MY SCHOOLS AND SCHOOLMASTERS
OR
THE STORY OF MY EDUCATION
CHAPTER I.
Ye gentlemen of England,
Who live at home at ease,
Oh, little do ye think upon
The dangers of the seas."—OLD
SONG. |
RATHER more than eighty years ago, a stout little
boy, in his sixth or seventh year, was despatched from an old-fashioned
farm-house in the upper part of the parish of Cromarty, to drown a litter
of puppies in an adjacent pond. The commission seemed to be not in
the least congenial. He sat down beside the pool, and began to cry
over his charge; and finally, after wasting much time in a paroxysm of
indecision and sorrow, instead of committing the puppies to the water, he
tucked them up in his little kilt, and set out by a blind pathway which
went winding through the stunted heath of the dreary Maolbuoy Common, [1]
in a direction opposite to that of the farm-house—his home for the two
previous twelvemonths. After some doubtful wandering on the waste,
he succeeded in reaching, before nightfall, the neighbouring seaport town,
[2] and presented himself, laden with
his charge, at his mother's door. The poor woman—a sailor's widow,
in very humble circumstances—raised her hands in astonishment: "Oh, my
unlucky boy," she exclaimed, "what's this?—what brings you here?"
"The little doggies, mither," said the boy; "I couldna drown the little
doggies; and I took them to you." What afterwards befell the "little
doggies," I know not; but trivial as the incident may seem, it exercised a
marked influence on the circumstances and destiny of at least two
generations of creatures higher in the scale than themselves. The
boy, as he stubbornly refused to return to the farm-house, had to be sent
on shipboard, agreeably to his wish, as a cabin boy; and the writer of
these chapters was born, in consequence, a sailor's son, and was rendered,
as early as his fifth year, mainly dependent for his support on the
sedulously plied but indifferently remunerated labours of his only
surviving parent, at the time a sailor's widow.
The little boy of the farm-house was descended from a long
line of seafaring men,—skilful and adventurous sailors,—some of whom had
coasted along the Scottish shores as early as the times of Sir Andrew Wood
and the "bold Bartons," and mayhap helped to man that "verrie monstrous
schippe the Great Michael," that "'cumbered all Scotland to get her to
sea." They had taken as naturally to the water as the Newfoundland
dog or the duckling. That waste of life which is always so great in
the naval profession had been more than usually so in the generation just
passed away. Of the boy's two uncles, one had sailed round the world
with Anson, and assisted in burning Paita, and in boarding the Manilla
galleon; but on reaching the English coast he mysteriously disappeared,
and was never more heard of. The other uncle, a remarkably handsome
and powerful man—or, to borrow the homely but not inexpressive language in
which I have heard him described, "as pretty a fellow as ever stepped in
shoe-leather,"—perished at sea in a storm; and several years after, the
boy's father, when entering the Firth of Cromarty, was struck overboard,
during a sudden gust, by the boom of his vessel, and, apparently stunned
by the blow, never rose again. Shortly after, in the hope of
screening her son from what seemed to be the hereditary fate, his mother
had committed the boy to the charge of a sister, married to a farmer of
the parish, and now the mistress of the farm-house of Ardavell; but the
family death was not to be so avoided; and the arrangement terminated, as
has been seen, in the transaction beside the pond.
In course of time the sailor boy, despite of hardship and
rough usage, grew up into a singularly robust and active man, not above
the middle size,—for his height never exceeded five feet eight inches,—but
broad-shouldered, deep-chested, strong-limbed, and so compact of bone and
muscle, that in a ship of the line, in which he afterwards sailed, there
was not, among five hundred able-bodied seamen, a man who could lift so
great a weight, or grapple with him on equal terms. His education
had been but indifferently cared for at home: he had, however, been taught
to read by a female cousin, a niece of his mother's, who, like her too,
was both the daughter and the widow of a sailor; and for his cousin's only
child, a girl somewhat younger than himself, he had contracted a boyish
affection, which in a stronger form continued to retain possession of him
after he grew up. In the leisure thrown on his hands in long Indian
and Chinese voyages, he learned to write; and profited so much by the
instructions of a comrade, an intelligent and warm-hearted though reckless
Irishman, that he became skilful enough to keep a log-book, and to take a
reckoning with the necessary correctness,—accomplishments far from common
at the time among ordinary sailors. He formed, too, a taste for
reading. The recollection of his cousin's daughter may have
influenced him, but he commenced life with a determination to rise in
it,—made his first money by storing up instead of drinking his grog,—and,
as was common in those times, drove a little trade with the natives of
foreign parts in articles of curiosity and vertu, for which, I suspect,
the custom-house dues were not always paid. With all his Scotch
prudence, however, and with much kindliness of heart and placidity of
temper, there was some wild blood in his veins, derived, mayhap, from one
or two buccaneering ancestors, that, when excited beyond the endurance
point, became sufficiently formidable; and which, on at least one
occasion, interfered very considerably with his plans and prospects.
On a protracted and tedious voyage in a large East Indiaman,
he had, with the rest of the crew, been subjected to harsh usage by a
stern, capricious captain; but, secure of relief on reaching port, he had
borne uncomplainingly with it all. His comrade and quondam teacher,
the Irishman, was, however, less patient; and for remonstrating with the
tyrant, as one of a deputation of the seamen, in what was deemed a
mutinous spirit, he was laid hold of, and was in the course of being
ironed down to the deck under a tropical sun, when his quieter comrade,
with his blood now heated to the boiling point, stepped aft, and with
apparent calmness re-stated the grievance. The captain drew a loaded
pistol from his belt; the sailor struck up his hand; and, as the bullet
whistled through the rigging above, he grappled with him, and disarmed him
in a trice. The crew rose, and in a few minutes the ship was all
their own. But having failed to calculate on such a result, they
knew not what to do with their charge; and, acting under the advice of
their new leader, who felt to the full the embarrassing nature of the
position, they were content simply to demand the redress of their
grievances as their terms of surrender; when, untowardly for their claims,
a ship of war hove in sight, much in want of men, and, bearing down on the
Indiaman, the mutiny was at once suppressed, and the leading mutineers
sent aboard the armed vessel, accompanied by a grave charge, and the worst
possible of characters. Luckily for them, however, and especially
luckily for the Irishman and his friend, the war-ship was so weakened by
scurvy, at that time the untamed pest of the navy, that scarce two dozen
of her crew could do duty aloft. A fierce tropical tempest, too,
which broke out not long after, pleaded powerfully in their favour; and
the affair terminated in the ultimate promotion of the Irishman to the
office of ship schoolmaster, and of his Scotch comrade to the captaincy of
the foretop.
My narrative abides with the latter. He remained for
several years aboard a man-of-war, and, though not much in love with the
service, did his duty in both storm and battle. He served in the
action off the Dogger-Bank,—one of the last naval engagements fought ere
the manoeuvre of breaking the line gave to British valour its due
superiority, by rendering all our great sea battles decisive; and a
comrade who sailed in the same vessel, and from whom, when a boy, I have
received kindness for my father's sake, has told me that, their ship being
but indifferently manned at the time, and the extraordinary personal
strength and activity of his friend well known, he had a station assigned
him at his gun against two of the crew, and that during the action he
actually out-wrought them both. At length, however, the enemy
drifted to leeward to refit; and when set to repair the gashed and severed
rigging, such was his state of exhaustion, in consequence of the previous
overstrain on every nerve and muscle, that he had scarce vigour enough
left to raise the marling spike employed in the work to the level of his
face. Suddenly, when in this condition, a signal passed along the
line, that the Dutch fleet, already refitted, was bearing down to renew
the engagement. A thrill like that of an electric shock passed
through the frame of the exhausted sailor; his fatigue at once left him;
and, vigorous and strong as when the action first began, he found himself
able, as before, to run out against his two comrades the one side of a
four-and-twenty pounder. The instance is a curious one of the
influence of that "spirit" which, according to the Wise King, enables a
man to "sustain his infirmity." It may be well not to inquire too
curiously regarding the mode in which this effective sailor quitted the
navy. The country had borrowed his services without consulting his
will; and he, I suspect, reclaimed them on his own behalf without first
asking leave. I have been told by my mother that he found the navy
very intolerable;—the mutiny at the Nore had not yet meliorated the
service to the common sailor. Among other hardships, he had been
oftener than once under not only very harsh, but also very incompetent
officers; and on one occasion, after toiling on the foreyard in a violent
night-squall, with some of the best seamen aboard, in fruitless attempts
to furl up the sail, he had to descend, cap in hand, at the risk of a
flogging, and humbly implore the boy-lieutenant in charge that he should
order the vessel's head to be laid in a certain direction. Luckily
for him, the advice was taken by the young gentleman, and in a few minutes
the sail was furled. He left his ship one fine morning, attired in
his best, and having on his head a three-cornered hat, with tufts of lace
at the corners, which I well remember, from the circumstance that it had
long after to perform an important part in certain boyish masquerades at
Christmas and the New Year; and as he had taken effective precautions for
being reported missing in the evening, he got clear off.
Of some of the after-events of his life I retain such mere
fragmentary recollections, dissociated from date and locality, as might be
most readily seized on by the imagination of a child. At one time,
when engaged in one of his Indian voyages, he was stationed during the
night, accompanied by but a single comrade, in a small open boat, near one
of the minor mouths of the Ganges; and he had just fallen asleep on the
beams, when he was suddenly awakened by a violent motion, as if his skiff
were capsizing. Starting up, he saw in the imperfect light a huge
tiger, that had swam, apparently, from the neighbouring jungle, in the act
of boarding the boat. So much was he taken aback, that though a
loaded musket lay beside him, it was one of the loose beams, or
foot-spars, used as fulcrums for the feet in rowing, that he laid hold of
as a weapon; but such was the blow he dealt to the paws of the creature,
as they rested on the gunwale, that it dropped off with a tremendous
snarl, and he saw it no more. On another occasion, he was one of
three men sent with despatches to some Indian port in a boat, which,
oversetting in the open sea in a squall, left them for the greater part of
three days only its up turned bottom for their resting-place. And so
thickly during that time did the sharks congregate around him, that though
a keg of rum, part of the boat's stores, floated for the first two days
within a few yards of them, and they had neither meat nor drink, none of
them, though they all swam well, dared attempt regaining it. They
were at length relieved by a Spanish vessel, and treated with such
kindness, that the subject of my narrative used ever after to speak well
of the Spaniards, as a generous people, destined ultimately to rise.
He was at one time so reduced by scurvy, in a vessel half of whose crew
had been carried off by the disease, that, though still able to do duty on
the tops, the pressure of his finger left for several seconds a dent in
his thigh, as if the muscular flesh had become of the consistency of
dough. At another time, when overtaken in a small vessel by a
protracted tempest, in which "for many days neither sun nor moon
appeared," he continued to retain his hold of the helm for twelve hours
after every other man aboard was utterly prostrated and down, and
succeeded, in consequence, in weathering the storm for them all. And
after his death, a nephew of my mother's, a young man who had served his
apprenticeship under him, was treated with great kindness on the Spanish
Main, for his sake, by a West Indian captain, whose ship and crew he had
saved, as the captain told the lad, by boarding them in a storm, at
imminent risk to himself, and working their vessel into port, when, in
circumstances of similar exhaustion, they were drifting full upon an
iron-bound shore. Many of my other recollections of this manly
sailor are equally fragmentary in their character; but there is a distinct
bit of picture in them all, that strongly impressed the boyish fancy.
When not much turned of thirty, the sailor returned to his
native town, with money enough, hardly earned, and carefully kept, to buy
a fine large sloop, with which he engaged in the coasting trade; and
shortly after he married his cousin's daughter. He found his cousin,
who had supported herself in her widowhood by teaching a school, residing
in a dingy, old-fashioned house, three rooms in length, but with the
windows of its second story half-buried in the eaves, that had been left
her by their mutual grandfather, old John Feddes, one of the last of the
buccaneers. It had been built, I have every reason to believe, with
Spanish gold; not, however, with a great deal of it, for, notwithstanding
its six rooms, it was a rather humble erection, and had now fallen greatly
into disrepair. It was fitted up with some of the sailor's money,
and, after his marriage, became his home,—a home rendered all the happier
by the presence of his cousin, now rising in years, and who, during her
long widowhood, had sought and found consolation, amid her troubles and
privations, where it was surest to be found. She was a
meek-spirited, sincerely pious woman; and the sailor, during his more
distant voyages,—for he sometimes traded with ports of the Baltic on the
one hand, and with those of Ireland and the south of England on the
other,—had the comfort of knowing that his wife, who had fallen into a
state of health chronically delicate, was sedulously tended and cared for
by a devoted mother. The happiness which he would have otherwise
enjoyed was, however, marred in some degree by his wife's great delicacy
of constitution, and ultimately blighted by two unhappy accidents.
He had not lost the nature which had been evinced at an early
age beside the pond: for a man who had often looked death in the face, he
had remained nicely tender of human life, and had often hazarded his own
in preserving that of others; and when accompanied, on one occasion, by
his wife and her mother to his vessel, just previous to sailing, he had
unfortunately to exert himself in her presence, in behalf of one of his
seamen, in a way that gave her constitution a shock from which it never
recovered. A clear frosty moonlight evening had set in; the
pier-head was glistening with new-formed ice; and one of the sailors, when
engaged in casting over a haulser which he had just loosed, missed footing
on the treacherous margin, and fell into the sea. The master knew
his man could not swim; a powerful seaward tide sweeps past the place with
the first hours of the ebb; there was not a moment to be lost; and,
hastily throwing off his heavy greatcoat, he plunged after him, and in an
instant the strong current swept them both out of sight. He
succeeded, however, in laying hold of the half-drowned man, and, striking
with him from out the perilous tideway into an eddy, with a Herculean
effort he regained the quay. On reaching it, his wife lay insensible
in the arms of her mother; and as she was at the time in the delicate
condition incidental to married women, the natural consequence followed,
and she never recovered the shock, but lingered for more than a
twelvemonth, the mere shadow of her former self; when a second event, as
untoward as the first, too violently shook the fast ebbing sands, and
precipitated her dissolution.
A prolonged tempest from the stormy north-east had swept the
Moray Firth of its shipping, and congregated the stormbound vessels by
scores in the noble harbour of Cromarty, when the wind chopped suddenly
round, and they all set out to sea,—the sloop of the master among the
rest. The other vessels kept the open Firth; but the master,
thoroughly acquainted with its navigation, and in the belief that the
change of wind was but temporary, went on hugging the land on the weather
side, till, as he had anticipated, the breeze set full into the old
quarter, and increased into a gale. And then, when all the rest of
the fleet had no other choice left them than just to scud back again, he
struck out into the Firth in a long tack, and, doubling Kinnaird's Head
and the dreadful Buchan Ness, succeeded in making good his voyage south.
Next morning the wind-bound vessels were crowding the harbour of refuge as
before, and only his sloop was amissing. The first war of the French
Revolution had broken out at the time; it was known there were several
French privateers hovering on the coast; and the report went abroad that
the missing sloop had been captured by the French. There was a
weather-brained tailor in the neighbourhood, who used to do very odd
things, especially, it was said, when the moon was at the full, and whom
the writer remembers from the circumstance that he fabricated for him his
first jacket, and that, though he succeeded in sewing on one sleeve to the
hole at the shoulder, where it ought to be, he committed the slight
mistake of sewing on the other sleeve to one of the pocket-holes.
Poor Andrew Fern had heard that his townsman's sloop had been captured by
a privateer, and, fidgety with impatience till he had communicated the
intelligence where he thought it would tell most effectively, he called on
the master's wife, to ask whether she had not heard that all the
wind-bound vessels had got back again save the master's, and to wonder no
one had yet told her that, if his had not got back, it was simply because
it had been taken by the French. The tailor's communication told
more powerfully than he could have anticipated: in less than a week after,
the master's wife was dead; and long ere her husband's return she was
lying in the quiet family burying-place, in which—so heavy were the drafts
made by accident and violent death on the family—the remains of none of
the male members had been deposited for more than a hundred years.
The mother, now left, by the death of her daughter, to
a dreary solitude, sought to relieve its tedium, during the absence of her
son-in-law when on his frequent voyages, by keeping, as she had done ere
his return from foreign parts, a humble school. It was attended by
two little girls, the children of a distant relation but very dear friend,
the wife of a tradesman of the place,—a woman, like herself, of sincere
though unpretending piety. Their similarity of character in this
respect could hardly be traced to their common ancestor. He was the
last curate of the neighbouring parish of Nigg; and, though not one of
those intolerant Episcopalian ministers that succeeded in rendering their
Church thoroughly hateful to the Scottish people,—for he was a simple,
easy man, of much good nature,—he was, if tradition speak true, as little
religious as any of them. In one of the earlier replies to that
curious work, "Scotch Presbyterian Eloquence Displayed," I find a
nonsensical passage from one of the curate's sermons, given as a set-off
against the
Presbyterian nonsense adduced by the other side. "Mr James M'Kenzie,
[3] curate of Nigg in Ross," says the
writer, "describing eternity to his parishioners, told them that in that
state they would be immortalized, so that nothing could hurt them: a slash
of a broadsword could not hurt you, saith he; nay, a cannonball would play
but baff on you." Most of the curate's descendants were
stanch Presbyterians, and animated by a greatly stronger spirit than his;
and there were none of them stancher in their Presbyterianism than the two
elderly women who counted kin from him in the fourth degree, and who, on
the basis of a common faith, had become attached friends. The little
girls were great favourites with the schoolmistress; and when, as she rose
in years, her health began to fail, the elder of the two removed from her
mother's house, to live with, and take care of her; and the younger, who
was now shooting up into a pretty young woman, used, as before, to pass
much of her time with her sister and her old mistress.
Meanwhile the shipmaster was thriving. He purchased a
site for a house beside that of his buccaneering grandfather, and built
for himself and his aged relative a respectable dwelling, which cost him
about four hundred pounds, and entitled his son, the writer, to exercise
the franchise, on the passing, considerably more than thirty years after,
of the Reform Bill. The new house was, however, never to be
inhabited by its builder; for, ere it was fully finished, he was overtaken
by a sad calamity, that, to a man of less energy and determination, would
have been ruin, and in consequence of which he had to content himself with
the old house as before, and almost to begin the world anew. I have
now reached a point in my narrative at which, from my connexion with the
two little girls,—both of whom still live in the somewhat altered
character of women far advanced in life,—I can be as minute in its details
as I please; and the details of the misadventure which stripped the
shipmaster of the earnings of long years of carefulness and toil, blended
as they are with what an old critic might term a curious machinery of the
supernatural, seem not unworthy of being given unabridged.
Early in November 1797, two vessels—the one a smack in the
London and Inverness trade, the other the master's square-rigged sloop—lay
wind-bound for a few days on their passage north, in the port of
Peterhead. The weather, which had been stormy and unsettled,
moderated towards the evening of the fifth day of their detention; and the
wind chopping suddenly into the east, both vessels loosed from their
moorings, and, as a rather gloomy day was passing into still gloomier
night, they bore out to sea. The breeze soon freshened into a gale;
the gale swelled into a hurricane, accompanied by a thick snow-storm; and
when, early next morning, the smack opened the Firth, she was staggering
under her storm-jib, and a mainsail reefed to the cross. Whatever
wind may blow, there is always shelter within the Sutors; and she was soon
riding at anchor in the roadstead; but she had entered the bay alone; and
when day broke, and for a brief interval the driving snow-rack cleared up
towards the east, no second sail appeared in the offing. "Poor
Miller!" exclaimed the master of the smack; "if he does not enter the
Firth ere an hour, he will never enter it at all. Good sound vessel,
and better sailor never stepped between stem and stern; but last night
has, I fear, been too much for him. He should have been here long
ere now." The hour passed; the day itself wore heavily away in gloom
and tempest; and as not only the master, but also all the crew of the
sloop, were natives of the place, groups of the town's-folk might be seen,
so long as the daylight lasted, looking out into the storm from the
salient points of the old coast-line that, rising immediately behind the
houses, commands the Firth. But the sloop came not, and before they
had retired to their homes, a second night had fallen, dark and
tempestuous as the first.
Ere morning the weather moderated: a keen frost bound up the
wind in its icy fetters; and during the following day, though a heavy
swell continued to roll shorewards between the Sutors, and sent up its
white foam high against the cliffs, the surface of the sea had become
glassy and smooth. But the day wore on, and evening again fell; and
even the most sanguine relinquished all hope of ever again seeing the
sloop or her crew. There was grief in the master's dwelling,—grief
in no degree the less poignant from the circumstance that it was the
tearless, uncomplaining grief of rigid old age. Her two youthful
friends and their mother watched with the widow, now, as it seemed, left
alone in the world. The town-clock had struck the hour of midnight,
and still she remained as if fixed to her seat, absorbed in silent,
stupifying sorrow, when a heavy foot was heard pacing along the now silent
street. It passed, and anon returned; ceased for a moment nearly
opposite the window; then approached the door, where there was a second
pause; and then there succeeded a faltering knock, that struck on the very
hearts of the inmates within. One of the girls sprang up, and on
undoing the bolt, shrieked out, as the door fell open, "O mistress, here
is Jack Grant the mate!" Jack, a tall, powerful seaman, but
apparently in a state of utter exhaustion, staggered, rather than walked
in, and flung himself into a chair. "Jack," exclaimed the old woman,
seizing him convulsively by both his hands, "where's my cousin?—where's
Hugh?" "The master's safe and well," said Jack; "but the poor
Friendship lies in spales [4] on
the bar of Findhorn." [5] "God be
praised!" ejaculated the widow. "Let the gear go!"
I have often heard Jack's story related in Jack's own words,
at a period of life when repetition never tires; but I am not sure that I
can do it the necessary justice now. "We left Peterhead," he said,
"with about half a cargo of coal,—for we had lightened ship a day or two
before,—and the gale freshened as the night came on. We made all
tight, however; and though the snow-drift was so blinding in the thick of
the shower that I could scarce see my hand before me, and though it soon
began to blow great guns, we had given the land a good offing, and the
hurricane blew the right way. Just as we were loosening from the
quay, a poor young woman, much knocked up, with a child in her arms, had
come to the vessel's side, and begged hard of master to take her aboard.
She was a soldier's wife, and was travelling to join her husband at
Fort-George; but she was already worn out and penniless, she said; and
now, as a snow-storm threatened to block up the roads, she could neither
stay where she was, nor pursue her journey. Her infant, too,—she was
sure, if she tried to force her way through the hills, it would perish in
the snow. The master, though unwilling to cumber us with a passenger
in such weather, was induced, out of pity for the poor destitute creature,
to take her aboard. And she was now, with her child, all alone,
below in the cabin. I was stationed a-head on the out-look beside
the foresail horse: the night had grown pitch dark; and the lamp in
the binnacle threw just light enough through the grey of the shower to
show me the master at the helm. He looked more anxious, I thought,
than I had almost ever seen him before, though I have been with him,
mistress, in bad weather; and all at once I saw he had got company, and
strange company too, for such a night: there was a woman moving round him,
with a child in her arms. I could see her as distinctly as ever I
saw anything,—now on the one side, now on the other,—at one time full in
the light, at another half lost in the darkness. That, I said to
myself, must be the soldier's wife and her child; but how in the name of
wonder can the master allow a woman to come on deck in such a night as
this, when we ourselves have just enough ado to keep footing? He
takes no notice of her neither, but keeps looking on, quite in his wont,
at the binnacle. 'Master,' I said, stepping up to him, 'the woman
had surely better go below.' 'What woman, Jack?' said he; 'our
passenger, you may be sure, is nowhere else.' I looked round,
mistress, and found he was quite alone, and that the companion-head was
hasped down. There came a cold sweat all over me. 'Jack,' said
the master, 'the night is getting worse, and the roll of the waves
heightening every moment. I'm convinced, too, our cargo is shifting:
as the last sea struck us, I could hear the coals rattle below; and see
how stiffly we heel to the larboard. Say nothing, however, to the
men, but have all your wits about you; and look, meanwhile, to the
boat-tackle and the oars. I have seen a boat live in as bad a night
as this.' As he spoke, a blue light from above glimmered on the
deck. We looked up, and saw a dead-fire sticking to the cross-trees.
'It's all over with us now, master,' said I. 'Nay, man,' replied the
master, in his easy, humorous way, which I always like well enough except
in bad weather, and then I see his humour is served out like his extra
grog, to keep up hearts that have cause enough to get low,—'Nay, man,' he
said, 'we can't afford to let your grandmother board us to-night. If
you will insure me against the shifting coal, I'll be your guarantee
against the dead-light. Why, it's as much a natural appearance, man,
as a flash of lightning. Away to your berth, and keep up a good
heart: we can't be far from Covesea [6]
now, where, when once past the Skerries, the swell will take off; and
then, in two short hours, we may be snug within the Sutors. I had
scarcely reached my berth a-head, mistress, when a heavy sea struck us on
the starboard quarter, almost throwing us on our beam-ends. I could
hear the rushing of the coals below, as they settled on the larboard side;
and though the master set us full before the wind, and gave instant orders
to lighten every stitch of sail,—and it was but little sail we had at the
time to lighten,—still the vessel did not rise, but lay unmanageable as a
log, with her gunwale in the water. On we drifted, however, along
the south coast, with little expectation save that every sea would send us
to the bottom; until, in the first grey of the morning, we found ourselves
among the breakers of the terrible bar of Findhorn. And shortly
after, the poor Friendship took the ground right on the edge of the
quicksands, for she would neither stay nor wear; and as she beat hard
against the bottom, the surf came rolling over half-mast high.
"Just as we struck," continued Jack, "the master made a
desperate effort to get into the cabin. The vessel couldn't miss, we
saw, to break up and fill; and though there was little hope of any of us
ever setting foot ashore, he wished to give the poor woman below a chance
with the rest. All of us but himself, mistress, had got up into the
shrouds, and so we could see round us a bit; and he had just laid his hand
on the companion-hasp to undo the door, when I saw a tremendous sea coming
rolling towards us, like a moving wall, and shouted on him to hold fast.
He sprang to the weather back-stay, and laid hold. The sea came tumbling
on, and, breaking full twenty feet over his head, buried him for a
minute's space in the foam. We thought we should never see him more;
but when it cleared away, there was he still, with his iron grip on the
stay, though the fearful wave had water-logged the Friendship from
bow to stern, and swept her companion-head as cleanly off by the deck as
if it had been cut with a saw. No human aid could avail the poor
woman and her baby. Master could hear the terrible choking noise of
her dying agony right under his feet, with but a two-inch plank between;
and the sounds have haunted him ever since. But even had he
succeeded in getting her on deck, she could not possibly have survived,
mistress. For five long hours we clung to the rigging, with the seas
riding over us all the time like wild horses; and though we could see,
through the snow-drift and the spray, crowds on the shore, and boats lying
thick beside the pier, none dared venture out to assist us, till near the
close of the day, when the wind fell with the falling tide, and we were
brought ashore, more dead than alive, by a volunteer crew from the
harbour. The unlucky Friendship began to break up under us
ere mid-day, and we saw the corpse of the drowned woman, with the dead
infant still in its arms, come floating out through a hole in the side.
But the surf soon tore mother and child asunder, and we lost sight of them
as they drifted away to the west. Master would have crossed the
Firth himself this morning to relieve your mind, but being less worn out
than any of us, he thought it best to remain in charge of the wreck."
Such, in effect, was the narrative of Jack Grant, the mate.
The master, as I have said, had well-nigh to commence the world anew, and
was on the eve of selling his new house at a disadvantage, in order to
make up the sum necessary for providing himself with a new vessel, when a
friend interposed, and advanced him the balance required. He was
assisted, too, by a sister in Leith, who was in tolerably comfortable
circumstances; and so he got a new sloop, which, though not quite equal in
size to the one he had lost, was built wholly of oak, every plank and beam
of which he had superintended in the laying down, and a prime sailer to
boot; and so, though he had to satisfy himself with the accommodation of
the old domicile, with its little rooms and its small windows, and to let
the other house to a tenant, he began to thrive again as before.
Meanwhile his agèd cousin was gradually
sinking. The master was absent on one of his longer voyages, and she
too truly felt that she could not survive till his return. She
called to her bedside her two young friends, the sisters, who had been
unwearied in their attentions to her, and poured out her blessing on them;
first on the elder, and then on the younger. "But as for you,
Harriet," she added, addressing the latter, "there waits for you one of
the best blessings of this world also—the blessings of a good husband: you
will be a gainer in the end, even in this life, through your kindness to
the poor childless widow." The prophecy was a true one: the old
woman had shrewdly marked where the eyes of her cousin had been falling of
late; and in about a twelvemonth after her death her young friend and
pupil had become the master's wife. There was a very considerable
disparity between their ages,—the master was forty-four, and his wife only
eighteen,—but never was there a happier marriage. The young wife was
simple, confiding, and affectionate; and the master of a soft and genial
nature, with a large amount of buoyant humour about him, and so equable of
temper, that, during six years of wedded life, his wife never saw him
angry but once. I have heard her speak of the exceptional instance,
however, as too terrible to be readily forgotten.
She had accompanied him on ship-board, during their first
year of married life, to the upper parts of the Cromarty Firth, where his
sloop was taking in a cargo of grain, and lay quietly embayed within two
hundred yards of the southern shore. His mate had gone away for the
night to the opposite side of the bay, to visit his parents, who resided
in that neighbourhood; and the remaining crew consisted of but two seamen,
both young and somewhat reckless men, and the ship-boy. Taking the
boy with them to keep the ship's boat afloat, and wait their return, the
two sailors went ashore, and, setting out for a distant public-house,
remained there drinking till a late hour. There was a bright moon
overhead, but the evening was chilly and frosty; and the boy, cold, tired,
and half-overcome by sleep, after waiting on till past midnight, shoved
off the boat, and, making his way to the vessel, got straightway into his
hammock and fell asleep. Shortly after, the two men came to the
shore much the worse of liquor; and, failing to make themselves heard by
the boy, they stripped off their clothes, and chilly as the night was,
swam aboard. The master and his wife had been for hours snug in
their bed, when they were awakened by the screams of the boy: the drunken
men were unmercifully bastinading him with a rope's end apiece. The
master, hastily rising, had to interfere in his behalf, and with the air
of a man who knew that remonstrance in the circumstances would be of
little avail, he sent them both off to their hammocks. Scarcely,
however, had he again got into bed, when he was a second time aroused by
the cries of the boy, uttered on this occasion in the shrill tones of
agony and terror; and, promptly springing up, now followed by his wife, he
found the two sailors again belabouring the boy, and that one of them, in
his blind fury, had laid hold of a rope-end, armed, as is common on
shipboard, with an iron thimble or ring, and that every blow produced a
wound. The poor boy was streaming over with blood. The master,
in the extremity of his indignation, lost command of himself.
Rushing in, the two men were in a moment dashed against the deck;—they
seemed powerless in his hands as children; and had not his wife, although
very unfit at the time for mingling in a fray, run in and laid hold of
him,—a movement which calmed him at once,—it was her serious impression
that, unarmed as he was, he would have killed them both upon the spot.
There are, I believe, few things more formidable than the unwonted anger
of a good-natured man.
CHAPTER II.
Three stormy nights and stormy days
We tossed upon the raging main;
And long we strove our barque to save,
But all our striving was in vain.—LOWE. |
I WAS born, the first child of this marriage, on the
10th day of October 1802, in the low, long house built by my
great-grandfather the buccaneer. My memory awoke early. I have
recollections which date several months ere the completion of my third
year; but, like those of the golden age of the world, they are chiefly of
a mythologic character. I remember, for instance, getting out
unobserved one day to my father's little garden, and seeing there a minute
duckling covered with soft yellow hair, growing out of the soil by its
feet, and beside it a plant that bore as its flowers a crop of little
mussel shells of a deep red colour. I know not what prodigy of the
vegetable kingdom produced the little duckling; but the plant with the
shells must, I think, have been a scarlet runner, and the shells
themselves the papilionaceous blossoms. I have a distinct
recollection, too,—but it belongs to a later period,—of seeing my
ancestor, old John Feddes the buccaneer, though he must have been dead at
the time considerably more than half a century. I had learned to
take an interest in his story, as preserved and told in the antique
dwelling which he had built more than a hundred years before. To
forget a love disappointment, he had set out early in life for the Spanish
Main, where, after giving and receiving some hard blows, he succeeded in
filling a little bag with dollars and doubloons; and then coming home, he
found his old sweetheart a widow, and so much inclined to listen to
reason, that she ultimately became his wife. There were some little
circumstances in his history which must have laid hold of my imagination;
for I used over and over to demand its repetition; and one of my first
attempts at a work of art was to scribble his initials with my fingers, in
red paint, on the house-door. One day, when playing all alone at the
stair-foot—for the inmates of the house had gone out—something
extraordinary had caught my eye on the landing-place above; and looking
up, there stood John Feddes—for I somehow instinctively divined that it
was none other than he—in the form of a large, tall, very old man, attired
in a light-blue greatcoat. He seemed to be steadfastly regarding me
with apparent complacency; but I was sadly frightened; and for years
after, when passing through the dingy, ill-lighted room out of which I
inferred he had come, I used to feel not at all sure that I might not tilt
against old John in the dark.
I retain vivid recollections of the joy which used to light
up the household on my father's arrival; and I remember that I learned to
distinguish for myself his sloop in the offing, by the two slim stripes of
white which ran along her sides, and her two square topsails. I have
my golden memories, too, of splendid toys that he used to bring home with
him,—among the rest, of a magnificent four-wheeled waggon of painted tin,
drawn by four wooden horses and a string; and of getting it into a quiet
corner, immediately on its being delivered over to me, and there breaking
up every wheel and horse, and the vehicle itself, into their original
bits, until not two of the pieces were left sticking together.
Further, I still remember my disappointment at not finding something
curious within at least the horses and the wheels; and as unquestionably
the main enjoyment derivable from such things is to be had in the breaking
of them, I sometimes wonder that our ingenious toymen do not fall upon the
way of at once extending their trade, and adding to its philosophy, by
putting some of their most brilliant things where nature puts the
nut-kernel,—inside. I shall advert to but one other recollection of
this period. I have a dreamlike memory of a busy time, when men with
gold lace on their breasts, and at least one gentleman with golden
epaulets on his shoulders, used to call at my father's house, and fill my
newly acquired pockets with coppers; and how they wanted, it was said, to
bring my father along with them, to help them to sail their great vessel;
but he preferred remaining, it was added, with his own little one. A
ship of war, under the guidance of an unskilful pilot, had run aground on
a shallow flat on the opposite side of the Firth, known as the Inches; and
as the flood of a stream tide was at its height at the time, and
straightway began to fall off, it was found, after lightening her of her
guns and the greater part of her stores, that she still stuck fast.
My father, whose sloop had been pressed into the service, and was loaded
to the gunwale with the ordnance, had betrayed an unexpected knowledge of
the points of a large war-vessel; and the commander, entering into
conversation with him, was so impressed by his skill, that he placed his
ship under his charge, and had his confidence repaid by seeing her hauled
off into deep water in a single tide. Knowing the nature of the
bottom—a soft arenaceous mud, which if beat for some time by the foot or
hand, resolved itself into a sort of quicksand, half-sludge, half-water,
which, when covered by a competent depth of sea, could offer no effectual
resistance to a ship's keel,—the master had set half the crew to run in a
body from side to side, till, by the motion generated in this way, the
portion of the bank immediately beneath was beaten soft; and then the
other moiety of the men, tugging hard on kedge and haulser, drew the
vessel off a few feet at a time, till at length, after not a few
repetitions of the process, she floated free. Of course, on a harder
bottom the expedient would not have availed; but so struck was the
commander by its efficacy and originality, and by the extent of the
master's professional resources, that he strongly recommended him to part
with his sloop, and enter the navy, where he thought he had influence
enough, he said, to get him placed in a proper position. But as the
master's previous experience of the service had been of a very
disagreeable kind, and as his position, as at once master and owner of the
vessel he sailed, was at least an independent one, he declined acting on
the advice.
Such are some of my earlier recollections. But there
was a time of sterner memories at hand. The kelp trade had not yet
attained to the importance which it afterwards acquired, ere it fell
before the first approaches of Free Trade; and my father, in collecting a
supply for the Leith Glass Works, for which he occasionally acted both as
agent and shipmaster, used sometimes to spend whole months amid the
Hebrides, sailing from station to station, and purchasing here a few tons
and there a few hundredweights, until he had completed his cargo. In
his last kelp voyage he had been detained in this way from the close of
August till the end of October; and at length, deeply laden, he had
threaded his way round Cape Wrath, and through the Pentland and across the
Moray Firths, when a severe gale compelled him to seek shelter in the
harbour of Peterhead. From that port, on the 9th of November 1807,
he wrote my mother the last letter she ever received from him; for on the
day after he sailed from it there arose a terrible tempest, in which many
seamen perished, and he and his crew were never more heard of. His
sloop was last seen by a brother townsman and shipmaster, who, ere the
storm came on, had been fortunate enough to secure an asylum for his
barque in an English harbour on an exposed portion of the coast.
Vessel after vessel had been coming ashore during the day; and the beach
was strewed with wrecks and dead bodies; but he had marked his townsman's
sloop in the offing from mid-day till near evening, exhausting every
nautical shift and expedient to keep aloof from the shore; and at length,
as the night was falling, the skill and perseverance exerted seemed
successful; for, clearing a formidable headland that had lain on the lee
for hours, and was mottled with broken ships and drowned men, the sloop
was seen stretching out in a long tack into the open sea. "Miller's
seamanship has saved him once more!" said Matheson, the Cromarty skipper,
as, quitting his place of outlook, he returned to his cabin; but the night
fell tempestuous and wild, and no vestige of the hapless sloop was ever
after seen. It was supposed that, heavy laden, and labouring in a
mountainous sea, she must have started a plank and foundered. And
thus perished,—to borrow from the simple eulogium of his seafaring
friends, whom I heard long after condoling with my mother,—"one of the
best sailors that ever sailed the Moray Firth."
The fatal tempest, as it had prevailed chiefly on the eastern
coasts of England and the south of Scotland, was represented in the north
by but a few bleak, sullen days, in which, with little wind, a heavy
ground-swell came rolling in coastwards from the east, and sent up its
surf high against the precipices of the Northern Sutor. There were
no forebodings in the master's dwelling; for his Peterhead letter—a brief
but hopeful missive—had been just received; and my mother was sitting, on
the evening after, beside the household fire, plying the cheerful needle,
when the house door, which had been left unfastened, fell open, and I was
despatched from her side to shut it. What follows must be regarded
as simply the recollection, though a very vivid one, of a boy who had
completed his fifth year only a month before. Day had not wholly
disappeared, but it was fast posting on to night, and a grey haze spread a
neutral tint of dimness over every more distant object, but left the
nearer ones comparatively distinct, when I saw at the open door, within
less than a yard of my breast, as plainly as ever I saw anything, a
dissevered hand and arm stretched towards me. Hand and arm were
apparently those of a female: they bore a livid and sodden appearance; and
directly fronting me, where the body ought to have been, there was only
blank, transparent space, though which I could see the dim forms of the
objects beyond. I was fearfully startled, and ran shrieking to my
mother, telling what I had seen; and the house-girl whom she next sent to
shut the door, apparently affected by my terror, also returned frightened,
and said that she too had seen the woman's hand; which, however, did not
seem to be the case. And finally, my mother going to the door, saw
nothing, though she appeared much impressed by the extremeness of my
terror and the minuteness of my description. I communicate the
story, as it lies fixed in my memory, without attempting to explain it.
The supposed apparition may have been merely a momentary affection of the
eye, of the nature described by Sir Walter Scott in his "Demonology," and
Sir David Brewster in his "Natural Magic." But if so, the affection
was one of which I experienced no after-return; and its coincidence, in
the case, with the probable time of my father's death, seems at least
curious.
There followed a dreary season, on which I still look back in
memory, as on a prospect which, sunshiny and sparkling for a time, has
become suddenly enveloped in cloud and storm. I remember my mother's
long fits of weeping, and the general gloom of the widowed household; and
how, after she had sent my two little sisters to bed,—for such had been
the increase of the family,—and her hands were set free for the evening,
she used to sit up late at night engaged as a seamstress, in making pieces
of dress for such of the neighbours as chose to employ her. My
father's new house lay untenanted at the time; and though his sloop had
been partially insured, the broker with whom he dealt was, it would seem,
on the verge of insolvency, and having raised objections to paying the
money, it was long ere any part of it could be realised. And so,
with all my mother's industry, the household would have fared but ill, had
it not been for the assistance lent her by her two brothers, industrious,
hard-working men, who lived with their aged parents, and an unmarried
sister, about a bow-shot away, and now not only advanced her money as she
needed it, but also took her second child, the elder of my two sisters, a
docile little girl of three years, to live with them. I remember I
used to go wandering disconsolately about the harbour at this season, to
examine the vessels which had come in during the night; and that I oftener
than once set my mother a-crying, by asking her why the ship-masters who,
when my father was alive, used to stroke my head and slip halfpence into
my pockets, never now took any notice of me, or gave me anything?
She well knew that the shipmasters—not an ungenerous class of men—had
simply failed to recognise their old comrade's child; but the question was
only too suggestive, notwithstanding, of both her own loss and mine.
I used, too, to climb, day after day, a grassy protuberance of the old
coast-line immediately behind my mother's house, that commands a wide
reach of the Moray Firth, and to look wistfully out, long after every one
else had ceased to hope, for the sloop with the two stripes of white and
two square topsails. But months and years passed by, and the white
stripes and the square topsails I never saw.
The antecedents of my father's life impressed me more
powerfully during my boyhood than at least aught I acquired at school; and
I have submitted them to the reader at considerable length, as not only
curious in themselves, but as forming a first chapter in the story of my
education. And the following stanzas, written at a time when, in
opening manhood, I was sowing my wild oats in verse, may serve to show
that they continued to stand out in bold relief on my memory, even after I
had grown up:—
Round Albyn's western shores, a lonely skiff
Is coasting slow;—the adverse winds detain;
And now she rounds secure the dreaded cliff, [7]
Whose horrid ridge beats back the northern main;
And now the whirling Pentland roars in vain
Her stern beneath, for favouring breezes rise;
The green isles fade, whitens the watery plain,
O'er the vexed waves with meteor speed she flies,
Till Moray's distant hills o'er the blue waves arise.
Who guides that vessel's wanderings o'er the wave?
A patient, hardy man, of thoughtful brow;
Serene and warm of heart, and wisely brave,
And sagely skill'd, when gurly breezes blow,
To press through angry waves the adventurous prow.
Age hath not quell'd his strength, nor quench'd desire
Of generous deed, nor chill'd his bosom's glow;
Yet to a better world his hopes aspire.
Ah! this must sure be thee. All hail, my
honoured Sire!
Alas! thy latest voyage draws near a close,
For Death broods voiceless in the darkening sky;
Subsides the breeze; the untroubled waves repose;
The scene is peaceful all. Can Death be nigh,
When thus, mute and unarm'd, his vassals lie?
Mark ye that cloud! There toils the imprisoned gale;
E'en now it comes, with voice uplifted high;
Resound the shores, harsh screams the rending sail,
And roars th' amazed
wave, and bursts the thunder peal!
Three days the tempest raged; on Scotia's shore
Wreck piled on wreck, and corse o'er corse was thrown;
Her rugged cliffs were red with clotted gore;
Her dark caves echoed back th' expiring moan;
And luckless maidens mourned their lovers gone,
And friendless orphans cried in vain for bread;
And widow'd mothers wandered forth alone;—
Restore, O wave, they cried,—restore our dead!
And then the breast they bared, and beat th'
unsheltered head.
Of thee, my Sire, what mortal tongue can tell!
No friendly bay thy shattered barque received;
Ev'n when thy dust reposed in ocean cell,
Strange baseless tales of hope thy friends deceived
Which oft they doubted sad, or gay believed.
At length, when deeper, darker, wax'd the gloom,
Hopeless they grieved; but 'twas in vain they grieved:
If God be truth, 'tis sure no voice of doom,
That bids the accepted soul its robes of joy assume. |
I had been sent, previous to my father's death, to a dame's
school, where I was taught to pronounce my letters to such effect in the
old Scottish mode, that still, when I attempt spelling a word aloud, which
is not often,—for I find the process a perilous one,—the aa's and
ee's, and uh's and vaus, return upon me and I have to
translate them with no little hesitation as I go along, into the more
modish sounds. A knowledge of the letters themselves I had already
acquired by studying the signposts of the place,—rare works of art, that
excited my utmost admiration, with jugs, and glasses, and bottles, and
ships, and loaves of bread upon them; all of which could, as the artists
had intended, be actually recognised. During my sixth year I spelt
my way, under the dame, through the Shorter Catechism, the Proverbs, and
the New Testament, and then entered upon her highest form, as a member of
the Bible class; but all the while the process of acquiring learning had
been a dark one, which I slowly mastered, in humble confidence in the
awful wisdom of the schoolmistress, not knowing whither it tended, when at
once my mind awoke to the meaning of that most delightful of all
narratives,—the story of Joseph. Was there ever such a discovery
made before! I actually found out for myself, that the art of
reading is the art of finding stories in books, and from that moment
reading became one of the most delightful of my amusements. I began
by getting into a corner at the dismissal of the school, and there conning
over to myself the new-found story of Joseph; nor did one perusal serve;
the other Scripture stories followed,—in especial, the story of Samson and
the Philistines, of David and Goliath, of the prophets Elijah and Elisha;
and after these came the New Testament stories and parables.
Assisted by my uncles, I began to collect a library in a box of birch-bark
about nine inches square; which I found quite large enough to contain a
great many immortal works,—Jack the Giant-Killer, and Jack and the
Bean-Stalk, and the Yellow Dwarf, and Blue Beard, and Sinbad the Sailor,
and Beauty and the Beast, and Aladdin and the Wonderful Lamp, with several
others of resembling character. Those intolerable nuisances the
useful-knowledge books had not yet arisen, like tenebrious stars, on the
educational horizon, to darken the world, and shed their blighting
influence on the opening intellect of the "youth-hood"; and so, from my
rudimental books—books that made themselves truly such by their thorough
assimilation with the rudimental mind—I passed on, without being conscious
of break or line of division, to books on which the learned are content to
write commentaries and dissertations, but which I found to be quite as
nice children's books as any of the others. Old Homer wrote
admirably for little folk, especially in the Odyssey; a copy of which,—in
the only true translation extant,—for, judging from its surpassing
interest, and the wrath of critics, such I hold that of Pope to be,—I
found in the house of a neighbour. Next came the Iliad; not,
however, in a complete copy, but represented by four of the six volumes of
Bernard Lintot. [8] With what
power, and at how early an age, true genius impresses! I saw, even
at this immature period, that no other writer could cast a javelin with
half the force of Homer. The missiles went whizzing athwart his
pages; and I could see the momentary gleam of the steel, ere it buried
itself deep in brass and bull-hide. I next succeeded in discovering
for myself a child's book, of not less interest than even the Iliad, which
might, I was told, be read on Sabbaths, in a magnificent old edition of
the "Pilgrim's Progress," printed on coarse whity-brown paper, and charged
with numerous wood-cuts, each of which occupied an entire page, that, on
principles of economy, bore letter-press on the other side. And such
delightful prints as these were! It must have been some such volume
that sat for its portrait to Wordsworth, and which he so exquisitely
describes as—
Profuse in garniture of wooden cuts,
Strange and uncouth; dire faces, figures dire,
Sharp-knee'd, sharp-elbow'd, and lean-ankled too,
With long and ghastly shanks,—forma which, once seen,
Could never be forgotten. |
In process of time I had devoured, besides these genial
works, Robinson Crusoe, Gulliver's Travels, Ambrose on Angels, the
"judgment chapter" in Howie's Scotch Worthies, Byron's Narrative, and the
Adventures of Philip Quarll, with a good many other adventures and
voyages, real and fictitious, part of a very miscellaneous collection of
books made by my father. It was a melancholy little library to which
I had fallen heir. Most of the missing volumes had been with the
master aboard his vessel when he perished. Of an early edition of
Cook's Voyages, all the volumes were now absent save the first; and a very
tantalizing romance, in four volumes,—Mrs Ratcliff's "Mysteries of Udolpho,"
was represented by only the earlier two. Small as the collection
was, it contained some rare books,—among the rest, a curious little
volume, entitled "The Miracles of Nature and Art," to which we find Dr
Johnson referring, in one of the dialogues chronicled by Boswell, as
scarce even in his day, and which had been published, he said, some time
in the seventeenth century by a bookseller whose shop hung perched on Old
London Bridge, between sky and water. It contained, too, the only
copy I ever saw of the "Memoirs of a Protestant condemned to the Galleys
of France for his Religion,"—a work interesting from the circumstance
that—though it bore another name on its title-page—it had been translated
from the French for a few guineas by poor Goldsmith, in his days of
obscure literary drudgery, and exhibited the peculiar excellencies of his
style. The collection boasted, besides, of a curious old book,
illustrated by very uncouth plates, that detailed the perils and
sufferings of an English sailor who had spent his best years of life as a
slave in Morocco. It had its volumes of sound theology, too, and of
stiff controversy,—Flavel's Works, and Henry's Commentary, and Hutchinson
on the Lesser Prophets, and a very old treatise on the Revelation, with
the title-page away, and blind Jameson's volume on the Hierarchy, with
first editions of Naphthali, the Cloud of Witnesses, and the Hind let
Loose. But with these solid authors I did not venture to grapple
until long after this time. Of the works of fact and incident which
it contained, those of the voyagers were my especial favourites. I
perused with avidity the voyages of Anson, Drake, Raleigh, Dampier, and
Captain Woods Rogers; and my mind became so filled with conceptions of
what was to be seen and done in foreign parts, that I wished myself big
enough to be a sailor, that I might go and see coral islands and burning
mountains, and hunt wild beasts and fight battles.
I have already made mention of my two maternal uncles; and
referred, at least incidentally, to their mother, as the friend and
relative of my father's aged cousin, and, like her, a great-grand-child of
the last curate of Nigg. The curate's youngest daughter had been
courted and married by a somewhat wild young farmer, of the clan Ross, but
who was known, like the celebrated Highland outlaw, from the colour of his
hair, as Roy, or the Red. Donald Roy was the best club player in the
district; and as King James's "Book of Sports" was not deemed a very bad
one in the semi-Celtic parish of Nigg, the games in which Donald took part
were usually played on the Sabbath. About the time of the
Revolution, however, he was laid hold of by strong religious convictions,
heralded, say the traditions of the district, by events that approximated
in character to the supernatural; and Donald became the subject of a
mighty change. There is a phase of the religious character, which in
the south of Scotland belongs to the first two ages of Presbytery, but
which disappeared ere its third establishment under William of Nassau,
that we find strikingly exemplified in the Welches, Pedens, and Cargills
of the times of the persecution, and in which a sort of wild machinery of
the supernatural was added to the commoner aspects of a living
Christianity. The men in whom it was exhibited were seers of visions
and dreamers of dreams; and, standing on the very verge of the natural
world, they looked far into the world of spirits, and had at times their
strange glimpses of the distant and the future. To the north of the
Grampians, as if born out of due season, these seers pertain to a later
age. They flourished chiefly in the early part of the last century;
for it is a not uninstructive fact, that in the religious history of
Scotland, the eighteenth century of the Highland and semi-Highland
districts of the north corresponded in many of its traits to the
seventeenth century of the Saxon-peopled districts of the south; and
Donald Roy was one of the most notable of the class. The anecdotes
regarding him which still float among the old recollections of Ross-shire,
if transferred to Peden or Welch, would be found entirely in character
with the strange stories that inlay the biographies of these devoted men,
and live so enduringly in the memory of the Scottish people. Living,
too, in an age in which, like the Covenanters of a former century, the
Highlander still retained his weapons, and knew how to use them, Donald
had, like the Patons, Hackstons, and Balfours of the south, his dash of
the warlike spirit; and after assisting his minister, previous to the
rebellion of 1745, in what was known as the great religious revival of
Nigg, he had to assist him, shortly after, in pursuing a band of armed
Caterans, that, descending from the hills, swept the parish of its cattle.
And coming up with the outlaws in the gorge of a wild Highland glen, no
man of his party was more active in the fray that followed than old
Donald, or exerted himself to better effect in re-capturing the cattle.
I need scarce add, that he was an attached member of the Church of
Scotland: but he was not destined to die in her communion.
Donald's minister, John Balfour of Nigg—a man whose memory is
still honoured in the north—died in middle life, and an unpopular
presentee was obtruded on the people. The policy of Robertson
prevailed at the time; Gillespie had been deposed only four years
previous, for refusing to assist in the disputed settlement of
Inverkeithing; and four of the Nigg Presbytery, overawed by the stringency
of the precedent, repaired to the parish church to conduct the settlement
of the obnoxious licentiate, and introduce him to the parishioners.
They found, however, only an empty building; and, notwithstanding the
ominous absence of the people, they were proceeding in shame and sorrow
with their work, when a venerable man, far advanced in life, suddenly
appeared before them, and, solemnly protesting against the utter mockery
of such a proceeding, impressively declared, "that if they settled a man
to the walls of that kirk, the blood of the parish of Nigg would be
required at their hands." Both Dr Hetherington and Dr Merle d'Aubigné
record the event; but neither of these accomplished historians seems to
have been aware of the peculiar emphasis which a scene that would have
been striking in any circumstances derived from the character of the
protester—old Donald Roy. The Presbytery, appalled, stopt short in
the middle of its work; nor was it resumed till an after day, when, at the
command of the Moderate majority of the Church—a command not unaccompanied
by significant reference to the fate of Gillespie—the forced settlement
was consummated. Donald, who carried the entire parish with him,
continued to cling to the National Church for nearly ten years after, much
befriended by one of the most eminent and influential divines of the
north—Fraser of Alness—the author of a volume on Sanctification, still
regarded as a standard work by Scottish theologians. But as neither
the people nor their leader ever entered on any occasion the parish
church, or heard the obnoxious presentee, the Presbytery at length refused
to tolerate the irregularity by extending to them as before the ordinary
Church privileges; and so they were lost to the Establishment, and became
Seceders. And in the communion of that portion of the Secession
known as the Burghers, [9] Donald died
several years after, at a patriarchal old age.
Among his other descendants, he had three grand-daughters,
who were left orphans at an early age by the death of both their parents,
and whom the old man, on their bereavement, had brought to his dwelling to
live with him. They had small portions apiece, derived from his
son-in-law, their father, which did not grow smaller under the care of
Donald; and as each of the three was married in succession out of his
family, he added to all his other kindnesses the gift of a gold ring.
They had been brought up under his eye sound in the faith; and Donald's
ring had, in each case, a mystic meaning;—they were to regard it, he told
them, as the wedding ring of their other Husband, the Head of the Church,
and to be faithful spouses to Him in their several households. Nor
did the injunction, nor the significant symbol with which it was
accompanied, prove idle in the end. They all brought the savour of
sincere piety into their families. The grand-daughter with whom the
writer was more directly connected, had been courted and married by an
honest and industrious but somewhat gay young tradesman, but she proved,
under God, the means of his conversion; and their children, of whom eight
grew up to be men and women, were reared in decent frugality, and the
exercise of honest principles carefully instilled. Her husband's
family had, like that of my paternal ancestors, been a seafaring one.
His father, after serving for many years on shipboard, passed the latter
part of his life as one of the armed boatmen that, during the last
century, guarded the coasts in behalf of the revenue; and his only
brother, the boatman's son, an adventurous young sailor, had engaged in
Admiral Vernon's unfortunate expedition, and left his bones under the
walls of Carthagena; but he himself pursued the peaceful occupation of a
shoemaker, and, in carrying on his trade, usually employed a few
journeymen, and kept a few apprentices. In course of time the elder
daughters of the family married, and got households of their own; but the
two sons, my uncles, remained under the roof of their parents, and at the
time when my father perished, they were both in middle life. And,
deeming themselves called on to take his place in the work of instruction
and discipline, I owed to them much more of my real education than to any
of the teachers whose schools I afterwards attended. They both bore
a marked individuality of character, and were much the reverse of
commonplace or vulgar men.
My elder uncle, James, added to a clear head and much native
sagacity, a singularly retentive memory, and great thirst of information.
He was a harness-maker and wrought for the farmers of an extensive
district of country; and as he never engaged either journeyman or
apprentice, but executed all his work with his own hands, his hours of
labour, save that he indulged in a brief pause as the twilight came on,
and took a mile's walk or so, were usually protracted from six o'clock in
the morning till ten at night. Such incessant occupation left him
little time for reading; but he often found some one to read beside him
during the day; and in the winter evenings his portable bench used to be
brought from his shop at the other end of the dwelling, into the family
sitting-room, and placed beside the circle round the hearth, where his
brother Alexander, my younger uncle, whose occupation left his evenings
free, would read aloud from some interesting volume for the general
benefit,—placing himself always at the opposite side of the bench, so as
to share in the light of the worker. Occasionally the family circle
would be widened by the accession of from two to three intelligent
neighbours, who would drop in to listen; and then the book, after a space,
would be laid aside, in order that its contents might be discussed in
conversation. In the summer months Uncle James always spent some
time in the country, in looking after and keeping in repair the harness of
the farmers for whom he wrought; and during his journeys and twilight
walks on these occasions there was not an old castle, or hill-fort, or
ancient encampment, or antique ecclesiastical edifice, within twenty miles
of the town, which he had not visited and examined over and over again.
He was a keen local antiquary; knew a good deal about the architectural
styles of the various ages, at a time when these subjects were little
studied or known; and possessed more traditionary lore, picked up chiefly
in his country journeys, than any man I ever knew. When he once
heard he never forgot; and the knowledge which he had acquired he could
communicate pleasingly and succinctly, in a style which, had he been a
writer of books, instead of merely a reader of them, would have had the
merit of being clear and terse, and more laden with meaning than words.
From his reputation for sagacity, his advice used to be much sought after
by the neighbours in every little difficulty that came their way; and the
counsel given was always shrewd and honest. I never knew a man more
entirely just in his dealings than Uncle James, or who regarded every
species of meanness with a more thorough contempt. I soon learned to
bring my story-books to his workshop, and became, in a small way, one of
his readers,—greatly more, however, as may be supposed, on my own
account than his. My books were not yet of the kind which he would
have chosen for himself; but he took an interest in my interest;
and his explanations of all the hard words saved me the trouble of turning
over a dictionary. And when tired of reading, I never failed to find
rare delight in his anecdotes and old-world stories, many of which were
not to be found in books, and all of which, without apparent effort on his
own part, he could render singularly amusing. Of these narratives,
the larger part died with him; but a portion of them I succeeded in
preserving in a little traditionary work published a few years after his
death. I was much a favourite with Uncle James,—even more, I am
disposed to think, on my father's account than on that of his sister, my
mother. My father and he had been close friends for years; and in
the vigorous and energetic sailor he had found his beau-ideal of a
man.
My Uncle Alexander was of a different cast from his brother,
both in intellect and temperament; but he was characterized by the same
strict integrity; and his religious feelings, though quiet and
unobtrusive, were perhaps more deep. James was somewhat of a
humorist, and fond of a good joke. Alexander was grave and serious;
and never, save on one solitary occasion, did I know him even attempt a
jest. On hearing an intelligent but somewhat eccentric neighbour
observe, that "all flesh is grass," in a strictly physical sense, seeing
that all the flesh of the herbivorous animals is elaborated from
vegetation, and all the flesh of the carnivorous animals from that of the
herbivorous ones, Uncle Sandy remarked that, knowing, as he did, the
piscivorous habits of the Cromarty folk, he should surely make an
exception in his generalization, by admitting that in at least one village
"all flesh is fish." My uncle had acquired the trade of the
cartwright, and was employed in a workshop at Glasgow at the time the
first war of the French Revolution broke out; when, moved by some such
spirit as possessed his uncle,—the victim of Admiral Vernon's unlucky
expedition,—or Old Donald Roy, when he buckled himself to his Highland
broadsword, and set out in pursuit of the Caterans,—he entered the navy.
And during the eventful period which intervened between the commencement
of the war and the peace of 1802, there was little either suffered or
achieved by his countrymen in which he had not a share. He sailed
with Nelson; witnessed the mutiny at the Nore; fought under Admiral Duncan
at Camperdown, and under Sir John Borlase Warren at Loch Swilly; assisted
in capturing the Généroux
and Guillaume Tell, two French ships of the line; was one of the seamen
who, in the Egyptian expedition, were drafted out of Lord Keith's fleet to
supply the lack of artillerymen in the army of Sir Ralph Abercromby; had a
share in the danger and glory of the landing in Egypt; and fought in the
battle of 13th March, and in that which deprived our country of one of her
most popular generals. He served, too, at the siege of Alexandria.
And then, as he succeeded in procuring his discharge during the short
peace of 1802, he returned home with a small sum of hardly-earned
prize-money, heartily sick of war and bloodshed. I was asked not
long ago by one of his few surviving comrades, whether my uncle had ever
told me that their gun was the first landed in Egypt, and the first
dragged up the sand-bank immediately over the beach, and how hot it grew
under their hands, as, with a rapidity unsurpassed along the line, they
poured out in thick succession its iron discharges upon the enemy. I
had to reply in the negative. All my uncle's narratives were
narratives of what he had seen—not of what he had done; and when,
perusing, late in life, one of his favourite works—Dr Keith's "Signs of
the Times"—he came to the chapter in which that excellent writer describes
the time of hot naval warfare which immediately followed the breaking out
of war, as the period in which the second vial was poured out on the sea,
and in which the waters "became as the blood of a dead man, so that every
living soul died in the sea," I saw him bend his head in reverence as he
remarked, "Prophecy, I find, gives to all our glories but a single verse,
and it is a verse of judgment." Uncle Sandy, however, did not urge
the peace principles which he had acquired amid scenes of death and
carnage, into any extravagant consequences; and on the breaking out, in
1803, of the second war of the Revolution, when Napoleon threatened
invasion from Brest and Boulogne, he at once shouldered his musket as a
volunteer. He had not his brother's fluency of speech; but his
narratives of what he had seen were singularly truthful and graphic; and
his descriptions of foreign plants and animals, and of the aspect of the
distant regions which he had visited, had all the careful minuteness of
those of a Dampier. He had a decided turn for natural history.
My collection contains a murex, not unfrequent in the Mediterranean, which
he found time enough to transfer, during the heat of the landing in Egypt,
from the beach to his pocket; and the first ammonite I ever saw was a
specimen, which I still retain, that he brought home with him from one of
the Liassic deposits of England.
Early on the Sabbath evenings I used regularly to attend at
my uncle's with two of my maternal cousins, boys of about my own age, and
latterly with my two sisters, to be catechized, first on the Shorter
Catechism, and then on the Mother's Catechism of Willison. On
Willison my uncles always cross-examined us, to make sure that we
understood the short and simple questions; but, apparently regarding the
questions of the Shorter Catechism as seed sown for a future day, they
were content with having them well fixed in our memories. There was
a Sabbath class taught in the parish church at the time by one of the
elders; but Sabbath-schools my uncles regarded as merely compensatory
institutions, highly creditable to the teachers, but very discreditable
indeed to the parents and relatives of the taught; and so they of course
never thought of sending us there. Later in the evening, after a
short twilight walk, for which the sedentary occupation of my Uncle James
formed an apology, but in which my Uncle Alexander always shared, and
which usually led them into solitary woods, or along an unfrequented
sea-shore, some of the old divines were read; and I used to take my place
in the circle, though, I am afraid, not to much advantage. I
occasionally caught a fact, or had my attention arrested for a moment by a
simile or metaphor; but the trains of close argument, and the passages of
dreary "application," were always lost.
CHAPTER III.
At Wallace' name what Scottish blood
But boils up in a spring-tide flood!
Oft have our fearless fathers strode
By Wallace' side,
Still pressing onward, red wat shod,
Or glorious died."—BURNS. |
I FIRST became thoroughly a Scot some time in my
tenth year; and the consciousness of country has remained tolerably strong
within me ever since. My Uncle James had procured for me from a
neighbour the loan of a common stall-edition of Blind Harry's "Wallace,"
as modernized by Hamilton; but after reading the first chapter,—a piece of
dull genealogy, broken into very rude rhyme,—I tossed the volume aside as
uninteresting; and only resumed it at the request of my uncle, who urged
that, simply for his amusement and gratification, I should read some three
or four chapters more. Accordingly, the three or four chapters more
I did read;—I read "how Wallace killed young Selbie the Constable's son";
"how Wallace fished in Irvine Water"; and "how Wallace killed the Churl
with his own staff in Ayr"; and then Uncle James told me, in the quiet way
in which he used to make a joke tell, that the book seemed to be rather a
rough sort of production, filled with accounts of quarrels and bloodshed,
and that I might read no more of it unless I felt inclined. But I
now did feel inclined very strongly, and read on with increasing
astonishment and delight. I was intoxicated with the fiery
narratives of the blind minstrel,—with his fierce breathings of hot,
intolerant patriotism, and his stories of astonishing prowess; and,
glorying in being a Scot, and the countryman of Wallace and the Graham, I
longed for a war with the Southron, that the wrongs and sufferings of
these noble heroes might yet be avenged. All I had previously heard
and read of the marvels of foreign parts, of the glories of modern
battles, seemed tame and commonplace, compared with the incidents in the
life of Wallace; and I never after vexed my mother by wishing myself big
enough to be a sailor. My Uncle Sandy, who had some taste for the
refinements of poetry, would fain have led me on from the exploits of
Wallace to the "Life of the Bruce," which, in the form of a not very
vigorous imitation of Dryden's "Virgil," by one Harvey, was bound up in
the same volume, and which my uncle deemed the better-written life of the
two. And so far as the mere amenities of style were concerned, he
was, I daresay, right. But I could not agree with him. Harvey
was by much too fine and too learned for me; and it was not until some
years after, when I was fortunate enough to pick up one of the later
editions of Barbour's "Bruce," that the Hero-King of Scotland assumed his
right place in my mind beside its Hero-Guardian. There are stages of
development in the immature youth of individuals, that seem to correspond
with stages of development in the immature youth of nations; and the
recollections of this early time enable me, in some measure, to understand
how it was that, for hundreds of years, Blind Harry's "Wallace," with its
rude and naked narrative, and its exaggerated incident, should have been,
according to Lord Hailes, the Bible of the Scotch people.
I quitted the dame's school at the end of the first
twelvemonth, after mastering that grand acquirement of my life,—the art of
holding converse with books; and was transferred straightforth to the
grammar school of the parish, at which there attended at this time about a
hundred and twenty boys, with a class of about thirty individuals more,
much looked down upon by the others, and not deemed greatly worth the
counting, seeing that it consisted of only lassies. And here, too,
the early individual development seems nicely correspondent with an early
national one. In his depreciatory estimate of contemporary woman,
the boy is always a true savage. The old parish school of the place
had been nobly situated in a snug corner, between the parish churchyard
and a thick wood; and from the interesting centre which it formed, the
boys, when tired of making dragoon-horses of the erect head-stones, or of
leaping along the flat-laid memorials, from end to end of the grave-yard,
"without touching grass," could repair to the taller trees, and rise in
the world by climbing among them. As, however, they used to
encroach, on these latter occasions, upon the laird's pleasure-grounds,
the school had been removed ere my time to the sea-shore; where, though
there were neither tombstones nor trees, there were some balancing
advantages, of a kind which perhaps only boys of the old school could have
adequately appreciated. As the school-windows fronted the opening of
the Firth, not a vessel could enter the harbour that we did not see; and,
improving through our opportunities, there was perhaps no educational
institution in the kingdom in which all sorts of barques and carvels, from
the fishing yawl to the frigate, could be more correctly drawn on the
slate, or where any defect in hulk or rigging, in some faulty delineation,
was surer of being more justly and unsparingly criticised. Further,
the town, which drove a great trade in salted pork at the time, had a
killing-place not thirty yards from the school door, where from eighty to
a hundred pigs used sometimes to die for the general good in a single day;
and it was a great matter to hear, at occasional intervals, the roar of
death outside rising high over the general murmur within, or to be told by
some comrade, returned from his five minutes' leave of absence, that a
hero of a pig had taken three blows of the hatchet ere it fell, and that
even after its subjection to the sticking process, it had got hold of Jock
Keddie's hand in its mouth, and almost smashed his thumb. We
learned, too, to know, from our signal opportunities of observation, not
only a good deal about pig-anatomy,—especially about the detached edible
parts of the animal, such as the spleen and the pancreas, and at least one
other very palatable viscus besides,—but became knowing also about the
take and curing of herrings. All the herring boats during the
fishing season passed our windows on their homeward way to the harbour;
and, from their depth in the water, we became skilful enough to predicate
the number of crans [10] aboard of
each with wonderful judgment and correctness. In days of good
general fishings, too, when the curing-yards proved too small to
accommodate the quantities brought ashore, the fish used to be laid in
glittering heaps opposite the school-house door; and an exciting scene,
that combined the bustle of the workshop with the confusion of the crowded
fair, would straightway spring up within twenty yards of the forms at
which we sat, greatly to our enjoyment, and, of course, not a little to
our instruction. We could see, simply by peering over book or slate,
the curers going about rousing their fish with salt, to counteract the
effects of the dog-day sun; bevies of young women employed as gutters, and
horridly incarnadined with blood and viscera, squatting around the heaps,
knife in hand, and plying with busy fingers their well-paid labours, at
the rate of sixpence per hour; relays of heavily-laden fish-wives bringing
ever and anon fresh heaps of herrings in their creels; and outside of all,
the coopers hammering as if for life and death,—now tightening hoops, and
now slackening them, and anon caulking with bulrush the leaky seams.
It is not every grammar school in which such lessons are taught as those
in which all were initiated, and in which all became in some degree
accomplished, in the grammar school of Cromarty!
The building in which we met was a low, long, straw-thatched
cottage, open from gable to gable, with a mud floor below, and an unlathed
roof above; and stretching along the naked rafters, which, when the master
chanced to be absent for a few minutes, gave noble exercise in climbing,
there used frequently to lie a helm, or oar, or boathook, or even a
foresail,—the spoil of some hapless peat-boat from the opposite side of
the Firth. The Highland boatmen of Ross had carried on a trade in
peats for ages with the Saxons of the town; and as every boat owed a
long-derived perquisite of twenty peats to the grammar school, and as
payment was at times foolishly refused, the party of boys commissioned by
the master to exact it almost always succeeded, either by force or
stratagem, in securing and bringing along with them, in behalf of the
institution, some spar, or sail, or piece of rigging, which, until
redeemed by special treaty, and the payment of the peats, was stowed up
over the rafters. These peat-expeditions, which were intensely
popular in the school, gave noble exercise to the faculties. It was
always a great matter to see, just as the school met, some observant boy
appear, cap in hand, before the master, and intimate the fact of an
arrival at the shore, by the simple words, "Peat-boat, Sir." The
master would then proceed to name a party, more or less numerous,
according to the exigency; but it seemed to be matter of pretty correct
calculation that, in the cases in which the peat claim was disputed, it
required about twenty boys to bring home the twenty peats, or, lacking
these, the compensatory sail or spar. There were certain
ill-conditioned boatmen who almost always resisted, and who delighted to
tell us—invariably, too, in very bad English—that our perquisite was
properly the hangman's perquisite, [11]
made over to us because we were like him; not seeing—blockheads as
they were!—that the very admission established in full the rectitude of
our claim, and gave to us, amid our dire perils and faithful contendings,
the strengthening consciousness of a just quarrel. In dealing with
these recusants, we used ordinarily to divide our forces into two bodies,
the larger portion of the party filling their pockets with stones, and
ranging themselves on some point of vantage, such as the pier-head; and
the smaller stealing down as near the boat as possible, and mixing
themselves up with the purchasers of the peats. We then, after due
warning, opened fire upon the boatmen; and, when the pebbles were hopping
about them like hailstones, the boys below commonly succeeded in securing,
under cover of the fire, the desired boathook or oar. And such were
the ordinary circumstances and details of this piece of Spartan education;
of which a townsman has told me he was strongly reminded when boarding, on
one occasion, under cover of a well-sustained discharge of musketry, the
vessel of an enemy that had been stranded on the shores of Berbice.
The parish schoolmaster was a scholar and an honest man, and
if a boy really wished to learn, he certainly could teach him. He
had attended the classes at Aberdeen during the same sessions as the late
Dr Mearns, and in mathematics and the languages had disputed the prize
with the Doctor; but he had failed to get on equally well in the world;
and now, in middle life, though a licentiate of the Church, he had settled
down to be what he subsequently remained—the teacher of a parish school.
There were usually a few grown-up lads under his tuition—careful sailors,
that had stayed ashore during the winter quarter to study navigation as a
science,—or tall fellows, happy in the patronage of the great, who, in the
hope of being made excisemen, had come to school to be initiated in the
mysteries of gauging,—or grown young men, who, on second thoughts, and
somewhat late in the day, had recognised the Church as their proper
vocation; and these used to speak of the master's acquirements and
teaching ability in the very highest terms. He himself, too, could
appeal to the fact, that no teacher in the north had ever sent more
students to college, and that his better scholars almost always got on
well in life. But then, on the other hand, the pupils who wished to
do nothing—a description of individuals that comprised fully two-thirds of
all the younger ones—were not required to do much more than they wished;
and parents and guardians were loud in their complaints that he was no
suitable schoolmaster for them; though the boys themselves usually thought
him quite suitable enough.
He was in the habit of advising the parents or relations of
those he deemed his clever lads, to give them a classical education; and
meeting one day with Uncle James, he urged that I should be put on Latin.
I was a great reader, he said; and he found that when I missed a word in
my English tasks, I almost always substituted a synonym in the place of
it. And so, as Uncle James had arrived, on data of his own, at a
similar conclusion, I was transferred from the English to the Latin form,
and, with four other boys, fairly entered on the "Rudiments." I
laboured with tolerable diligence for a day or two; but there was no one
to tell me what the rules meant, or whether they really meant anything;
and when I got on as far as penna, a pen, and saw how the changes
were rung on one poor word, that did not seem to be of more importance in
the old language than in the modern one, I began miserably to flag, and to
long for my English reading, with its nice amusing stories, and its
picture-like descriptions. The Rudiments was by far the dullest book
I had ever seen. It embodied no thought that I could perceive,—it
certainly contained no narrative,—it was a perfect contrast to not only
the "Life and Adventures of Sir William Wallace," but to even the Voyages
of Cook and Anson. None of my class-fellows were by any means
bright;—they had been all set on Latin without advice of the master; and
yet, when he learned, which he soon did, to distinguish and call us up to
our tasks by the name of the "heavy class," I was, in most instances, to
be found at its nether end. Shortly after, however, when we got a
little farther on, it was seen that I had a decided turn for translation.
The master, good simple man that he was, always read to us in English, as
the school met, the piece of Latin given us as our task for the day; and
as my memory was strong enough to carry away the whole translation in its
order, I used to give him back in the evening, word for word, his own
rendering, which satisfied him on most occasions tolerably well.
There were none of us much looked after; and I soon learned to bring books
of amusement to the school with me, which, amid the Babel confusion of the
place, I contrived to read undetected. Some of them, save in the
language in which they were written, were identical with the books proper
to the place. I remember perusing by stealth in this way, Dryden's
"Virgil," and the "Ovid" of Dryden and his friends; while Ovid's own
"Ovid," and Virgil's own "Virgil," lay beside me, sealed up in the fine
old tongue, which I was thus throwing away my only chance of acquiring.
One morning, having the master's English rendering of the
day's task well fixed in my memory, and no book of amusement to read, I
began gossiping with my nearest class-fellow, a very tall boy, who
ultimately shot up into a lad of six feet four, and who on most occasions
sat beside me, as lowest in the form save one. I told him about the
tall Wallace and his exploits; and so effectually succeeded in awakening
his curiosity, that I had to communicate to him, from beginning to end,
every adventure recorded by the blind minstrel. My story-telling
vocation once fairly ascertained, there was, I found, no stopping in my
course. I had to tell all the stories I ever heard or read; all my
father's adventures, so far as I knew them, and all my Uncle Sandy's,—with
the story of Gulliver, and Philip Quarll, and Robinson Crusoe,—of Sinbad,
and Ulysses, and Mrs Radcliffe's heroine Emily, with, of course, the
love-passages left out; and at length, after weeks and months of
narrative, I found my available stock of acquired fact and fiction fairly
exhausted. The demand on the part of my class-fellows was, however,
as great and urgent as ever; and, setting myself, in the extremity of the
case, to try my ability of original production, I began to dole out to
them by the hour and the diet, long extempore biographies, which proved
wonderfully popular and successful. My heroes were usually warriors
like Wallace, and voyagers like Gulliver, and dwellers in desolate islands
like Robinson Crusoe; and they had not unfrequently to seek shelter in
huge deserted castles, abounding in trap-doors and secret passages, like
that of Udolpho. And finally, after much destruction of giants and
wild beasts, and frightful encounters with magicians and savages, they
almost invariably succeeded in disentombing hidden treasures to an
enormous amount, or in laying open gold mines, and then passed a luxurious
old age, like that of Sinbad the Sailor, at peace with all mankind, in the
midst of confectionery and fruits. The master had a tolerably
correct notion of what was going on in the "heavy class";—the
stretched-out necks, and the heads clustered together, always told their
own special story when I was engaged in telling mine; but, without hating
the child, he spared the rod, and simply did what he sometimes allowed
himself to do—bestowed a nickname upon me. I was the Sennachie,
[12] he said; and as the Sennachie I
might have been known so long as I remained under his charge, had it not
been that, priding himself upon his Gaelic, he used to bestow upon the
word the full Celtic pronunciation, which, agreeing but ill with the
Teutonic mouths of my school-fellows, militated against its use; and so
the name failed to take. With all my carelessness, I continued to be
a sort of favourite with the master; and, when at the general English
lesson, he used to address to me little quiet speeches, vouchsafed to no
other pupil, indicative of a certain literary ground common to us, on
which the others had not entered. "That, Sir," he has said, after
the class had just perused, in the school collection, a Tatler or
Spectator,—"That, Sir, is a good paper;—it's an Addison";
or, "That's one of Steele's, Sir"; and on finding in my copybook, on one
occasion, a page filled with rhymes, which I had headed "Poem on Care," he
brought it to his desk, and, after reading it carefully over, called me
up, and with his closed penknife, which served as a pointer, in the one
hand, and the copybook brought down to the level of my eyes in the other,
began his criticism. "That's bad grammar, Sir," he said, resting the
knife-handle on one of the lines; "and here's an ill-spelt word; and
there's another; and you have not at all attended to the punctuation; but
the general sense of the piece is good,—very good indeed, Sir." And
then he added, with a grim smile, "Care, Sir, is, I daresay, as you
remark, a very bad thing; but you may safely bestow a little more of it on
your spelling and your grammar."
The school, like almost all the other grammar-schools of the
period in Scotland, had its yearly cock-fight, preceded by two holidays
and a half, during which the boys occupied themselves in collecting and
bringing up their cocks. And such always was the array of fighting
birds mustered on the occasion, that the day of the festival, from morning
till night, used to be spent in fighting out the battle. For weeks
after it had passed, the school-floor would continue to retain its
deeply-stained blotches of blood, and the boys would be full of exciting
narratives regarding the glories of gallant birds, who had continued to
fight until both their eyes had been picked out, or who, in the moment of
victory, had dropped dead in the middle of the cock-pit. The yearly
fight was the relic of a barbarous age; and, in at least one of its
provisions, there seemed evidence that it was that of an intolerant age
also: every pupil at school, without exemption, had his name entered on
the subscription-list, as a cock-fighter, and was obliged to pay the
master at the rate of twopence per head, ostensibly for leave to bring his
birds to the pit; but, amid the growing humanities of a better time,
though the twopences continued to be exacted, it was no longer imperative
to bring the birds; and availing myself of the liberty I never brought
any. Nor, save for a few minutes, on two several occasions, did I
ever attend the fight. Had the combat been one among the boys
themselves, I would readily enough have done my part, by meeting with any
opponent of my years and standing; but I could not bear to look at the
bleeding birds. And so I continued to pay my yearly sixpence, as a
holder of three cocks,—the lowest sum deemed in any degree genteel,—but
remained simply a fictitious or paper cock-fighter, and contributed in no
degree to the success of the head-stock or leader, to whose party,
in the general division of the school, it was my lot to fall.
Neither, I must add, did I learn to take an interest in the sacrificial
orgies of the adjoining slaughter house. A few of the chosen
school-boys were permitted by the killers to exercise at times the
privilege of knocking down a pig, and even, on rare occasions, to essay
the sticking; but I turned with horror from both processes; and if I drew
near at all, it was only when some animal, scraped and cleaned, and
suspended from the beam, was in the course of being laid open by the
butcher's knife, that I might mark the forms of the viscera, and the
positions which they occupied. To my dislike of the annual
cock-fight my uncles must have contributed. They were loud in their
denunciations of the enormity; and on one occasion, when a neighbour was
unlucky enough to remark, in extenuation, that the practice had been
handed down to us by pious and excellent men, who seemed to see nothing
wrong in it, I saw the habitual respect for the old divines give way, for
at least a moment. Uncle Sandy hesitated under apparent excitement;
but, quick and fiery as lightning, Uncle James came to his rescue.
"Yes, excellent men!" said my uncle, "but the excellent men of a rude and
barbarous age; and, in some parts of their character, tinged by its
barbarity. For the cock-fight which these excellent men have
bequeathed to us, they ought to have been sent to Bridewell for a week,
and fed upon bread and water." Uncle James was, no doubt, over
hasty, and felt so a minute after; but the practice of fixing the
foundations of ethics on a They themselves did it, much after the
manner in which the Schoolmen fixed the foundations of their nonsensical
philosophy on a "He himself said it," is a practice which, though
not yet exploded in even very pure Churches, is always provoking, and not
quite free from peril to the worthies, whether dead or alive, in whose
precedents the moral right is made to rest. In the class of minds
represented among the people by that of Uncle James, for instance, it
would be much easier to bring down even the old divines, than to bring up
cock-fighting.
My native town had possessed, for at least an age or two
previous to that of my boyhood, its sprinkling of intelligent,
book-consulting mechanics and tradesfolk; and as my acquaintance gradually
extended among their representatives and descendants, I was permitted to
rummage, in the pursuit of knowledge, delightful old chests and cupboards,
filled with tattered and dusty volumes. The moiety of my father's
library which remained to me consisted of about sixty several works; my
uncle possessed about a hundred and fifty more; and there was a literary
cabinet-maker in the neighbourhood, who had once actually composed a poem
of thirty lines on the Hill of Cromarty, whose collection of books,
chiefly poetical, amounted to from about eighty to a hundred. I used
to be often at nights in the workshop of the cabinet-maker, and was
sometimes privileged to hear him repeat his poem. There was not much
admiration of poets or poetry in the place; and my praise, though that of
a very young critic, had always the double merit of being both ample and
sincere. I knew the very rocks and trees which his description
embraced,—had heard the birds to which he referred, and seen the flowers;
and as the Hill had been of old a frequent scene of executions, and had
borne the gallows of the sheriffdom on its crest, nothing could be more
definite than the grave reference, in his opening line, to
" The verdant rising of the Gallow-hill."
And so I thought a very great deal of his poem, and what I thought
I said; and he, on the other hand, evidently regarded me as a lad of
extraordinary taste and discernment for my years. There was another
mechanic in the neighbourhood,—a house-carpenter, who, though not a poet,
was deeply read in books of all kinds, from the plays of Farquhar to the
sermons of Flavel; and as both his father and grandfather—the latter, by
the way, a Porteous-mob man, and the former a personal friend of poor
Fergusson the poet—had also been readers and
collectors of books, he possessed a whole pressful of tattered,
hard-working volumes, some of them very curious ones; and to me he
liberally extended, what literary men always value, "the full freedom of
the press." But of all my occasional benefactors in this way, by far
the greatest was poor old Francie, the retired clerk and supercargo.
Francie was naturally a man of fair talent and active
curiosity. Nor was he by any means deficient in acquirement.
He wrote and figured well, and knew a good deal about at least the theory
of business; and when articled in early life to a Cromarty merchant and
shopkeeper, it was with tolerably fair prospects of getting on in the
world. He had, however, a certain infirmity of brain, which rendered
both talent and acquirement of but little avail, and that began to
manifest itself very early. While yet an apprentice, on ascertaining
that the way was clear, he used, though grown a tall lad, to bolt out from
behind the counter into the middle of a green directly opposite, and
there, joining in the sports of some group of youngsters, which the place
rarely wanted, he would play out half a game at marbles, or honeypots, or
hy-spy, and, when he saw his master or a customer approaching, bolt back
again. The thing was not deemed seemly; but Francie, when spoken to
on the subject, could speak as sensibly as any young person of his years.
He needed relaxation, he used to say, though he never suffered it to
interfere with his proper business; and where was there safer relaxation
to be found than among innocent children? This, of course, was
eminently rational, and even virtuous. And so, when his term of
apprenticeship had expired, Francie was despatched, not without hope of
success, to Newfoundland,—where he had relations extensively engaged in
the fishing trade,—to serve as one of their clerks. He was found to
be a competent clerk; but unluckily there was but little known of the
interior of the island at the time; and some of the places most distant
from St John's, such as the Bay and River of Exploits, bore tempting
names; and so, after Francie had made many inquiries at the older
inhabitants regarding what was to be seen amid the scraggy brushwood and
broken rocks of the inner country, a morning came in which he was reported
missing at the office; and little else could be learned respecting him,
than that at early dawn he had been seen setting out for the woods,
provided with staff and knapsack. He returned in about a week, worn
out and half-starved. He had not been so successful as he had
anticipated, he said, in providing himself by the way with food, and so he
had to turn back ere he could reach the point on which he had previously
determined; but he was sure he would be happier in his next journey.
It was palpably unsafe to suffer him to remain exposed to the temptation
of an unexplored country; and as his friends and superiors at St John's
had just laden a vessel with fish for the Italian market during Lent,
Francie was despatched with her as supercargo, to look after the sales, in
a land of which every foot-breadth had been familiar to men for thousands
of years, and in which it was supposed he would have no inducement to
wander. Francie, however, had read much about Italy; and finding, on
landing at Leghorn, that he was within a short distance of Pisa, he left
ship and cargo to take care of themselves, and set out on foot to see the
famous hanging tower, and the great marble cathedral. And tower and
cathedral he did see: but it was meanwhile found that he was not quite
suited for a supercargo; and he had shortly after to return to Scotland,
where his friends succeeded in establishing him in the capacity of clerk
and overseer upon a small property in Forfarshire, which was farmed by the
proprietor on what was then the newly introduced modern system. He
was acquainted, however, with the classical description of Glammis Castle,
in the letters of the poet Gray; and after visiting the castle, he set out
to examine the ancient encampment at Ardoch—the Lindum of the
Romans. Finally, all hopes of getting him settled at a distance
being given up by his friends, he had to fall back upon Cromarty, where he
was yet once more appointed to a clerkship. The establishment with
which he was now connected was a large hempen manufactory; and it was his
chief employment to register the quantities of hemp given out to the
spinners, and the numbers of hanks of yarn into which they had converted
it, when given in. He soon, however, began to take long walks; and
the old women, with their yarn, would be often found accumulated, ere his
return, by tens and dozens at his office door. At length, after
taking a very long walk indeed, for it stretched from near the opening to
the head of the Cromarty Firth, a distance of about twenty miles, and
included in its survey the antique tower of Kinkell and the old Castle of
Craighouse, he was relieved from the duties of his clerkship, and left to
pursue his researches undisturbed, on a small annuity, the gift of his
friends. He was considerably advanced in life ere I knew him,
profoundly grave, and very taciturn, and, though he never discussed
politics, a mighty reader of the newspapers. "Oh! this is terrible,"
I have heard him exclaim, when on one occasion a snow storm had blocked up
both the coast and the Highland roads for a week together, and arrested
the northward course of the mails,—"It is terrible to be left in utter
ignorance of the public business of the country!"
Francie, whom every one called Mr — to his face, and always
Francie when his back was turned, chiefly because it was known he was
punctilious on the point, and did not like the more familiar term, used in
the winter evenings to be a regular member of the circle that met beside
my Uncle James's work-table. And, chiefly through the influence, in
the first instance, of my uncles, I was permitted to visit him in his own
room—a privilege enjoyed by scarce any one else—and even invited to borrow
his books. His room—a dark and melancholy chamber, grey with
dust—always contained a number of curious but not very rare things, which
he had picked up in his walks—prettily coloured fungi—vegetable
monstrosities of the commoner kind, such as "fause craws' nests," and
flattened twigs of pine—and with these, as the representatives of another
department of natural science, fragments of semi-transparent quartz or of
glittering feldspar, [13] and sheets
of mica a little above the ordinary size. But the charm of the
apartment lay in its books. Francie was a book-fancier, and lacked
only the necessary wealth to be in the possession of a very pretty
collection. As it was, he had some curious volumes; among others, a
first edition copy of the "Nineteen Years' Travels of William Lithgow,"
with an ancient woodcut, representing the said William in the background,
with his head brushing the skies, and, far in front, two of the tombs
which covered the heroes of Ilium, barely tall enough to reach half-way to
his knee, and of the length, in proportion to the size of the traveller,
of ordinary octavo volumes. He had black-letter books, too, on
astrology, and on the planetary properties of vegetables; and an ancient
book on medicine, that recommended as a cure for the toothache a bit of
the jaw of a suicide, well triturated; and, as an infallible remedy for
the falling-sickness, an ounce or two of the brains of a young man,
carefully dried over the fire. Better, however, than these, for at
least my purpose, he had a tolerably complete collection of the British
essayists, from Addison to Mackenzie, with the "Essays " and "Citizen of
the World" of Goldsmith; several interesting works of travels and voyages,
translated from the French; and translations from the German, of Lavater,
Zimmerman, and Klopstock. He had a good many of the minor poets too;
and I was enabled to cultivate, mainly from his collection, a tolerably
adequate acquaintance with the wits of the reign of Queen Anne. Poor
Francie was at bottom a kindly and honest man; but the more intimately one
knew him, the more did the weakness and brokenness of his intellect
appear. His mind was a labyrinth without a clue, in whose recesses
there lay stored up a vast amount of book-knowledge, that could never be
found when wanted, and was of no sort of use to himself, or any one else.
I got sufficiently into his confidence to be informed under the seal of
strict secrecy, that he contemplated producing a great literary work,
whose special character he had not quite determined, but which was to be
begun a few years hence. And when death found him, at an age which
did not fall far short of the allotted threescore and ten, the great
unknown work was still an undefined idea, and had still to be begun.
There were several other branches of my education going on at
this time outside the pale of the school, in which, though I succeeded in
amusing myself, I was no trifler. The shores of Cromarty are strewed
over with water-rolled fragments of the primary rocks, derived chiefly
from the west during the ages of the boulder clay [14];
and I soon learned to take a deep interest in sauntering over the various
pebble-beds when shaken up by recent storms, and in learning to
distinguish their numerous components. But I was sadly in want of a
vocabulary; and as, according to Cowper, "the growth of what is excellent
is slow," it was not until long after that I bethought me of the obvious
enough expedient of representing the various species of simple rocks, by
certain numerals, and the compound ones by the numerals representative of
each separate component, ranged, as in vulgar fractions, along a medial
line, with the figures representative of the prevailing materials of the
mass above, and those representative of the materials in less proportions
below. Though, however, wholly deficient in the signs proper to
represent what I knew, I soon acquired a considerable quickness of eye in
distinguishing the various kinds of rock, and tolerably definite
conceptions of the generic character of the porphyries, [15]
granites, gneisses, [16] quartz-rocks,
clay-slates, and mica-schists,[17]
which everywhere strewed the beach. In the rocks of mechanical
origin I was at this time much less interested; but in individual, as in
general history, mineralogy almost always precedes geology. I was
fortunate enough to discover, one happy morning, among the lumber and
debris of old John Feddes's dark room, an antique-fashioned hammer, which
had belonged, my mother told me, to old John himself more than a hundred
years before. It was an uncouth sort of implement, with a handle of
strong black oak, and a short, compact head, square on the one face, and
oblong on the other. And though it dealt rather an obtuse blow, the
temper was excellent, and the haft firmly set; and I went about with it,
breaking into all manner of stones, with great perseverance and success.
I found, in a large-grained granite, a few sheets of beautiful black mica,
that, when split exceedingly thin, and pasted between slips of mica of the
ordinary kind, made admirably-coloured eye-glasses, that converted the
landscapes around into richly-toned drawings in sepia; and numerous
crystals of garnet embedded in mica-schist, that were, I was sure,
identical with the stones set in a little gold brooch, the property of my
mother. To this last surmise, however, some of the neighbours to
whom I showed my prize demurred. The stones in my mother's brooch were
precious stones, they said; whereas what I had found was merely a "stone
upon the shore." My friend the cabinet-maker went so far as to say
that the specimen was but a mass of plum-pudding stone, and its
dark-coloured enclosures simply the currants; but then, on the other hand,
Uncle Sandy took my view of the matter: the stone was not plum-pudding
stone, he said: he had often seen plum-pudding stone in England, and knew
it to be a sort of rough conglomerate of various components; whereas my
stone was composed of a finely-grained silvery substance, and the crystals
which it contained were, he was sure, gems like those in the brooch, and,
so far as he could judge, real garnets. This was a great decision;
and, much encouraged in consequence, I soon ascertained that garnets are
by no means rare among the pebbles of the Cromarty shore. Nay, so
mixed up are they with its sands even,—a consequence of the abundance of
the mineral among the primary rocks of Ross,—that after a heavy surf has
beaten the exposed beach of the neighbouring hill, there may be found on
it patches of comminuted garnet, from one to three square yards in extent,
that resemble, at a little distance, pieces of crimson carpeting, and
nearer at hand, sheets of crimson bead-work, and of which almost every
point and particle is a gem. From some unexplained circumstance,
connected apparently with the specific gravity of the substance, it
separates in this style from the general mass, on coasts much beaten by
the waves; but the garnets of these curious pavements, though so
exceedingly abundant, are in every instance exceedingly minute. I
never detected in them a fragment greatly larger than a pin-head; but it
was always with much delight that I used to fling myself down on the shore
beside some newly-discovered patch, and bethink me, as I passed my fingers
along the larger grains, of the heaps of gems in Aladdin's cavern, or of
Sinbad's valley of diamonds.
The Hill of Cromarty formed at this time at once my true
school and favourite play-ground; and if my master did wink at times
harder than master ought, when I was playing truant among its woods or on
its shores, it was, I believe, whether he thought so or no, all for the
best. My Uncle Sandy had, as I have already said, been bred a
cartwright; but finding, on his return, after his seven years' service on
board a man-of-war, that the place had cartwrights enough for all the
employment, he applied himself to the humble but not unremunerative
profession of a sawyer, and used often to pitch his saw-pit, in the more
genial seasons of the year, among the woods of the hill. I remember,
he never failed setting it down in some pretty spot, sheltered from the
prevailing winds under the lee of some fern-covered rising ground or some
bosky thicket, and always in the near neighbourhood of a spring; and it
used to be one of my most delightful exercises to find out for myself
among the thick woods, in some holiday journey of exploration, the place
of a newly-formed pit. With the saw-pit as my base-line of
operations, and secure always of a share in Uncle Sandy's dinner, I used
to make excursions of discovery on every side,—now among the thicker
tracts of wood, which bore among the town-boys, from the twilight gloom
that ever rested in their recesses, the name of "the dungeons"; and anon
to the precipitous seashore, with its wild cliffs and caverns. The
Hill of Cromarty is one of a chain belonging to the great Ben Nevis line
of elevation; and, though it occurs in a sandstone district, is itself a
huge primary mass, upheaved of old from the abyss, and composed chiefly of
granitic gneiss and a red splintery hornstone. It contains also
numerous veins and beds of hornblend [18]
rock and chlorite-schist, [19] and of
a peculiar-looking granite, of which the quartz is white as milk, and the
feldspar red as blood. When still wet by the receding tide, those
veins and beds seem as if highly polished, and present a beautiful aspect;
and it was always with great delight that I used to pick my way among
them, hammer in hand, and fill my pockets with specimens.
There was one locality which I in especial loved. No
path runs the way. On the one side, an abrupt iron-tinged
promontory, so remarkable for its human-like profile, that it seems part
of a half-buried sphinx, protrudes into the deep green water. On the
other—less prominent, for even at full tide the traveller can wind between
its base and the sea—there rises a shattered and ruined precipice, seamed
with blood-red ironstone, that retains on its surface the bright metallic
gleam, and amid whose piles of loose and fractured rock one may still
detect fragments of stalactite. The stalactite is all that remains
of a spacious cavern, which once hollowed the precipice, but which, more
than a hundred years before, had tumbled down during a thunderstorm, when
filled with a flock of sheep, and penned up the poor creatures for ever.
The space between these headlands forms an irregular crescent of great
height, covered with wood a-top, and amid whose lichened crags, and on
whose steep slopes, the hawthorn, and bramble, and wild rasp, and rock
strawberry, take root, with many a scraggy shrub and sweet wild flower
besides; while along its base lie huge blocks of green hornblend, on a
rude pavement of granitic gneiss, traversed at one point, for many yards,
by a broad vein of milk-white quartz. The quartz vein formed my
central point of attraction in this wild paradise. The white stone,
thickly traversed by threads of purple and red, is a beautiful though
unworkable rock; and I soon ascertained that it is flanked by a vein of
feldspar broader than itself, of a brick-red tint, and the red stone
flanked, in turn, by a drab-coloured vein of the same mineral, in which
there occur in great abundance masses of a homogeneous mica,—mica not
existing in lamina, but, if I may use the term, as a sort of micaceous
felt. It would almost seem as if some gigantic experimenter of the
old world had set himself to separate into their simple mineral components
the granitic rocks of the hill, and that the three parallel veins were the
results of his labour. Such, however, was not the sort of idea which
they at this time suggested to me. I had read in Sir Walter
Raleigh's voyage to Guiana, the poetic description of that upper country
in which the knight's exploration of the river Corale terminated, and
where, amid lovely prospects of rich valleys, and wooded hills and winding
waters, almost every rock bore on its surface the yellow gleam of gold.
True, according to the voyager, the precious metal was itself absent.
But Sir Walter, on afterwards showing "some of the stones to a Spaniard of
the Caraccas, was told by him they were el madre del ora, that is,
the mother of gold, and that the mine itself was further in the ground."
And though the quartz vein of the Cromarty Hill contained no metal more
precious than iron, and but little even of that, it was, I felt sure, the
"mother" of something very fine. As for silver, I was pretty certain
I had found the "mother" of it, if not, indeed, the precious metal itself,
in a cherty boulder, enclosing numerous cubes of rich galena; and
occasional masses of iron pyrites gave, as I thought, large promise of
gold. But though sometimes asked in humble irony, by the
farm-servants who came to load their carts with sea-weed along the
Cromarty beach, whether I was "getting siller in the stanes," I was so
unlucky as never to be able to answer their question in the affirmative. |