered a projecting rock at the foot of a
tall precipice, which would prove, he was sure, one of the best fishing
platforms in the Firth. But then, in the existing state, it was
wholly inaccessible. He was, however, of opinion, that it was
possible to lay it open by carrying a path adown the shelving face of the
precipice. He had seen Wellington address himself to quite as
desperate-looking matters in the Peninsula; and were I but to assist him,
he was sure, he said, we could construct between us the necessary path.
The undertaking was one wholly according to my own heart; and next morning
Johnstone and I were hard at work on the giddy brow of the precipice.
It was topped by a thick bed of boulder clay, itself—such was the
steepness of the slope—almost a precipice; but a series of deeply-cut
steps led us easily adown the bed of clay; and then a sloping shelf,
which, with much labour, we deepened and flattened, conducted us not
unsafely some five-and-twenty or thirty feet long the face of the
precipice proper. A second series of steps, painfully scooped out of
the living rock, and which passed within a few yards of a range of herons'
nests perched on a hitherto inaccessible platform, brought us down some
five-and-twenty or thirty feet more; but then we arrived at a sheer
descent of about twenty feet, at which Johnstone looked rather blank,
though, on my suggesting a ladder, he took heart again, and, cutting two
slim taper trees in the wood above, we flung them over the precipice into
the sea; and then fishing them up with a world of toil and trouble, we
squared and bored them upwards, and, cutting tenons for them in the hard
gneiss, we placed them against the rock front, and nailed over them a line
of steps. The precipice beneath sloped easily on to the fishing
rock, and so a few steps more completed our path. I never saw a man
more delighted than Johnstone. As being lighter and more active than
he—for though not greatly advanced in life, he was considerably
debilitated by severe wounds—I had to take some of the more perilous parts
of the work on myself. I had cut the tenons for the ladder with a
rope round my waist, and had recovered the trees flung into the sea by
some adroit swimming; and the old soldier became thoroughly impressed with
the conviction that my proper sphere was the army. I was already
five feet three, he said; in little more than a twelvemonth I would be
five feet seven; and were I then but to enlist, and to keep from the "drop
drink"—a thing which he never could do—I would, he was certain, rise to be
a serjeant. In brief, such were the terms on which Johnstone and I
learned to live ever after, that, had I constructed a score of traps for
the Colonel's cattle, I believe he would have winked at them all.
Poor fellow! he got into difficulties a good many years after, and, on the
accession of the Whigs to power, mortgaged his pension, and emigrated to
Canada. Deeming the terms hard, however, as he well might, he first
wrote a letter to his old commander, the Duke of Wellington—I holding the
pen for him—in which, in the hope that their stringency might be relaxed
in his behalf, he stated both his services and his case. And
promptly did the Duke reply, in an essentially kind holograph epistle, in
which, after stating that he had no influence at the time with the
Ministers of the Crown, and no means of getting a relaxation of their
terms in behalf of any one, he "earnestly recommended William Johnstone,
first, not to seek a provision for himself in Canada, unless he were
able-bodied, and fit to provide for himself in circumstances of extreme
hardship; and, second, on no account to sell or mortgage his pension."
But the advice was not taken;—Johnstone did emigrate to Canada, and did
mortgage his pension; and I fear—though I failed to trace his after
history—that he suffered in consequence.
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