AT ANY COST.
BY
EDWARD GARRETT.
CHAPTER I.
MOTHER AND SON.
IT was a wild
December morning. Dwellers in cities splashed through the puddles
formed by the heavy rain of the preceding night and fretted against
the exasperating wind, which made it a struggle to grasp their
garments about them, and a still greater struggle to keep their
tempers. Dwellers in quiet country-places plodded along the heavy
roads and grumbled at the hard conditions of rural existence in such
weather. But our story begins with a woman and a lad who were
tramping across a rock-bound, treeless swamp on the largest of the
Shetland Isles, and who neither grumbled nor even said a word about
the weather, perhaps because they were too much accustomed to its
harsh and inclement moods, perhaps because their hearts were both so
full of other things, and that of one, at least, of feelings with
which the gloom was more in accord than any sunshine could have
been.
A woman and a lad who were tramping across
a rock-bound treeless swamp.
The woman was still in the prime of life, scarcely forty years of
age, and the tall lad at her side was her eldest child. But Mrs.
Sinclair, of Quodda Schoolhouse, had long parted from the last bloom
of physical
youth, and might have been more than ten years older than she really
was. She was a small, slight woman of nervous and excitable
temperament, and life had been, for her, little more than a long
endurance. Toil and
hardship had worn her frame, anxieties almost amounting to terrors
had whitened her hair, but none of them had conquered her spirit of
indomitable cheerfulness. She had early made reckonings with her own
heart as
to what were its absolute necessities, and had found that with her,
love, and the power of loving service far outweighed all privations
and struggles, and so had resolutely accepted her full burden of
these. Perhaps she
had never before felt such a sinking of her soul as she did today,
for at last change and pain were stealing into the very home and
home ties for which she had wrought and suffered. It was time for
Robert, her first-born,
to go out and seek his fortunes in the great world. And now the very
day of his departure had come.
“But as it is in the course of nature, it must be the will of God,”
said the brave little woman to herself; “and if one lets one’s self
begin to cry out against that, one never knows where one may end.”
It troubled her sorely that during the recently past days she had
not always been able to restrain her tears. For the sight of them
vexed Robert, and had caused him to speak to her more than once in
sharp
words and with a morose manner, which she felt sure would return
upon his heart to sting it with a tender remorse when he should have
gone away out of her sight.
She felt thankful that she did not think she should lose command of
herself to-day. All the pathetic parting preparations had been
completed, and with nothing more but the end full in view, a
desperate
calmness had settled on her.
“When one’s pain is worst, one shows it least. I know that,” she
decided to herself. “I believe that is the case with Robert. He has
been feeling all the time, like I feel to-day.”
“Now, Robert,” she gasped, for they were walking at a considerable
speed and the wind nearly took away her breath, “you won’t forget
always to let us have a letter. You know it is such a long while
between
our posts, that if none comes by one of them, we shall have a
dreadful waiting for the next.” Her life had been worn down by
constant waitings—waitings for her husband’s return from errands of
duty and mercy, amid
perils of darkness and cliff and wave — waitings for tidings of
death among her own people in the far southern mainland. And
somehow, too, she had always been the one summoned to share other
people’s waitings
— the vigils of fishers’ wives who knew not yet whether they were
widows, and who craved for her presence and were consoled by it when
they could bear none other. Alike when the worst came, or when fear
faded
through hope into glad certainty, she could be spared, and then
others might come to console or to congratulate. But she had always
been the best angel of the waiting hours, whose touch was soft
enough for hearts
palpitating with uncertainty and who knew how to steer between that
dread that is too like despair, and that hope which seems to tried
hearts too much like indifference. Many a night through had she
watched in
narrow Shetland huts, while the wind tramped over the roof with a
sound as of chariots and horses, and the sea roared and growled
below like a fierce wild beast seeking his prey. She had known when
to speak and
when to keep silence; when to murmur a soothing text, and when only
to trim the little iron lamp, or to add another peat to the glowing
pile; when to kneel down and call out to God with that strange deep
trust which we
all find lying still and deep at the bottom of our hearts when
storms of sorrow or fear are agitating our lives, and when simply
and silently to prepare and proffer a cup of tea. But she knew, too,
what all this had cost her.
“There’s enough waiting in life which no human hand can hinder,
Robert,” she went on, struggling valiantly for speech, for she did
not want to slacken pace, since Robert might need all his time. “I’ve had my
share of that. I can see it was the lesson I needed, for I was of an
impatient spirit. And I’ve certainly not had too much of it, for I
can’t do it easily yet. But I think it’s a lesson we should leave in
God’s hand, and not one
we should set each other. So you’ll take care about the letters,
Robert?”
“I’ll do my best, mother,” said the lad. “But I expect I shall be
often very busy. If you don’t get word of me you may be sure it is
all right with me. Somebody else would soon take care to let you
know if
anything went wrong.”
“I’m not so sure of that,” she returned. “I’ve been thinking about
that. Do you remember when the poor Norwegian sailor with his leg
broken was carried up to our house from the wreck of the ‘Friga’? Well, he
wouldn’t write home to his mother till he was sure his leg wouldn’t
have to be cut off. He said she would think no news was good news,
and would be spared all trouble about his calamity if she never
heard of it till it
was over. And I thought so too, at that time; but somehow now I
don’t. If I don’t hear from you I shall be apt to fancy, ‘Something
is wrong with Robert; but he and his friends are saying that we
will think no news is good news,’ and that so they won't trouble us
till they have good news to send. But of course we don’t want you to
be writing letters home when it is your duty to be doing anything
else,” she added, with true love’s ready alarm and reluctance lest
it become a drag and a fetter on the progress of active life; “but a
line will not take you long, and it will made me do double the
spinning and knitting on the day it comes in.”
“Yes, yes, I understand all that,” said Robert. “But do you know,
mother, I think you ought to go back? I can’t bear to see you
gasping and struggling against the wind as you are doing, and there
is not time to walk more slowly or even to pick our way. You know I
said you shouldn’t have come out at all,” he added in a rather
gentler tone.
“Your father could not leave the school,” she answered; “and I could
not bear that neither of us should put you a bit on your way.”
(“She’ll begin to cry now," thought the lad, for her voice faltered;
but she did not.) “Yet, of course, I must not hinder you. I think
I’ll leave you at the Moull. I have just a few words to say yet — I
won’t take long about them. Robert, my boy, I and your father pray
that you may prosper with God’s blessing, but that you may always
keep God’s blessing, whether you prosper or not. And you won’t
forget your sister Olive, will you? She’ll have to depend upon
herself, just like you, when we’re taken, and we’d
not grudge parting from her sooner, if we saw it was for her future
good. You’ll keep a watch for opportunities to suggest to us for
Olive, won’t you, Robbie? You know we are so out of the world down
here.”
“Of course I will, mother, if I see any,” said the lad, “but it is
scarcely likely that such will come my way.’’
“What we are looking for is always to be seen sooner or later, and
those in London are at the heart of everything’” observed Mrs.
Sinclair. “But here we are at the Moull,” she said, stopping short. “Just stand still one moment, Robert — I won’t come farther.” They
were at a point where the way wound between a high, mossy hill and a
steep cliff. When they parted each would be out of sight of the
other in a moment, so that there would be no heartrending lookings
back. She had thought of this.
“Stand still one moment,” she repeated. “I think there is something
to say yet.” She stood with her face towards the sea, gazing out
upon its waste of gray waters dashing up against the fortress-like
rocks
which guarded the low, dank green hills and the little hamlets
peeping up among them. Something to say yet! There was a world of
yearning love and solicitude seething in her mother’s heart, but
then such love and solicitude have to be condensed into much the
same words as suit more common needs. She felt Robert give a slight,
quick movement beside her; it might be of impatience, it might be of
restive pain. It must be ended.
“Robert,” she cried, “we shall be always thinking of you; and we do
hope you’ll always try to believe we did our very best for you. And
in time bring us back your own old self improved. God help you to be
good, Robert. God send you all true happiness. God keep you. God
bless you. Good-bye, good-bye,” and then, as she released his hands
from her straining clasp and looked up into his face, her love threw
a playful thought upon the wealth of its passion, like a rose on the
top of a jewel-case, as she added, “And give my love to the trees,
Robert; and be sure you know them when you see them —“
And so she smiled upon him and turned away, and in a moment the
curve of the hill hid them from each other.
She did not stand still; if she had let herself do that she might
have been tempted to hurry after him for yet another farewell. She
hastened back along the lonely road which she had just trodden in
his dear company. She did not lift up her voice and weep in the
loneliness. Her imaginative nature had realized this pain too
vividly beforehand to be startled by any sudden stabs. Only, though
the wind was behind her now, she still felt scarcely able to draw
breath. There were lowly houses in sight, where the simple island
hospitality would have readily rendered her rest and refreshment,
but there are times when nature’s is the only face we can bear to
look upon. Besides, hasten how she might, it would be dark before
she reached home. The sun, which had not looked frankly from the sky
all day, now displayed a lurid light behind the low hills to the
west, throwing them into deep purple and violet shadow. She hurried
on, for though there was nothing to fear in an island whose
guileless population of many thousands scarcely needs the presence
of a single policeman, and though, of course, Mrs. Sinclair was
quite above all belief in the mischievous fairies, the mysterious “tangies,”
or ghostly ponies, and other grotesque creations of the simple
local imagination, yet in the darkness of a moonless night it would
not be very pleasant travelling on a way where the driest walking
was to be found by jumping from stone to stone in the bed of candid
little watercourses that were far more to be trusted than the
treacherous moss, which received one's foot only to close over it. At sundown, too, the wind was almost sure to rise. It was well that
Mrs. Sinclair was one of those who instinctively avoid all avoidable
discomforts as being apt to throw one aside from one's power to
serve, and to compel one to be burdensome to others, for she was in
that state of mind when the more selfish and reckless are inclined
to court outward suffering as a relief from inward agony.
There was scarcely a sharp word which she had ever spoken to Robert,
however much for his good, which did not now seem to her to have
been a harsh word; and had she not often allowed him to see her
disheartened, weary, and ailing, when by trying just a little harder
she might have made believe to be as bright and well as usual? And
had she done Robert justice to the very utmost of her power? The
dear father was such an easy man, so ready to let things take their
own way, and so sure that everything was for the best. That was his
nature, and could not be altered, she thought; and a sweet and
sunny nature it was. She only wished her own was like it, except
that it might not do for two such to run together in such a
troublesome world. Had they really done their best for Robert? Would
he not find himself terribly behindhand when he went among
other people who had lived all their lives in the polished places of
the world? Perhaps it had been a mere petty pride, an unworthy
shrinking from patronage, which had made her withhold the lad from
too much frequenting of the houses of the one or two neighbouring
proprietors; and perhaps Robert would blame her for it some day!
Ah! she knew she did not miss Robert now—not yet—while the grasp of
his hand was still warm upon her own, and while his last words were
still ringing in her ears. She could almost be glad just now that he
was going away from the constant storm and privation — from the
dark, monotonous, empty days which she had often felt must be trying
both to the boy's temper and moral nature. But how would she bear
the summer-time when the separation would be growing longer and
longer, and when she and Olive would take their spinning-wheels or
their knitting out of doors, and watch the schoolboys at football,
but no more Robert among them; and when the fishing fleets would go
and come, but there would be no Robert to go down to the boats and
bring in the latest news? How would she bear to see the blue waves
dancing in the sunshine, and to know they rolled between her and her
boy, between him and all the old life that had been, and could be no
more?
And then again her heart reproached her, for she was a woman who
sought to walk in the ways of divine wisdom; and the precepts, “Take
no thought for the morrow: sufficient unto the day is the evil
thereof,” seemed breathed into her ears almost as by an audible
voice. No, she would not think of the future. It, and how she would
bear it, was God's business, and not hers.
Then, with a strange rebound, such as only highly strung, wrung
natures can comprehend, her thoughts went back to the past, to the
richly wooded, bowery Surrey vale, which she had left more than
twenty years ago, and had never seen since, and she saw before her,
with all the startling clearness and detail of absolute vision, her
ancient, moss-grown cottage home, with its sweet, old-fashioned
flower-garden, and the grey tower of the village church among its
guardian yews. Surely for one moment a balmy breeze from that
vanished past softened the fierce winds of Ultima Thule! Surely she
caught a waft from the myrtles which used to stand in a row on the
parlour window-sill! Oh, what a magician memory is! Mrs. Sinclair
could have thrown herself down in the dark on the rough, wet ground,
to cry her heart out in yearning for the homely faces of old
neighbours, for the caw of the rooks in the squire's park, and the
ringing of the English bells on a Sunday morning.
No, no, no; this would never do. Again the ancient oracle, to which
she had never willingly turned a deaf ear, had its bracing word for
her about “forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching
forth unto those things which are before.” Neither the future nor
the past must lay violent hands on the present.
Was it tears or rain on her face? Either way, the rain soon washed
off the tears, for it began to fall in torrents, soaking even the
thick native shawl which she wore pinned about her head, a more
appropriate covering in such a climate than any bonnet or hat could
be. It was dark now, and every moment the ground grew wetter and
heavier, clogging the weary progress of her poor tired feet. “I’m
glad of the rain,” she thought “it will keep down the wind. Robert
won’t get wet in the cabin, and it will give him the smoother
passage.”
The way suddenly broadened into the valley where her journey ended. Here and there a solitary light sent out a spark of human cheer and
habitation. She made straight to her own house, daring, now it was
in sight, to realize that she was very tired. She lifted the latch. A glow of peat-smelling light and warmth rushed out to welcome her.
“It’s well to reach home on such a night,” she said cheerily. “And
there’s father waking up from a pleasant dream! And there’s my Olive
got the tea all ready for her mother! Won’t it be grand when it’s
Robert himself that we welcome back again? And what a deal he will
have to tell us! It’s terrible, this going away; but then there
could he no coming home without it. And I’ve been thinking, Olive,
we must begin at once to spin some of our finest wool, or even some
flax, if there’s any still to be had in the island, to make Robert
some light socks for the warm summers down south.”
One is tempted to wonder sometimes why God makes such as Mrs.
Sinclair to live in a world like this, where they seem doomed to the
endurance of exquisite agonies which others never feel or even guess
at, and so many of which, alas! others could often avert by a word,
or even by a look — how much more by action! But let it be
remembered that at every point at which pain can be received, there
must be an equal capacity for receiving pleasure. And let it be
observed that though the quivering nerves of these sensitive natures
may only receive pleasure once for ten times that they are thrilled
with agony, yet so exquisite is that pleasure, that it seems almost
to neutralize their huge disproportion of suffering.
And what would the world be like if all souls were already so
tempered? — ready to receive, little but pain, yearning to render
nought but joy? Would not that be the very kingdom and will of God
come upon earth, for which we pray daily, but over which we too
seldom ponder?
Let us think of these martyr souls with a reverent exultation. They
are God’s best pledge of what he has in store when all hearts — even
these — shall be satisfied for evermore.
CHAPTER II.
NEW ACQUAINTANCES.
AFTER his mother
left him, Robert Sinclair plodded steadily on his road. He thought
she was a good little woman to let him go at the last with so little
fuss.
Very likely he would not have to walk alone far. One other young
Shetlander, at least, was also to sail in the same ship which would
take Robert away from the island. Robert was almost sure to overtake
Tom Ollison presently, or at any rate to meet him at the half-way
house, where travellers were wont to break their journey by a brief
rest beside the fire, and a temperate meal of strong tea and
home-baked bread.
If Robert’s way onward was somewhat less picturesque than his
mother’s homeward one, it was also less lonely, that part of the
country nearer its little capital being more populous than its
remoter regions. Robert Sinclair quickened his pace, when he came
in sight of a beautiful little bay, with many houses nestling among
its cliffs, and a tiny church and a big manse standing on the lip of
the sea. One more uphill tug, and he would reach his temporary
resting-place.
He found the good woman of the little house bustling about in a
state of unwonted excitement. If Tom Ollison had not yet arrived,
and Robert’s inquiries ascertained that he had not, she had other
guests of much greater importance in her eyes. Not that she might
not have preferred Tom, for she had all the old-fashioned island
distrust of strange faces. But then strangers always meant money,
ready money, and that is no small boon in a place where life rubs on
mostly by a series of exchanges, of doubtfully ascertained values.
Robert found no less than three people already awaiting the
hostess’s ministrations. But they were not all together — one sat
alone and apart, quite extinguished by the presence of the others. He recognized this one, and she got up and curtseyed to him because
she knew he was the schoolmaster’s son at Quodda. This was little Kirsty Mail. He thought now that
he had heard his mother say
something about Kirsty’s soon going to a servant’s place in the
south; but his mother was always taking so much interest in this
kind of people and things, that he could not be expected to remember
all the details.
The other two were strangers, perfect strangers, Robert was sure of
that the moment he saw them. They were seated in front of the open
fire, spreading out their garments to dry in its genial heat. They
both turned and looked at him; but they made no room for him at the
fire, any more than they evidently had done for Kirsty Mail;
probably it did not occur to them that anybody was travelling but
themselves. The one was a big, burly gentleman with a face which
would have been fine, but that its once noble outlines were blurred
by too much flesh. It was the same with its expression. It was odd
how so much good-humour and kindliness could remain apparent among
such palpable traces of peevishness, irritability, and
something very like discontent. His long, olive-green overcoat was
richly furred about the neck and wrists, and there was a magnificent
signet ring on the hand he held out over the glowing fire.
The other was quite a young girl, and it was almost ridiculous to
see the features of the father’s heavy, rather voluptuous
countenance translated into her delicate beauty. But it was not
everybody who would have eyes to see that his expression was also
translated into hers, and still fewer, that it did not even gain by
the transfer. Young vices go under such euphonious names: they are
called “sweet petulance“ and “airy scorn,” and “innocent
thoughtlessness.” Alas! It is so often only when it is too late,
when they have taken firm hold on the life and have ravaged it, and
spread poison around it, that they are recognized for what they are!
“I hope that good woman won’t be long in giving us something to eat,
Etta,” said the gentleman to the young lady. “I’d like to be into
the town before dusk if possible; but I suppose it isn’t. There’s
no knowing what the way may be like. What did she say she could let
us have, eh?”
“She said something about eggs,” answered the girl indifferently.
“And tea, eh?” added the gentleman with a disgusted tone. At that
moment Mrs. Yunson bustled into the apartment to spread a clean,
coarse cloth on the rough table. So he directed his inquiries to
her.
“You don’t mean to say you can’t let me have anything stronger than
that,” he said, as she set forth a dim tin tea-kettle.
“It’s real good, sir,” she answered. “Tea’s a thing that keeps well,
and we can get that good.”
“But I want some brandy — or at any rate some beer,” he said.
“This isn’t a licensed house, sir,” said Mrs. Yunson. “There is not
one nearer than Lerwick; there are very good ones there.”
“Well, I don’t know how you get on in such a climate without
something to comfort you,” observed the visitor. “But I dare say
you know how to take care of yourselves. There are nice little
places among the rocks, where nice little boats can leave nice
little kegs, eh? And, upon my word, I don’t see who could blame you. The revenue folk oughtn’t to be hard on people living in such a
place.”
“Indeed, and that’s very true, sir,” responded Mrs. Yunson, going
on with her hospitable duties.
“I suppose you really do have a good deal of smuggling here?”
inquired the guest, lowering his voice to a more confidential tone.
Mrs. Yunson shook her head. “Not now, sir,” she answered demurely. “There’s a little tobacco, maybe, now and again, but not enough to
be worth the trouble and risk. It is done more for the fun of the
thing, than anything else, I do believe. The cloth is quite fresh
and clean, miss,” she interpolated, seeing the young lady’s eyes
fixed with suspicious disfavour on sundry pale stains upon it. “Those marks are just off the haystack, on which it was dried. That’s the only way we can manage in winter—the ground is that soft
and dirty, and the wind’s too high for lines.”
Miss Etta Brander began to sip her tea. She said nothing about its
quality, which was really excellent, but she remarked that she could
not touch the bread— she would rather starve — it was so lumpy.
“Well, Etta,” growled her father, “I should really think you could
put up for once without grumbling with what other people have to
live upon all their days.”
Etta smiled superciliously; she knew she owed the reproof only to
her father’s own irritation at having to go without his usual midday
indulgence of a “tot” of brandy.
Mrs. Yunson asked if they had done with the teapot, that she might
take it away to supply the wants of Robert and little Kirsty Mail.
Etta looked calmly at her, as if she either did not hear or did not
understand what she said. But her father answered, “Certainly,
certainly. Why did you not ask for it before? I did not know they
were travellers too. I thought they were your own boy and girl.”
Robert’s cheeks flamed. To think of anybody’s mistaking him for a
son of old Bawby Yunson’s! And yet was it to be wondered at, he
admitted, thinking of his own rude and travel-stained appearance,
and reflecting that people so accustomed to wealth and luxury as
those before him, were little likely to observe those subtle marks
of different rank which had hitherto been very visible to his own
eyes. As for little Kirsty Mail, she was all in crimson confusion to
think that anybody could imagine her a sister of young Mr. Robert
Sinclair; how angry it would make him—such a smart young gentleman
as he was!
Mrs. Yunson made sundry strategic movements by which she contrived
to suggest that even these humbler guests must have some share of
the drying warmth of the fire, before they could be suffered to
depart. The gentleman pushed back his chair and made room for Kirsty.
“And where do you come from? And how did you get here?“ he asked,
looking at her with the smiling, half-contemptuous curiosity, which
is some people’s form of interest in an odd sort of animal.
“I came most of the way in a cart, sir,” faltered the blushing
Kirsty. “I come from Scantness.”
“And are you going to Lerwick? How are you going to get there?”
“Walking, please, sir,” said Kirsty, open-eyed, wondering what doubt
there could be on that matter.
“It’s pretty rough work for such as you,” said the stranger.
“Oh, they are used to it, pa,” remarked Miss Etta. “Habit is
everything in these matters.”
“And what are you going to do after you get to Lerwick?” Mr. Brander
went on, as if nature had given him the right to ask all the
questions because he was clad in broadcloth and sealskin, while
Kirsty wore only coarse tweeds.
“I'm going to my aunt’s in Edinburgh—I’m to stay with her until I
get a place,” answered Kirsty meekly.
“Oh, you’re off in the ship too, are you? And is there not anybody
from home to see you off?”
“No, sir“ faltered Kirsty, “there’s only grannie at home, and she’s
almost stone-blind.”
“It’s a wonder she did not want you to stay with her: how will she
get on without you?”
“She lives with a woman who looks after her,” answered Kirsty.
“And how does she live? I mean what supports her? The parish, I
suppose — I’m told it’s getting quite the natural support of old
ladies in Shetland,” observed Mr. Brander.
“
Grannie gets money from my uncle in Inverness,” said Kirsty simply.
“Oh,” said Mr. Brander, “that’s very dutiful of him. I suppose he’s
pretty well off.”
“He’s a journeyman baker, sir,” answered Kirsty. “He sends her
three shillings a week regularly.”
“And is that all she has?“
“She does a good deal of spinning and knitting yet, sir, — almost as
well as if she could see,” replied Kirsty, who was loyally proud of
her grandmother in this respect.
“And does she make much by that?”
Kirsty was dubious, and hesitated.
“I mean, how much can she earn in a week?” he said, impatiently
varying the form of his question.
“Indeed, sir, and I cannot tell that,” said Kirsty, blushing as if
she deserved that he should scold her.
“They don’t do it in that way, sir,” interposed Mrs. Yunson. “Most
of them just do what they can, and take it to the merchant’s, an’ he
gives them what he can afford of the things they are wantin’. I dare
say your grannie will make out her tea and her meal yet that way —
the little she wants”— she added turning to Kirsty.
“Indeed, an’ she does,” said Kirsty, greatly relieved.
“A very little goes a long way here, I imagine,” observed Miss
Henrietta Brander. Little did she dream that in her slighting words
she had given a succinct description of true affluence!
“But you don’t mean to tell me that those outlandish old things are
still in actual use?” cried Mr. Brander, pointing, to a
spinning-wheel which stood in a corner of the room.
“Indeed, and it is so, sir,” answered Mrs. Yunson. “I doubt if
there’s a house in Shetland without one. We know all about our wool
from the time it’s off the sheeps’ backs till it’s on our own. We
couldn’t bear your manufactured things, sir, they would not serve
our turn at all. There’s nothing but Shetland wool will keep
out Shetland weather?”
Mr. Brander lifted a corner of the shawl which Kirsty Mail was
wearing, and felt it gently between his fingers.
“You would be satisfied with fewer fal-de-rals, Etta,” said he, “if
you had to make them up from the beginning, instead of running about
to shops and dressmakers!”
Etta tossed her head. It was really too odious and too ridiculous
that he should draw such comparisons. But then papa was always aggravating when he had not had his brandy.
“And aren’t you frightened to be going among such strange places and
people?” pursued Mr. Brander, still addressing Kirsty. “How will you
manage all your little business. Haven’t you any luggage? Where is
it?”
“Grierson’s cart took up my box this morning, sir,” said Kirsty. “He
had to go into Lerwick with some geese to sell for Christmas time. And Tom Ollison will see me safe on board ship, and off again to
meet my aunt at Leith.”
“Tom Ollison!” echoed Mr. Brander, with an inquiring look at Robert
Sinclair. And before Kirsty could stammer out that this was not he,
a merry young voice cried from the threshold,—
“Who wants him? Here he is! Haven’t I run the last bit of the way, I
was so afraid I should miss you! There’s so many people to say
goodbye to, and they have all something extra to say.”
The speaker was vigorously rubbing his feet on the home-made straw
mat in the entry. Mr. Brander watched, amused. Even Miss Henrietta
gave her supercilious smile. When Tom Ollison came forward, and
found whom he had been addressing so unceremoniously, the swift
colour rushed to the very roots of his waving golden hair, but he
only looked frankly into the unknown faces and smiled.
“I did not expect anybody was here but Kirsty and you, Rob,” he
said, with implied apology.
“I expect you will have to be quick over your eatables, young man,”
remarked Mr. Brander, with a smile, “or you and this fair damsel
will be terribly belated.”
“We’ll be in plenty of time for the boat, sir,” answered Tom; “thank
you, sir, thank you,” as Mr. Brander pushed the homely viands
towards him. “And everybody is quite safe here at any time. There’s
nobody to be met but those willing to do one a good turn.”
“Ah, I suppose so,” said Mr. Brander, half interrogatively. “I am
told you hardly lock your doors at night hereabouts. Wonderful, that
seems to us, accustomed to cities like London and Glasgow. What is
that you are saying, Etta?”
“That the houses do not look as if they held much worth stealing,”
she said listlessly. “I can scarcely tell which are dwelling-houses
and which are what our driver called lamb-houses.”
“You see we are all pretty much alike in Shetland, sir,” observed
Tom Ollison, in his pleasant, frank manner.
“We might well be all a little better off,” sighed Mrs. Yunson.
“At any rate, nobody ever starves here,” said Tom Ollison, “and
that’s more than can be said for those places where there is plenty
to steal in some houses. It’s not what is in our houses, but the
houses themselves, which might be a little changed for the better.
I’m glad the young lady has noticed how bad they are.”
Somehow, there was an awkwardness in the pause which followed.
“I suppose the horse has had its feed by this time,” said Mr.
Brander, rising. “Is the chaise ready?”
“It’s standing at the door,” answered Mrs. Yunson, bustling forward
to proffer her assistance to Miss Etta with her wraps. “You must put
on everything you can, young lady,” she advised, “for I think there
is going to be more rain."
“Heugh!” said the young lady, sniffing at the quilted hood with
which she enveloped her sealskin-capped head, till little was
visible of her face except her eyes —“Heugh! how soon everything
gets a smell of that horrid peat!”
“We think it fine and healthy, ma’am," observed Mrs. Yunson. “The
fish o’ the sea an the peat i’ the hills, are the blessings God
gives to Shetland.”
Robert Sinclair had already gone outside. He wanted to have a look
at “the chaise,”— perhaps to put a few questions to its driver. Tom Ollison sauntered after him, and then Kirsty Mail stole out, not
caring to be left alone with the “gentry.”
Robert turned to young Ollison as he joined him, and drew him a
little aside.
“Why! — do you know who those are?” he whispered.
“Ay, that I do,” said Tom with a smile. “That’s Mr. Brander, the
London stockbroker, who has just got hold of Wallness and St. Olas
isle.”
“Ought you to have said anything to him about the houses?” asked
Robert.
It was notorious that those on the Wallness estate were among the
worst in the island.
“To whom ought one to speak about them if not to the landlords? Ought we only to talk of their business behind their backs?”
returned Tom; “and I did not bring in the subject, neck and heels;
the young lady led up to it. And as he has just got hold of the
property he’s not to blame for its condition yet — not yet! I
thought I was in the nick of time.”
The Branders came out of the cottage. Etta was assisted into the
seat beside the driver, for her father did not venture to take the
control of a strange horse on unknown roads. Etta made considerable
demands on both him and the driver in the way of tucking her into
her rugs, and securing them about her. At last she pronounced
herself “as comfortable as she could be in that miserable climate,”
and her father was free to clamber rather painfully into the back
seat of the vehicle, which had scarcely been built for people of his
weight and proportions. His native good-humour revived as he looked
forward to a more stimulating meal at the snug hotel in the town.
“I think we have room for another—a light one,” he said, looking at
Tom Ollison, who had somehow piqued and interested him. “Will you
have a lift?”
“Thank you very much, I’m sure, sir,” said Tom brightly. “But I’ve
promised to look after Kirsty, and I’ve to look in at one or two
houses with messages, and I’ve got to carry this to Lerwick,” and he
poised in his hand a strange, strong-looking basket made of closely
bound straw.
“What in the name of wonder are you doing with that? It’s empty,
isn’t it? asked Mr. Brander.
“It’s a Christmas present from our farm lad to his sister, who is
married, in Lerwick. It is to hold her peats. It is what we call a cashie,” explained Tom. “The men make them in the winter evenings.”
Well, as you’ve neither got a damsel to escort, nor a hamper to
carry,” said Mr. Brander, turning to Robert Sinclair, “perhaps you
will be glad of a lift? If so, up you get.”
“Thank you very much, sir,” answered Robert, instantly accepting the
invitation. What a queer fellow Tom was! Kirsty must have come on
safely enough without him: for that matter, Robert himself would
have had to walk with her then. And Tom could have left the cashie
at Mrs.Yunson’s for somebody else to take up at their leisure — the
servant-lad would have easily inferred that it had been accidentally
forgotten. However, Robert felt that he had little reason to
criticise Tom’s “queerness,” since in this instance it had given him
an opportunity he must otherwise have missed.
“Well,” said Kirsty, as she and Tom set off on their march, after
the chaise had rapidly driven away, “I should not think anybody with
all those beautiful wraps need grumble at any weather.”
“Don’t you think so, Kirsty?” said Tom. “I rather do. I think the
wrapping up is the bother of it, for any of us. I should not like to
be a fish if I had to put on waterproofs.”
“Who is that young fellow we have left behind us?” asked Mr. Brander
of Robert, as Tom and Kirsty waned small in the distance while the
chaise rattled away.
“Tom Ollison, sir,” Robert answered. “He is the son of the farmer at Clegga, out Scantness way.”
“A fine young fellow, if he only has good guiding and gets into the
right way,” mused Mr. Brander aloud, revealing the purport of his
words by adding, “He ought to make a fortune with that head of his
and that taking manner. But it’s odd how those don’t always tell
best in that direction. I shouldn’t wonder, now,” he went on, with a
keen glance at his companion, “if you come back the richer man of
the two.”
Robert smiled demurely at the dubious compliment. “Tom was always
cleverer than I was,” he said. “I’ve always known him: he went to my
father’s school.”
“And you’re not going to follow your father’s profession? You’re
wise. Plenty of work for very little money there — not a penny
turned over without drudgery in it. Just work, work, work, till a
man is worn out. I say that a man should make his fortune soon enough
to enjoy himself while he’s able to do so.”
There was that in Mr. Brander’s manner which added as plainly as in
words, “as I have done.” Still Mr. Brander did not look a perfect
picture of enjoyment. He was scanning the features of the country
through which they were passing.
“Some of the houses are a little more like what one is accustomed to
hereabouts,” he observed. “These all have some sort of window, and
mostly chimney-pots. About Wallness I noticed many with only
apertures in the roof for a light, and a hole for the escape of
smoke.”
“I’ve heard it said that those are most comfortable after all, for
this climate,” remarked Robert.
“Well, perhaps so. Ha! I shouldn’t wonder—warm in winter and shady
in summer,” assented Mr. Brander with a sense of relief. “Only when
one sees them one’s natural feeling is that one wouldn’t like to
live in them one’s self.”
“The people are accustomed to them,” said Robert; “it is quite a
different thing. They have no idea of anything else.”
“And it’s really folly to interfere with the habits of a community,”
remarked Mr. Brander. “I believe in keeping in old fashions. The
world would be a ridiculous place if it was not for variety.”
He began to think that after all he had not made such a bad bargain
in acquiring the estate of Wallness. Certainly, he would never have
chosen it; it was not in his line at all. He had hitherto taken his
holiday pleasure on plans gradually ascending with his fortunes,
from Margate and Brighton to Scarborough and Homburg; he had stayed
at the Lakes once, and had been horribly bored, though he always
owned that the cooking was good. But Wallness and the island of St.
Olas had “come in his way,” as he would have termed it, or he “had
got hold of them,” as Tom Ollison had expressed it, because, being
an unentailed property, the last of their ancient owners had used
them as security in sundry speculative proceedings, by which he had
wildly hoped to realize some wealth wherewith to enrich himself, and
do some justice to his barren and ill-drained acres, a proceeding
which, of course, had ended as it always does. It had struck Mr.
Brander that it did not sound bad to be the owner of an island, and
to talk of “his little place, Wallness Castle.” At any rate he
would keep them for a little while they had come into his possession
at a time when he could not hope to gain much by selling the pledge
he had taken of his neighbour, and it occurred to him that their
value might be increased by a little judicious application of the
business principles which he had found to answer so well in his set
in the City. He had been a little confounded by the utter novelty of
all he had found at Wallness. He had mistrusted the late laird’s
factor, had shrunk from the minister, and altogether had been
inclined eagerly to seize an opportunity of insight into the
workings of the native mind, which he shrewdly felt he was likely to
get from either of the unsophisticated island lads whom chance had
thrown in his way. Young Ollison had startled him by touching the
already uneasy nerve of his conscience. Robert had furnished him
with exactly the arguments and points of view which had been needed
to soothe it. He felt confirmed in his first opinion, that of the
two this was the lad who would get on in the world.
CHAPTER III.
DIFFERENT PEOPLE’S DIFFERENT WAYS.
THE black
darkness of night overtook Tom Ollison and Kirsty long before the
changeful beacon light of Bressay cheered them with the thought that
Lerwick was nigh at hand.
Tom had to make a little digression from his direct path to visit a
primitive village, that he might say good-bye to one or two “old
folks" who had once worked on his father’s “place.” And as it was
from this village that the Lerwick people got most of their peats,
it also occurred to Tom that “it was ill carrying in an empty cashie,”
when he might spare somebody one journey by filling it at once. His
father had entrusted him with one or two silver coins as “New Year
tokens” for these ancient dependents, and somehow, when Tom thought
how their hard-working lives were fast closing in, while his was
beginning in youth and health and hope, and how their grand old
faces might very likely be at rest under the rough turf of the bleak
churchyard before he could come back, he felt he should like to give
them a little pleasure now, while they were within his reach, and so
he supplemented his father’s gifts with all the munificence of
youthful sensibility. The old folks received his kindness with the
dignity of their years, with almost as little show of emotion as
might be displayed by stone deities when offerings are laid at their
shrine. But when he was gone, slinging the now weighted cashie over
his strong young shoulders, one old dame said to her ancient
neighbour that, “the Ollisons had always had the open hand it ran in
the race; not the ill-closed-together fingers that let the money
slip through, but the thumb that bends far back, and kens how to
give.” And the veteran had answered sternly, “that he knew nought o’
such auld wife’s sayings, but he reckoned the world wad be none the
poorer if such as Tam Ollison were rich.”
Tom had full license for his liberality, for as the youngest son of
a widower—well-to-do, according to island estimates, and already
relieved from all charge of his elder children — the lad had started
from
home with a fairly liberal allowance for his journey in his pocket,
and without any straight injunctions as to how it should be applied. “Do what you feel is best under the circumstances which arise, Tom,”
old Mr. Ollison had said. “Think what is right and fair: that’s the
best advice I can give you, my boy, because I can't foresee every
turn, and this will fit them all."
At last the crowded lights of Lerwick itself brightened on the view
of the young travellers, but not before the staggering steps and
roystering shouts of sundry wayfarers they encountered had announced
that they were in the vicinity of that stage of civilization of
which "licensed houses" form an important item.
Tom had promised Kirsty's grandmother to take her to the Clegga
farm-servant's married sister, where the girl could get rested and
refreshed and await the boat that would take them off to the ship. Kirsty had never been in
“a town" before, and was awed and mystified
as she followed Tom through the steep, narrow lanes. She started and
exclaimed at what at first seemed to her in the darkness to be a
gaunt arm stretched over a low wall in Chromate Lane. It was but
the stumpy bare bough of a stunted tree! But when they arrived at
their destination, and she was welcomed by faces which she had known
in Scantness, her spirits revived, and she once more found the
tongue which she seemed to have lost during the latter part of the
journey.
There was nothing for Tom but to stay where he was, in the mean
while, and partake of the homely viands which were eagerly set
before him. He was not the less welcome because he found he had
come to a house full of trouble. The young husband, Peter Laurensen,
had met with a serious accident which had thrown him out of work,
and would keep him idle for some time, besides probably entailing a
difficult surgical operation, which would have to be performed amid
all the disadvantages of a small, dark, ill-ventilated room, the
sole dwelling of the young pair, their baby, and an old relation,
there being no hospital in the town, nor indeed in the island, for
the reception of such sufferers. The young wife, too, was ailing,
though there was little wrong with her except the exhaustion due to
her strange accumulation of incompatible duties as house-mother,
bread-winner, and nurse. Her face looked worn and weary even amid
the delight of welcoming her brother's master's son, and pouring out
upon him a flood of deprecating thanks for his trouble in carrying
over the “cashie“ which her brother had been so “mindful“ as to
send, and still more for his thoughtfulness in filling it by the
way, and so saving her one toilsome walk to the Hill of Sound.
“They
may call the hill the poor folk's doctor,“ she said with her pale
smile. “An' I'll not say it's not wholesome for us, taking us
out from overmuch sitting wi' our pins and our wheels. But one
may have too much o' a good thing, and I think whiles it's like the
rest o' the doctors, and sometimes kills instead of cures.“
The ship did not sail till midnight, and after Tom and Kirsty had
had their tea, the youth proposed going down into the main street to
ascertain when a boat would start to take them on board. He thought,
too, that he might come across Robert Sinclair and join forces with
him. Kirsty timidly asked if she might accompany him, “She'd be
feared to go alone, and she'd like to see the shops.“ Tom readily
assented. He knew Lerwick very well, and was not wholly unfamiliar
with larger towns, having paid short visits to Kirkwall, Inverness,
and even Aberdeen, though London, the goal of his present journey,
with its seething millions, and its sharp contrasts of glory and
gloom, still loomed shadowy on his imagination. He thought it would
be great fun to hear Kirsty's admiring ejaculations before the first
fine edge of her new experiences should be worn away.
Kirsty hung before the windows of the grocer and the baker, just as
fine ladies do before those of the mercer and the milliner. She had
scarcely realized that there were so many jam-pots and tea-boxes and
shortcakes to be seen together anywhere in the wide world. As for
the draper's, the fancy shops, and the bookseller's, they fairly
struck her dumb. Point d'Alençon
and gems from Golconda could not have impressed her more than did
those ruffles of cheap lace and strings of imitation beads. But Tom
resisted a rising inclination to indulge himself by making her the
supremely happy possessor of one or two of these gewgaws. For he
said to himself that they would be of no use to her; they were not
so fine as they seemed to her, and Kirsty must get into the habit of
seeing such things without thinking of getting them. This was wisdom
which he had learned for himself, at the cost of sundry thoughtless
little purchases when shops had been as novel to him as they were to
Kirsty. But it was another matter when Kirsty lingered
opposite the bookseller's, admiring a simple, little framed print of
an old woman at her spinning-wheel, which seemed to her tear-filling
eyes a very portrait of “grannie.“ Tom darted in, and bought the
pretty trifle, and placed it in the girl’s hand, telling her it
would do to hang in her bedroom wherever she went, to keep her in
remembrance of Shetland, home, and grannie. And then he stopped her
bewildered thanks by taking her into his confidence as to what he
should buy for their poor sick host and his weary young wife.
“It shall go into their place after we’ve left,” he decided, “the
sight of us from the old home has cheered them up a bit, and after
we’ve gone again, they’ll feel a little downhearted, and it will do
them the more good. Do you think they would like a goose, Kirsty?“
“‘Deed and I do,” said the girl, “but, Master Tom, it will cost a
lot o’ money in the town.”
“I can manage that,” answered Tom, who had been looking through his
purse, and going over some rapid mental calculations which he did
not expound to Kirsty. “And a few oranges will be nice for the sick
man, he can take one when his wife isn’t at home to give him
tea—there’s more fruit in Lerwick just now than there is generally,
because Christmas is so near. And don’t you think it would be a good
idea to send one of those little shortcakes with “A happy New Year”
printed on it in sugar plums? That will give a sort of good grace to
all the rest, won’t it, Kirsty?”
His rapid suggestions, which seemed so sumptuous in her eyes, nearly
took Kirsty’s breath away, but she got into the spirit of the thing,
and made a shrewd market of the goose, and a good selection among
the shortcake. Oranges she did not know so much about, having only
tasted two or three in her life, so Tom gave her one or two to put
in her pocket for the voyage. He got all his commodities gathered in
the grocer’s shop, whose kindly master seemed quite to enter into
the situation, and promised that the parcel should be sent
faithfully to the address which Tom wrote on the outside of an
envelope, on whose inside he put, “This
is something to cook over the peats out of the new cashie, with Tom
Ollison‘s love.”
They walked the whole tortuous length of the queer chief street, and
ascertained that they could have a share of a boat which was to take
some people from the principal hotel to the ship. As they had seen
nothing of Robert Sinclair, it occurred to Tom to ask the waiter if
he knew who these people were, and the answer he got was that the
gentlemen was “the new man that had got Wallness and St. Olas, and a
young lady, and a young gentleman.” This last, Tom decided must mean
Robert himself, as Robert had not been to Lerwick for a long time
and was not likely to be known to anybody there. The boat was to
start within an hour, and they would just have time to go back to
the Laurensens to bid them good-bye. They were both a little
mysterious over their secret, so that Mrs. Laurensen said to her
husband that she wondered what that girl Kirsty was giggling at,
and she hoped that Mr. Tom had had things as he liked them, for he
seemed rather quiet like. But half an hour later Peter and his wife
understood all about it. And Mrs. Laurensen said,—“Now, Peter,
that’s the sort o’ folk that ought to be rich.”
And Peter replied with a quiet chuckle, “Giving away as you go along
isn’t the way to get rich, Kate. Leastways, if riches means lots o’
money.”
When Kirsty and Tom reached the boat they found they had not been
mistaken about Robert Sinclair. He was with Mr. Brander and Miss
Henrietta. And as they sat in the little vessel, rocking in the
darkness, while Mr. Brander fussed about his luggage, Robert left
the young lady and came to their end of the boat, to whisper that he
had been invited to join them at their hotel dinner, and that Mr.
Brander seemed to make sure that he would travel in their part of
the boat, and that he really thought he might do so, seeing that
their hospitality had already spared his cash a little. It was
really a great thing to get a chance of being friendly with such
people. He hadn’t originally meant to travel first class, he had half
hoped to get Tom to join him in the humbler part of the ship (he
said this, rightly guessing that Tom’s allowance and marching orders
would permit him to do what he liked either way). It would not be a
very great extravagance, for the Branders, though they lived in
London, were to stop in Edinburgh, where where they would remain
till after the new year came in, and after they were gone, Robert
could resume his original plan.
“I’m going to travel in the steerage,” said Tom, rather drily. For
this was the economy on which he had resolved to straighten his
accounts after his little beneficences.
“Are you doing this out of sheer contradiction, Tom?” asked Robert,
feeling somewhat nettled.
“No,” replied Tom, more frankly. “I made up my mind about it while I
was in the town.”
“Mr. Brander has given me his card with his London address on it
already,” confided Robert. “He has asked me to call on him. I’m sure
he would ask you, too. I think he took a fancy to you, little as he
saw of you,” he added, trying to defend himself, to himself, against
a secret consciousness that he was not altogether sorry that Tom was
behaving as “queerly” as usual. “Are you sure you’ve made up your
mind, Ollison?“
“Quite sure,” said Tom, moving a little aside, as at that moment Mr.
Brander stepped heavily into the boat, making it sway from side to
side, and causing the unaccustomed Kirsty to grasp Tom’s arm in
terror.
“I’m glad you’re to be in the steerage too. I’ve been hoping so all
the while, but I didn’t say so, because I did not think it likely,”
she whispered. “Now, if there’s a storm, I’ll know you’re not far
off. You wouldn’t forget me?” she pleaded.
Tom laughed. “Of course I wouldn’t,” he said; “but I don’t think
there will be any storm tonight.”
The boat began to move off toward the ship, and Kirsty suddenly
realizing that the waste of waters had already begun to roll between
her and home and grannie, began to cry quietly.
“And so you two are starting out to make your fortunes,” said the
sonorous voice of Mr. Brander. He meant the two youths, for he never
would have thought of such as Kirsty in such a connection.
“I hope we shall do so, sir,” said Robert Sinclair.
“It should not be a matter of hope, but of will, young man,”
rejoined the senior. “If a man means to get on, he has only to say,
‘I will get on, at any cost,’ and then he does get on. That’s what I
said when I left home. I left a poorer home than either of yours, I
reckon. And I’ve not done so badly, and I’ve not done yet.”
Even as he spoke his face looked a little sour in the moonlight. For
two thoughts rose in his mind and troubled him. First, that his
earliest business connection chose to consider him a dishonourable
man, and
always said so, and that though he denied the justice of the
opinion, or at least always talked about “charity” when he heard of
it, he could not deny the facts on which it was based. Second, that
his own boyish ambition had been to buy “the Hall“ of his own
native village, and that by some freak of circumstance, just before
he became possessed of means so to do, it had been purchased by the
trustees of a great charitable association, and converted by them
into an idiot asylum, whose poor patients wandered aimlessly in the
sweet parterres which were to him as Naboth’s vineyard was to King
Ahab.
But while Robert Sinclair repeated to himself Mr. Brander’s
asservation, and only hoped that it might be true in his, Robert’s,
own case, Tom Ollison had scarcely heard it; Tom stood up in the
darkness, with his head bared to the silent stars, and in his blue
eyes there was a strange moisture which melted down the lights of
Lerwick town into one luminous cloud. Kirsty Mail looked up at him
awed. Was he praying? she thought. He was, though he scarcely knew
it himself. But perhaps no prayer goes so straight to God as the
wordless aspiration after his will, the blindfold dedication thereto
of one’s secret self and one’s unknown future.
CHAPTER IV.
A PEEP INTO THE WORLD'S WAYS.
THE voyage to
Edinburgh was got over ― as such
voyages are in the lives of those to whom they are adventurous
novelties ― with mingled raptures
and qualms, with expressions of delight in “a life on the ocean
wave,“ sinking into inward resolves that if one ever gets safely to
land, one will never set foot on a ship again, unless, indeed, it
might be to return whence one came, never more to depart hence.
Such resolves, however, are generally quite forgotten within an hour
after landing. For our memory always colours a sea voyage with
the glowing pleasures of its close — the arrival, as the Psalmist
expresses it, “at the haven where we would be.“
Mrs. Brander, who had remained with friends in Edinburgh while her
husband and daughter made their trip to Ultima Thule, was down at
the docks, awaiting them in her carriage. Mrs. Mail, Kirsty's
aunt, was there also, standing close beside the carriage. Mrs.
Brander had been speaking to her, and after Mr. Brander had
exchanged a few words with his wife, Mrs. Brander called Mrs. Mail
again, and with an eye critically fixed on Kirsty, told the aunt
that it had just occurred to her that if, in a day or two, she and
her niece came up to where Mrs. Brander was staying, she might —Mrs.
Brander could not promise she would — but she might — receive a
proposal which would be most advantageous to her. Then the
Brander carriage drove away, Mr. Brander shouting back to Robert
Sinclair, “Shall be in London next week — and mind you don't forget
me —but I shan't let you.“
“Why, aunt, do you know that lady?“ whispered Kirsty, so
overcome by the plumes on Mrs. Brander's bonnet, and the gold
bracelet on the wrist visible at the carriage door, that she did not
notice her hard tones, nor the absence of kindliness in her words.
“I go charing sometimes for the family the lady is visiting,”
answered the aunt, “so she knew my face, Kirsty, and when she saw me
at the docks to-day, she called me, thinking I might have been sent
after her with some message. Then I told her I was expecting a
young niece a-looking for a place. It would be the making of
you if you got employed by that kind of people, Kirsty.” Mrs.
Mail was meanwhile making suggestions of curtsies towards Robert
Sinclair, who appeared in her eyes as one travelling with Mr.
Brander's party — perhaps even of his family — for the
carriage had gone off so laden with luggage, that it was quite
likely that any youth — even though a son — should have been left to
follow on foot. Mrs. Mail did not heed Tom Ollison.
“Where are your things, Kirsty?” she asked. “I'll
reckon you'll not have more than you can carry.”
Kirsty had a strong, heavy box and a basket. She and
her aunt might just manage to carry these between them, but they
would certainly. require all their strength.
“Well, I suppose we'll part from you here, Kirsty,” said
Robert Sinclair. “We are going straight to the railway
station, and Mr. Brander said we should only just have time to get
some refreshment before the London train starts. So, good-bye,
Kirsty, and I hope you'll get a good place and do well.”
He did not shake hands with Kirsty. He had just shaken
hands with Henrietta Brander, and somehow it began to seem to him
not quite natural to offer the same salutation to both. Tom
Ollison held out his hand to the girl, and then paused, to ask Mrs.
Mail,—
“But which way are you going? Does your road lie
towards the station?”
“Yes,” she said, “it do; an' it's a good step. I reckon
this box will take a day's work out of me.”
“I'll give you a hand," answered Tom, as our ways are the
same. The weight's nothing to me."
“Thank you,” said Mrs. Mail quite composedly. "I like
to see a young man make himself handy.”
“What has become of your own luggage?” Kirsty asked.
“Mine and his,” answered Tom, nodding towards Robert, “and a
lot of goods of all sorts are being taken on a cart straight from
the ship to the train.”
Robert Sinclair looked round, saw what had come to pass, and
walked on, several paces ahead. Kirsty followed behind with
the basket, a little mystified, and feeling that she was already
learning many “ins and outs” of the world of which she had never
dreamed. Tom Ollison's ready helpfulness was only what her
general island experiences would have led her to expect from
anybody. But it began to dawn upon Kirsty that this was not
quite “the correct thing" here, and also that surely there was some
distinction of degree between Robert and Tom, of which the islanders
had never dreamed, but which, had they been fairly questioned on
such a matter, they would probably have reversed, since the ample
hospitality of Clegga Farm and the kindly despotism of old Ollison
were much more impressive in their eyes than the cramped Quodda
schoolhouse, and the light rule of the easy-minded schoolmaster.
But there was no doubt that the Branders were “the gentry,” the
owners of Wallness and St. Ala could be no less, and it was very
clear that there was a very different relationship between them and
Robert Sinclair, and between them and Tom Ollison. Kirsty had
not heard that the first offer of the vacant seat in their trap had
been made to Tom, and it never occurred to her that the money she
had seen him expend on herself and the Laurensens would have amply
sufficed to make him the Branders’ cabin companion. It began
to seem to Kirsty that Robert must be “more of a gentleman” than
Tom. It is a truth, and a very sad truth, that in the great
averages of human intelligence and feeling, there is, reversing the
divine order, a terrible aptitude to value those who take above
those who give, those who are served above those who serve.
When Jesus’ washing the disciples’ feet had not become a sacred
picture, framed in the sentiment of centuries, but was an actual
fact of the day, with all its little matter-of-fact concomitants,
perhaps it would have needed another Jesus to fully understand and
appreciate the incident. This failure of comprehension and
sympathy in the human mind and heart lies about the very root of
many upas-trees of human life, which it is in vain to cut level with
its ground, as long as the root remains to sprout again. He
who brings one human soul to the perfect and practical understanding
of the sacred rule, “Whosoever will be great among you, shall be
your minister, and whosoever of you will be the chiefest, shall be
servant of all,” has done more for the cause of eternal freedom and
progress, than he who succeeds in abrogating whole codes of unjust
laws, while leaving untouched the Christlessness in which they
originated.
Tom found he could just spare time to help the two women with
the heavy box up “the stair,” on the top “land” of which Mrs. Mail
lived. He could not linger a moment more, so that he barely
noticed the admiring glances which Kirsty threw round the apartment
into which her aunt led her. It was one of two, that formed
Mrs. Mail’s house, which was certainly not too roomy for her
requirements, since she had a husband and grown-up children.
But in spite of sundry queer gabled corners, it had large,
clear-paned windows, a “fitted grate,” and “four-post” bedsteads, so
that its proportions and appointments seemed magnificent to Kirsty’s
Shetland eyes. What gay wall-paper! What pretty
chintzes! What wonderful ornaments (in the way of Bohemian
vases and paper flowers)! And nothing seemed stained with damp
and weather, as everything was in Shetland! Oh what a pity
granny was too old to leave home, and too blind to see much if she
did! For Kirsty felt as if she had indeed come to a land
overflowing with comforts and luxuries. Not in that first
delicious bewilderment could she realize what it was to be
surrounded by acres of sordid houses, through whose many fever
stricken rooms the fœtid air crept
heavily, in place of that pure north wind which blew in from the sea
to wage a not unequal or unsuccessful struggle with the darkness and
disease of Shetland hovels. Not then could she understand how
it felt to lie wakeful at night, listening, not awed and elevated,
as she used to be, by the roar of the tempest, but shrinking from
the polluting clamour of drunkards and abandoned women in the street
below, while the first sounds that would greet one in the morning
would be no longer the glad cry of the sea-gulls, but the wails of
children who wanted breakfast and found none.
Kirsty was so taken up by all she saw, that she was not very
prompt in her thanks to Tom for his kindness, and when she saw him
run off, she scarcely realized that he was really away at last, and
that there was no knowing when or where she should see him again.
Mrs. Mail did not thank him at all; he was only a fellow steerage
passenger of Kirsty’s, who had done a civil thing, and the aunt
asked him carelessly if he would stay and take a bite with them, and
when he said he was in too great a hurry, she let him depart without
more question or ado.
“Oh! is he really gone?” cried Kirsty, as, looking from the
window, she saw Tom scampering off, at full speed, down the street.
“Oh! dear, dear, and I scarcely said good-bye, or even thanked him!"
“And what’s all this work about?” asked Mrs. Mail drily.
“I asked him to stay for a cup of tea if he liked — one couldn’t do
no more than that. What’s the young man to you, I’d like to
know? It won’t do for you to go picking up with strangers and
getting so thick with them in this place, I can tell you!
Mrs. Mail’s own daughters kept her hands full and her temper
sour, only she judged them to be “pretty well able to take care of
themselves.” But if she was to have another girl thrown upon
her, equally wilful and wrong-headed, plus a primitive ignorance and
simplicity, then “there would be a nice mess,” and “the piper to
pay.” So she thought she had better begin at once with
mysterious hints and warnings which might keep Kirsty safe in a
wholesome terror, until she, too, understood the ways of the world.
“Stranger!” echoed Kirsty, astonished. “That was Mr.
Tom from Clegga Farm. He’s going up to London with that other
one who walked on in front.”
“What! the young gentleman who was with Mr. Brander and his
daughter?” asked Mrs. Mail.
“That was Robert Sinclair, son of the schoolmaster at
Quodda,” returned Kirsty, with a slightly resentful accent, for she
noticed the difference in her aunt’s phrase concerning the two, and
did not resent it the less that it was in harmony with her own
recent thoughts.
“He’s quite a gentleman, whoever he is,” said Mrs. Mail.
“You might be sure of that, or Mr. Brander wouldn’t have been
speaking to him. The Branders are real grand people, ever so
rich. Very likely the young gentleman is well connected; they
think a great deal of that sort of thing.”
“I don’t think Mr. Brander had ever seen or heard of Robert
Sinclair before to-day,” persisted Kirsty, still vexed, she hardly
knew why.
“Ah! the same sort soon find each other out,” said Mrs. Mail,
uttering truth in a false connection, as we are all so apt to do.
“That’s the real thing, as I say to Mail, when he’s going on about
free-masonry, and what a grand thing it is for masons to know each
other all over the world. Says I, ‘Mail, there is none living
would ever take you for anything but what you are, and that’s a
common working man — and no mason at all — but just a plasterer!‘“
Kirsty listened, dumb-foundered by this flood of new ideas and
incomprehensible theories. Her aunt went bustling about.
Presently she resumed, — “The girls will be in by-and-by.
It’s high time they’re come, and they won’t dawdle about this
evening, keeping me waiting, as they often do, because they’re
expecting you’d get in about now. And as soon as you’ve had
something to eat, I reckon you’ll be glad to go to your bed, for
there’s little rest worth mentioning to be had on board ship.
And then I dare say they’ll be off out again as they generally are.”
Kirsty was just explaining that, though she had been very
wakeful during the earlier stages of her voyage, yet she had enjoyed
some capital sleep later on, when her cousins arrived, and greeted
her with an effusion which would have been kindlier had it not been
too palpably inquisitive and even a little sarcastic. They
were tall girls, quite young women, and seemed much older than
Kirsty, who decided that Jane, the elder, was the prettiest, but
that Hannah had the pleasantest manner. They both spoke
quickly and shrilly, and addressed their mother impatiently, as if
she had always disappointed their expectations, and was sure to do
so. They were dressed in very cheap, but showy and
unserviceable garments, smartly made. Jane had a long feather
round her hat, and Hannah a bunch of frowsy poppies in front of
hers, and she wore a ring with red and blue stones on one of her
fingers.
They asked carelessly after “father,” and were told that he
had got a job which had taken him into the country, and would keep
him there for a few days. Whereupon Hannah said jocularly that
that was “a good job,” and she presently asked Kirsty whether she
had quite made up her mind to domestic service? Wouldn’t she
like factory life a deal better? — one had one’s evenings to one’s
self.
“Kirsty’s always been used to keeping herself to herself
in-doors,” said Mrs. Mail severely. “Kirsty’s going to get a
good situation in a gentleman’s house. Kirsty won’t trouble
herself with none of your nonsense.”
It puzzled Kirsty to think that her aunt had not brought her
own daughters up to the way of life she seemed to recommend.
What was good enough for her cousins would be surely good enough for
her. Not, certainly, that she had any leanings that way yet.
She was too much dazzled by that possible prospect of service with
the Branders in the still remote El Dorado of London.
Hannah proposed to take Kirsty out for a walk, but Kirsty
somehow felt that her aunt preferred she should remain at home, and
submitted to the implied wish. Then the girls said they
wouldn’t go out either, on which their mother remarked “that wonders
would never cease,” and one of the three suggested that they should
look through Kirsty’s clothes, “to see if there was anything else
she should get in case she had to go off to a good place in a
hurry.”
Kirsty proudly displayed her few garments, simple in make and
substantial in material. The Mail girls laughed at their
“old-fashioned” cut, and when their mother admired the durability of
the stuff, they told her that nobody wanted clothes which would last
so long that they would look as if they came out of the ark before
they were worn out. They suggested sundry changes which might
be made — a slash here, or a frill there, but Mrs. Mail negatived
them all, saying that the Branders would like Kirsty best just as
she was — she knew the ways of the gentry — the girl could smarten
up afterwards. They asked Kirsty about her occupations and
companions in Shetland, laughed at her description of her wheel and
carders, in which it struck Kirsty that they were at one with Mr.
Brander. She ingenuously showed them the picture Tom had given
her. They had a great many questions to ask about “this Tom
Ollison,” as they called him, soon picking up his name from Kirsty’s
simple remarks, and making her fresh cheeks tingle with shyness at
their hints that very likely he was in love with her. Then
they showed her their own treasures — the valentines they had
received last spring — the remains of their last winter’s finery,
gew-gaws and ruffles, which quite put the Lerwick trumperies to
shame. The mother got tired at last of what she aptly called
their “fooling,” and proposed that they should all retire to rest.
“Neither of them was very ready to get up of a morning.” So
she and Jane retired to the inner room, leaving Kirsty to share
Hannah’s couch in the kitchen.
Tired as she was, Kirsty was too excited to sleep, and Hannah
seemed ready to talk till morning. Didn’t she just wish that
Kirsty would stay with them and go to work daily with her, instead
of going off to be shut up in a kitchen! She thought she and
Kirsty would get on capitally together — she did not always hit it
off with Jane. Jane preached too much to her. Jane did
not stay at home with her mother, or help in the house any more than
she did. Jane was as fond of going about as ever she was, only
she went about it in her own way — a very slow way, it seemed to
Hannah, who wanted something more stirring than the singing classes,
and reciting parties, and temperance evenings, and tea fights, which
took Jane out nearly every evening. Hannah liked a rattling
good dance; she knew of many nice quiet places which were hired by
people caring to get up little balls. What was the harm of it?
She was not one of those who think themselves better than other
people. How she would like to take Kirsty to the play! or even
to a music-hall! wouldn’t she open her eyes at the songs and the
acting! What was life without a bit of fun? It was bad
enough to have to work hard all day, without having nothing nice at
the end of it. Did Kirsty ask whether there was not something
to be done at home? What was there to do? What was the
use of darning stockings when you could buy such cheap ones that you
could afford to wear them straight out, till they would not hang
together any more? What was the good of making one’s own
clothes, when a girl with a sewing-machine could make them up
“stylish,” for next to nothing? There was not much washing.
They used paper collars and made-up frilling, and what there was,
mother did, as also the house-cleaning and the cooking. That
sort of work was just fit for old women, whose day was over, and who
could not enjoy themselves. It would be a pretty thing to shut
up a girl to do it. A girl must make hay while the sun shines.
Jane had had a young man, but they had quarrelled.
Hannah would not wonder if Jane ended as an old maid — wouldn’t it
be awful? She had no fear for herself, she giggled, though
she’d quarrelled with two or three young men already, — there were
always as good fish in the sea as came out. She did not think
she’d quarrel with her present beau he dressed so nicely, quite like
a gentleman. She was not sure what he was — in some agency
business, she thought. He was so very gentlemanlike and well
spoken, that, as he never mentioned his people, she could not help
thinking that perhaps he belonged to some grandees. She had
heard stories of lords disguising themselves out of love for poor
girls. She knew one or two of those stories were quite true —
and what had happened once might happen again. The other girls
were awfully jealous about him, and sometimes said the sort of
things girls do say when they are jealous, just to make her
miserable; but she did not care, not she! What was Kirsty
asking about wages? Hannah got about nine shillings a week,
all the year round, and Jane perhaps eleven. They each paid
their mother four shillings and sixpence a week for their board —
that was all. They had the rest to themselves for dress and
little expenses. They could not save any. If one took to
saving while one was young, when was one to enjoy one’s self?
The young men could not save much either. They always paid all
expenses when they treated the girls to dances, picnics, and
suchlike. What did they do when they wanted to marry?
Oh, there were plenty of people who would let you have furniture on
tick, just as the tallyman would let you have clothes. Then
you’d begin to save if you could. And if you couldn’t manage
to pay up for it, then the furniture was just taken away from you,
and you had to get on the best way you could. Of course, the
fun was all over when you got married, so it did not matter so much.
What a queer girl Kirsty must be to take such long looks ahead!
They gave Hannah the dumps. She never thought about anything,
except whether she was enjoying herself to-day. It was often
hard enough to manage that. Her young man said this was the
true philosophy—yes, he was very well educated, but she could
generally understand the words he used. Oh, Hannah did wish
that Kirsty was to stay in Edinburgh, though she couldn't help
envying her going to London, and if one was to go to service at all,
it was certainly better to go into a big house with plenty of
servants, such as the Branders' was sure to be, than to some quiet
place, all by one's self, where the mistress would have nothing to
do but to watch one; whereas, with the other sort one might get some
fun, and London people found it so hard to obtain servants that they
did not keep too tight a rein over them. And then Hannah's
voice began to grow muffled and her sentences incoherent, and at
last both the girls slept.
Kirsty did indeed find that “a strong, willing girl from the
country“ was no drug in the labour market of a capital city.
Before the next day was over, she had had the offer of another
service, in the house of a working watchmaker, a Swiss Protestant,
married to a Scotch wife. The family lived in rooms over the
shop, and consisted of the father and mother and three daughters;
one of whom had been trained to help her father, another was a
teacher, and the third assisted in the household duties. They
asked no skilled service, only health, strength, and willingness to
learn, and they offered a wage of eight pounds yearly. Mrs.
Mail replied that “her niece was as good as engaged in the house of
a real gentleman, engaged she wouldn't get less than twelve pounds a
year,“ and when Kirsty was inclined timidly to suggest that the
Branders were under no pledge to take her (for the girl had felt
attracted to the kind face of the watchmaker's wife and the bright
manner of her daughter), Mrs. Mail tartly told her to trust her for
knowing what was what. Did Kirsty wish to be a mere drudge, on
a paltry pittance, when she might have light work, more money, more
freedom, and plenty of presents and perquisites? this being the
ideal of life in Mrs. Mail's eyes.
However, the watchmaker's offer was made to do service, when
the aunt and niece waited on Mrs. Brander. When that lady
offered to take Kirsty into her service as “under housemaid“ at ten
pounds a year, Mrs. Mail demurred on the score that Kirsty had “had
as good an offer, without going so far from her own people,” and
that the only reason for this not being accepted, was Mrs. Mail's
determination “to have nothing to say to nobody else, if Mrs.
Brander would like to hire the girl,” and also Kirsty's own alleged
wish “to be in a real lady's house, where she would learn how things
ought to be.” Kirsty sat aside, mute and astonished, but
gradually got into the spirit of a bargain which she found
eventually secured her twelve pounds a year, and her washing put
out; Mrs. Brander conceding these advantages the more easily, that
Mrs. Mail readily assured her that Kirsty would require no “evening
out,” and no monthly holiday.
“You won't know anybody in London at first, Kirsty,” said her
aunt, as they trudged home together, after the engagement had been
made, “and when you've been in the family a while, you'll be able to
make your own terms. You must look out for yourself, and see
that you get your rights. But there's a great deal to be done
by good management.”
Kirsty was quite familiar with St. Paul's injunctions to
servants, “To be obedient to your masters according to the flesh,
with fear and trembling, in singleness of your heart, as unto
Christ; not with eye-service, as men-pleasers; but as the servants
of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart; with good-will
doing service as to the Lord and not to men: knowing that whatsoever
good thing any man doeth, the same shall he receive of the Lord,
whether he be bond or free.”
But poor Kirsty felt that she had come into an atmosphere
where these principles “would not work.” That was a phrase
with which Mrs. Mail and her daughters had already disposed of
sundry "ideas" "which Kirsty had timidly put forward. And it
never occurred to Kirsty that if these principles were steadily set
to work, even in one lonely heart and one quiet life, then they
might effect a change in the surrounding atmosphere. Alas! was
it likely this should occur to her, when it occurs to so few of us?
For, is it not strange yet true, that in a land where the New
Testament is held as the sacred book, any beautiful dream of human
progress, or any sweet hope of real human brotherhood, or any
revelation of true human dignity, is still called socialism, or
communism, or anything but what it really is — not perhaps in its
wild, unpruned tendrils, but at its living root — to wit, simple
Christianity? Can it be that this is so, because by naming it
under these aliases, people who say their creed every Sunday can
still boldly declare that “it will not, work“?
CHAPTER V.
PENMAN ROW.
THE two youths,
Robert Sinclair and Tom Ollison, arrived in London in the early
morning hours. As their train had sped onward through miles
and miles of outlying suburbs, densely built and evidently densely
populated, they had wondered when it would stop, and Tom had highly
amused their fellow-passengers by his naïve
remarks on the scenes they were passing through. Robert had
preserved a discreet silence, his ambition being to speak and act
only as other people did, and above all to sedulously conceal that
the experiences of his past life had been such as to render anything
here novel and astonishing to him. Most singular is that
craving of some human beings for a deadly uniformity. One
shudders to think to what it may bring the world, as modern science
annihilates time and space, and draws remote places and peoples near
together. For this craving in individuals “to be like” other
people culminates in a base national instinct which readily
exchanges ancient customs and national costumes for the “etiquette
of good society” and “the latest fashion,” which pulls down historic
houses that a grand promenade shall not swerve one foot from its
hard, straight line, and forgets its antique prophets and patriots,
hid with God in the mists of his glory, that it may dance round
brute-faced idols made of gold filched from its own folly. But
then the world is God’s world, and while we have to do our best for
it, it is in his charge, and we must be “careful for nothing.”
For at the right time, he sent the Persian hordes to shatter the
Grecian palace of selfish art, and again, he sent the Roman legions
to overthrow the Jewish temple of spiritual pride, and again, he
sent forth the northern barbarians to batter down the Roman fortress
of cruel power, and each time, as the wave of human folly and greed
was beaten back by the breath of his human hurricanes, the human
race itself was found higher and higher on the shores of his
providence. And God has untold resources yet, for the
deliverance of man from others, and from himself. For he will
not rest as the Creator of molluscs, the ruler of slaves, or the
artificer of automata. He must be the Father of living
children, who must each bear his own name, and have his own place.
Does this seem a wide digression from a railway carriage,
wherein one boy frankly compares what he knows already with what he
is learning, so that his words refresh the worn souls of the city
folks who hear them, as the north winds and dancing waves of which
he speaks would refresh their worn bodies; while another lad sits
silent, or answers curtly yes and no, lest his kindly interrogators
should discover that he had lived hitherto in a four-roomed house,
where only peats were burned for fuel, and even refuses to cry out
in admiration and wonder at the rich English woodlands, and gay
English gardens, because he does not chose to admit that he never
saw such things before?
It may be a digression, but only such a digression as it is
from tiny seeds about to be dropped into the earth, to thickets of
well-grown trees which are what shall be their result in after
years. For nations are made of men who have all been boys in
their day. And what the future thickets shall be will depend
on what those seeds are, whether upas or eucalyptus. And what
the boys are, that will the nation become.
When the train came to a standstill, the pair had to part at
once. Robert Sinclair’s railway journeying was not ended yet,
though he and his “traps” would have to be conveyed quite across
London to resume it from another station. For he was to be
placed in the counting-house of an old neighbour of his mother’s
pleasant girlhood — a Mr. Black, who owned a mill and a granary
among her passionately remembered Surrey hills.
Robert was not left to find his way alone from station to
station. A countryfied looking old labouring man pulled a
dusty forelock in salutation of him, and offered to take him and his
goods in immediate charge.
“You’re Mr. Robert Sinclair, sir?” he said.
“Yes, I am,” answered Robert, rather suspiciously. “But
how can you know me among all these people?”
The old man smiled with sly humour. “The others be all
Londoners,” he answered, “and there’s no mistaking that you ain’t.”
(Little did he dream how he hurt Robert’s vanity!) “An’ I saw
your mother years ago. You’ve got hair like her, but I don’t
think you take after her,” he added with a side glance at the lad.
There was no such kindly convoy awaiting Tom Ollison. A
sharp, lean London lad found him out by mounting guard over the
passengers’ luggage, and pouncing upon him when he came to claim his
box. Tom had not much farther to go, for his work and his home
alike would lie in the heart of the city. He was to go into
the bookselling business of an old friend of his father’s, one Peter
Sandison, who had left “the island” many years before, and was quite
forgotten by everybody there, except Mr. Ollison, with whom he had
kept up a sparse and spasmodic correspondence, which had admitted
intervals of silence sometimes lasting even for years.
The Ollison letters which had gone to London had been homely,
scrawling, not always well-spelled epistles, conveying news of
marriage, and birth, and death, both on Clegga Farm and in
neighbouring households, their real geniality stiffly packed in the
conventional phrases with which each had begun and ended. The
Sandison letters which had gone to Shetland had been prim and
precise, seasoned with epigrams on politics and politicians, and
occasionally with shrewd counsels concerning investments in
government stock or railway scrip. Peter Sandison had never
seemed to have anything to tell of himself — no tidings of marriage,
or of household event. Perhaps an old bachelor can have no
history. He had never even changed his place. In the
house where he had gone as clerk and general factotum, he still
lived as master, and there Tom was to live with him. How well
Tom knew the address which he had so often seen in his father’s
handwriting on the letters which he had posted for London — “12,
Penman Row, Barset’s Inn “—and how strange it was to think that was
home now! No, no; Tom refused the thought. Home was
nowhere but Clegga Farm.
Tom had never seen Peter Sandison, and would of course have
said at once that he had no idea what he was like. And yet
when Tom did see him, as he came to the shop door, when the cab drew
up, he felt instantly that he had had a preconceived idea which the
sight of Mr. Sandison shattered forever. He was a tall, lean
man, with high, rather fine features, and uncertain complexion.
His clothes were of the shabbiest, his long hair waved wildly, and
he held out a bony hand to Tom. He smiled too, but the smile
lingered on his lips: it did not mount to his eyes.
He seemed a man of few words. With a single brief
inquiry after his old friend, Tom’s father, he turned and led the
boy into a room behind the shop, and inviting him rather by gesture
than phrase to partake of a meal set forth on the table, left him
there, and returned among his book-shelves.
Tom had no reason to complain of the preparation which had
been made for him. To his simple and limited island taste, the
rich cocoa, the cold roast, the crisp rolls, and above all the plate
of fresh fruit, seemed positively luxurious, and he certainly did
justice to them all. When the edge was taken from his vigorous
young appetite, he had time to look about him. He found
himself in a small but rather lofty room, ill-lit, though that side
opening towards the shop was entirely of glass, in small, quaint
panes, the lower of which were screened by green blinds. The
room had another window awkwardly set in a corner, from which Tom
looked out upon a narrow flagged yard, surrounded by lofty
buildings. The general gloom of the apartment was increased by
the darkness of its walls and even of its ceiling, which, instead of
being whitewashed, was papered with ‘a pattern of full-blown roses
tumbling out of cornucopias, the whole brought to a fine fruity
brown hue by much smoke, many washings, and sundry coats of varnish.
But the gloom did not yet oppress Tom Ollison, accustomed to the
dark cosiness of Clegga, whose few tiny windows were all either
skylights or set low upon the floor. The furniture was in
keeping with the apartment. A small round table on which Tom’s
lunch had been served stood in its centre; a small square table,
with folding flaps, stood against one wall; there were a few common
cane chairs, a big brown press, and a quaint mirror with a beetling
frame, made in three divisions, two of which were filled with glass
which darkened any visage that might be reflected therein; the floor
was covered with the commonest drugget; there was not a single
ornament or superfluous article in the room, except a splendid dark
tabby cat curled in luxurious slumber on an old coat thrown across
one of the shabby chairs.
There was nothing in all this to detain Tom’s curiosity long.
So presently he rose softly and went into the shop. Mr.
Sandison was behind the counter, bending low over a desk, and he
seemed to see and hear nothing till Tom said, —“Is there anything I
can begin to do sir?”
He looked up with a start and a frown, but said, “Good!
That’s it! You needn’t begin to-day, though. Take a bit
of pleasure first?”
“I’d rather take it second, sir,” Tom answered with a shy
smile. “I’d enjoy it more.”
Mr. Sandison’s grey eyes flashed at him beneath their shaggy
brows. “Good!” he said again. “Always do what you like.
Then one person at least is pleased. Self-interest is the only
principle by which the world can go on.”
Tom felt puzzled. He had never before heard such
sentiments candidly expressed, though, for all his simple-hearted
geniality, he was acute enough to recognize that they formed the
secret creed according to which many act. But how could he
reconcile Mr. Sandison’s words with what his father had told him,
namely, that the only terms on which the bookseller would consent to
train him were of so liberal a kind, that Tom’s utmost diligence and
vigilance could scarcely make the contract fair? Tom looked up
at his master with a half-laugh, expecting that some turn of his lip
or twinkle in his eye would belie his cynical utterance and reveal
that it had been made only in jest. But Mr. Sandison’s
visage was sober and serious, almost saturnine.
He took Tom at his word, and set him a task of comparing the
contents of two catalogues of different dates, which kept the lad
hard at work for three hours. Then he bade him return to the
back parlour, and “see if he could find anything more to eat.”
This time, Tom caught a glimpse of a domestic, an old woman, who
spoke sharply and in inconsequent answer to one or two civil remarks
on which Tom ventured. It was not till afterwards that he
discovered she was quite deaf.
Mr. Sandison told Tom he did not want him any more in the
shop that night; he could go out for a walk if he liked. Tom
said he would rather go to his own room and unpack. He had
such a curious feeling of having lost his identity, that he wanted
to reassure himself by the sight of his little belongings. As
he crept up the dark, narrow staircase, past the closed doors of
silent rooms, it was really hard to believe he was in the same world
with crazy, cosy old Clegga, interpenetrated by the warmth of the
great kitchen, and by the cheerful voices of those gathered about
it.
He could not help wondering to what other use the lower rooms
were devoted, that he had to pass over two flats and go on to the
attic floor. He was rather glad of it, however; the big, low
room, with its sloping corners, was a little more in the style of
Clegga than were the rest of his new surroundings. The
association was carried out by the rude simplicity of the furniture,
by an old maimed spinning-wheel which stood at rest in one corner,
and by the pictures on the walls, an old print of “Shetland
Shelties,” an engraving of a scene from “The Pirate,” and a fresh
photograph of the Skerries lighthouse. Tom thought that Mr.
Sandison had kept very true to the associations of his early youth,
and he rather wondered how he had brought a spinning-wheel to the
south with him, since Tom knew that he had migrated from the island,
a lonely lad like himself. How could Tom imagine that the old
print and the new photograph and even the decrepit wheel, were all
the purchases of the last few days, made in preparation for his own
arrival, because the grim bookseller had remembered how the sight of
a pair of “rivlins“ (or Shetland skin-shoes) and of a knitting-pin
sheath, exposed on a stall at a fancy fair as “articles of interest
from Ultima Thule,” had refreshed his own homesickheart, years and
years before, and had opened up a store of innocent memories which
had diverted him from accepting an invitation to a gaming-table!
“Let us give everybody every chance we have had ourselves,”
Mr. Sandison had said to himself, as he had put up the wheel and
hung the pictures. “Though it’s ten chances to one if they
take it I believe it’s these dumb preachers that do half of the good
— it’s little enough — that gets done in the world, and they are in
no danger of glorifying themselves!
Tom grew less bewildered, but far more pathetic, after he had
opened his boxes and sorted out his possessions. There were no
traces of mother or sister among them — no supererogatory stitching
— no quaint personal plan, none of those tender little daintinesses
which lads, in mingled pride and shamefacedness, scarcely know
whether to display or to hide. For Tom’s mother was in her
grave in a wild Shetland burying-ground, and his only sister, the
eldest of the Ollison family, had been married and away from her
home for years. It seems singular how often the bliss of these
close, natural ties is not enjoyed to the fullest by those who seem
best able to appreciate them, but who are left to sow broadcast
those seeds of love which others plant in their own gardens for
their own ingathering. God must know why it is, and must have
a purpose in it. Is not the whole world the Father's garden,
and is not the sole object of the children's enclosed plots to train
them to work on his wider plan? Are not fathers and brothers
and mothers and sisters given us only to teach us how, as St. Paul
beautifully expresses it, to treat all elders as fathers and
mothers, all men as brethren, all women as sisters? And who
shall say that those who can only sow in their Father's larger
garden shall not surely reap in their Father's longer day?
Such relics of home and homely affection as Tom could boast
of, he spread out tenderly. The stout, leather-bound Bible,
his father's gift, was laid on his toilet-table, and Tom looked
reverently at the stiff inscription which had been so laboriously
written on its fly-leaf, and thought of the love and goodness that
was in it, and not of the final “e”
that was omitted from the adjective by “his
affectionate father.” He hung
up the comb-and-brush bag which the servant lass had made and given
him, and did not scoff at its gaudy chintz, bright with red, green,
and yellow. Perhaps a soft moisture dimmed his blue eyes when
he found, nestled away among his new stock of island hosiery, a
goodly bag of sweeties secretly stowed there by his father's old
housekeeper. He took one or two instantly, just because he
felt that the worthy dame had so stored them for his solace in his
first loneliness; but he put the rest away in his drawer. They
were the essence of home, and must be consumed but slowly, like the
last precious luxuries of an Arctic voyager.
"The stout leather-bound bible, his father's gift."
In due time he heard the heavy clanging of a bell, and
although he had not been warned to expect such a summons, he thought
he had better go down and see if he was wanted. He found Mr.
Sandison and the old servant, whom her master called
“Grace,”
both in the little parlour, which looked less cheerless now the lamp
was lit. Some frugal refreshments, a jug of milk, and a few
biscuits, were set forth upon the table. Thereon also lay an
open family Bible, before which Mr. Sandison sat. The old
woman looked over his shoulder as she passed him, found a place in a
small Bible which she carried, and then plumped herself down with a
peculiar emphasis on a chair in a corner, and gave a significant
sniff. Each time Tom had seen her there had been something in
her gait which made him feel uncomfortable, as if he had somehow
unconsciously offended her.
Mr. Sandison spoke, looking straight before him, and not
seeming to address either of his auditors.
“This was the habit in
Shetland,” he said.
“It is ill to break old habits till
one has better new ones. Let us read the thirteenth chapter of the
Book of Proverbs.”
It struck Tom that this was the thirteenth day of the month.
Mr. Sandison read in a low, even, not unmusical voice; it might have
been the voice of a much younger and very different man from the
gaunt, taciturn old bachelor. He made no comment on what he
read, but he lingered over some verses, and paused after them, as if
repeating them to himself. Just as he had completed the last
there came a rap on the shop door — the shop was closed now — and
Mr. Sandison shut the Bible, rose, and went out himself to see what
was wanted. The old servant rose too, with another warlike
sniff. She chose to see something wrong with the arrangements
on the supper table, and lingered to readjust them. Then she
looked up at Tom, with angry eyes, and, pointing to the Bible, said
harshly,
“What's the good of him doing that
when he doesn't believe in it a bit? The master doesn't
believe in a God.”
“Does he say so?” poor Tom ventured to ask, much shocked, but
especially sorry, and still oblivious to the fact that he was
addressing a deaf woman.
She knew that Tom had spoken, though only an inarticulate
sound reached her. She never owned she was deaf; she much
preferred to be thought rude or disagreeable. So she hazarded
no answer beyond another hostile grunt, and presently went on to
say,
“You'd better beware of the master's queer ideas yourself,
young man. There's no knowing what they may lead you into.
I'll go bail there's something in his own life that accounts for his
holding 'em. There's them that don't choose to believe in a
God because it don't suit 'em to think of his judgments. Look
there!" She seized the big Bible with no very tender hands,
and turned to its front fly-leaves. There were two or three of
them, evidently made in provision for a family register, and very
pathetic to see in the old bachelor's Bible.
Old Grace came round the table to Tom, pushing the heavy book
before her with an air of biting triumph.
“Look here!” she repeated. “D’ye see that?
There’s two leaves fastened up together — fastened so tightly that
they’d never be separated without spoiling the book; but you can
just see there’s papers between ‘em. I reckon that’s the
master’s secret, and that it ain’t to his credit, though, mayhap,
he’s got some reason of his own for wanting it found out after he’s
gone himself an’ is done with, as he thinks. I saw him the
other day a-reading a book which said our bodies don’t go into dust
at all, but into gases. I shouldn’t be surprised if the
master’s got a wife and children living somewhere. I reckon
he’s had his wild times before now. When a man doesn’t believe
in a God, nor the judgment day, nor hell, there’s a reason for it,
so you look after yourself, my lad; and mind, I’ve done my duty by
you and given you warning.”
As Tom went through the shop to the staircase he passed his
master, once more bending over his books. Tom thought he might
have easily heard all that Grace had said in her unmodulated tones.
Yet, perhaps, he was too absorbed, for even Tom’s footsteps did not
make him look up. But as Tom went by, and said softly, “Good
night, sir,” he lifted sad, searching eyes to the bright young face,
and let them gaze on it before he held out his hand, and answered
kindly, “Good-night, my lad.”
Those sad, searching eyes seemed to follow Tom into the
lonely darkness of the silent house. He was glad to find
himself in his own room. Strange as it was, it had already
become a retreat and refuge.
Tom had read and heard of people who were said not to believe
in God. He had thought of such as quite apart from human
sympathy. But then he had never seen one.
“O our Father!” said poor Tom, “bless father and the folks at
home, and keep me straight in all these new ways where you have set
me; and is it not a dreadful pity if Mr. Sandison cannot believe in
you? How sorry you must be! But, then, you know you’ll
take care of him, just as parents do of children who are a little
wrong in their heads. I don’t think I ever loved my father so
much as when I got better from the fever, and found how he had sat
and watched and nursed me while I was so delirious that I called him
a bear coming to eat me up, and even tried to strike him.”
Tom went to sleep, soothed and comforted. He had not
been quite unimpeachable in his knowledge of “The Catechism, with
Proofs.” He had been addicted to sit beside his father on
Sunday afternoons, gazing dreamily over Clegga Bay, talking of
simple matters, which often led back to the dead mother and to
“sacred thoughts of the heart,” rather than to attend the minister’s
somewhat theological Sabbath class. Perhaps those very talks
with the good old father had led Tom to a truer feeling about prayer
than too many have. To Tom prayer was “talking with God” —
trying to enter into his will and his purpose. It was not mere
begging from God. Tom had made few requests to his earthly
father. He had been able to trust him to give what was best
for his son. His own desire had rather been that “father would
tell him what he ought to do.”
If all prayer took this form there would be little cavil over
the power of prayer.
CHAPTER VI.
A CHRISTMAS MYSTERY.
TWO or three days
later brought a note from Robert Sinclair to Tom Ollison. It
was a short epistle, containing little more than an invitation for
Tom to journey down to the Surrey village on Christmas eve, and
remain there till boxing-day, so that he and his Shetland
schoolfellow might spend together the first festive season happening
in their absence from home. The proviso was added, “in the
event of there being no circumstance which might make it
discourteous for Tom on such an occasion to leave the household
where he was himself a member.” The invitation, couched in
these terms, was sent through Robert by the miller and his wife, Mr.
and Mrs. Black. Robert emphasized this by quotation commas,
and set forth his own sense of the supererogation of its politeness
and consideration, by appending to it a dozen lively notes of
exclamation.
By the time this invitation arrived, Tom Ollison had learned
much about the surroundings of his life from the old servant Grace.
He had also discovered her infirmity of deafness, and had found how
impossible it was to interrupt her harsh monologues by questions
which might have drawn forth, however reluctantly, qualifying
answers. Among other things he had been informed that his
master had never been away from home for the last ten years, and for
how much longer Grace could not say — that being the time when she
took service with Mr. Sandison. She had also told him that
“Sunday and Saturday were all the same in that house, so far as the
master were concerned; the shop shutters were up, of course, and Mr.
Sandison might go out a bit, but not at church time.” Tom had
so far verified her words. He had seen very little of his
master on the day of rest; they had their meals together, and Mr.
Sandison told him all the books were at his service. Tom
noticed, however, that nothing cooked appeared on the table, except
the hot water for tea. Grace’s duties were never oppressive;
but on Sunday they were a sinecure. Tom had gone alone to the
big parish church, venturing shyly into its cavernous shadows, out
of which, as his eyes grew accustomed to them, there loomed a vision
of crimson velvet and dusty carving, tesselated pavement, and
monumental skulls and cross-bones — a mingling of the gloomy
solemnity of a mausoleum with the cold state of a public palace, but
with very little of the cheery welcome of the Father’s house.
The beautiful service of the English Church was strange to Tom, who
could understand so little of the intoning of a very indifferent
choir that he could scarcely follow the order in his Prayer book.
So he had sat and thought of the little church of Scantness, which
had been so like his own dear home; its rudely flagged floor, bare
benches, and big stove seeming but a dignified version of Clegga
Farm set in simple order for the higher occasions of its Master.
And his heart had sickened with a strange sinking which he could not
quite understand, for, like most fortunate stay-at-home folk, he had
hitherto thought of “homesickness” rather as a half-fanciful name
for a half-fanciful sentiment, and had never dreamed that it can be
a suffering so real, as in some rare cases even to sap away life
itself.
Grace had further told him that “they didn’t keep Christmas,”
and Tom’s only comfort had been that the day of the English
festivity would not be embittered by the thought of genial merriment
going on at Clegga (though he knew he would be missed), because, in
the northern isles, Christmas is kept a few days later, according to
the old style of reckoning. At any rate, he could be quite
sure he was not disgracing his master’s hospitality by absenting
himself on the occasion. Grace had told him with bitter
triumph, as if here, at least, was one habit which she could admire
and uphold in him of whom she had such a generally low opinion, that
“they had no bothering nonsense of Christmas dinner — nothing at all
to make the day different from other days, only that every Christmas
eve somebody always sent her a parcel containing a dress or a shawl.
There was no name with it. But she reckoned there were one or
two people in the world who well knew her value, though, maybe, they
hadn’t known it in time, and perhaps their conscience gave them a
prick, or perhaps they thought such a man as Peter Sandison was not
likely to be too liberal in his wages — not that she complained; she
knew her infirmities, and that the weak must expect to be put upon.”
Tom felt quite surprised at himself for the longing he
experienced to accept this invitation, because it gave him a chance
of seeing Robert’s familiar face; for young Sinclair and he, though
always friendly, had not been special friends in Shetland; but now
Tom could enter into that sick yearning after somebody with a few
common interests and mutual memories which often binds the exile or
the aged with ties which seem most inexplicable and uncongenial to
those who are not in their pathetic secret.
Tom was half afraid to prefer his request for leave of
absence to this taciturn master, who seemed in his own experience to
have proved the common relaxations of humanity to be unnecessary.
Poor Tom was but an inexperienced lad, not yet initiated into the
world’s strange “rules of contrary,” whereby it is the rich man who
thinks that the poor should be poorer still, and the idle man who
considers that the busy do not work half enough; for seldom it is,
that the “easy-going” make life easy for those about them.
“Sir,” said Tom, timidly addressing Mr. Sandison, “my old
schoolfellow, Robert Sinclair, has written to me, inviting me to
spend Christmas in the country with him."
Mr. Sandison looked up suddenly, and did not speak for a
moment. He even looked down again and resumed his writing
before he replied, —
“Go, by all means; I think the weather will be good for the
season of the year.”
“Thank you very much,” Tom replied, not so much relieved as
he might have been by the permission, because he thought a shadow
had darkened on Mr. Sandison’s face. He lingered, as if in
hopes of another encouraging word.
“Go, by all means,” repeated the book-seller. His tone
was less frigid this time, but he did not lift his eyes from his
ledger, and Tom had to be satisfied.
Tom bought Christmas cards for his father, and for every
servant on Clegga Farm. Then he bethought him that as he was
to spend Christmas with Robert, it would be a kindly attention to
send one to Mrs. Sinclair at Quodda schoolhouse, and, instead of
buying a fourpenny one for her, he bought two at twopence apiece,
and enclosed the other for Olive Sinclair. He had never seen
much of Olive — had only spoken to her once or twice, and remembered
her only as a gaunt, black-eyed girl, who answered in monosyllables.
But he thought how much she must miss her brother! His little
purchases, postage stamps and all, did not exceed half-a-crown; for
he had the truly gentle sense that the value of such tokens of
remembrance is not their cost but their kindliness. This was
the first money he had laid out in London. And let any who are
inclined to sneer at the boyish extravagance, and to suggest that he
had better have opened an account with a savings bank, give a
thought to a certain box of ointment, which was once poured forth,
and to the rebuke which was administered to those who cavilled at
it. The best investment of money is in human joy. Tom’s
half-crown certainly gave much pleasure of the simplest and purest
kind to eight or nine people. Yet it gave one little pang,
too, and that was to none other than Mrs. Sinclair. She never
found it words; she strove to keep it from crystallizing into a
thought. But that was the only card from the south which
arrived at Quodda, and there was no other letter by the same post.
Oh! how wicked she was to give a half-reproachful thought to Robert.
Why should he waste his money on such things? the love which was
between them had no need for such trifles. And yet
――― she would never, never have
thought of any omission if it had not been for this token from a
mere neighbour. She almost wished it had not come! She
gave it to Olive to keep, and somehow after she did that, Olive took
her own card down from the mantelshelf where she had set it, and put
them both away — out of sight.
The shop in Penman Row was closed on Christmas eve, at the
earlier hour on which it was closed on Saturdays. Mr. Sandison
inquired by what train Tom ought to travel, and bade him take care
and get off in good time. This sounded kindly, but Tom still
thought there seemed a constraint in his manner. He was making
arrangements for shutting up, as Tom prepared to go. How could
the lad wish “a merry Christmas” to the saturnine man, whose lonely
plans he knew so well? And yet he could not go in silence.
There was something in the bookseller’s sad eyes which drew Tom
towards him, despite all old Grace’s hints and warnings.
“Good-bye, sir,” said the lad, and the other words came as by
a happy inspiration. “Thank you for your kindness to me, and I
wish you all good Christmas wishes.”
A porter entered the shop and threw down on the counter a big
parcel for “Mrs. Grace Allan“ just as Tom passed out. The
bookseller followed the lad to the door and stood looking after him
as he went down the street.
“I thought I was only thinking of the boy in what I meant to
do,” he murmured inaudibly, “but I find I was like all the rest of
them, only thinking to please myself, for when I find he can please
himself better than I could please him, then I am displeased!
Well, well, my purchases shan’t be wasted. If one could only
be as sure that somebody gains by every loss!“ — and he sighed
heavily.
That night, a poor, well-meaning, but shiftless family,
called Shand, living in a court opening off Penman Row, heard a ring
at the door-bell, and on answering it, found a hamper of Christmas
dainties standing on the doorstep, superscribed with their name.
CHAPTER VII.
OLD-FASHIONED WAYS.
THERE had been a
light fall of snow during the forenoon of Christmas eve, and when
Tom Ollison met Robert Sinclair on the platform of the little Surrey
railway station, and turned with him down the road towards the
village of Stockley, he seemed to himself to have arrived in
fairyland. He did not know what to admire most, the broad,
smooth roads, with liberal grass borders, flanked by beechen hedges
whose red winter leaves fairly glowed in the last warm rays of the
setting sun, or the thickets of trees, the evergreen wealth of giant
pines and stately firs serving to bring out the delicate tracery of
the bare boughs of oak and elm, or again, the houses — dotted here
and there, some small, some roomy, a few new, but mostly old, all
with their thatched eaves or red tiles and the indescribable hues of
moss and creeper — only adding to the charm of the landscape while
giving it human interest. Tom could not find fitting words for
his admiration, nor for the thoughts it awoke in him, though perhaps
their drift may be gathered from his first exclamation.
“I wonder how the people who are born here can ever bear to
go away!”
“I don’t know about that!” said Robert, “for, of course, I
wasn’t born here. But I know I should be glad enough to get
away. It isn’t a place to get on in!”
“Everybody seems very comfortable and well off,” remarked
Tom, glancing to the right and to the left, at the cottages they
were passing, whose muslin-curtained windows and trim interiors, as
visible through casually open doors, represented to him the utmost
of prettiness and comfort.
“Ah, but you don’t know how little many of these people have
to live on; not more than they get with us in Shetland — ay, less,
for there’s nothing here to bring in luck, as the fishings sometimes
do,” persisted Robert.
“They have very pretty houses,” said Tom; “and what a
beautiful country it is!” he added, throwing a wider glance around,
over the stubble fields and quiet woodlands, to the horizon of low
hills, purple against the evening sky, wherein the bright vermilion
was fast fading into cool yellow light, softening off through fairy
green into placid grey.
"What a beautiful country it is!"
“One can’t live on beauty,” returned Robert oracularly.
“But the people here have no ambition; they only want things to be
as they have always been. Many of the families have lived in
the same places, following the same callings, for many generations.
It’s not at all uncommon.”
“Well, I don’t see any particular advantage in change —
unless it is change for the better,” said Tom.
“Mr. Black is only the second of that name at the mill,” went
on Robert; “but that’s only because his father married into it.
His mother was an Alwin, and the Alwins have been the millers at
Stockley since the year one. It's a Saxon name, they say.
I suppose the first Alwin came over in one of the early invasions,
and planted himself down within as short a walk of the seacoast as
he could. It’s a wonder he had the enterprise to get to
England at all.”
“I don’t know that a man need lack enterprise, because when
he comes to a place which he likes he has the good sense to stop
there,” observed Tom.
“Well, I am sure Mr. Black hasn’t any enterprise,”
Robert replied in an aggrieved tone, as if Tom was defending
somebody who had injured him. “He says he doesn’t see what a
man wants with more money than is enough to live on himself, and to
leave his place open and in order for those who are to come after
him.”
Tom thought over this statement in silence. It seemed
to him a very reasonable one, almost like the discovery of a first
principle of true ambition. But it occurred to him presently
that it might be made so subtly to change and enlarge itself as soon
to lose all its original meaning. “What is enough for a man to
live on?” is a question which cannot be answered except one knows
what a man means by “life;” whether he requires only to support his
body, as many are driven to do, or also to nourish his mind and
develop his moral nature, which is the true thrift for nations and
individuals; or, on the other hand, to stunt and starve his morale
and mind, and to pamper his appetite, which work of explosive
destruction can never be done to perfection without the expenditure
of a large fortune. Does a man want to “live” in affluence and
beneficence on his paternal farm, or to “see life” in metropolitan
boulevards and Continental spas? Tom Ollison knew little of
these things, but great questions condense themselves for simple
minds — and he remembered that he had heard his father say that
little Clegga Farm was prosperously upheld on a less income than
served to maintain a certain half-pay captain and his wife, who
lived in furnished rooms in Lerwick, drank the best brandy, and paid
enormous usury on money borrowed to clear off the farther end of a
tail of debt which their career dragged after it. So Tom could
see clearly that this declaration that a man wants only enough to
live on, at once involves the inquiry, “How does a man mean to
live?”
“I shall get away from here as soon as I can get a chance,”
decided Robert.
“I would not be in too great a hurry,” said Tom; “one never
sees the best of anything at first.”
“Oh, don’t you think so?” asked Robert. “I do.
Novelty itself is always a charm.”
Tom was silent. For at that moment, despite his appreciation
of the rich beauty around, his heart craved for the open sea, and
the bare rocks of Scantness. And it seemed to him to have been
almost like treachery to those old haunts to have said that surely
those born among such loveliness as this would never care to leave
it. Ah, those wild and sterile places, like strong and stormy
characters, often win the most clinging love, only made the more
tender because it deprecates the neglect or contempt of an
unappreciative world! Tom waited for the pang to pass, and
then said humbly, — “I always think we like things better as we grow
used to them. One works best with tools to which one is
accustomed.”
“I don’t want to grow used to Stockley,” returned Robert.
“Perhaps I might get mossed over like the rest of the Stockleyites,
if I stayed long enough — though I scarcely think so. But that
is precisely what I don’t mean to do. There will be plenty
ready to jump into my shoes here, but I shan’t mind that, if I get a
chance of giving them up of my own accord. The old folks have
got no children, and I have an idea that I might step into the mill
in time, if I chose. But what is it worth, if I do? If I
can’t do a great deal better than that, well, I don’t think much of
myself, that’s all.”
“Where is the house where your mother was born?” asked Tom.
“Oh, it is none of these,” Robert answered hastily. “It
is at the other end of the village. We shan’t pass it.”
Its tiny proportions did not suit his pride. He wished
it had been left in his imagination, and determined to leave it in
Tom’s. It would be time enough to be frank about the poverty
and lowliness of one’s family when they would serve only as foils to
one’s own riches and grandeur. They might tell against one
before.
To the end of his life, Tom Ollison never forgot the scene
which lay before him, as they turned a corner of the road and came
round upon Stockley Mill. The business premises, a picturesque
conglomeration of brown timber, grey stone, and red brickwork, with
a background of tall pines, stood on that side of the mill-stream
which was accessible from the highroad. Across the stream was
thrown a wooden bridge, wide enough for a chaise, or similar modest
vehicle, but which had evidently been constructed with little view
to any carriage traffic whatever. On that side of the water
there was only a footway, flanked by the beechen hedge which Tom had
seen everywhere in the neighbourhood, and which besides contributing
the beauty of its exquisite colour to the sombre winter landscape,
served by its quality of retaining its withered leaves until its
spring glory was grown, as a perennial screen to the garden behind
it. It was only as the lads advanced across the bridge, that a
gateway set in the hedge opposite it gave a view of the miller’s
habitation — a long, low house, so green with ivy that for the first
moment the unaccustomed Tom could not be quite sure where the walls
ended and the shrubberies began. The last light of the setting
sun was strong upon the mill, but the home was in deep shadow
outside, for within a glowing fire was evidently newly stirred, and
quaint shadows could be seen waving up and down the parlour wall.
Robert opened the gate and let Tom pass in. The garden
was in its winter undress, yet Tom made a quick note of its sleek
lawn, its numerous flowerbeds, its ancient dial, and its thatched
summer-house. But the gate had clanged behind them and given
warning of their approach, so before he had time to utter one note
of admiration, a tall female figure enveloped in a scarlet shawl
appeared in the porch and claimed all his attention. He did
not need to be told she was Mrs. Black. There is something
very amiss in the hospitality of any house, whose mistress needs an
introduction in that character.
Had Tom himself been an old friend of the family, he could
not have found a more hearty welcome. Robert secretly thought
that the Blacks must be very desirous of making themselves agreeable
to him, to be so zealously friendly to his visitor; perhaps they
thought he was not very highly satisfied with his position — indeed
he had given them some reason to think so. Little could he
dream that while he and Tom were absent from the parlour, during the
early hours of Tom’s visit, Mrs. Black had said to her husband, —
“What a fine open face the youth has! I wish we had got this
one instead of the other for our inmate.”
Whereupon Mr. Black had replied, with that resignation of
nature for which Robert contemned him, —
“We must take things as they are sent to us. You get
number one before you get number two, you know, Bessie.”
“You get number one very much indeed when you get Robert
Sinclair,” the wife had answered, with her clear, merry laugh.
“What a woman you are, with your quick likes and dislikes!”
said her husband, looking at her fondly. “If our own children
were with us, I believe you’d have your favourites.”
A swift shadow passed over Mrs. Black’s bright face.
Three little ones had lain in the cradle in that nest of a home,
only to be carried out and planted in God’s acre. And Mrs.
Black’s delicate conscience always smote her that one of these had
been mourned beyond the others. Neighbours would have said
that she had been stricken almost into her own grave by grief for
each fading babe. But she herself knew that there was a
difference: that she had never known the bitterness of death till
she saw her one boy in his coffin. People had said to her
since, that it might be as well when the only son was taken; she
might have spoiled him in her loving pride; but she knew better, she
could have allowed herself to be very angry with him, she was sure.
She might rather have spoiled the girls, feeling that their brother
had defrauded them of a bit of their mother’s heart. Her
husband’s chance words smote a tender place.
“Well,” she said, “I do wish I liked that Robert Sinclair
better, and then I’d give him many a good lecture. He’s had a
right to two or three already. There’s no knowing how much
good they might have done him. Everybody has a right to all
his rights.”
The bountiful table to which Tom found himself invited seemed
a type of things in general at Stockley. Its viands were not
rich or rare, they were only abundant and perfect in their kind; and
Tom could not help casting admiring eyes on the silvery damask, to
which an occasional dainty darn only gave the dignity of antiquity.
He saw that the heavy old cut glass was brought forth from closets
crammed with the same. The low brown walls of the parlour were
well-nigh covered with dim engravings, at many of which collectors
would have looked with some interest. If there were a few
family portraits in oil which were not altogether works of art or
beauty, at least they made manifest that the past generations of
Blacks and Alwins had been well-fed, well-clad, kindly-faced people.
There were corner cupboards with quaintly framed glass doors, and
other cupboards set into the wall with no doors at all, on whose
shelves were stored quantities of old china arranged with less
reference to prettiness, interest, or value than to personal
associations, delicate Oriental bowls alternating with coarse
English pottery. In sundry corners there were little tables,
covered with hyacinth bulbs and fragile ferns, which “the mistress“
was fostering. In one window stood a cage with canaries, and
in the other one with doves. On the hearthrug was a beautiful
beagle, watching with pathetic eyes over two roly-poly pups.
From a shady corner in the little entry came a weird laugh, which
made Tom look around startled, to the general amusement. The
laugh came from a roomy wooden cage, whose inhabitant, a
waggish-looking starling, charmed with his success at directing
attention to himself, gladly repeated his performance.
The table was attended by a comely damsel, who looked the
more like a garden flower that her gown was green and her cap
ribbons pink. From time to time she whispered announcements to
her mistress, to which Mrs. Black evidently responded as soon as the
meal was over, by gathering her shawl about her and leaving the
apartment. Her husband explained that “the mistress had gone
to see after her Christmas gifts — the folk wouldn’t take it kindly
if she didn’t give them a word as well.” Presently the scuffle
of departing footsteps and a few muffled, but cheery, whispers
announced that the recipients were going away well pleased.
Mrs. Black came back with the light of the smiles and thanks she had
evoked shining in her own face.
“There never was such a place for gifts as Stockley,”
remarked Robert. “I do believe so much giving has pauperized
the people.”
“It is not giving that makes paupers,” said Mrs. Black
quickly. “It is giving without personal acquaintance and
liking which does that. Gifts come quite natural between
friends, be they rich or poor. Why should it pauperize Goody
Blake if I give her a shawl and a pound of tea any more than it
would pauperize you, Robert, if I gave you a book?”
She stopped abruptly. She saw that the merry twinkle in
her husband's eye was asking whether there would be much personal
liking on her side in any gift she might bestow on Robert.
“I don't think it is good for people to be so much taken care
of," said the youth. “It would be better for them to take care
of themselves. I believe in self-help."
“For babies?” questioned Mrs. Black. Nearly every one
of us is in some respects a baby as compared with somebody else.
When Martha or me want to move the big chests on the landings, we
shouldn't like it much if Stack said he believed in self-help, and
left us to take care of ourselves."
Martha was the comely servant and Stack was the stout
miller's man.
"Stack is paid to work, and it is his interest to do whatever
you ask him," said Robert Sinclair. “But I don't believe in
the kind of spirit there is down here, everywhere. What is the
good of the cottagers having votes? They all vote with the
squire — their votes are only so many more for him."
“Well,” returned Mrs. Black, “they know the squire, and they
know he's a just man and a perfect gentleman, and they reckon,
rightly enough, that he knows more of Parliament business and
Parliament men than they do, and they'd rather follow him than go
astray. They know the squire's advice is good on matters they
do understand, so why shouldn't they take it where they are not
quite so clear? I know the squire has never asked a vote.”
“He needn't ask them, ma'am,” said Robert with a superior
smile. “He knows he has them without offering that handle to
his adversaries. It's a terrible power for a man to have.”
“It's a good power in a good man's hands," persisted Mrs.
Black, whose husband watched the argument with contented pleasure;
“and the minute it gets into a bad man's hands it begins to shake.
A bad man can't influence people without words and threats, or
bribes, and then that which is best in people goes against him, and
only the weak and mean are on his side. I know power does not
go from rulers the moment they begin to misuse it, but it begins to
go then, though it may seem to increase. Moths don't destroy a
good garment in a week, but they make sure work of it."
“It seems ridiculous to me to see grown-up people made babies
of," said Robert. "Think, Tom, the squire's sister thought the
snowy lanes would look prettier with some bright colours moving
about. So last year, on New Year's Day, she gave all her
pensioners, the old women and the little girls, scarlet cloaks.
I think that was rather too much, even for their meekness.
They wear them as little as they can. The boys call the girls
Madam's robin red-backs.' "
Mrs. Black laughed. “Well,” she said, “I wouldn't have
done just so. I'd have given something plain and useful, and
would have put the coloured cloth into the clothing club, to be
bought out, and would have worn something scarlet myself to set the
fashion. But the squire's sister means well. There's no
denying the red is pretty in winter time.” She twitched her
own shawl. “I got this to keep the dear old goodies in
countenance,” she explained to Tom, “and now I would not exchange it
for any duller colour. I told them all that if they'd heeded
their Bibles they needn't have waited for the squire's sister to
teach them what the wise woman knew in Solomon's time.”
“It seems to me there is a great deal too much of the
squire's sister and the squire,” said Robert. The Blacks had
apparently encouraged him to speak his mind freely, and he saw no
reason to suppress his adverse opinions. “Nobody can build a
house without the squire seeing the plans.”
“That ended in keeping a second public house with a strange
master out of Stockley,” put in Mrs. Black. “The Old Red Lion
is quite enough for the place, and its host knows his guests, and
begins his wisdom where theirs leaves off.”
“It's a terrible power for one man to have,” persisted
Robert. Tom Ollison gave his head an inscrutable little shake.
Mr. Black spoke at last, and what he said was, —
“You can't get power better placed than with a good man.
You may make the best o' laws, and the best o' organisations; but it
all comes down to the man at last. If he's good, they'll do,
and if he ain't, they won't. And if he's good and they're bad,
they won't matter much ; and if he's bad and they're good, they
won't be much account.”
“Then what's to be done if the man is bad?” said Robert.
Mr. Black gave a quiet chuckle. “We must take care that
he isn't," he answered. “Each man has got to look after one
man, and that's himself.”
“That's exactly what I say!” exclaimed Robert, while Tom
remembered that cynical utterance of Mr. Sandison’s which had so
puzzled him on his arrival in Penman Row.
“Take care you’re not misunderstood, John,” warned Mrs.
Black. “Each man has got to look after his own duties and
other folk’s rights,” said the good miller, “and after he’s done
that, honest, for a little while, he’ll find the two fit like hand
and glove. And now hark to the waits! I’ve heard ‘em
every Christmas eve o’ my life. We stick to the old hymns o’
these festivals, though we try a new one sometimes, in the choir o’
Sundays. There’s a time for bringing in new things, and a time
for keeping up old ones; and I remember a verse my father used to
repeat: —
Let us see the old faces
Beam in the old places,
Let us taste the old dishes
And wish the old wishes,
Let us sing the old songs
And forget the old wrongs,
Let us toast the old glories
And tell the old stories,
For half o’ the pleasure o’ all Christmas
days
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