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AMANDA STOTT
I.
HOME
SHE saw from afar
the light of her cottage home, and her heart misgave her. It
was not wrath she feared; for had the relentless anger of a parent
awaited her, her step would have been braver, and her spirit more
defiant. But she knew she was forgiven. The feeble ray
emitted from the lamp in the far-off gable was the beacon of her
forgiveness — the proof that love’s fire still burned brightly.
This it was that daunted her: she feared the scorch of its healing
flame.
She had travelled far, having crossed the moors from Burnt
Gap, climbing the ridge as the heavens began to kiss the earth with
the peace of sunset. A lingering glory was then haunting the
summits and crests and cairn-crowned hills that shut in the quiet of
Rehoboth and forming an almost impassable rampart to those who, from
the farther side, sought its shelter ere the close of day. As
she then lifted her eyes to these many-coloured fires lighted by His
hand who setteth His glory in the heavens, they had seemed to burn
in wrath; while the great moors, dark in the foreground, raised
themselves like barriers — uplands of desolation, across which no
path of hope stretched its trend for returning feet.
As the girl climbed the Scar Foot the western sky was toning
down to grays, while beyond, and seen through an oval-shaped rift in
their sombre colours, lay a distant streak of amber that, moment by
moment, slowly disappeared under the closing lids of evening cloud —
the eye of weary day wooed to slumber by the hush of illimitable
sweeps of moor. Even so would Amanda fain have closed her eyes
and sunk to rest amid the purple clouds of heather that, like a
great sky, lay for miles around her feet.
Passing through Nockcliffe plantation, a half-mile of
woodland that straggled along the steep sides of a clough, a drop of
rain fell between the branches and coursed down her cheek — a cheek
fevered from want of tears, and flaming with a sense of shame.
Then a low wind blew — a mere sob, but so preludious, so prophetic!
— followed by a silence that discovered, as never before, the sense
of her own loneliness, and in which she heard the tread of her own
light foot-fall over the moss and herbage of the path she travelled.
Emerging from the plantation, an angry gust, laden with cold
drops, dashed itself in her face, and she knew from the weather-lore
which she, as a child of the hills, had learned in past years, that
a wild night was between her and the house whose shelter she sought
in her despair.
Phenomenally rapid was the onrush of the storm. At
first the rain fell in short and sudden showers, driven from angry
clouds eager for some atmospheric change whereby to be relieved of
their pent-up burden. Then the wind, as though in answer to
the prayer of the clouds, changed its course and stilled its
moaning, and the sky ‘wept its watery vapours to the ground.’
When Amanda stood upon the fringe of the great moss that
stretched for three miles between the Scars and Rehoboth her spirit
sank within her. The season had been dry, and she knew the
path by instinct; but the storm and the darkness seemed like twin
enemies determined to bar her advance. She felt that Nature
was her foe, even as man had been, and as Rehoboth would be when it
knew of her return. Why did the rain hiss, and dash its cold
and stinging showers in her face? Why did it saturate her thin
skirts so that they, in chill folds, wrapped her wasted frame and
clung cruelly to her weary limbs to stay her onward travel?
And why that strange, weird sound — the sound muttered by miles of
herbage when beaten down by rain — the swish and patter and sigh of
the long grass and of the bracken, as they bent beneath the
continuous fall, and rose in angry protest, to fling off their
burden on each other, or shake it to the ground? Then a mute
sympathy sprang up in her desolate heart as she grew incorporate
into this storm-swept, helpless vegetation, and she felt that she,
too, like it, was the helpless prey of angry forces.
The moss traversed, the twinkling lights of Rehoboth broke
the darkness. Yes, the old chapel was illuminated, the windows
of that rude structure glowing with warmth and life; and as she
passed the graveyard a hymn, only too well known to her in the happy
days of the past, reached her ears. Once this had been her
sanctuary, a shelter, a home, where as a happy girl she had sung
that very strain — then a house of prayer, now a temple of judgment.
And she grew rebellious as she saw in her mind the hard faces of its
worshippers, and realized that nothing unholy or unclean must enter
there. The native instinct, however, was too strong; and
passing through the gate, and stealthily crossing the sea of graves,
she paused to peep through the window, and, unobserved, took in the
scene. The old faces — Enoch, and Abraham, and Moses Fletcher,
and Malachi o’ th’ Mount, and Simon o’ Long John’s. Yes, the
old faces as she knew them five years ago — the old faces, all save
one. Where was the saintly Mr. Morell? In his place sat
a young man whom she knew not.
Hastening on, she climbed Pinner Brow, on the summit of which
lay her home. As she scaled the height the beacon in her
mother’s gable told she was not forgotten. Then it was she
trembled. A rebuke — a curse — a refusal; these she could
face. But forgiveness — welcome — love — never!
She turned to fly.
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‘Amanda!’
‘Mother!’
The great, good God had ordained that the despairing girl
should fly into the arms of the one who had not forgotten, and who
felt she had nothing to forgive. Amanda found herself in the
stillest and strongest of all havens — the haven of a mother’s
breast.
In another moment Amanda permitted her mother to lead her as
that mother had been wont to lead her when the warm, strong hand of
the parent was a guiding touch — a magnet of love amid the dangers
of an early life — and when, as now, there was but one shelter of
safety — the home.
No sooner did the two women stand in the light and warmth of
the kitchen-hearth, than the elder fell on the neck of the younger,
and kissed the cold, rain-washed face of her child, with a love
grown fierce by years of hopeless hope and unrequited longing.
Once again those arms, thin and weak with age, grew strong; and in
the resurrection of a mighty passion, all the old womanhood and
motherhood of the parent renewed their youth, and filled out the
shrunken and decrepit form until she stood majestic in the strength
of heaven. To those who had been wont to see Amanda’s mother
bent and crushed with years and sorrow, the woman that now stood in
the firelight would not have been recognised as Mrs. Stott.
Once the fairest and most lithesome girl in Rehoboth, the pride of
the village, the sought of many suitors, the proud wife of Sam Stott
of th’ Clowes, and the still prouder mother of Amanda, who matched
her alike in beauty and in sprightliness, she had long been a prey
to the sling and arrows of outrageous fortune. Years had
played sad havoc with her, her money taking wings, her husband
dying, and her last hope failing in the hour of need. Now she
was herself again under the renewing hand of love.
As soon as Amanda recovered from the shock of her mother’s
appearance, and felt the warmth of her welcome, she gently, yet
determinately, released herself and cried:
‘Durnd, mother, durnd! I’m noan come wom’ to be kissed
nor forgiven. I’ve nobbud come wom’ to dee.’
‘What saysto, lass?’ exclaimed Mrs. Stott. ‘Come wom’
to dee? Nay, thaa’s bin deead long enugh a’ready; it’s time
thaa begun to live, and thank God thaa’s come back to live at wom’.’
The girl shook her head, a stony stare in her eye, her mouth
drawn into a hard and immobile line. And then, in cold tones,
she continued:
‘Nay, mother; I’ve hed enugh o’ life. I tell thee I've
come wom’ to dee.’
‘Amanda,’ sobbed the mother, ‘if thaa taks on like that
thaa’ll kill me. Thaa’s welly done for me a’ready, but I con
live naa thaa’s come back, if thaa’ll nobbud live an’ o’, and live
wi’ me. Sit thee daan. There’s th’ owd cheer (chair)
waiting for thee. It’s thi cheer, Amanda; awlus wor, and awlus
will be. Sit thee daan. It looks some onely (lonely)
baat thee.’
There stood Amanda’s chair, the chair of her girlhood, the
chair in which she had sung through the long winter nights, in which
her deft fingers had wrought needlework, the envy of Rehoboth.
The old arms mutely opened as though to welcome her; the rockers,
too, seemed ready to yield that oscillation so seductive to the
jaded frame. And the trimmings! and the cushion! the same old
pattern, somewhat faded, perhaps, but as warm and cosy as in the
days of yore. It was the chair, too, at which she used to
kneel, the chair that had so often caught the warm breath from her
lips as she had whispered, ‘Our Father, which art in heaven.’
But had she not forfeited her right to that chair? Of that
throne of sanctity she felt she was now no longer queen. And
again, as her mother pressed her to take her appointed place, she
shook her head, her heart steeled with pride and shame, the hardest
of all bonds to break when imprisoning a human soul.
The poor mother stood at bay — at cruel bay. She had
used the mightiest weapon upon which she could lay her hand, and it
had seemed to shiver in the conflict. But love’s armoury is
not easily depleted, and love’s spirit is quick to return to the
charge. There was still left to her the warmth of a bosom in
which long years before Amanda had gently stirred, and from which
she had drawn her first currents of life; and once more the mother
clasped her girl, and pressed her lips on the sin-stained face.
‘Durnd kiss me, mother,’ cried the affrighted girl, stepping
back; ‘durnd kiss me. Thaa munnot dirty thy lips wi’ touchin'
mine. If thaa knew all, thaa’d spurn me more like.’
’Manda,’ replied the woman, in the desperation of her love,
‘I’ll kiss thee if thaa kills me for’t. I connot help it;
thaa’rt mine.’
‘I wor once, I wor once, but nod now.’
‘Yi! lass, but thaa art. Thaa wor mine afore th' devil
geet howd on thee, and thaa’s bin mine all th' time he’s hed thee,
and now he’s done wi’ thee, I mean to keep thee all to mysel.’
And afresh the mother bathed the still beautiful face of
Amanda with her tears.
But Amanda was firm. Old as her mother was, she knew
that mother’s innocence, and shrank from the thought that one so
pure, so womanly, should hang on those lips so sorely blistered by
the breath of sin; and, once more stretching out her arm, she said:
‘Durnd touch me, mother — durnd!’
‘Manda,’ cried the mother, defiantly and grandly, all the
passion of maternity rising in her heart, ‘Manda, thaa cornd
unmother me. I carried thee and suckled thee and taught thee
thi prayers in that cheer, and doesn’d ta think as Him we co’d “Aar
Faither” is aar Faither still?’
‘Happen He’s yours, mother; but He’s noan o’ mine.’
‘Well, ’Manda, if thaa’rt noan His child, thaa’rt mine, and
naught shall come ’tween me and thee.’
‘And dun yo’ mean to say that yo’ love me as mich naa,
mother, as when aw wor a little un?’ asked the girl, her steely eyes
moistening, and the firm line of her drawn mouth tremulous with
rising emotion.
‘Yi, lass, and a thaasand times more. Thaa wants more
luv’ naa nor then — doesn’t ta? And hoo’s a poor mother as
connot give more when more’s wanted. I’m like th’ owd well up
th' hill yonder — th’ bigger th’ druft (drought) th’ stronger th’
flow. Thi mother’s heart’s noan dry, lass, tho’ thi thirst’s
gone; and I’ll luv’ thee though thaa splashes mi luv’ back in mi
face, and spills it on th’ graand.’
And a third time the woman fell on the girl’s neck, and
kissed her flesh into flame with the passion of her caress.
‘Durnd, mother! durnd!’ said Amanda.
‘Blame me, if yo’ like; curse me, if yo’ like. But luv’
I connot ston’; it drives me mad.’
‘Nay, lass; luv’ noan drives folk mad. It’s sin as does
that. As Mr. Penrose towd ’em at Rehoboth t’other Sunday, it
were luv’ as saved th’ world, and not wrath; and they say they are
baan to bring him up at th' deacons’ meeting abaat it. But
he’s reet. It’s luv’ as saves. It’s saved thee to me;
it’s kept mi heart warm, and it's kept that lamp leeted every neet
for five year. And then, seeing tears slowly stealing down her
daughter’s face, the old woman said: ‘I think we mud as weel put th'
leet aat naa thaa’s comed wom’, ’Manda?’ and as the girl gave no
more evidence of resistance, the mother went to the window, turned
down the; lamp, and drew the blind, saying, ‘He’s answered mi
prayers.’
At the going out of that light there went out in Amanda's
heart the false fires of lust and pride and defiance, and in their
place was kindled the light of repentance — of forgiveness and of
love. For five years that faithfully-trimmed lamp told the
whole countryside that Widow Stott was not forgetful of her own; and
when once or twice rebuked by some of the Rehoboth deacons at the
premium which she seemed to put on sin by thus inviting a wanderer’s
return, she always replied:
‘Blame Him as mak’s a woman so as hoo cornd forget her
child.‘
Now that the lamp was out a flutter of excitement was passing
through the village, Milly Lord being the first to discover it.
She, poor girl! was sitting at her little window listening to the
beat of the rain, and the swish of the grasses that grew in her
garden below — sitting and wondering how it was there were no ‘angel
een’ looking down at the earth, and keeping her eye fixed on the
gable light of Mrs. Stott’s lone homestead. Suddenly this
light disappeared. If the sun had gone out at noonday Milly
would not have been more startled. Night after night she had
watched that light, and night after night she had heard her mother
tell the oft-repeated story of Amanda‘s fall. Once, indeed,
Milly startled her mother in its repetition by saying:
‘Happen, if I hadn’t lost mi leg, mother, I should ha‘ sinned
as Amanda did.‘
And then Milly’s mother drew the girl close to her heart, and
thanked God for a lamb safe in the fold. No wonder when Milly
saw the light go out that she cried:
‘Mother! mother! Amanda Stott’s come wom’!’
‘Whatever will hoo say next?’ gasped Mrs. Lord.
‘I tell yo’ Amanda’s come wom’. Th’ leet’s aat — thaa
con see for thisel!’ and the girl was beside herself with
excitement.
‘So it is,’ said Mrs. Lord. ‘Bud it’s noan Amanda; it’s
happen her mother as is takken bad. Awl put o' mi things, and
run up and see.‘
Hurrying up the Pinner Brow, it was not long before Mrs. Lord
reached the home of Amanda, and raising the latch, with the
permission which rural friendship grants, she saw the daughter and
mother together on the so long lonely hearth. Taken aback, and
scarcely knowing how to remove the restraint which the sudden
interruption was imposing, she fell upon the instinct of her heart,
and said:
‘Well, I never! if our Milly isn't reet! Hoo said as
how hoo know’d Amanda hed come back. Hoo seed th’ leet go aat
and co’d aat at th’ top o’ her voice, “Amanda’s come back.”
Hoo remembers thee, Amanda, an' hoo’s never stop’t talkin’ abaat
thee. Tha’rt eight year owder nor hoo is — poor lass! hoo’s
lost her leg sin’ thaa seed her. It wor a bad do, aw con tell
thee; but hoo’s as lively as a cricket, bless her! and often talks
abaat thee, and wonders where thaa’d getten to. Let’s see,
lass, it’s five years sin thaa left us, isn’t it?’ And then,
remembering the whole story of Amanda, which in her excitement she
had forgotten, and the great trouble and the great joy which that
night fought for supremacy in the little moorland home, she stopped,
and with a tear-streamed face rushed up to Amanda, and said: ‘What
am I talkin’ abaat, lass? I’d clean forgetten,’ and then she,
too, imprinted on Amanda’s lips a caress of welcome.
It was late that night when Milly asked her father to go up
Pinner Brow and fetch her mother home. When he reached the
house he found the two women and the girl upon their knees, for
Milly’s mother was a good woman, and to her goodness was added a
mother’s heart. Her own sorrow had taught her to weep with
those who weep, and a great trial through which she had passed in
her girlhood days, and through which she had passed scathless, led
her to look on Amanda with pitying love. Abraham paused upon
the threshold as he heard the sound of his wife’s voice in prayer,
and when, half an hour afterwards, they together descended the brow
towards their home, he said:
‘Thaa sees, lass, Milly’s angel een wor on th' watch a’ter
all.’
‘Yi,’ said his wife, ‘and they see’d a returnin’ sinner.
But hoo’s safe naa; hoo’s getten back to her mother, and hoo’s
getten back to God.’
‘Where hes hoo bin, missus, thinksto?’
‘Nay, lad, I never ax’d her. I know where hoo’s getten
to, and that’s enugh. I’m noan one for sperrin (asking
questions) baat th’ past.’
‘But they’ll be wantin’ to know up at th’ chapel where hoo’s
bin.’
‘They'll happen do more good by doin’ by Amanda as th’
Almeety does.’
‘Doesto mean i’ His judgments?
‘Nowe! theer’s summat more wonderful nor them.’
‘What doesto mean ?’
‘I mean His FORGEETFULNESS.’
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II.
LIGHT AT EVENTIDE
WHILE Amanda’s
return aroused the curiosity of Rehoboth, it drew few callers to the
cottage on Pinner’s Brow. Not that the villagers were all wanting in
kindliness, but Amanda's mother, being a woman of strong reserve,
had fenced herself off from much friendly approach; while the nature
of the trouble through which she was now passing was felt by the
rude moorlanders to impose silence, and deter them from all open
signs of sympathy.
Apart from Mrs. Lord and a girl friend or two of Amanda’s, the joy
of return was pent up in the heart of the mother — a joy which she,
poor thing, would fain have sought to share with others had not
delicacy of instinct and sense of shame forbade. She felt it to be
indeed hard that she could not go among her neighbours and friends
and say, ‘Rejoice with me, for I have found my child which was
lost.’
But the mother’s joy was also mixed with the alloy of Amanda’s
despair. On the day after the return, the girl had taken to her bed;
and despite a mother’s love and Mrs. Lord’s kind counsel and cheery
words, Amanda went down into the valley of the shadow. Seldom
speaking, save to reiterate the statement that she had come home to
die, and that all was dark, she lay anticipating the hour when, as
she said, ‘the great God would punish her according to her sins.’ This idea had taken fast hold of her mind: she was going to hell to
burn for ever and for ever, and she would only get her deserts; she
had sinned — she must suffer.
With the strain of constant watching, and the long hours of
solitude, and the nightmare of her girl’s damnation hanging over her
yearning heart, the poor mother’s condition verged on madness, until
at last she summoned courage to ask Mr. Penrose to call and drop
some crumbs of his Gospel of comfort and love at the bedside of her
child; for, as she said to Mrs. Lord, ‘even the dogs eat of the
crumbs that fall from the master’s table.’ The truth was that
hitherto Mr. Penrose had not cared to risk the scandal which he knew
would be created in the village by a visit on his part to Amanda
Stott. When, however, he received his summons from the mother, and a
sharp reprimand from Dr. Hale, who told him that a minister was as
free to visit without risk to his character as a doctor, he resolved
to throw aside proprieties and obey the call.
As Mr. Penrose was walking up Pinner Brow, towards the house of Mrs.
Stott, he unexpectedly met Amos Entwistle, the senior superintendent
of the Sunday-school, and known to the children as ‘Owd Catechism’
because of his persistent enforcement of the Church tenets on their
young minds.
‘Good a’ternoon, Mr. Penrose. And what may bring yo’ in this
direction?’
‘I’m looking after some of my sheep, Amos.’
‘Not th’ black uns, I hope.’
‘No! I am looking after the hundredth — the one that went astray.’
‘Better leave her alone, Mr. Penrose. There’s an owd sayin’ i’ these
parts that yo' cornd go into th’ mill baat gettin’ dusted. That
means in yur talk that yo’ cornd touch pitch baat gettin’ blacked.
If thaa goes to Mrs. Stott’s they’ll say thaart goan for naught
good. If thaa wur a married mon, naa, and hed childer, it ’ud happen
be different; but bein’ single, thaa sees, th’ aatside o’ yon
threshold is th’ reight side for such as thee and me.’
(Amos, be it known, was an old bachelor of over seventy years of
age.)
‘Nonsense, Amos; you are reversing the teaching of the Master. He
went after the sinner, did He not?’
‘Yi, He did; and He lost His repetation o’er it. They co’d Him a
winebibber, and a friend o’ all maks o’ bad uns. I couldn’t like ’em
to say th’ same abaat thee. Rehoboth ’ud noan ston’ it, thaa knows.’
Mr. Penrose did not know whether to laugh or to be serious. Seeing,
however, that Amos was in no laughing mood, he turned somewhat
sharply on the old man, and said:
‘The Stotts are in trouble, and they ask for my presence. Good-afternoon; I’m going.’
‘Howd on a bit,’ said Amos, still holding the minister by the lapel
of his coat. ‘Naa listen to me. If I were yo’ I wouldn’t go. Th’
lass hes made her bed; let her lie on’t. Durnd yo’ risk yor
repetation by makkin’ it yasier, or by takkin’ ony o’ th’ thorns
aat o’ her pillow. Rehoboth Church is praad o’ her sheep; and it
keeps th’ black uns aatside th’ fold, and yo’ll nobbud ged blacked
yorsel if yo’ meddle wi’ ’em. But young colts ’ll goa their own
gait, so pleeas yorsel.’
At first Mr. Penrose was inclined to think twice over the old
Pharisee’s advice; but, looking round, he saw Mrs. Stott’s sad face
in her cottage doorway, and her look determined his advance. In a
moment reputation and propriety were forgotten in what he felt were
the claims of a mother’s heart and the sufferings of an erring soul.
‘Ay, Mr. Penrose, I’m some fain to see yo’,’ cried the poor woman,
as the minister walked up the garden-path. ‘Amanda’s baan fast, and
hoo sez ’at it’s all dark.’ And then, seizing Mr. Penrose’s hand,
she cried: ‘Yo’ durnd think hoo’s damned, dun yo’?’
For years the sound of that mother’s voice as she uttered those
words haunted Mr. Penrose. He heard it in the stillness of the
night, and in the quiet of his study; it came floating on the winds
as he walked the fields and moors; and would sound in mockery as he,
from time to time, declared a Father’s love from the old pulpit at
Rehoboth. What cruel creed was this, prompting a mother to believe
that God would damn the child whom she herself was forced, out of
the fullness of her undying love, to take back into her house and
into her heart?
As the minister and Mrs. Stott sat down in the kitchen, the poor
woman, in the depths of her despair, again raised her eager face and
asked:
‘But yo’ durnd think Amanda’s damned, dun yo’?’
‘No, I do not, Mrs. Stott.’
This was too much for the mother; and now that the highest passions
in her soul received the affirmative of one whom she looked up to as
the prophet of God, she felt her girl was safe. The fire of despair
died out of her eyes, quenched in the tears of joy, and she
realized, as never before, that she could now love God because God
had spared to her, and to Himself, her only child.
‘But, Mr. Penrose, Amanda says it’s all dark. Dun yo’ think
yo’ could lift th’ claads a bit?’
‘Well, we’ll do our best; but to the One who loves her the darkness
and the light are both alike.’
And with these words on his lips, he followed the mother to where
the sick girl lay.
Mr. Penrose had often heard of Amanda Stott, and of that face of
hers which had been both her glory and her shame. Now, as he looked
upon it for the first time, he saw, as in a glass, the reflection of
a character and a life. There was the gold and the clay. The brow
and eyes were finely shaped and lustrous, giving to the upper half
of the face grandeur and repose, but the mouth and chin fell off
into a coarser mould, and told of a spirit other than that so nobly
framed under the rich masses of her dark hair. It was a face with a
fascination — not the fascination of evil, but of struggle — a face
betraying battle between forces pretty evenly balanced in the soul. But there was victory on it. Mr. Penrose saw it, read it, understood
it. There were still traces of the scorching fire; these, however,
were yielding to the verdure of a new life; the garden, which had
been turned into a wilderness, was again blossoming as the rose.
‘Amanda, here’s Mr. Penrose to see thee. I’ve bin tellin’ him it’s
all dark to thee. It is, isn’t it?’
But Amanda turned her head towards the wall, and answered not.
‘Amanda!’ said the mother, in tones that only once or twice, and
that in the great crises of maternity, fall from woman’s lips —
‘Amanda, speyk. Tell him what’s botherin' thee.’
But the girl was silent.
Mr. Penrose was silent also, and nothing was heard in the room save
the tremulous beat of an old watch that hung over the chimney-shelf
— one of the memorials of a husband and father long since taken, and
now almost forgotten.
At last Amanda, without turning her face towards the pastor, said:
‘Sir, I’m a sinner — a lost sinner.’
‘No, you are not,’ replied Mr. Penrose. And overawed and astonished
with the boldness of his statement, he relapsed into silence.
Amanda turned and looked at him clearly and unflinchingly, and
cried:
‘How dare yo’ say that?’
‘Because you’ve repented’ was the quiet reply.
‘Haa do yo’ know I’ve repented?’
‘Because repentance is to come home; and you’ve come home, have you
not?’
‘Repentance is to come wom’?’ slowly repeated the girl, as though
some ray of light was penetrating the darkness. ‘Repentance is to
come wom’, sen yo’?’
‘Yes.’
And then Mr. Penrose repeated the words:
‘And he arose and came to his home; and when he was a great way of?
his father saw him and ran, and fell on his neck and kissed him.’
‘Aw dare say; that’s what mi mother did to me on th’ neet I come
wom’. But mi mother’s noan God, is hoo?’
‘No; but if you had had no God, you could not have had a mother. You
tell me your mother kissed you. Did you not feel God’s kiss in that
which your mother gave
you?’
The girl shook her head; the pastor needed to make his message more
plain.
‘It’s in this way, you know,’ continued Mr. Penrose. ‘If there were
no rain in the heavens there would be no springs in the valleys,
would there? The well is filled because the clouds send down their
showers; and so it is with love. Your mother’s heart is full of love
because God, who Himself is love, fills it. Your mother stands to you
for God, and she is most like God when she is doing most for you;
and when she kissed you and took you back again home, she was only
doing what God made her do, and what God did Himself to you through
her.’
‘But theer’s summat else beside forgiveness, Mr. Penrose. I feel
I’ve lost summat as I con never ged agen. I know I’ve getten back
wom’, but I haven’t getten back what awv’ lost.’
‘You may have it back, though, if it’s worth having back. There was
One who came to seek that which was lost. You are like the Woman who
lost one of her pieces of silver; but she found it again, and what
you have lost Jesus will find and restore to you.’
‘But theer’s th’ past, Mr. Penrose, as well as th’ lost. It’s all theer afore me. Aw see it as plain as aw see yon moors through th’
window, only it’s noan green and breet wi’ sunshine — it’s dark.’
‘If God forgets the past, Amanda, why should you recall it? Look out
through that window again. There’s a cloud just dying away on the
horizon yonder. Do you see it? It is changing its colour and losing
its shape, and in a moment it will be gone. Watch it! It is almost
gone. See! now it is gone — gone where? Gone into the light of that
sun which is making the moors so green and bright. Now that is what
God is doing with your past — with what you call your sins —
blotting them out like a cloud. It is God’s mercy that stands like
the everlasting hills, and it is our sinfulness and our past that
pass away like clouds. As you look at those hills you must think of
His mercy, and as you watch those vanishing clouds you must think of
your past.’
Once more there was silence in the sick-chamber, and the little
watch ran its race with the beating, flickering pulse of Amanda. The
girl turned her face towards the window that overlooked the moors,
and begged her mother to open it so that she might again feel the
cool airs that swept across their heathery wastes.
Mrs. Stott at once unhasped the casement, and a tide of life came
stealing in, noiselessly lifting the curtains, and cooling the
hectic flame that glowed on Amanda’s wasted cheeks, and bearing,
too, on its waves fragrances that recalled a long-lost paradise, and
sounds — the echo of days when no discordant note marred the music
of her life. These moorland breezes — how redolent, how murmurous of
what had been! In a few moments Amanda closed her eyes, the wind
caressing her into peacefulness and singing her to slumber.
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It was the hour before dawn ― the dark hour when minutes walk with
leaden feet and the departing vapours of night lay chilliest finger
on the sick and dying, and on those who watch at their side. From
the mantelshelf the lamp emitted its feeble rays, dimly lighting the
lonely chamber, and holding, as with uncertain hand, the shadows
which crowded and cowered in the distant corners and recesses of the
room, and throwing into Rembrandtesque the pallid face of the
wakeful mother, and the flushed and fevered face of the slumbering
child. The little watch beat bravely to the march of time, eager to
keep pace with that never-flagging runner; while the quick and
feeble breathing of the girl told how she was fast losing in the
race with the all-omnipotent hours. On a small table stood two
phials, in which were imprisoned dull-coloured liquids, powerless,
despite their supposed potency, to stay the hunger of the disease so
rapidly consuming the patient; and by their side was a plate of
shrivelled fruit, the departing lusciousness of which had failed to
tempt an appetite in her whose mouth was baked with the fever that
fed on its own flame. There, gathered into a few cubic feet of
space, met the great triune mystery of night, of suffering, of sin —
the unfathomable problems of the universe; there God, the soul, and
destiny, together and in silence, played out their terribly real
parts.
As Mrs. Stott looked at her daughter tossing in restless sleep, the
natal hour came back to her, and in memory she again travailed in
birth. She recalled the joy of the advent of that life now so fast
departing, and tried to say, ‘The Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken
away; blessed be the name of the Lord.’ The words died on her lips.
Had it been a blessed thing on the part of God to give to her a
child who brought disgrace on her family name? And now that her
child was restored, with a possibility of redeeming the past, was it
a blessed thing of God to take her? As these hideous thoughts chased
one another through her overwrought mind, they seemed to embody
themselves in the terrible shadows that leapt and fought like demons
on the wall, mere mockeries of her helplessness and despair.
Her eye, however, fell on the Bible, and taking it up and opening it
at random, she read, ‘Remember, O Lord, the children of Edom in the
day of Jerusalem. O daughter of Babylon, Who art to be destroyed,
happy shall he be that taketh and dasheth thy little ones against
the stones.’ Hurriedly turning over the leaves, her eyes again fell
upon words that went like goads into her heart: ‘Let the stars of
the twilight thereof be dark; let it look for light but have none;
neither let it see the dawning of the day, because it shut not up
the doors of my mother’s womb.’
‘What!’ cried she, the old Calvinist life reasserting itself in her
soul — ‘what! have the curses o’ God getten howd o’ me?’
‘Mother!’
It was the voice of Amanda, and its sound called back the ebbing
tides of maternity as the clear notes of a bugle rally the
dispirited and flying forces on an undecided field.
‘Mother, will yo' draw that blind?’
‘What doesto want th' blind drawin’ for, Amanda?’
‘I want to see th’ morn break.’
‘Whatever for, lass?’ asked Mrs. Stott, as she drew the cord with
tremulous hand.
For a few minutes the girl looked out at the distant horizon with a
breaking light in her own eyes. Then, taking her rnother’s hand, she
said:
‘Dun yo’ see that rim o’ gowd (gold) on the hills yonder?’
‘Yi, lass; forsure I do. What abaat it?’
‘Watch it, mother! See yo’, it geds broder — more like a ribbin — a
brode, yollow ribbin, like that aw wore i' mi hat when I were a
little lass. Yo’ remember, durnd yo’? — I wore it one charity
sarmons.’
‘Aw remember, Amanda’ said the parent, choking with the
reminiscences of the past which the old hat and its yellow ribbon
aroused. ‘Naa see, mother,’ continued the girl, her eye fixed on the
opening sky; ‘it’s like a great sea — a sea o’ buttercups, same as
used to grow in owd Whittam’s field when yo’ couldn’t see grass for
flaars.’
‘Yi, lass, I see,’ sobbed Mrs. Stott.
‘And thoose claads, mother! See yo’ haa they’re goin’. And th’ hills
and moors? Why I con see them plainer and plainer! Haa grond they
are! They’re awlus theer. Them, Mr. Penrose said, stood for God’s
love, didn’t he, mother? — and them claads as are lifting for my
sins.’
‘Yi, lass; he did, forsure.’
The dawn advanced, and before its majestic march there fled the
shadows of night that for such long hours had made earth desolate.
In the light of this dawn were seen those infinite lines of strength
which rose from broad and massive bases, and, sweeping upwards, told
of illimitable tracts beyond — mighty waves on the surface of the
world’s great inland seas, on whose crests sat the green and purple
foam of herbage, and in whose hollows lay the still life of home and
pasture. Silent, changeless, secure, perpetual sublimity rested on
their summits, and unbroken repose lay along their graceful sweeps. They were the joy-bearers to the poor child of sorrow, who with
eager eye looked out on their morning revelations. To her the
mountains had brought peace.
That day was a new day to Amanda — a birthday — a day in which she
realized the all-embracing strength and sufficiency of a Divine
love. As the hours advanced the clouds gathered and showers fell,
only, however, to be swept away by the wind, or dissolved into the
light of the sun. These ever-changing, ever-dissolving,
many-coloured vapours were watched by Amanda, who now saw in them
the fleeting and perishable sins of her past life, and again and
again, as one followed the other into oblivion, she would breathe a
sigh of relief, and then allow her eyes to rest on the great hills
that changed not, and which seemed to build her in with their
strength.
From that day forward a great trust came upon her. She ceased to
fret, and never again recalled what had been. Just as the chill of
winter is forgotten in the glory of the springtide, and just as the
child in the posied meadow sports in unconsciousness of the nipping
frost that a few weeks before forced the tears to his eyes, so
Amanda, playful, gladsome, and full of wonder in the new world in
which she found herself, knew no more her old self, nor remembered
any more her old life. The day had broken and the shadows flown, and
God’s child was like a young hart on the mountains of Bether.
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‘Mother, dun yo’ think they’d put my name on th’ Church register
agen at Rehoboth?’
‘I cornd say, mi lass, I’m sure. But why doesto ax me?’
‘Becose I should like to dee a member of th’ owd place. Yo’ know I
were a member once. Sin’ I’ve been lyin’ here I’ve had some strange
thoughts. Dun yo’ know, I never belonged to God then as I do naa,
for all I were baptized and a communicant. It’s queer, isn’t it?’
‘Ey, lass; thaa’d better tell that to Mr. Penrose. I know naught abaat what yo’re talkin’ on. Bud it does seem, as thaa ses, quare
that thaa belongs more to God naa nor thaa did when thaa went away.’
‘Nay, mother, it’s noan exactly as yo’ put it. I durnd mean as God’s
changed; it’s me as has changed, durnd yo’ see? I never knew or
loved Him afore, and I know and love Him naa.’
That afternoon, when Mr. Penrose called, Amanda’s mother told him
all her daughter had said, and made known to him as the pastor of
the Church the request for readmission and the administration of the
sacrament.
Mr. Penrose, however, shook his head. As far as he was concerned, no
one would have been more willing. But the deacons ruled his Church,
and many of them were hard and exacting men — men with the eye and
heart of Simon of old, who, while they would welcome Christ to meat,
would put the ban upon ‘the woman who was a sinner.’ Nor dared Mr.
Penrose administer the sacrament to one whose membership was not
assured, for he ministered to those of a close sect, and a close
sect of the straightest order. As the mother pleaded for her child,
he saw rising before him a difficulty of which he had often dreamed,
but never before faced — a difficulty of ministering to a Church
fenced in by deeds, the letter of which he could not in his inner
conscience accept.
The mother was importunate, however, and eventually the pastor
promised to bring the matter before his deacons.
What the decision of these deacons was will be told in another Idyll
of Rehoboth.
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III.
THE COURT OF SOULS.
‘I’M noan for
bringin’ th’ lass back into th’ Church. Hoo’s noan o’er modest, or
hoo would never ax us to tak’ her back.’
‘Same here, Amos! What does hoo want amang dacent Christian fo’k?’ And so saying, Elias Bradshaw opened a large pocket-knife and closed
it again with a sharp click, and then toyed with it in his hand.
‘It wur bad enugh for th’ owd woman to tak’ her back wom’, but if we
tak’ her back into th’ Church we’s be a thaasand times wur,’
continued Amos.
‘But surely,’ pleaded Mr. Penrose, ‘if the angels welcome a
returning sinner, might we not venture to do the same?’
‘We’re noan angels yet, Mr, Penrose,’ replied Amos. ‘It’ll be time enugh to do as th’ angels do when we live as th’ angels live; an’ I
raither think as yo’d clam if yo’ were put o’ angels’ meat. Ony
road, ye con try it if yo’ like; it’ll save us summat i' th’
offertory if yo’ do.’
‘Come, Amos, thaa’s goin’ a bit too fur,’ interrupted Abraham Lord.
‘If yo’re baan to insult th’ parson, yo’ve no need to insult them as
is up aboon — “ministerin’ sperits,” as th’ apostle cos em.’
‘We know thaa’rt no angel, Amos, baat thi tellin’ us,’ said Malachi
o’ th' Mount. ‘And if ever they shap thee into one thaa’ll tak' some
tentin!’ (minding).
‘I durnd know as I want to be one afore mi time, Malachi: an’ I’m
noan baan to do as they do till I ged amang ’em. I’d as soon pool a
warp ony day as play a harp; but when th’ Almeety skifts me fro’ th’
Brig Factory to heaven, mebbe I'll shap as weel at a bit o’ music as
ony on yo’.’
‘Wilto play thi music o’er sich as Amanda, thinksto?’ asked old
Malachi.
‘Thee mind thi business, Malachi. When th’ Almeety maks me an angel,
I’ll do as th’
angels do. But noan afore, noather for yo’, nor Amanda Stott, nor
Mr. Penrose, nor onybody else, so naa thaa knows.’
‘Spokken like a mon,’ assented Elias Bradshaw. ‘Stick to thi text,
Amos.’
‘And yet, after all,’ said Dr. Hale, ‘I think we ought to receive
Amanda back again into our communion. The only One who ever forgave
sins drew no line as to their number, nor shade as to their degree.’
‘But durnd yo’ think, doctor, that if we do as yo' want us we’s be
turnin’ th’ Church into a shoddy hoile?’ asked Elias Bradshaw.
‘There are no shoddy souls,’ said the doctor.
‘No,’ continued Mr. Penrose; ‘it was not shoddy that Christ came to
seek and save.’
‘Who wur it said th’ gate were strait and th' road narro’?’ cried
out an old man who was always known by the name of ‘Clogs.’
‘That’s no reason why yo’ should want to turn th’ gate into a
steele-hoile (stile), is it?’ retorted Malachi.
‘Gate or steele-hoile, it’s narro’; and that’s enugh for me, an’ it
were noan us ut made it narro’; it wur th’ Almeety Hissel’,’ replied
Clogs.
‘At any rate, He made it wide enough for Amanda,’ said Dr. Hale,
‘and that is the matter we are now considering.’
‘I’m noan so sure o’ that, doctor. There’s a good bit o’ Scripter agen yo’ if yo' come to texes.’
‘Then so much the worse for Scripture,’ was the unguarded, yet
honest, retort of Mr. Penrose; and Dr. Hale laid a kind hand on the
young minister’s shoulder to restrain his haste.
‘It seems to me,’
said Elias Bradshaw, ‘as Mr. Penrose spends a deal too mich time in
poolin’ up the stumps and makin’ th’ strait gate into a gap as ony
rubbige con go thro’. I could like to yer him preych fro’ the
fifteenth verse o’ th’ last chapter i’ Revelation. I once yerd a
grond sarmon fro’ that text i’ th’ pulpit up aboon here; and when it
were oer, Dickey o’ Sams o’ the Heights went aat o’ th’ chapel, and
tried to draan hissel’ i’ Green Fold Lodge. Naa, that’s what I co
powerful preychin’!’
‘Pardon me, Mr. Bradshaw. We are not here to discuss the merits of
preaching. We are here to consider the request of Amanda Stott —’
‘An' axin’ yor pardon, Mr. Penrose, that’s whod I wur comin’ to. I’m noan a fancy talker like yo’. Aw never larned to be, and I’m noan
paid to be. Whod I wur baan to say, if you’ll nobbud let me, wur
this: As Jesus Christ wur a deal more particular who He leet in than
who He kept aat. That's all.’
‘But who did He keep out?’ asked Dr. Hale.
‘Haa mony, thinksto, did He leet in, doctor? I could welly caant um
o’ on both mi hands.’
‘It seems to me yo’ want to mak’ saints as scarce as white crows,’
said Abraham Lord.
‘Nay, Abram; we want to keep th’ black ’uns aat o’ th’ nests.’
‘Then yo’ mud as weel fell th’ rookery,’ was Abraham’s sharp retort,
which called forth a hearty laugh.
‘If I read th’ Bible reet,’ said Amos Entwistle, returning to the
fray, ‘if I read th’ Bible reet, a felley once coome to Jesus Christ
an’ axed Him if mony or few wur saved; and all he geet for an answer
wur, “Thee mind and geet saved thisel’; it’ll tak’ thee all thy time
wi’out botherin’ abaat others.” An’ I think it’ll tak’ us all aar
time baat botherin’ abaat Amanda Stott. I move as we tak' no more
notice on her axin’ to come back amang us. It’s geddin’ lat, an’ my
porritch is waitin’ for me at wom’.’
This was more than Mr. Penrose could bear, and rising to his feet,
he asked, in suppressed tones, that the matter under discussion
might receive the care and wisdom and mercy that a soul demanded
from those who held in their hands the shaping of its earthly
destiny; and then, in a voice stifled with emotion, he ventured to
draw the contrast between the last speaker, who would fain hurry,
for the sake of an evening meal, decisions that had to deal with the
peace of a repentant girl, and He who, in the moments of bodily
hunger, putting aside the refreshment brought by His disciples,
said, ‘I have meat to eat that ye know not of.’
Nor did Mr. Penrose plead in vain. Those who listened to him were
moved by his words, and Amos Entwistle sat down, to utter no further
word against Amanda.
From this time the tone of the discussion changed. Not that Mr.
Penrose devoutly listened; indeed, he was listless, only recovering
himself, now and again, as some striking sentence, or scrap of rude
philosophy, fell on his indifferent ear. Leaning back in his chair,
his eye rested on the hard features of the men sitting on either
side of the deacons’ table. They were men of grit, men of the hills,
men whose religious ancestry was right royal. Their fathers had
fayed out well the foundations on which the old chapel stood, and
hewn the stones, and reared the walls, and all for love — and after
the close of hard days of toil. They were men who knew nothing of
moral half-lights — there were no gradations in their sense of right
and wrong. Sin was sin, and righteousness was righteousness — the
one night and the other day. They drew a line, narrow and
inflexible, and knew no debatable zone where those who lingered were
neither sinners nor saints. And so with the doctrines they held. Severity characterized them. Justice became cruelty, and faith
superstition. They knew nothing of progressive revelations. The old Sinaitic God still ruled; the mountain was still terrible, and dark
with the clouds of wrath. Fatherhood in the Deity was an unknown
attribute, and tenderness a note never sounded in the creed they
held. They had been bred on meat, and they were strong men. They
knew nothing of the tender tones of Him whose feet became the throne
of the outcast. Their God was a consuming fire.
As Mr. Penrose looked into their faces, many bitter thoughts
poisoned the waters of his soul. He thought of Simon the Pharisee;
he thought, too, of St. Dominic; and of Calvin with the cry for
green wood, so that Servetus might slowly burn. He thought, too, of
the curse of spiritual pride — pride that enthroned men as judges
over the destiny of their fellows, and damned souls as freely and as
coolly as a commander marched his forlorn hope into the yawning
breach. And then, realizing that among such his lot was thrown —
realizing also the dead hand that rested on his teaching and
preaching-his heart went down into a sea of hopelessness, and he
felt the chill of despair.
The gong of the chapel clock announced the hour of nine, in thin,
metallic beats, and looking up, he noted the swealing tapers in the
candelabra over his head. In his over-wrought, nervous condition, he
imagined he saw in one of the flickering, far-spent lights the
waning life of Amanda Stott, and the horrible thought of eternal
extinction at death laid its cold hand on the larger hope which he
was struggling to keep aflame in his darkening soul. Turning his
glances towards the pulpit that rose gaunt and square above the
deacons’ pew, and over which hung the old sounding-board, as though
to mock the voices, now for ever silent, that from time to time had
been wont to reverberate from its panels, he began to wonder whether
the message the Church called revelation was not, after all, as vain
as ‘laughter over wine’; and as he looked on the frowning galleries
and the distant corners of the chapel, gloomy and fearsome — the
high-backed pews, peopled with shadows thrown from the waning lights
— he felt the force of the words of one of his masters: ‘What
shadows we are, and what shadows we pursue.’
Suddenly he was recalled to his position as the pastor of the church
by the voice of old Enoch, mellow as the tones of the flute on which
he so often tuned his soul in moods of sorrow and sin. How long
Enoch had been talking Mr. Penrose knew not; but what he heard in
the rude yet kindly vernacular of the moors was:
‘Let’s show mercy, lads! Noan o’ us con howd up aar yeds baat it. Him as has put us here expects us to show yon lass o’ Stott’s same
as He’s shown to us Hissel’. There’s one bit o’ readin’ i’ th’ New
Testament as noan o’ yo’ has had owt to say abaat — I mean where th’
Lord tells o’ th’ two debtors. Th’ fust geet let off; but when he
wouldn’t let his mate off; it were a sore job for him. Durnd yo’
think as th’ Almeety cares as mich abaat us as we care for aar
childer? I somehaa thinks He does. Didn’t him as played on th’ harp
say, “Like as a faither pitieth his childer, so th’ Lord pitieth
them that fear Him”? An’ him as said that had a bad lad an’ o’ — an’
didn’t he say he’d raither ha’ deed than th’ lad? Aw welly think as
th’ Almeety con find room for Amanda, and if He con, I think we mud
be like to thrutch (push) her into Rehoboth. Let’s mak’ room for
her, hoo’l happen not want it so long; and when hoo’s gone we’s noan
be sorry we took her in; who knows but what we shall be takin’ in
the Lord Hissel? I’m no scholard, but I’ve read abaat ’em takin’ in
angels unawares; and th’ Lord said if we took onybody in ut wur aat
i’ th’ cowd, we wur takin’ Him in. If we shut Amanda out we’s mebbe
shut Him aat, and if He’s aatside, them as is inside will be on th’
wrang side. Coome, lads, let’s show mercy.’
There were other voices, however, besides Enoch’s, and speakers as
apt at quotation from the Scriptures as he. Indeed, the Bible was
torn into shreds of texts, and the letter so re-patched as to
destroy the pattern wrought by its great principles of mercy and
love. The grand words — righteousness, grace, law, were clashed, and
wildly rung, like sweet bells jangled out of tune, and the court of
souls resembled the vindictiveness of Miltonic demons rather than
the seat of those who claimed to represent Him who said: ‘I will
have mercy and not sacrifice.’ When the vote was taken the door was
shut against Amanda.
Passing out of the dimly-lighted chapel into the blackness of the
night, Dr. Hale took the arm of the young minister, saying:
‘Let me guide you, Mr. Penrose. I know these roads by instinct.’
‘Yes, doctor, I not only need your guidance, but that of someone
else. Black as the night is, it isn’t so black as the souls of those
benighted inquisitors we’ve left behind us. There are stars behind
those clouds; but there are none hidden behind the murky creed of
the deacons of Rehoboth. Do they expect me, doctor, to carry their
decision to Mrs. Stott and her daughter?’
‘I believe they do. Hard messages, you know, must be delivered both
by ministers and doctors. It is my lot sometimes to tell people that
their days are numbered, when I would almost as soon face death
myself.’
‘Well, I have made up my mind, doctor, to face the resignation of
Rehoboth rather than carry their heartless decision to Amanda.’
‘Wait until morning, and then come on to my house and consult with
old Mr. Morell; he is staying with me for a day or two. You never
met with him. Perhaps he can guide, or at any rate help you. Wisdom
lies with the ancients, you know.’
‘But are not the men who have refused admission to Amanda the
spiritual children of Mr. Morell? If his preaching has brought about
what we have seen and heard to-night, what guidance or help can I
get from him?’
‘Just so,’ said the doctor. ‘I was not thinking of that. It’s true
he was pastor here for over forty years, and our deacons are his
spiritual offspring. For all that, the old man’s heart is right if
his head is wrong; and, after all, it’s the heart that rules the
life.’
‘Nay! no heart could thrive on a creed such as Rehoboth’s. Why,
God’s heart would grow lean on it.’
‘But Mr. Morell’s heart is not lean, Mr. Penrose. It is not, I
assure you,’ emphasized the doctor, as his companion uttered a
sceptical grunt. ‘He is tenderness incarnate. You know one
good thing came out of Nazareth, despite the scepticism of the
disciple.’
‘Certainly a good thing did come out of Nazareth; but Nazareth, bad
as it was, was not a Calvinistic creed. I very much question whether
the creed of Rehoboth can preserve a tender heart.’
‘Come and see,’ laconically replied Dr. Hale.
‘Very well, then, I’ll treat my scepticism honestly. I will come and
see. To-night the hour is too late. I will look in to-morrow
morning.’
Mr. Penrose continued his homeward walk, conscious of the first
symptoms of the reaction which follows hours of tension such as
those through which he had just passed. He was limp. Morally as well
as physically his nerve was gone. He thought of the Apostle who
fought with beasts at Ephesus, and envied him his combatants. His
fretful impatience with those who differed from him theologically
rose to a tide of insane hatred, and he lost himself in a passion
against his deacons as bitter as that
which they had shown towards Amanda Stott and himself.
Entering his lodgings, and lighting his lamp, he threw himself on
the couch, resenting in bitterness of spirit the limitations of
creeds, and the exactions imposed on men who, like himself; were
called to minister to brawling sects. Thrice he sat down at his
desk; thrice he wrote out his resignation, and thrice he committed
it to the flames. Then, recalling the words of an old college
professor who often used to tell his students that the second
Epistle of the Corinthians was the ministerial panacea in the hour
of depression, he took up his Testament and read:
‘Ministers of God, in much patience, in afflictions, in
necessities, in distress . . . by pureness, by knowledge, by
long-suffering, by kindness, by love unfeigned, by the Holy Ghost,
by the word of truth, by the power of God.’
And there came on the young pastor a spirit of power, and of love,
and of a new mind, and he slept.
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IV.
THE OLD PASTOR
ON the following
morning Mr. Penrose set out to call on the old pastor at the house
of Dr. Hale, conjuring up as he went pictures of the man whom he
knew only by report, and, as he deemed, exaggerated report too. To
Rehoboth people Mr. Morell was a prodigy — a veritable prophet of
the Most High; and his successor’s sojourn was not a little
embittered by the disparaging contrasts so frequently drawn between
the old order and the new. To be for ever told the texts from which
Mr. Morell used to preach, to hear in almost every house some pet
saying or scrap of philosophy wont to fall from his lips, to be
asked, if not bidden, by the deacons to tread in the footprints of
one who was believed to wear the seven-league boots, became
intolerable; and had not discretion guarded the speech of Mr.
Penrose, many a time his language of retort would have been strange
to covenanted lips. Often, too, he asked himself what manner of man
he must be who nursed and reared this narrow sect of the hills — a
sect setting judgment before mercy, and law before love — a sect
narrowing salvation to units, and drawing the limit line of grace
around a fragment of mankind.
On his arrival at Dr. Hale’s, however, a surprise greeted
him, and as he responded to the old pastor’s outstretched hand, he
knew he met with one in whom firm gentleness and affable dignity
were the chief charm of character. There was not, as he
anticipated, coarse, crass assertiveness — a semi-cultured man whose
narrow creed joined hands with barren intelligence. Far
otherwise; he stood before one whose presence commanded reverence,
one at whose feet he felt he must bow.
Mr. Morell was tall and erect, with a fine Greek head whose
crown of snowy hair lent dignity to a face sunny with the light of
kindness, while every line of expression, those soul-inscriptions
written by the years on the plastic flesh, told of thought and
culture. The accent, too, was finished, and every gesture
betrayed refinement and ease.
At first the conversation was restrained, for both men
instinctively felt that between them lay a gulf which it would be
difficult to bridge; but, as Dr. Hale played well the part of
middleman, the ministers were drawn out towards each other, and in a
little while struck mutual chords in one another’s hearts.
During the morning the two men talked of art, of philosophy,
and of history, the discussion of these calling out a light of
intelligence and rapture on the old man’s face. When, however,
the graver questions of theology were broached, his voice became
hard and inflexible, a shadow fell, and the radiancy of the man and
scholar became lost in the gloom of the divine.
Whenever Mr. Penrose ventured to hint on some phase of the
broader theology, the old man was provoked to impatience; and when
he went so far as to quote Browning, and declare that —
‘The loving worm within its clod
Were diviner than a loveless god
Amid his worlds,’ |
a gleam of fire shot from the mild eye of Mr. Morell, significant as
a storm-signal across a sea of glass.
The younger man was often taken at disadvantage, for, while
he was in touch with modern thought, he did not possess the old
dialectician's skill. Once, as Mr. Penrose remarked that
science was modifying theology, Mr. Morell, detecting the flaw in
his armour, thrust in his lance to the hilt by replying that science
and Calvinism were logically the same, with the exception that, for
heredity and environment, the Calvinist introduced grace.
Whereupon Mr. Penrose cried with some vehemence:
‘No, no, Mr. Morell! that will not do. I cannot accept
your statement at all.’
‘Can’t you?’ said the old man, rising from his chair, the war
spirit hardening his voice and flaming in his eye. ‘Can’t you?
What says science of the first hundred men which will pass you, if
you take your stand in the main thoroughfare of the great city over
the hills yonder? Watch them; one is drunk, another is linked
arm in arm with his paramour, a third is handcuffed, and you can see
by the conduct of him who follows that he is as reckless of life as
though the years were for ever. Why these? Ask science,
and it answers election — the election of birth and
circumstance. Ask Calvinism, and it, too, answers election —
the election of decrees.’
‘But science does not do away with will, Mr. Morell.’
‘Well, then, it teaches its impotence, and that is the same
thing. It bases will on organization, and traces conduct to
material sources. Huxley tells us the salvation of a child is
to be born with a sound digestion, and Calvinism says the salvation
of a child is to be born under the election of grace.
Logically, the basis of both systems is the same; the sources of
life differ, that is all. One traces from matter, the other
from mind — from the mind and will of the Eternal.’
‘But science fixes it for earth only — you fix it for
eternity,’ suggestively hinted the younger man.
‘Yes, you are right, Mr. Penrose; we do.’
‘Then a man is lost because he cannot be saved, and punished
for things over which he had no control?’
‘Ask science,’ was the curt reply.
‘Well, Mr. Morell, I will ask science, and science will yield
hope. Science says, take a hundred men and a hundred women,
and let them live on a fruitful island and multiply, and in four
generations you will have an improved stock — a stock freer from
atavism, hysteria, anomalies, and insanities. Science holds
out hope; you don’t. You say God’s will and decrees are
eternal, and what they were a thousand ages since they will be a
thousand ages to come. Science does eventually point to a new
heaven and new earth, but Calvinism throws no light across the
gloom.’
The old man quietly shifted his ground by asking his opponent
if he ever asked himself why he did, and why he did not, do certain
things.
‘I suppose the reason is because of my choice, is it not?’
‘And what governs choice — or, if you like, will?’
‘I do, myself.’
‘Who are you, and what part of you governs it? Will
cannot govern Will, can it? And can you divorce will from
personality?’
‘Tennyson answers your question, Mr. Morell.’
‘“Our wills are ours, we know not how,”
that is the mystery of existence.
‘“Our wills are ours, to make them Thine,”
that is the mystery of salvation.’
‘Then, Mr. Penrose, I ask you — why don’t we make our wills
God’s?’
Mr. Penrose was silent, and then he made a slip, and played
into his opponent’s hands by saying:
‘My faith in a final restitution meets that difficulty.
We shall all be God’s some time; His love is bound to conquer.’
‘Suppose what you call Will defies God’s love, what then?’
‘It cannot.’
‘Then it is no longer will.’
‘Cannot you conceive of Will winning Will?’
‘I can conceive of Will, as you define it, defying Will, and
that for ever. But we escape your contradictions; we accept
the fact that some men are under a Divine control they cannot resist
—
‘Then you both agree as to the principle,’ broke in Dr. Hale;
‘you are both Calvinists, with this difference: you, Mr. Morell, say
only the few will be called; Mr. Penrose, here, says all will be
called. Let us go in for the larger hope.’
‘You are right, doctor. I am a Calvinistic
Universalist’ cried Mr. Penrose in triumph. And Mr. Morell was
bound to admit the doctor had scored.
It was not long, however, before Mr. Penrose found a spring
of tenderness hidden beneath the crust of Calvinism that lay around
the old man’s soul, and on which were written in fiery characters
the terrors of a merciless law. And the rod that smote this
rock and tapped the spring was none other than the story of Amanda’s
return and repentance, told in part by Dr. Hale and in part by the
young pastor himself.
As the story was unfolded, the old man evinced much feeling,
often raising his hand to shade fast-filling eyes, or to brush away
the tears that fell down his furrowed face. They told him of
Amanda’s silence as to the past, and he commended her for it,
remarking to Mr. Penrose that the true penitent seldom talked of the
yesterdays of sin; they told him how she counted herself unworthy of
home and of love, seeking blame and not welcome from the mother to
whom she had returned, and he declared it to be a token of her call;
they told him of the great light and peace that fell on her as she
rested on the goodness of God, and they heard from him the echo of
his Master’s words over Mary — ‘She hath loved much, for she hath
had much forgiven’; and then they told him of her desire for the
restoration of her name on the Rehoboth register, and he was silent
— and for some minutes no sound disturbed his reverie.
That silence was God’s speaking hour. Within the old
pastor’s soul a voice was whispering before which the thunderings of
the creed of a sect were hushed. He, poor man, knew full well
that it was a voice which had long striven to make itself heard — a
still, small voice that would neither strive nor cry — a haunting
voice, a voice constant in its companionship during his later years.
How often he would fain have listened to it! But he dared not,
for was it not a contradictory voice? Did it not traverse the
letter which he had sworn to uphold and declare? What if the
voice were the voice of God? No! it could not be. God
spoke in His Book. It was plain. Wayfaring men might
read, and fools had no need to err. But was God’s voice for
ever hushed? Had He had no message since the seal was fixed to
the Canon of Scripture? What if that which he heard was one of
those messages concerning which Christ said, ‘I have many things to
say unto you, but ye cannot bear them now.’ Had the now
in his life passed? Had the then come when a fuller
revelation was about to be vouch-safed? Nay! even the Apostle
— the man inspired — only knew in part. Why should he, then,
try to pry into the clouds and darkness that were round about the
awful throne? And yet in Him who sat on that throne was no
darkness at all. Supposing the feelings struggling in his
heart now were rays of light from Him — rays seeking to pierce the
clouds, and bring more truth — truth which, in his highest moments,
he had dreamed of, but never dared to follow. Was not Dr. Hale
right after all? Was it not better to trust what we knew to be
best in us, and follow the larger rather than the lesser hope?
And so, in the silence, the two voices reasoned in the soul
of Mr. Morell.
In a little while Mr. Morell, roused from his reverie, turned
to the young pastor, and said:
‘Your poet is right, Mr. Penrose. The loving worm
within its clod is diviner than a loveless god amid his worlds.
Let us go as far as the chapel.’
As they walked along the narrow, winding roadways, broken by
projecting gables, and fenced by irregular rows of palisades, the
old pastor began to re-live the long-departed days. Objects,
once familiar, on which his eye again rested, restored faded and
forgotten colours, and opened page after page in the books of the
past. Many cottages mutely welcomed him, their time-stained
walls memorials of generations with whom he held sacred
associations. There was the Old Fold Farm, with its famous
fruit trees, on which, in spring evenings, he used to watch the
blanching blossoms blush beneath the glowing caress of the setting
sun; and Alice o’ th’ Nook’s garden, with its beds of camomile, the
scent of which brought back, as perfumes are wont to, forms and
faces long since summoned by the ‘mystic vanishers.’ There,
too, stood the old manse — now tenantless — so long the temple of
his studies and domesticities, the shrine of joys and sorrows known
to none save himself How the history of a life lay hidden there,
each wall scored with fateful characters, decipherable only to the
eye of him who for so many years sought the shelter which they gave.
On the summit of the hill in front of him was the chapel, its
sagging roof silhouetted against the blue of the morning sky, the
tomb-stones, irregular and rude, rising from the billowy sea of
grave-mounds that lay around their base. Beyond him, in
grandly distant sweeps, rose the moors. How well he knew all
their contours, their histories, their names! How familiar he
used to be with all their moods — moods sombre and gladsome — as now
they were capped with mist, now radiant in sunlight, their sweeps
dappled with cloud shadows, moving or motionless, or white in the
broad eye of day. Thus it was, within the distance of a
half-mile walk, his past life, like an open scroll, lay before him;
and he remarked to Mr. Penrose that he had that morning found the
book of memory to be a book of life and a book of judgment also.
As the three men passed through the chapel-gates they were
met by old Joseph, who was hearty in his welcome of Mr. Morell.
‘Eh! Mr. Morell,’ he said, grasping his hand in a hard and
earthy palm, ‘aw’m some fain to see yo’. We’ve hed no gradely
preachin’ sin yo’ left Rehoboth. This lad here,’ pointing to
Mr. Penrose, ‘giz us a twothree crumbs betimes; but some on us, I
con tell yo’, are fair clamming for th’ bread o' life. None o’
yo’r hawve-kneyded duf (dough), nor your hawve-baked cakes, wi' a
pinch o' currants to fotch th’ fancy tooth o’ th’ young uns.
Nowe, but gradely bread, yo’ know.’
Mr. Morell tried to check the brutal volubility and plain-spokenness
of Joseph, but in vain. He continued the more vehemently.
‘It’s all luv naa, and no law. What mak’ o’ a gospel dun yo'
co it when there’s no law, no thunerins (thunderings), Mr. Morell,
no leetnins? What’s th’ use o’ a gospel wi’out law? No
more use nor a chip i’ porritch. Dun yo’ remember that sarmon
yo’ once preached fro’ “Jacob have I luved, but Esau have I hated”?
It wur a grand un, and Owd Harry o’ th’ Brig went straight aat o’ th’
chapel to th’ George and Dragon and geet drunk, ’cose, as he said,
he mud as well ged drunk if he wor baan to be damned, as be damned
for naught. Amos Entwistle talks abaat that sarmon naa, and
tells bits on it o’er to th’ childer i’ th’ catechism class, and
then maks ’em ged it of by heart.’
How long old Joseph would have continued in this strain it is
hard to say, had not Mr. Morell, who did not seem to care to hear
more of his pulpit deliverance of other days, silenced him by
demanding the vestry keys.
As the three men entered the vestry a close, damp atmosphere
smote them — an atmosphere pervading all rooms long shut up from
air, and with foundations fed by fattened graves.
Nor was the vestry itself more inviting. Gloomy and
low-ceiled, the plaster of its walls, soddened and discoloured from
the moisture of the moors, lay peeling off in ragged strips, while
its oozing floor of flags seemed to tell of sweating corpses in
their narrow beds beneath.
Through a small window, across which a spider had woven its
web, a shaft of sunlight lay tremulous with the dance of
multitudinous motes; and, falling on the dust-covered table, lighted
up with its halo a corroded pen and stained stone jar, half filled
with congealed ink.
On the right of this window stood a cupboard, with its panels
of dark oak, behind which lay the parchments and papers of the
Rehoboth Church — parchments and papers whose inscriptions were fast
fading, whose textures were fast rotting — companioning in their
decay the decay of the creeds they sought to preserve and proclaim.
It was to this cupboard Mr. Morell turned, taking therefrom
two time-stained, leather-bound volumes — the one a record of the
interments of the past hundred years, the other containing the roll
of Rehoboth communicants since the establishment of the Church.
Laying the former aside, he took up the latter with a tenderness and
devoutness becoming one who was touching the sacred books of some
fetish of the East. It was, indeed, to him a book to be
reverenced; and as he slowly and sadly turned over its time-stained
pages, his eye rested on many names entered in his own small
handwriting — names which carried him back to companionship with
lives for ever past. Some he had known from birth to death,
blessing them in their advent, and committing them at the grave to
Him who is the sure and certain hope. There were those, too,
whom he piloted along the rocky coasts of youth — those with whom he
once wept in their shadowed homes, and from whom he never withheld
his joy in their hour of triumph. As name after name met his
eye, it was as though he travelled the streets of a ruined city — a
city with which in the days of its glory he had been familiar.
Memories — nothing but memories — greeted him. He heard
voices, but they were silent; he saw forms, but they were shadowy.
As he turned over page after page he read as never before the
record of his half-century’s pastorate — his moorland ministry among
an ever-changing people, and there passed before him the pageant of
a life — not loud in blare, nor brilliant in colour — but sombre,
stately, and true.
Continuing to turn over the pages, he came to where a black
line was drawn across the name of Amanda Stott, and where against
the cancelled name a word was written as black as the ink with which
it was inscribed.
Again there came a pause. Long and tearfully the old
pastor looked at that name disfigured, as she, too, who bore it had
been, by the hand of man. Then, taking up the corroded pen and
filling it, he re-wrote the name in the space between the narrow
blue-ruled lines, and, looking up with smiling face, said:
‘Yet there is room.’
And the shaft of sunlight that fell in through the cobwebbed
window of the Rehoboth vestry lay on the newly-inscribed name, as
though heaven sealed with her assent the act of the old man who felt
himself the servant of the One who said, ‘I will in no wise cast
out.’
――――♦――――
SAVED AS BY FIRE.
IT was a narrow,
gloomy yard, paved with rough flags dinted and worn by the wheels of
traffic and the tread of many feet. On one side stood the factory,
cheerless and gray, with its storied heights, and long rows of
windows that on summer evenings flamed with the reflected caresses
of the setting sun, and in the shorter days of winter threw the
light of their illuminated rooms like beacon fires across the miles
of moor. Flanking the factory were sheds and outbuildings and
warehouses, through the open doors of which were seen skips and trollies and warps, and piles of cloth pieces ready for the market
in the great city beyond the hills. Within a stone’s-throw the
sluggish river crept along its blackened bed, no longer a stream
fresh from the hills, but foul with the service of selfish man.
It was breakfast hour, and the monotonous roar of machinery was
hushed, no longer filling the air with the pulsations of mighty
manufacture. The thud of the ponderous engines had ceased; the
deafening rattle of the looms was no more heard; a myriad spooming
spindles were at rest. A dreamy sound of falling waters floated from
the weir, and the song of birds in a clump of stunted trees made
music in the quiet of the morning light — it was Nature’s chance to
teach man in one of the brief pauses of his toil, had he possessed
the ear to hearken or the heart to understand.
Beneath the shelter of a ‘lean-to’ a group of men sat, hurriedly
gulping their morning meal, finding time, all the same, for loud
talk and noisy chaff. They were prosaic, hard-faced men, with lines
drawn deeply beneath their eyes, and complexions sallow, despite the
breezes of the hills among which they were reared. From childhood
they had been the slaves of labour; the bread they ate was earned by
sweat and sorrow, while their spare hours were given to boisterous
mirth — the rebound of exacting toil. Two or three were conning the
betting news in a halfpenny paper of the previous evening, and
talking familiarly of the chances of the favourites, while others
disputed as to sentiments delivered in the last great political
speech.
In one corner sat Amos Entwistle, the butt of not a little mirth
from a half-dozen sceptics who had gathered round him. They
addressed him as ‘Owd Brimstone,’ and made a burlesque of his
Calvinistic faith, one going so far as to call him ‘a glory bird,’
while another declared he was ‘booked for heaven fust-class baat
payin’ for his ticket.’
‘Why should he pay for his ticket,’ asked an impudent-looking youth,
‘when th’ Almeety’s gan it him? Th’ elect awlus travels for naught,
durnd they, Amos?’
‘Thaa’s more Scripture larning abaat thee nor I thought thaa had,’
said Amos, withdrawing his wrinkled face from the depths of a can
out of which he was drinking tea, ‘But it’s noan knowledge ’at
saves, Dan; th’ devils believe and tremble.’
‘But I noan tremble, Amos; I geet too mich brimstone i’ yon fire
hoile to be flayed at what yo' say is “resarved” for them as isn’t
called.’
(Dan’s occupation was to feed the boiler fires.)
‘If thaa’rt noan flayed, that doesn’t say thaa hasn’t a devil,’
replied Amos, again raising the can to his lips.
‘Well, I’m noan to blame if a' cornd help miself, am I?’
But Amos remained silent.
‘Aw say, Amos,’ said a thoughtful-looking man, ‘aw often wonder if
thaa’ll be content when thaa geets up aboon to see us lot in t’other
shop.’
‘Yi! and when we ax him, as th' rich mon axed Lazarus, for a sooap
(drink) of summat cool, it ’ll be hard lines, wirnd (will not) it,
owd lad, when thaa cornd help us?’ asked the man who sat against
him.
‘Happen it will,’ replied Amos. ‘But thaa knows there’ll be no
sharin’ baggin (tea or refreshment) there. Them as hed oil couldn’t
gi’ it to them as hed noan.’
‘Then thaa’ll not come across the gulf and help us, Amos?’
‘Nowe I’ cried Dan. ‘He’d brun (burn) his wings if he did.’
And at this all laughed, save the thoughtful man who put the first
question to the old Calvinist.
‘Thaa knows, Amos,’ said he, ‘I look at it i’ this way. Supposin’ th’
factory geet o’ fire this mornin’, an’ yo’ hed th’ chance o’ savin’
that lass o' mine that back-tents for yo’, yo’d save her, wouldn’t
yo’?’
‘Yi, lad, if I’d th’ chance,’ replied Amos.
‘Then haa is it yo’re so mich better nor Him, as yo’ co th’ Almeety,
for yo’ reckon He’ll noan save some o’ us?’
‘I tell thee I’d save th’ lass if I hed th’ chance. We con nobbud do
what we’re permitted to do. We’re only instruments in th’ Almeety’s
honds.’
‘But isn’t th’ Almeety His own Measter?’
‘So He is, but His ways are past findin’ out.’
‘An’ thaa means to say thaa’d save my lass, and th’ Almeety wouldn’t
save me?’
‘It’s decrees, thaa knows, lad, it’s decrees,’ said Amos, unshaken
by the argument of his friend.
‘Then there’s summat wrang with th’ decrees, that’s all, Amos. There’s been a mistak’ somewhere.’
‘Hooist, lad! hooist! durnd talk like that. Woe to th’ mon that
strives wi’ his Maker.’
‘If thi Maker’s th’ mon thaa maks Him aat to be, I’m noan partic’lar
abaat oather. His woes or His blessin’s.’
‘No more am I,’ cried Dan, as he stood up and stretched himself with
a yawn. ‘We mud as well mak’ most o’ life if we’re booked for
t’other shop, though mine’s a warm un i’ this world, as yo’ all
know.’
‘It is not of him that willeth nor of him that runneth, but of God
that showeth mercy,’ said Amos, in solemn tones.
And the whistle sounded for the renewal of work, and the men
dispersed.
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The clock in the factory yard pointed to the hour of ten, and four
hundred toilers were sweating out their lives in one of
Manufacture’s minting-shops of wealth. Overhead the shafting ran in
rapid revolutions, communicating its power and speed by lengths of
swaying, sagging belts to the machinery that stood so closely packed
on the vibrating floors, and between which passed, and behind which
stood, the operatives, unconscious of danger, and with scarce a care
than how to keep pace with the speed of steam and the flying hours. Every eye was strained, and every nerve as highly strung as the
gearing of the revolving wheels, the keen glances of the overlookers
seeing to it that none paused until the hour of release.
The atmosphere was heavy, the temperature high, and flecks of ‘fly’
floated on the stifling air, wafted by the breath born of whirring
wheels, and finding rest on the hair of women and the beards of men
until the workers looked as though they were whitened by the snows
of a premature decay.
Women and girls sang snatches of songs, and bits of old familiar
airs, with no accompaniment but the roar and rattle around, their
voices unheard save when some high-pitched note was struck; and
others found odd moments when by lip-signs and dumb show they
communicated with their fellow-workers.
Men and women, boys and girls, passed and repassed one another in
narrow alleys and between revolving machinery, crushing together
without sense of decency, and whispering hastily in one another’s
ear some lewd joke or impure word, the moisture from their warm
flesh mingling with the smell of oil and cotton, and their semi-nude
forms offering pictures for the realistic pen of a Zola or a Moore.
It was but one of the laps in the great race of competition where
steam contends with human breath, and iron is pitted against flesh
and blood. Over the hills were other factories where the same race
was going on, where other masters were competing, and other hands
were laying down life that they themselves and their little ones
might live — examples of the strange paradox that only those can
save their lives who lose them. Outside was pasturage and moorlands,
and the dear, sweet breath of heaven, the flowers of the field, the
song of birds, the yearning bosom of Nature warm with love towards
her children. Yet here, within, was a reeking house of flesh — not
the lazar ward of the city slum, but the sweating den of a
competitive age.
In the top story of the factory Amos was walking to and fro among
his roving frames, and dividing his time between hurried glances at
his workers and a small greasy tract he held in his hand, entitled
‘An Everlasting Task for Arminians.’ Turning aside for a moment to
drive some weary operative with a word as rough as a driver uses to
his over-driven horse, he would return to the ‘Everlasting Task,’
and cull some choice sentence or read some twisted text used to
buttress up the Calvinistic creed. Reading aloud to himself the
words — ‘Real Christian charity is swallowed up in the will of God,
nor is it in its nature to extend itself one step beyond, nor desire
one thing contrary to, the glory of Jehovah. All the charity we
possess beyond this may be properly called fleshly charity’ — he
lifted his eyes to see two of his ‘back-tenters’ playing behind the
frames, and his real Christian charity displayed itself in pulling
their ears until they tingled and bled, and in freely using his feet
in sundry kicks on their shins. And yet, wherein was this man to
blame? Was he not what commerce and Calvinism had made him?
The finger of the clock in the factory yard was creeping towards the
hour of eleven, when a smell, ominous to every old factory hand, was
borne into the nostrils of Amos. In a moment his ‘Everlasting Task’
was thrust into his shirt-breast, and he ran towards the door from
which the stairway of the room descended.
No, he was not mistaken, the smell was the smell of fire, and
scarcely had he gone down a half-dozen steps before he met a man
with blanched face, who barely found breath to say:
‘Th’ scutchin’ room’s ablaze.’
Amos carried a cool head. His religion had done one thing for him:
it had made him a fatalist, and fatalists are self-contained.
In a moment he took in the whole situation.
He knew that the stairways would act as a huge draught, up which the
flames from the room below would bellow and blaze. He knew, too,
that all way of escape being cut off below, screaming women and
girls, maddened with fright, would rush to the topmost room of the
mill, where probably they would become a holocaust to commerce. He
knew, too, that those who sought the windows and let themselves down
by ropes and warps would lose their presence of mind, and probably
fall mangled and broken on the flag floor of the yard, sixty or
seventy feet below. All this passed through his mind ere the old
watch in his fob had marked the lapse of five seconds.
In a moment his resolve was taken. He went back to the roving-room
with steady step, and a face as calm as though he were standing in
the light of a summer sun. By the time he reached the room the
machinery was beginning to slow down, and a mad stampede was being
made by the hands towards the door.
Raising his arm, he cried:
‘Go back, lasses; there’s no gate daan theer. Them of us as ’as to
be brunt will be brunt, and them of us as is to escape will ged off wi’ our lives. Keep cool, lasses; we’ll do our best; and remember
’at th' Almeety rules.’
One thing turned out in the favour of Amos and of his rovers. The
mad rush from below poured into the room under him, and not, as he
expected, into his own, the lower room being one where there was a
better chance of escape. Seeing this, he barred up his own doorway
to prevent the girls and women swarming below, where they would have
made confusion worse confounded. Then he beat out one of the
windows, and proceeded to fix and lower a rope by way of escape.
‘Now then, lasses,’ said he, having rapidly completed his task, ‘th’
little uns fust,’ and in a moment a girl of twelve was swinging
seventy feet in the air, while a crowd of roaring humanity below
held its breath, and gazed with dilating eyes on the child who hung
between life and death. In a minute more the spell of silence broke,
and a roar, louder than before, told that the little one had touched
earth without injury, save hands all raw from friction with the rope
along which she had slidden.
Child after child followed; then the women were taken in their turn,
and lowered safely into the factory yard.
By the time it came to the turn of Amos, the roar of the fire
sounded like the distant beating of many seas along a rock-bound
coast. The hot breath was ascending, and thin tongues of flame began
to shoot through the floor of the room where he stood. The pungent
smell of burnt cotton stung his nostrils and blinded his eyes with
pain, and the atmosphere was fevered to such a degree that with
difficulty he drew his breath.
His turn had come, but was he the last in the room? Something told
him that he was not, that he must look round and satisfy himself,
otherwise his duty was unfulfilled.
The tongues of flame became fiercer; he saw them running along the
joints of the boarding, and feeding on the oil and waste which had
accumulated there for years. He felt his hour was come. But he was
calm. God ruled. No mistake could be made by the Almighty — nor
could any mistake be made by himself, for was he not under Divine
guidance?
Calmly he walked along the length of the room, stepping aside to
escape the flame, and searching behind each roving-frame in his
walk, as though to assure himself that no one remained unsaved.
Coming to the last frame, he saw the fainting form of one of his
back-tenters, the very child whose ears he had so savagely pulled
but an hour before.
There she lay, with her pallid, pinched face across her arm, the
flames creeping towards her as though greedy to feed themselves on
her young life.
In an instant Amos stepped towards the child and raised her in his
arms, intending to return to the window and so seek escape. He was
too late, however; a wall of fire stretched across the room, and he
felt the floor yielding beneath his feet.
He was still calm and self-contained. He thought of Him who was said
to dwell in devouring flames, and was Himself a consuming fire. He
thought of the three Hebrew youths and the sevenfold-heated furnace. He thought of the One who was the wall of fire to His people, and he
was not afraid.
On swept the blaze. In a few moments he knew the roof must follow
the fast-consuming floor. Still he was calm. He stepped on to one of
the stone sills to secure a moment’s respite, and he cried in an
unfaltering voice, ‘The Lord reigneth. Let His will be done.’
Frantic efforts were being made by the crowd below to recall Amos,
who had been seen to disappear from the window into the room. His
name was shouted in wild and entreating cries, and men reared
ladders, only to find them too short, while women threw up their
arms and fell fainting in excitement on the ground.
On swept the flame. Still Amos held his own on the stone ledge. Grand was his demeanour — erect, despite his seventy years, clasping
with a death grip the fainting child. All around him was smoke and
mingling fire; but the Lord reigned-what He willed was right; in Him
was no darkness at all.
Suddenly he lifted his eyes, and saw above him a manhole that led
into the roof. In a moment he sprang along the frames, and passed in
with his burden, and beat his way through the slates which in
another minute were to fall in with the final collapse of the old
factory.
Creeping along the ridge, he made his way towards the great
chimney-shaft that ran up at one end of the building, and bidding
the girl, who by contact with the air was now conscious, cling to
his neck, the old man laid hold of the lightning-rod, and began his
dangerous descent to the ground.
But he knew no fear; there was no tremor in his muscles; steadily
he descended, feeling that God held his hands, and he told his
Rehoboth friends afterwards, when he recounted his escape, that he
felt the angels were descending with him.
When he reached the ground amid wild and passionate cries of joy, he
disengaged the child from his neck, and wiping his face with the
sleeve of his shirt, said:
‘The Lord’s will be done.’
Dr. Hale, who was standing by the side of Mr. Penrose, and who heard
the saying of old Amos, turned and said:
‘Calvinism grows strong men, does it not?’
‘Yi, doctor, yo’re reet,’ exclaimed old Joseph; ‘theer’s no
stonning agen God’s will.’
――――♦――――
WINTER SKETCHES.
I.
THE CANDLE OF THE LORD.
THROUGH the
summer months the old Bridge Factory stood in ruins; the only part
that remained intact being the tall chimney-shaft, down which Amos
Entwistle had brought the fainting child from out the flames. The
days were long and the weather warm, and the inhabitants of Rehoboth
spent the sunny hours in wandering over the moors, never dreaming of
hard times and the closing year. A few of the more frugal and
thrifty families had secured employment in a neighbouring valley,
returning home at the week end. The many, however, awaited the
rebuilding of the mill and the recommencement of work at their old
haunt. But when the autumn set in chill and drear, and the October
rains swept the trees and soaked the grass — when damp airs hung
over the moors morning by morning, and returned to spread their
chill canopy at eventide — faces began to wear an anxious look, and
hearts lost the buoyancy of the idle summer hours.
There is always desolation in the late autumn on the moors. The
great hills lose their bold contours, now dying away in a cold gray
of sky, through which a blurred sun sheds his watery ray; while the
bracken, with its beaten fronds, and the heather with its
disenchanted bloom, change the gorgeous carpet of colour into wastes
and wilds of cheerless expanse. The wind sobs as though conscious of
the coming winter’s stress — sad with its prophecy of want, and
cold, and decay. Little rivulets that ran gleaming like silver
threads — the Pactolian streams of childhood’s home and lover’s
whisperings — now swell and deepen and complain, as though angry
with the burdens of the falling clouds. Bared branches and
low-browed eaves weep with the darkened and lowering sky, and
withered leaves beat piteously at the cottage windows they once
shadowed with their greenery, or lie limp and clayey on the roadside
and the path. Then, in the silent night, there falls the first rime,
and in the morning is seen the hoary covering that tells of the
year’s ageing and declining days. At the corner of the village
street the hoarse cough is heard, and around the hearth the children
gather closely, no longer sporting amid the flowers, or peopling the
cloughs with fairy homes. A dispiriting hand tones down the great
orchestra of Nature, and all her music is set to a minor key, her
‘Jubilate’ becoming a threnody — a great preludious sob.
It was in autumn hours such as these — and only too well known in
Rehoboth — that old Mr. Morell used to discourse on the fading leaf,
and tell of a harvest past and a summer ended, and bid his flock so
number their days that they might apply their hearts unto wisdom. It
was now, too, that the dark procession used to creep more frequently
up the winding path to the Rehoboth graveyard, and the heavy soil
open oftener beneath old Joseph’s spade, and the voice of the
minister in deeper and more measured tones repeat the words, ‘We
brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry
nothing out.’ It was now also that the feeble and the agéd shunned
the darkening shadows of the streets, and crept and cowered over
the kindling hearth in the sheltered home. In Rehoboth October and
November were ever drear; and now that the old Bridge Factory was in
ruins, and work scarce and food scant, the minds of the people were
overcast with what threatened to be the winter of a discontent.
On an afternoon in mid-November, Mr. Penrose forsook his study for
what he hoped might be an exhilarating walk across the gloomy moors. The snow — the first snow — was beginning to descend, gently and
lazily, in pure, feathery flakes, remaining on earth for a moment,
and then merging its crystals into the moisture that lay along the
village street.
Turning a corner, he met Dr. Hale, who, after a hearty greeting,
said:
‘What is this I hear about your resignation, Mr. Penrose?’
‘I don’t know what you’ve heard, doctor, but I am resigning.’
‘Nonsense! Running away from ignorance, eh? What would you say if I
ran away from disease?’
‘Canst thou minister to a mind diseased?’ was Mr. Penrose’s sharp
retort.
‘No,I cannot. But you can, and it’s your duty to do so.’
‘You’re mistaken, doctor. I cannot go to the root of the moral
disease of Rehoboth. If it were drink, or profligacy, or greed, I
might; but self-righteousness beat Jesus, and no wonder it beats
me.’
Taking Mr. Penrose by the arm, Dr. Hale said:
‘You see that falling snow. Why does it disappear as soon as it
touches earth?’
‘Because the earth is higher in temperature than the snow, and
therefore melts it,’ replied the young man, wondering at the sudden
change in the conversation.
‘And if it keeps on falling for another hour, why will it cease to
disappear? Why will it remain?’ continued the doctor.
‘Because its constant falling will so cool the earth that the earth
will no longer melt it,’ said Mr. Penrose, growing impatient with
his examination in the rudiments of science.
‘Well said, my friend. And therein lies a parable. You think your
teaching falls to disappear. No; it falls to prepare. You must
continue to let it fall, and finally it will remain, and lodge
itself in the minds of your people. There, now, I have given you one
of the treasures of the snow. But here’s old Moses. Good-morning,
Mr. Fletcher; busy as usual?’
‘Yi, doctor, aw’m findin’ these clamming fowk a bit o’ brass.’
‘How’s that, Moses?’ asked the minister.
‘Why, yo’ know as weel as aw do, Mr. Penrose. Sin’ I yerd yo’ talk
abaat Him as gies liberally, I thought aw’d do a bit on mi own
accaant.’
‘There, now,’ said Dr. Hale, ‘the snow is beginning to stay, is it
not?’
As the doctor and Moses said ‘Good-day,’ the pastor continued his
walk in a brooding mood, scarce lifting his head from the ground, on
which the flakes were falling more thickly and beginning to remain.
Lost in thought, and continuing his way towards the end of the
village, he was startled by a tapping at the window of Abraham
Lord’s cottage, and, looking up, he saw Milly’s beckoning hand.
Passing up the garden path and entering the kitchen, he bade the
girl a good-afternoon, and asked her if she were waiting for the
‘angel een.’
‘Nay,’ said Milly; ‘I’m baan to be content wi’ th’ daawn (down) off
their wings to-day.’
‘So you call the snow “angels’ down,” do you?’
‘Ey, Mr. Penrose,’ cried her mother. ‘Hoo’s names for everythin’ yo’
can think on. Hoo seed a great sunbeam on a bank of white claads t’
other day, and hoo said hoo thought it were God Hissel’, because th’
owd Book said as He made th' clouds His chariot.’
‘But why do you call the snow “angels’ down,” Milly?’
‘Well, it’s i’ this way, Mr. Penrose,’ replied the girl. ‘I’ve sin th’ birds pool th’ daawn off their breasts to line th’ nest for
their young uns. And why shouldn’t th’ angels do th’ same for us? Mi faither says as haa snow is th’ earth’s lappin’, and keeps all th’
seeds warm, and mak’s th’ land so as it ’ll groo. So I thought
happen it wur th’ way God feathered aar nest for us. Dun yo’ see?
It’s nobbud my fancy.’
‘And a beautiful fancy, too, Milly.’
And all that waning afternoon, as Mr. Penrose climbed the hills amid
the falling flakes, he thought of Milly’s quaint conceit, and
looking round amid the gathering gloom, and seeing the great stretch
of snowy covering that now lay on the undulating sweeps, he asked
himself wherein lay the difference between the vision of John the
Divine when he saw the angels holding the four winds of heaven, and
Milly when she saw the angels giving of their warmth to earth in
falling flakes of snow.
As the darkness deepened, Mr. Penrose — fearless of the storm, and
at home on the wilds — made his way towards a lone farmstead known
as ‘Granny Houses,’ and so-called because of an old woman who lived
there, and who, by keeping a light in her window on dark winter
nights, guided the colliers to a distant pit across the moors. She
was the quaint product of the hills and of Calvinism, but shrewd
withal, and of a kind heart. Indeed, the young minister had taken a
strong liking to her, and frequently called at her far-away home.
‘Ey, Mr. Penrose, whatever’s brought yo’ aat a neet like this?’ she
cried, as the preacher stood white as a ghost in the doorway of the
farmstead. ‘Come in and dry yorsel. Yo’re just i’ time fur baggin
(tea), and there’s noan I’m as fain to see as yo’.’
‘Thank you, Mrs. Halstead; I’m glad to be here. It’s a grand night.’
And looking through the open doorway at the great expanse of`
snow-covered moor, he said, ‘What a beautiful world God’s world is
— is it not?’
‘I know noan so mich abaat its beauty, but I know its a fearful cowd
(cold) world to-neet. Shut that dur afore th' kitchen’s filled wi’
snow. When yo’re as owd as me yo’ll noan be marlockin’ i’ snow at
this time o' neet. What’s life to young uns is death to owd uns, yo’
know. But draw up to th’ fire. That’s reet; naa then, doff that
coite, and hev a soup o’ tay. An’ haa ’n yo’ laft ’em all daan at
Rehoboth? Clammin’, I reckon.’
‘You’re not far from the word, Mrs. Halstead. Many of them don’t
know where to-morrow’s food and to-morrow’s fire is coming from.’
‘Nowe, I dare say. Bud if they’d no more sense nor to spend their
brass in th’ summer, what can they expect? There’s some fo’k think
they can eyt their cake and hev it. But th’ Almeety doesn’t bake
bread o’ that mak’. He helps them as helps theirsels. He gav’
five
to th’ chap as hed five, and him as hed nobbud one, and did naught
wi’ it — why, He tuk it fro’ him, didn’t He? I’ll tell yo’ what it
is, Mr. Penrose, there’s a deal o’ worldly wisdom i’ providence. Naa
come, isn’t there?’
Mr. Penrose laughed.
‘Theer’s that Oliver o’ Deaf Martha's. Naa, I lay aught he’s noan so
mich, wi’ his dog-feightin’ and poachin’. His missis wur up here
t’other day axin’ for some milk for th’ childer. An' hoo said ut
everybody wur ooined (punished for want of food) at their house but
Oliver an, th’ dog. Theer’s awlus enugh for them.’
‘Yes, I believe that is so.'
‘It wur that dog as welly killed Moses Fletcher, wurnd it?’
‘I think it was,’ replied Mr. Penrose.
‘And haa is owd Moses sin yo’ dipped him o’er agen? It ’ll tak’ some
watter and grace to mak’ him ought like, I reckon. But they tell me
he’s takken to gien his brass away. It ’ll noan dry th’ een o’ th’
poor fo’k he’s made weep, tho’ — will it, Mr. Penrose?’
‘Perhaps not, Mrs. Halstead; but Moses is an altered man.’
‘And noan afore it wur time. But what’s that noise in th’ yard? It saands like th’ colliers. What con they be doin’ aat o’ th' pit at
this time? They’re noan off the shift afore ten, and it’s nobbud
hawve-past six.’
In another moment the door of the cottage was thrown open and a
collier entered, white with falling snow, and breathless. When he
had sufficiently recovered, he said:
‘Gronny, little Job Wallwork’s getten crushed in th’ four-foot, and
it’s a’most up wi’ him. They’re bringin’ on him here.’
‘Whatever wilto say next, lad? Poor little felley, where’s he getten
hurt? On his yed?’
‘Nay; he’s crushed in his in'ards, and he hasnd spokken sin’. They’re carryin’ him on owd Malachi’s coite’ (coat).
A sound of shuffling feet was heard in the snow, and four men,
holding the ends of a great-coat, bore the pale-faced, swooning boy
into the glare of Mrs. Halstead’s kitchen. His thin features were
drawn, and a clayey hue overspread his face — a hue which, when she
saw with her practised eye, she knew was the shadow of the
destroyer.
‘Poor little felley!’ she cried; ‘and his mother a widder an’ all.’
And then, bending down over the settle whereon they had placed the
mangled lad, she pressed her lips on the pale brow, clammy with the
ooze of death — lips long since forsaken by the early blush of
beauty, yet still warm with the instinct which in all true women
feeds itself with the wasting years. Tears fell from her eyes —
tears that told of unfathomed deeps of motherhood, despite her
threescore years and ten; while with lean and tremulous hand she
combed back the dank masses of hair that lay in clusters about the
boy’s pallid face. Her reverence and love thus manifested — a
woman’s offering to tortured flesh in the dark chamber of pain — she
unbuckled the leathern strap that clasped the little collier’s
breeches to his waist, and, with a touch gentle enough to carry
healing, bared the body, now discoloured and torn, though still the
veined and plastic marble — the flesh-wall of the human temple, so
fearfully and wonderfully made.
The boy lay immobile. Scarce a pulse responded to the old woman’s
touch as she placed the palm of her hand over the valve of his young
life. Nor did her fomentations rouse him, as feebler grew the
protest of the heart to the separation of the little soul from the
mangled body. At last the watchers thought the wrench was over, and
Death the lord of life.
Then the clayey hue, so long overshadowing the face, faded away in
the warmth of a returning tide of life, as a gray dawn is suffused
by sunrise. The beat became stronger and more frequent, there was a
movement in the passive limbs, and, opening his eyes dreamily, then
wonderingly, and at last consciously, the lad looked into the old
woman’s face and said:
‘Gronny!’
‘Yi! it’s Gronny, lad. And haa doesto feel?’ The boy tried to move,
and uttered a feeble cry of pain.
‘Lie thee still, lad. Doesto think thaa can ston this?’ and the old
woman laid another hot flannel on the boy’s body.
At first he winced, and a look of terrible
torture passed over his face. Then he smiled and said:
‘Yi! Gronny, aw can bide thee to do ought.’
Mr. Penrose, helpless and silent, stood at the foot of the
settle on which lay the dying boy, the colliers seeking the gloomy
corners of the large kitchen, where in shadow they awaited in rude
fear the death of their little companion. The old woman, cool
and self-possessed, plied her task with a tenderness and skill born
of long years of experience, cheering with words of endearment the
last moments of the sufferer.
The boy's rally was brief, for internal hæmorrhage set in,
and swiftly wrought its fatal work, sweeping the vital tide along
channels through which it no longer returned to the fount of life,
and leaving the weary face with a pallor that overmastered the flush
that awhile before brought a momentary hope. His eyes grew
dim, and the light from the lamp seemed to recede, as though it
feared him, and would elude his gaze. The figures in the room
became mixed and commingled, and took shapes which at times he
failed to recognise. Then a sensation of falling seized him,
and he planted his hands on the cushion of the settle, as though he
would stay his descent.
Looking at Mr. Penrose through a ray of consciousness, he
said:
‘Th' cage is goin’ daan fearfo quick. Pray!’ The
old woman caught the word, and, turning to the minister, she said:
‘He wants thee to mak’ a prayer.’
Mr. Penrose drew nearer to the boy, and repeated the grand
death-song of the saints: ‘Yea, though I walk through the valley of
the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for Thou art with me, Thy
rod and Thy staff’ they comfort me.’
The boy shook his head — for him the words had no meaning.
Then, raising himself, he said:
‘Ax God O’meety to leet His candle. I'm baan along th’
seam, an’ it’s fearfo dark!’
To Mr. Penrose the words were strange, and, turning to the
colliers, he asked them what the boy wanted.
Then Malachi o’ the Mount came towards the minister and said:
‘Th’ lad thinks he’s i’ th’ four-foot seam, and
he connot find his road, it’s so dark, and he wants a leet — a
candle, yo’ know, same as we use in th’ pit. He wants the
Almeety to leet him along.’
Still Mr. Penrose was in darkness.
Then the boy turned to old Malachi, and, with a farewell look
of recognition and a last effort of speech, said:
‘Malachi, ax Him as is aboon to leet His great candle, and
show me th’ road along th’ seam. It’s some fearsome and dark.’
And Malachi knelt by the side of the lad, and, in broken
accents and rude vernacular, said:
‘O God O’meety, little Job’s baan along th’ four-foot seam,
an’ he connot see his gate (way). Leet Thy candle, Lord — Thy
great candle — and mak’ it as leet as day for th’ lad. Leet
it, Lord, and dunnot put it aat till he geds through to wheere
they’ve no need o’ candles, becose Thaa gies them th’ leet o’ Thysel.’
The prayer over, every eye was turned to the boy, on whose
face there had broken a great light — a light from above. |